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Mixed Feelings

Author: Nao Solano
last update Last Updated: 2024-11-25 16:59:02

"I need a bathroom," I say, covering my mouth because I feel like I’m about to throw up. Cassie jumps up and leads me to a bathroom. As soon as I walk inside, I get on my knees in front of the toilet and I heave painfully. I know it’s mostly stomach acid because it burns my throat. It hurts.

My sister comes to help with my hair, all I can do is close my eyes and try to fight all those emotions hitting me at once.

The relief, the happiness, the fear of this being just a dream, the love I still feel for Farrow coming back with a force, my wolf's excitement...

"Let it out, Sky," Hope says, still stroking my back, "Let it out."

I don't even know what I'm feeling, but it's not pleasant. Luckily, a few minutes later I'm able to get up and wash my face and mouth. Cassie gives me a bottle of water when we return to the living room.

"I'm so sorry, Skylar," Cassie whispers when she's in front of me again, "I know what they’re doing to him is terrible. I did it once and I won’t do it
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