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My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 A New Player
Ace POVThis fucking goddess was the only thing I would ever live for. She consumed every part of me and I was more than willing to let her. We made it half way down the stairs for breakfast and I pulled her into a kiss. It had been two whole minutes since I felt her lips on mine and that was too long. We somehow kissed down the stairs then twisted and turned, hitting walls and doors refusing to part our bodies or lips, like two fools madly in love slowly making our way to the kitchen but I didn't care one bit. I could never have enough of her."Well, I take it you guys finally made up." Daniel was standing in the kitchen with pancakes and a huge ass smile. I don't know why it made him so happy but it made me smile that he not only approved but was supportive of us. There were two people that seemed ok with us being us and that was fucking asshole and his girl Jess so I'd take just about anyone else."Yup. We are perfect." I said stealing another kiss then she bit her lip and I groane
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Diving Head First
Alley POVI watched my handsome devil leave and I whined. I turned to Ethan and he patted the bed next to him to come get some love. I crawled next to him and cuddled his right side while Jess cuddled his left side. He was such a pimp."We really have to get to school. You ok Alley?" Ethan was looking down at me and I pulled my bottom lip out in a pout. "Oh my god don't do that. Now I know why Ace is so helpless to you."He sat up pulling Jess in his arms then stole a long kiss from her as I grabbed my bag. Another day of hell but in all honesty, school wasn't so bad or at least not like last year or even the beginning of this year.So much had changed in these few months that I didn't even feel like the same person. Tonight, Layla and Ethan were updating me on all things to do with my brother and I prayed he hadn't changed too much from the boy he was last year. Every time my mind wandered to Derek the drug dealer, I felt my heart squeeze painfully. Why would he do this to himself or
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Just Us
Ace POVSeven o'clock and I was racing out the door of my office. I talked to Alley constantly but I needed to see her. I couldn't wait to shed this suit of sin and wrap my body around hers. She told me that she was concerned about her brother and wanted to talk about some stuff and I fucking prayed she wasn't going to ask me to help him. I couldn't handle that shit but I knew she couldn't lose him either. I wanted to murder Derek.Every day that passed I felt like we were all inching closer to the inevitable bomb that was going to explode. I love that I needed her but I wasn't so naive to the fact that I was trying to savor every moment because I knew damn well it could be our last. She also told me about the little fuck triangle Layla was in between Derek and Ethan. I was actually surprised about that. I thought Ethan was really into Jess but I guess not if he is screwing Layla too. Maybe he did fuck all the hot chicks around him. Shit! He better not touch Alley. I knew I couldn't
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Here we go
Alley POVThe next three days of school were torture in every way. Christian and I were perfect but everything else in my life was crumbling.I tried talking to Derek at the Shore Club the other day but he just spewed more lies to me. I didn't want to break his confidence in Ethan so I only told him what Layla had known. Derek swore he was going to run three shipments and then get us a small house in Florida. You know the furthest state on the other side of the country at the very bottom. He didn't even ask me, he just told me what we were doing and for me to stay out of it for now. I asked him about the drugs he supposedly took from Randy but he brushed it off saying it was nothing big and had enough savings to clear his debt.I knew he would never take my money but I didn't think he would lie so easily to me. I guess in his own fucked up way he was trying to protect me. I was so tired of hearing that. Derek and Christian wanted me by their side but in the dark. They were just as b
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 This Friendship is Over
Ace POVI swear I'll kill Ethan if he try's anything with her. He was always such an asshole. So smooth, pretending to be their friend's just so he could weasel his way into their pants. "Christian! Ethan will watch out for her; he won't hurt her." Daniel's voice was soft, but his eyes were unsure if he should be talking to me like this way."I'm not worried about him hurting her." After his car sped out of my driveway, I spun on my heels to get dressed. I was meeting this new player Dante that my father so happened to threaten after he killed his mother. Fuck my life!Arriving at the club I headed straight to the private room that already had Dante and a few of his men partying hard. Everything I knew about him so far showed me he was nothing to worry about and the amount of shit he put in his body I wouldn't be surprised he overdosed. Hmm that might be the perfect way to get rid of him if this negotiation goes south. My demeanor was full asshole by the time I reached the door. I
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 We're Alive
Alley POVThe second my feet hit the sand I was spiraling. I rarely had panic attacks but with all this shit going on I couldn't seem to calm the storm inside my body. Ethan's hand was wrapped tightly in my left hand while my right tapped my thigh. He spun in front of me grabbing my other hand bringing them both to his mouth. I gave him an annoyed look that he was peppering kisses all over my wrist."Come on Alley, I need you to relax. Ace can't be here so you have to decide what it's going to be. We get this done or turn away and let Derek's life fall as it will."My face scrunched at his words. I knew I was losing my shit but I wasn't going to let Derek owe Alvarez this money. I had to do this for him then get him out of town. One step at a time. "There's my favorite girl." He said noticing my attitude change from scared little girl to bitch on a mission. I shot him a smile shaking my head then he gave me a kiss on the cheek.I wiped it off making him laugh. "I'm good. Thank you!"
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 New Ways to Hurt Me
Ace POVHalf way to Alvarez's Daniel finally cracked. We were silent the whole time but I knew he was disappointed with how I treated Derek. He didn't understand what it meant for Alley though. The path Derek was walking would lead to only two possibilities. He would piss my father off and get himself and whole family killed or he would piss me off and I would kill him. Either they were both dying or he was dying. There was a no-win situation in any of this but I was going to make damn sure Alley was untouched."Christian, I know my place but please hear me out. Derek is her brother. She loves him.""I know and even though it doesn't seem this way I'm doing this for her.""How?" His face had so much disgust in it for me I wanted to punch him."I'm allowing him to make his money and leave. He can't stay here Daniel. He'll wind up dead or my father will catch on and go after his whole family. That means Alley. I will sacrifice everything for her and trust me we don't want to go down th
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 He Won't Hurt Me
Alley POV"Fuck he is pissed. Do you think he knows?" I spun to Ethan who was leaning against his car. We barely had a chance to breathe from the fuck show with Alvarez and now Ace wanted round two."I don't know. You don't have to go there, Alley. Stay with me tonight and let him cool off.""No! I just want to get this over with. If he knows then no more secrets and we can move forward, right?""No more secrets from you at least. He has novels that his secrets can fill."I sighed rolling my eyes. Yeah, he was right, I know. Why do I feel so guilty anyway? Well, the two kisses with Ethan was definitely tugging at my soul right now but I couldn't think about that. I would over analyze every moment until I broke.I love Christian. I want Christian. Whatever was going on with Ethan I needed to stop. I was being unfair to both them and myself. "Ethan, I don't expect you to understand and I'm not mad that you don't. All I'm asking is that you trust me. He is pissed but he would never hurt
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My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Epilogue 3 - End of Our Journey
Ace POV Seventy two. That's how many years I lived this life so far. At eighteen I thought I would be lucky to see thirty and now I've seen so much more. I wish I could say it was all good. That after Alley and I found each other again that everything was just happiness and perfection, but that wasn't life.Our first heartache was losing our daughter when she was seventeen in a car accident. Alley could barely breath for what seemed like years after we buried our child. I would relive all the horrors my father handed me over and over to never have to experience that pain. Our seven other children keep us going though. We had other's depending on us and we had to push through the heartache for them. Show them life was still worth living, despite the hole we all shared.My Nanny passed shortly after our daughter. She battled her lung disease for years and I knew she was in immense pain but she held on. Losing one of her great grandchildren I think pushed her to the end though. She told
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Epilogue 2 - Life Was Never Kind Until It Was
Nanny Fuck Face POVI looked down from my balcony from my bedroom window leaning on my cane as all my great grandchildren played in the pool outside. Today was the twin's sixteen birthday and the house was full of friends and family. For six months I stayed with Ace in hiding, waiting patiently to be able to live this life I desired for so long. After my daughter died I gave up thinking life would ever be kind to me. I felt hopeless and weak until that day I stood at Ace's graduation party and saw his undying love for Alley. They were saying goodbye but I knew she was his salvation. The light he needed to keep his soul alive and good. Then I saw my other grandson, a boy I thought that was lost to this family and was thankful for it. The Blackwoods were so deeply rooted in sin I prayed everyday my grandchildren would find a better life than my daughter or I did.I never thought it would turn out like this. I wish I could change my past but I also didn't want to change a single moment
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Epilogue 1 - Simple Life
Alley POV"Are you saying my son is a problem. I can assure you he is the least of your worries." Christian's tall muscular frame was backing up a perky little woman against a wall. I rolled my eyes with a sigh. Such a brute, especially when it came to his kids."Calm down there, Varsity dip shit." I pulled his shoulder away from the scared woman. Christian's eyes turned dark on me and I just raised my eyebrows at him. My fingers touched my necklace, one he had made for me on my sixteenth birthday but gave to me years later. He was my forever, our love and bond infinite, and he will be a good boy that listened."This woman said Darien seems distracted. She thinks he's been the one pranking the principal. I want to speak to this so called principal!" His voice softened as he spoke to me, but it still held a demand in his tone. "This woman is his teacher and is harmless. We know our son and I'm sure he has been causing some havoc. Sit and calm yourself." I pushed him down in a small cl
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Where To Go From Here
Alley POVMaybe it was the pregnancy hormones or maybe I was really hating Ace right now. So much rage was coursing through my body and I was doing everything in my power not to grab the cake next to me and smash it in that motherfucker's face."What just happened?" Greg asked. He was still playing catch up."Ace faked his death. I'm going to kill him." All the pain I felt the last six months and he was alive? He was just hiding out, lying to all of us to keep us safe. That was bullshit, he was a motherfucker."Whoa! Alley's about to go lethal." Ethan and Daniel were next to me now as I watched Ace kneeling down speaking to Darien and Derek. He did look really hot and how he played with the boys was making my body call to him. No! He pays first."He lied to us." My head shot to Daniel. He knew too."Calm down. Remember you are with child Alley." Daniel had his hands up in the air in surrender."What's happening? I love when Alley goes psycho!" Elise said way too happy at my anger. Lyd
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Finding Happiness
Alley POVSix months later:It has been a hard few months, but Greg was right, I did find happiness again. Losing Ace was just as hard, if not harder, than losing my brother and I would never get over losing either one of them.Daniel and his partner Rowan survived the explosion, but had some scars on their face and arms. I was beyond thankful they made it out alive and thought they just looked more bad ass now. Today Greg, Lydia, Darien, Derek, and myself were driving up to Daniel's summer home in Rhode Island to celebrate his engagement to Elise and his official promotion. Ethan and Layla had the baby girls in tow behind us and I looked back to them in my rear view mirror with a smile. For some reason, I was really, really excited about this weekend trip. We hadn't all spent time together in months and I wanted to be surround by my family for the whole weekend. Daniel already promised a big fire pit out back just for me, it was of course for everyone, but he knew how much I like s
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Waiting
Alley POVIt took Ethan a long time to calm me down and get me on a plane back home. I didn't want to leave without Christian, but Darien was waiting for me at home. I wish I could say it was easier to walk away for my son. I would always choose Darien above Christian, but it didn't mean it made my decision to leave any less harder.I cried in Ethan's chest the whole plane ride home, swearing I would never step foot on one of these again. The second I did get home Darien and Derek were there welcoming me with tears. That did make my sadness a little more bearable. I loved this family so much and I just didn't understand why I couldn't have Christian too. That night Greg stayed with me and we watched movies well past the moon rising. He knew I wasn't sleeping anytime soon and Ethan needed to be with his wife. Layla was doing much better, but she still had her own stuff going on.We didn't speak much and I appreciated how Greg was relentless with the way he cared for me. It reminded m
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Then It All Went Wrong
Daniel POVI paced the hallway outside Ace's hospital bed losing my mind. The switch was supposed to take place already and now I was losing my window. On top of that, once they arrested my boss IA moved in our department. Within a few hours I was assigned as the temporary head of the criminal organization task force and had one sorry ass fucker with a stick up his ass questioning my every move."So, you've worked undercover for seven years with this," a studious prick with four inch thick glasses looked over his paperwork, "ah, Christian Ace Blackwood?""Yes! We discussed this two hours ago. It's not that hard of name to remember either.""I see, yes. I'm just curious if maybe you've been too deep undercover. Seven years is a long time and you seem to have an unhealthy relationship with this murder." The IA agent looked in Ace's room with disgust. He was a murder, but they didn't know his story. He didn't kill randomly and never hurt someone innocent. I can't explain that in any ra
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Last Chance for Redemption
Daniel POV"It's time." I called into Rowan to move in on the people at Déjà vu. "You got everything on our boss we needed." I could hear his amusement over the call. We've been working to take our boss down for over seven years and this was our moment."Every last fucking word." I smiled and hung up.Once I heard about Angelo taking Alley, again, and how Ace was calling a meeting, which included Dmitri I knew how to get my boss. His filth went as deep as you would line his pockets. I feed him the bait that Angelo was desperate and he contacted him to make a deal.Before Ace's little meeting my boss meet Angelo to workout a plan to remove Ace permanently, for a hefty payment of course. Angelo paid him more money then he owned and I got it all on video including the wire transfer.My men moved in already knowing I was running this operation. I saw my boss standing behind Ace with his gun to his head and I knew I had to remove him quickly. He would kill Ace just for the high of taking
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 What Matters
Ace POVI stood in front of my wall length mirror adjusting my tie. I haven't looked myself in the eye in a week and I wasn't sure if I liked the man staring back at me. I had my black suit on, black tie, and white shirt. Tonight was about ending as much of the bullshit as possible so I kept it simple. My jet black hair was still a little wet and slicked off to the side. The best feature of my whole body were these eyes and that was because they didn't belong to him. Well one other part of my body but he wasn't getting any attention tonight. I used to see my father in the mirror and fucking hated it more than anything. Despite knowing I was a good looking man I would give anything to change my appearance. To look less like that monster that raised me. Now I say that little boy. A smile tugged at my lips seeing his little face with so much power in it. He was a confident little shit and would grow up to be a man that did what he wanted. No one would keep him back, build him up just
