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One Last Time

Author: Liz Barnet
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Athena

I looked at the sky, finding the endless blue of it mesmerizing and feeling drawn to it like a bird wishing to explore the depth of the beautiful white clouds floating freely over it as if it was their own safe territory they set high above, forbidding everyone who planned to invade it.

My emotions were not a mess but whatever their state, it turned out to be one of the biggest mysteries for me to solve. I was unable to decipher my feelings but to say the truth, I was reluctant in trying to put them in place anyways.

For the first time in all these months, I felt one less burden hanging on my back that would have eventually dragged me more down to the pitfall I have been trying to escape. But this wasn't the relief I was looking for, and at this point, I did not even know if I was going to regret my decision over the course of time that might fly away like a stroke of cold wind.

I was determined but this did not give me freedom from the guilt that was growing at some corner to
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