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My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Who Are You
Alley POVI kept my eyes shut until I heard the door creak open for the tenth time. Ace was here! I don't know how I knew but I did. He walked in like a God not in the mood to be bothered by these humans. His gaze went to his father before he met mine. I saw the flicker of acknowledgment of who I was in his eyes. Then he looks away. What the fuck? No screaming, no killing. He just ignores me and sits down. Great plan Elise!I prayed he was just stalling while he figured out how to save us. As the clock ticked by he never once looked my way. Neither did Daniel. To make it worse I had a front row seat while his fiancée groped him all night. The head man Fernando raised his glass toasting his cousin and Ace's union tomorrow and I wanted to throw up. Why was my life such crap? Ace did lie to me and Derek was right. Ace was a monster deeply rooted in all that was evil. He was even marrying the cousin of a drug lord who took his step mother as a wife after killing his father. This was so
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Relax
Elise POVThe way Ace was with Alley had me swooning. I never seen him so gentle with anyone in my life. He looked at her like a precious gem and god I wanted that."Our little boy is growing up." I whispered to Daniel leaning into his shoulder."He always had a soft spot for her. We all do." Daniel looked delicately at Alley as Ace sat her on the couch. I smiled a little looking up to him. He did really care for that girl. Alley was his redemption for not saving his own daughter. We had to make sure she made it home. For both the men in my life Alley needed to survive. "What?" He looked at me staring at him."Nothing. You just look sexy with those fatherly eyes." I teased him then took a seat on the couch adjacent from Ace and Alley.Then I heard Ace joke with Alley... and smile. I seriously felt like my heart would burst. There was an actual human instead that Devil. Who knew?"Daniel get the two Russian idiots. We need to renegotiate my terms with Dmitri." Ace had already hardene
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Woman I Love
Ace POVI laid my perfect girl to my bed. "I'm just going to change then I won't leave your side." I kissed her cheek."You better not." She smiled already closing her eyes. She was exhausted and I didn't know how she got through all this. Alley was the strongest woman I ever known and for some reason she had no idea the immense strength she held.By the time I was changed she was passed out. I crawled in bed spooning her into my arms with the biggest smile. I knew we couldn't be together, but for right now I had her. Every time it was filled with heart break and regret, but not tonight. Tonight I was savoring this moment with her in my arms. My fingers brushed over her wrist sending a wave of pain through me. Why would she do this? Was it because of me? Derek? I wanted to erase that day from her life. Erase any day she felt not good enough. Alley Knight was the only thing pure I knew. The world didn't deserve her and never the other way around.I kissed her scar lightly praying she
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Ignorance is Bliss
Alley POVElise and I returned to our new room with double beds and a large balcony that stretched out the entire side of the home. It was on the third story and we could see even further down the fields then in Ace's room. The Russian guards brought us coffee and I was drowning in the goodness of it. "Somehow this seems so peaceful." I said stretching a bit in my chair. "Ignorance is bliss." Elise responded. She sipped her coffee looking out over the same fields while we sat at a small black table. "What is that supposed to mean?" She was a bit rude."Nothing." Elise gave me that mother knows all smile then looked away. "Elise, what is this place?" There was more going on here than I knew about. I just wasn't sure if I wanted to know."This is a coffee plantation, as you said.""What else? I don't think half naked women chained to a wall is normal for a coffee business."She huffed standing to look over the balcony. She was searching for something. I stood next to her trying to s
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Wedding of Demons and Saints
Ace POVI stood at that fucking alter wanting to put a bullet in every single one of their heads. I could see all their smiling faces with a hole right through their skulls as blood poured out it. The music began playing and everyone knows what that means. One thing I said I wasn't fucking doing was marrying that rat face woman and here I am doing exactly that. This was mother fucking bullshit. I could see Marie walking closer to me even though I didn't look her way. Every step she took I prayed she trip and brake her neck. I wasn't that lucky though.The whole time I felt Alley's eyes on me. It was some weird sixth sense shit with that woman I had. Once her presence was close to mine I just knew she was there without even seeing her. When her eyes found my body I felt them suck me into her soul. No matter how much I denied it the last seven years, I was always made to be hers. I wasn't going to deny it anymore though. Now I'm fucking marrying the most annoyingly stupid woman I ever
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Generations of Suffering
Alley POVChristian reluctantly left and I wanted to whine for him to come back. Why can't I have him? "This is quit a mess." The old woman said. "I think it's adorable. Just like Ace's pout." Elise sat next to me leaning on my shoulder. I wasn't sure if we were friends now or if she hated me. Her mood was so back and forth."What is adorable?" I asked."Don't start Elise." Daniel warned."Oh stop it, lonely body guard. Alley knows he loves her. It's no big secret." "What are you two talking about?" "Ace, child. The little woman whore is finding it amusing how you bring my grandson to his knees.""I am not a whore!" Elise shot up from the bed in anger."That's what you present yourself as. I know the truth though. Daniel take your woman away. She obviously needs some attention.""Why does everyone say she's my woman?""Aw now that is adorable." I swooned at the two of them. The way they tried not looking at each other. How Daniel had the words "I want you" on the tip of his tongue
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 The Father
Ace POVI spent three hours playing the same game I had my entire life. I was the hardened boss who didn't allow an ounce of disrespect while everyone around me kissed my ass. Fernando somehow seemed to develop a sick fascination to me too which he made obvious all night. He constantly gave me eyes of desire and somehow fucking found reasons to rub against me. I know I'm a good looking man but Fernando needed to learn fucking boundaries. He had a serious drug addiction with a weird as fuck sex fetish. I couldn't wait until I killed him.I had ducked out a few times to speak with the workers. It appeared none were loyal to Fernando himself, only his money. As long as my demands were discreet with a hefty payment they were willing to do anything I asked. I started formulating a plan, but it would take some time. Time I didn't want to spend here or really anywhere other than locked in a room with my girl.As I left the kitchen I saw the woman who constantly scolded the red hair boy to g
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 The Mess of Life
Ethan POVWe've been stuck on this island for weeks without a word from Daniel. When we first arrived Layla was nothing but angry. Greg, Lydia, and myself had to keep a constant eye on her as well as the children. It was getting exhausting and the hotel staff were not happy with us.Layla threatened a few of them and of course the boys were not letting anyone say she couldn't do what she wanted, even though she was wrong. I loved how Derek protected his mom and Darien his Aunt but they also needed to learn a little more about morality. Greg found most of the drama amusing and I didn't understand how he was always so calm. Lydia mostly handled the girls and was a baby whisper or something. She was able to calm them instantly when they started fussing. Lydia even got Layla to hold them a few times. I thought she would be an annoyance pinning after Greg the whole time but she was a god send. Then we got the call. Daniel had Alley and she was ok. I heard her voice and all my anger just
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My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Epilogue 3 - End of Our Journey
Ace POV Seventy two. That's how many years I lived this life so far. At eighteen I thought I would be lucky to see thirty and now I've seen so much more. I wish I could say it was all good. That after Alley and I found each other again that everything was just happiness and perfection, but that wasn't life.Our first heartache was losing our daughter when she was seventeen in a car accident. Alley could barely breath for what seemed like years after we buried our child. I would relive all the horrors my father handed me over and over to never have to experience that pain. Our seven other children keep us going though. We had other's depending on us and we had to push through the heartache for them. Show them life was still worth living, despite the hole we all shared.My Nanny passed shortly after our daughter. She battled her lung disease for years and I knew she was in immense pain but she held on. Losing one of her great grandchildren I think pushed her to the end though. She told
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Epilogue 2 - Life Was Never Kind Until It Was
Nanny Fuck Face POVI looked down from my balcony from my bedroom window leaning on my cane as all my great grandchildren played in the pool outside. Today was the twin's sixteen birthday and the house was full of friends and family. For six months I stayed with Ace in hiding, waiting patiently to be able to live this life I desired for so long. After my daughter died I gave up thinking life would ever be kind to me. I felt hopeless and weak until that day I stood at Ace's graduation party and saw his undying love for Alley. They were saying goodbye but I knew she was his salvation. The light he needed to keep his soul alive and good. Then I saw my other grandson, a boy I thought that was lost to this family and was thankful for it. The Blackwoods were so deeply rooted in sin I prayed everyday my grandchildren would find a better life than my daughter or I did.I never thought it would turn out like this. I wish I could change my past but I also didn't want to change a single moment
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Epilogue 1 - Simple Life
Alley POV"Are you saying my son is a problem. I can assure you he is the least of your worries." Christian's tall muscular frame was backing up a perky little woman against a wall. I rolled my eyes with a sigh. Such a brute, especially when it came to his kids."Calm down there, Varsity dip shit." I pulled his shoulder away from the scared woman. Christian's eyes turned dark on me and I just raised my eyebrows at him. My fingers touched my necklace, one he had made for me on my sixteenth birthday but gave to me years later. He was my forever, our love and bond infinite, and he will be a good boy that listened."This woman said Darien seems distracted. She thinks he's been the one pranking the principal. I want to speak to this so called principal!" His voice softened as he spoke to me, but it still held a demand in his tone. "This woman is his teacher and is harmless. We know our son and I'm sure he has been causing some havoc. Sit and calm yourself." I pushed him down in a small cl
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Where To Go From Here
Alley POVMaybe it was the pregnancy hormones or maybe I was really hating Ace right now. So much rage was coursing through my body and I was doing everything in my power not to grab the cake next to me and smash it in that motherfucker's face."What just happened?" Greg asked. He was still playing catch up."Ace faked his death. I'm going to kill him." All the pain I felt the last six months and he was alive? He was just hiding out, lying to all of us to keep us safe. That was bullshit, he was a motherfucker."Whoa! Alley's about to go lethal." Ethan and Daniel were next to me now as I watched Ace kneeling down speaking to Darien and Derek. He did look really hot and how he played with the boys was making my body call to him. No! He pays first."He lied to us." My head shot to Daniel. He knew too."Calm down. Remember you are with child Alley." Daniel had his hands up in the air in surrender."What's happening? I love when Alley goes psycho!" Elise said way too happy at my anger. Lyd
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Finding Happiness
Alley POVSix months later:It has been a hard few months, but Greg was right, I did find happiness again. Losing Ace was just as hard, if not harder, than losing my brother and I would never get over losing either one of them.Daniel and his partner Rowan survived the explosion, but had some scars on their face and arms. I was beyond thankful they made it out alive and thought they just looked more bad ass now. Today Greg, Lydia, Darien, Derek, and myself were driving up to Daniel's summer home in Rhode Island to celebrate his engagement to Elise and his official promotion. Ethan and Layla had the baby girls in tow behind us and I looked back to them in my rear view mirror with a smile. For some reason, I was really, really excited about this weekend trip. We hadn't all spent time together in months and I wanted to be surround by my family for the whole weekend. Daniel already promised a big fire pit out back just for me, it was of course for everyone, but he knew how much I like s
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Waiting
Alley POVIt took Ethan a long time to calm me down and get me on a plane back home. I didn't want to leave without Christian, but Darien was waiting for me at home. I wish I could say it was easier to walk away for my son. I would always choose Darien above Christian, but it didn't mean it made my decision to leave any less harder.I cried in Ethan's chest the whole plane ride home, swearing I would never step foot on one of these again. The second I did get home Darien and Derek were there welcoming me with tears. That did make my sadness a little more bearable. I loved this family so much and I just didn't understand why I couldn't have Christian too. That night Greg stayed with me and we watched movies well past the moon rising. He knew I wasn't sleeping anytime soon and Ethan needed to be with his wife. Layla was doing much better, but she still had her own stuff going on.We didn't speak much and I appreciated how Greg was relentless with the way he cared for me. It reminded m
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Then It All Went Wrong
Daniel POVI paced the hallway outside Ace's hospital bed losing my mind. The switch was supposed to take place already and now I was losing my window. On top of that, once they arrested my boss IA moved in our department. Within a few hours I was assigned as the temporary head of the criminal organization task force and had one sorry ass fucker with a stick up his ass questioning my every move."So, you've worked undercover for seven years with this," a studious prick with four inch thick glasses looked over his paperwork, "ah, Christian Ace Blackwood?""Yes! We discussed this two hours ago. It's not that hard of name to remember either.""I see, yes. I'm just curious if maybe you've been too deep undercover. Seven years is a long time and you seem to have an unhealthy relationship with this murder." The IA agent looked in Ace's room with disgust. He was a murder, but they didn't know his story. He didn't kill randomly and never hurt someone innocent. I can't explain that in any ra
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 Last Chance for Redemption
Daniel POV"It's time." I called into Rowan to move in on the people at Déjà vu. "You got everything on our boss we needed." I could hear his amusement over the call. We've been working to take our boss down for over seven years and this was our moment."Every last fucking word." I smiled and hung up.Once I heard about Angelo taking Alley, again, and how Ace was calling a meeting, which included Dmitri I knew how to get my boss. His filth went as deep as you would line his pockets. I feed him the bait that Angelo was desperate and he contacted him to make a deal.Before Ace's little meeting my boss meet Angelo to workout a plan to remove Ace permanently, for a hefty payment of course. Angelo paid him more money then he owned and I got it all on video including the wire transfer.My men moved in already knowing I was running this operation. I saw my boss standing behind Ace with his gun to his head and I knew I had to remove him quickly. He would kill Ace just for the high of taking
My Devil’s Side: Book 1 & 2 What Matters
Ace POVI stood in front of my wall length mirror adjusting my tie. I haven't looked myself in the eye in a week and I wasn't sure if I liked the man staring back at me. I had my black suit on, black tie, and white shirt. Tonight was about ending as much of the bullshit as possible so I kept it simple. My jet black hair was still a little wet and slicked off to the side. The best feature of my whole body were these eyes and that was because they didn't belong to him. Well one other part of my body but he wasn't getting any attention tonight. I used to see my father in the mirror and fucking hated it more than anything. Despite knowing I was a good looking man I would give anything to change my appearance. To look less like that monster that raised me. Now I say that little boy. A smile tugged at my lips seeing his little face with so much power in it. He was a confident little shit and would grow up to be a man that did what he wanted. No one would keep him back, build him up just
