Athena A trail of sweat covered my forehead, my heart beat like a drum ready to jump out of my chest at any time, my hands were shaking so was my breathing that could give away the storm within me the bare minimum.What if the test comes positive? I did not have the nearest idea of what I was going to do then. How could I be so reckless about taking the pills? Since my wolf did not exactly reside in my body and the feel of her presence like a shadow was all that I'd ever felt, I thought I'd not be able to bear the child of an alpha, but unfortunately, I never bothered to get the facts right.....I decided to believe my assumption that had no association with the supposed reality and what was worse is that, now I wasn't even sure if my wolf was as incapable as I'd thought she was. Perhaps, her presence could be more than just an obscure shadow and it could have been good news for me if I hadn't been struck with this unspoken validity in this kind of circumstance where my whole life wa
AthenaAfter long struggles and finding a way out of the mansion to attend the appointment, the reports I got from the doctor confirmed the unnerving truth that I was actually pregnant and if anything this final confirmation did, was making the terrible hopelessness sink even deeper, trap me in a never-ending haze of despair. This news of my pregnancy has attacked me like a disastrous storm, broke me on a level that even Sebastian hadn't managed to reach; To say, I was devastated, it wouldn't even express a tinge bit of my anguish.I was one month pregnant. For a whole month, my baby has been with me, but I didn't know. And now that I finally knew, I was drowning in guilt and remorse. I couldn't picture myself taking my child's life. I'd rather die than commit such a vicious crime."How can I let you go?" Tears freely ran down my cheeks as I put my hand over my stomach. It was only a month but I could already feel my baby's presence, "I can't..."All I could see around me was dark eve
SebastianIt turned out that I ran out of reasons to stay out of town too soon. It was the sixth day, but my control over my beast has already slipped away as if it has been years since I last saw the sight of Athena. Even without being here, she was affecting me which left me wondering in my despair how I was going to succeed in staying away from her when I have intended to push her away at any cost. I couldn't even express what I was going through nor could I, somehow, find a way out of this disastrous dilemma. I was disappointed in myself for letting myself sway away with the wave of the tsunami Athena brought into my life. I burned for her, my soul craved her presence, and my eyes were desperate to see the sight of her and have her in my arms just like...that night.It felt like....I was dying without her. When did she become my need? When did she captivate me so much under the spell of her love that I couldn't realise it even though her love was the only thing I'd ever consider
AthenaI looked at the sky, finding the endless blue of it mesmerizing and feeling drawn to it like a bird wishing to explore the depth of the beautiful white clouds floating freely over it as if it was their own safe territory they set high above, forbidding everyone who planned to invade it. My emotions were not a mess but whatever their state, it turned out to be one of the biggest mysteries for me to solve. I was unable to decipher my feelings but to say the truth, I was reluctant in trying to put them in place anyways.For the first time in all these months, I felt one less burden hanging on my back that would have eventually dragged me more down to the pitfall I have been trying to escape. But this wasn't the relief I was looking for, and at this point, I did not even know if I was going to regret my decision over the course of time that might fly away like a stroke of cold wind.I was determined but this did not give me freedom from the guilt that was growing at some corner to
AthenaI waited hours for his arrival, deep down hoping that he comes sooner and I could end this faster. The more time passed, the more I began questioning myself whereas the truth was that I did not want any change in my perspectives and belief that took so long to build. I'd be a lie if I said that I wasn't scared at all, there was still fear living vividly within me, even though it might be far less compared to my dread of other times.I did not have any idea what Sebastian's reaction going to be after knowing about my pregnancy or if I was going to be able to gather the courage to tell him the truth at all, but one thing I knew for sure was— I wasn't going to let him cage me again. He no longer held the same power over me; The times he had had that authority was gone because now I had a reason to live.But didn't Sebastian have the right to be close to his child? Was I wrong for thinking about taking our baby away from him? I was...or maybe I wasn't— It was the least of my worri
Athena My hand collided against his skin, a loud sound crashed into the room bearing no fewer effects than a hazardous exposition that might destroy both of us at once as it echoed over and over again. Every vein in my body trembling with an uncontrollable amount of rage I could barely grasp together."How dare you?!" I seethed, my hand itching to land another slap across his face and the next moment I did what I wanted to— I slapped him, using the double amount of strength that I used prior.This time the impact made his face turn to the side and I saw the visible bulging of his veins, his hands fisted to his sides and his gaze shot at me that could have unnerved any being in this entire world but today, for once, I did not fall into that category."How dare you fucking call me a whore?" I pushed at his chest causing him to stumble backwards, "I did not come crawling to you, begging you to purchase me. It was you and your selfish motives that made you do it. You....snatched my innoce
Athena"What if I say that I want the grave, Athena? What if I say that I want to be buried deep and that's my ultimate destination?"— None of his words made sense, but somewhere, at some depth I hadn't reached yet, it had a meaning stored— One that was far from anyone's understanding. It was not even a second ago when I was fuming with uncontrollable rage, shaking in anger, wanting to destroy everything in my reach and turn them into ashes and with only the magic of a few sentences he put my entire fucking world in front of such question that could shatter me.I did not want to derive any meaning from anything he said and give scopes for false hopes to rise again, I no longer had the time to think of my decision twice but he didn't seem to have any intention to let me do that in peace. "What if I accept that I'm a bloody coward, and after being satisfied with my existence and collecting enough amount of sins to actually feel like a monster from within, it'd be myself I'd destroy?
AthenaMy eyes had opened on their own, before even the first hours of the morning. It turned out that, even sleep couldn't keep my mind and soul in control. I was restless, beyond anyone could understand, not that there was anyone to understand, but that was truly the least out of all the worst things that'd happened to me till now.As I splashed cold water on my face, trying hard to get a hold of my racing heart and cluttered emotions that stung me every time they crossed through. I did not know, why was I still thinking about my decisions twice, trying to reprocess everything to get a new meaning, when Sebastian had not bothered to give one thought to what he said and did when he actually cut the last string between us with his own hands.I should not think about him. All that should matter to me is my baby— Then why? Why was I still having these horrible thoughts in my mind? Why was the weight on my chest not fading at all and only getting heavier as time passed by?Last night Seb