Asha was struggling to try and catch her breath, barely able to come back to her body let alone stay grounded in the moment. She could faintly feel Young’s lips graze her thighs and stomach, but majority of her psyche was fighting to stay in her realm of dreams. She vaguely acknowledged that the only reason she didn’t want to leave them was that they weren’t really dreams at all. With her now living an impossible reality with this version of Young, she had to accept, even if only silently, that those were memories and not just dreams. Every moment since their souls were forged into existence, weaving their lives together had been painted in her mind as if she lived them in this life. So she sunk into the feeling of having him in every life, wrapping herself in the promise of hope that they could find themselves on the other side of wherever they were now.When Young had finally felt like he was completely in control, he started making his way back to her flower again. Since she’d long
Although Asha was grateful for Young picking up on her nervousness and semi-accommodating her anxiety allowing both of them this moment to enjoy pleasure from one another, she couldn’t shake the feeling that moving forward with this was going to be a make or break for her. In her haste to not look Young in the eyes and allow herself to connect the same way as they had always, she forgot how much he used this position to do just that. She had a right to be nervous too. This Young wasn’t just capable of figuratively snatching her soul anymore, it was now a literal possibility and she didn’t know if she was ready or even capable of saving herself let alone the both of them.There had been many times over the span of his life that she’d fended off his demons to protect herself while simultaneously helping him muster up the ability to slay them for himself. This time around though, Asha was more than just nervous, she was terrified. There was a very real possibility that she was going to l
The moment Asha’s eyes closed, too overwhelmed in the sensation and still wanting to savor the moment, Young started to move for real. Every thrust was calculated and precise, every grope over her body and clench of his hand around her throat was intentional. He moved slow and with purpose, determined to relearn all the spots that curated her strongest waves of pleasure so that he could mark them all and make way for new ones.Satisfied that Asha was deep in the pleasure that he was giving her, Young made the decision that he was going to savor this for as long as possible, cherish every sensation, and give them both something that’ll be a reminder of what they have to fight for. All that they already had fought for in this life. The midnight talks, breakups and makeups, supporting each other through the rollercoaster of life. Not just the pleasure and not just the sorrows, but their connection, the undeniability of their souls having lived a thousand lives together, a million crossin
Young could only laugh and shake his head at Asha and her antics. After all that he’d shown her, all the pleasure he gave her, and all the time that had passed, leave it to her to only focus on one little thing.“Yes,” he answered her with a chuckle, “Did I scare you a little?”Asha shook her head and grunted in response, seeming to immediately drift back into whatever world Young had brought her out of briefly with his answer. All that kept going round and round in her head was ‘I’m screwed.’ And she was, literally and figuratively, having to revise her plan of appeasing their collective sexual needs while protecting what was left of her heart. The man had proven that this was far from the best of their sexcapades to come and this session alone had her poor heart ready to jump ship right into the boiling lava.She didn’t know how she was supposed to find her way out of this mess that she was in because of him, as usual. Now that her post sex haze was clearing and she could focus on h
Asha had barely been holding onto the routine of her days, feeling as if she had no choice but to keep moving forward in the sludge of life. She was exhausted beyond belief with no relief in sight and if she hadn’t centered herself each morning she was sure she was going to explode on whoever decided she was a mat to be walked all over.Today was no different - she got up as usual, bargaining a few ‘5 more minutes’ with herself before she had to really get up. When she did - ever committed to the routine she’d painstakingly created over the last year - she ground her coffee beans with her pestle and mortar and put her coffee on to percolate while she did a quick warmup, one of her low impact cardios, a yoga stretch, and a 5 minute meditation for black women, all courtesy of YouTube. After a quick shower and getting dressed she rushed out her door to get into the car that wouldn’t start. No matter how hard she pumped the gas pedal, rubbed the dashboard, and begged, her baby just would
Like every other day, the company sent more products than they had space to put out or store and the supervisors and managers cracked down on her and her coworkers expecting miracles to be made out of the curses sent down by the higher ups. Asha was stressed out and stretched thin just like the rest of the team. When she finished her back room work and it was time for her to go onto the sales floor, surprise surprise, her most recent ex was in the store waiting around to watch her.They’d broken up almost six months prior and although she’d been the one to say the words, he’d been pushing her to it for at least half of the time they were together. When he convinced her to date him, his favorite thing to say was, “you’re everything I’ve been trying to manifest.” Between their conversations about the future and how he always seemed to want the same things as her, and the way he always seemed to care about her safety getting home when they first started getting to know one another, she f
She thought she was free and clear with weeks gone by of blessed silence, thanking the creator for the seemingly peaceful transition back into singlehood. Her life went back to normal without him and she had all of her free time to refocus on the life goals she’d set and had been gradually working towards. Then one day he just started showing up at her job. At first, Asha thought she was imagining his car in the parking lot while she was working. He wouldn’t be there everyday so she chalked it up to paranoia.It was a few weeks of chastising herself for being so overly suspicious until she couldn’t deny any more. Her coworker had taken her to lunch one week and what she had been writing off as paranoia was in fact her survival instincts telling her that she had a predator watching her. Sure enough, when they’d been seated and were catching each other up on everything that couldn’t be discussed in the store, she saw his car roll by and locked eyes with him. Although her anxiety had sky
Too bad she was also having difficulties protecting herself from the ex waiting for her in haunting dreams. Young Samuel Blood. A fuckboy of a man, who gave her the run around, dragging her heart behind him as bait. A man of few words and exploding passion, who was a selfish bastard unless he was pleasuring a woman. The one man that had opened her to the depths her pleasure could take her if a partner took their time to truly learn what she liked, what she needed. As much as she had been yearning to see his face pop up, she really could only call it a haunting since he’d died just over a year prior.When she decided to up and leave the tristate area he had acted as if she’d never leave, treating her the same way he always did. Although it hurt her feelings to know that despite all the early morning deep conversations she was still just another fuck for him. It did not surprise Asha in the least that he didn’t show up to her going away party, or remember what day she was leaving since