Fate's Decision

Sebastian

The quiet roads and strange attire of nature mesmerised me but at the same time, they pronounced my grief louder— I could find both my pain and peace in silence.

The bitter taste of the cigar was my momentary comfort, the burn in my lungs somehow helped me forget— Not her but the mistakes I made. If there was anything that was always awake in my mind, it was her— Alive and vivid, she breathed there. Her scent still lingered in my imagination and I loved every touch of it.

Indeed I did not want her to fade away from my memories. I did not care if it gave me trauma and left me breaking each time with the wounds deepened like the day I had first gotten them, at least I was getting a chance to be close to her even if it was just mere memories that will succeed in giving me the warmth her touch once gave.

I was the one who pushed her away. Now I was searching for her face in every unknown crowd, I wondered if she'd be there waiting, and when I'd offer my hand she'd take it and I