AthenaMy eyes had opened on their own, before even the first hours of the morning. It turned out that, even sleep couldn't keep my mind and soul in control. I was restless, beyond anyone could understand, not that there was anyone to understand, but that was truly the least out of all the worst things that'd happened to me till now.As I splashed cold water on my face, trying hard to get a hold of my racing heart and cluttered emotions that stung me every time they crossed through. I did not know, why was I still thinking about my decisions twice, trying to reprocess everything to get a new meaning, when Sebastian had not bothered to give one thought to what he said and did when he actually cut the last string between us with his own hands.I should not think about him. All that should matter to me is my baby— Then why? Why was I still having these horrible thoughts in my mind? Why was the weight on my chest not fading at all and only getting heavier as time passed by?Last night Seb
AthenaAs I walked inside Sebastian's room, it turned out that my assumptions of finding him there were wrong— His room was empty and judging by the lack of his scent in the air particles, I could tell, he has not been here for more than just a few. Maybe he has left for work once again, unannounced and unbothered just like he always was.But I did have a feeling that he hasn't left the mansion. I don't know, but my mind was just constantly telling me this and I could feel his presence, even though he was not right in front of my eyes or anyway near me.Finding the room empty and heaving with pin-drop silence, I walked away and headed downstairs thinking that I might find him there. But as my eyes met with the empty hallway, half of my hopes of finding him here died.If I could I wouldn't do it, if I could I would have run far away and never come back, filling myself with so much hatred for Sebastian that the thought of seeing his face would never, even for once, cross my mind. I'd ha
AthenaHe.....was going to mark her?My eyes searched for any sign of deceit in Celine's orbs, trying to read her face but unfortunately for me— All I saw was the truth.He was going to mark her......She was not lying. It was true, the news she broke to me was nothing but the truth— Another of the decisions taken by Sebastian, perhaps solely intended to hurt me. My gaze shot at Sebastian, my hands began shaking and my legs fought to give up yet I stood still, denying to show any sign of weakness that would give these individuals the satisfaction they desired to feel."Is....is this true?" I found myself asking Sebastian who seemed reluctant to look at me.The trembling of my voice surely gave it all away even though I did not want my struggle to become apparent, or even be near the surface for anyone to notice but how could I help it? He was all I ever wanted.His silence gave me the answer— It was true."Why are you asking him, honey?" Celine made a sound of pity, "I know it's hur
Athena"You are marking her...." It was not a question, but as I let the statement out I couldn't help my agony that became visible on its own, defeating all my restraints."Yes, I guess that's not news anymore, is it?" He cocked an eyebrow.It astonished me how much cold this man could act towards me, what amount of pain he has left to inflict and how much he wished to ruin me after everything that he had done; Ironically he still got the desire to hurt me more, break me and destroy even the last few pieces I have somehow put together.How had a man so cruel and ruthless as he managed to corrupt the place in my heart? Perhaps, someone said the truth— It's the decisions of the heart that write the tale of our demolition. My heart let him in, and now, he has completely ruined me, left me so shattered that all I could see was destruction and not have the strength to show any contempt. "Why are you doing this, Sebastian? What are you getting from all these things?" I spoke, this time ra
AthenaI watched him doe-eyed, watching the rage swarming in his wavering eyes, his hands shaking and rising fury evolving pronounced in his unsteady and rushed breathing. His clothes were nearly on the verge of getting ripped as his wolf began emerging, the very faint sight of the dark fur spread through his skin and the sharp nails cut through the layers of his skin and extended from the tips of his fingers, suddenly his inhale and exhale did not sound human any more, they began to sound animalistic.It was a debate whether his wolf was against me or trying to refrain Sebastian from hurting me. The sight of his wolf was dangerous, nonetheless, facing it did not feel as perilous as facing him. At least, it did not appear as if that beast wanted to destroy me, there was no want of demolition in the dark orbs of his wolf nor was there any rage specifically directed at me; Although there was indeed an unspecified amount of anger burning in them, it was not for me; In fact, it was for t
AthenaThe past few hours were the most peaceful ones I had spent ever since I collided with Sebastian and he threw every upside down.I did not know if Sebastian was going to be considerable enough to actually arrange my departure, however, I also did not think he loved me enough to attempt to stop me or create more hindrances than he already did. Hate? No that wasn't enough of a reason anymore— He has already done everything he could do just so he could make me believe that he indeed hated me and now, I truly believed that he was incapable of love and hatred was the only thing I would ever receive from a man like him no matter how much I tried, how many times I burned to bring the light to him and what sacrifices I made just so I could call him mine.But not anymore.Now that I knew I no longer had to keep fighting. I was free from my curse— The desperate ache to fix him and bring him back— A person I only got a few glimpses of.I no longer had to cry over the filth that had washed
AthenaMy heart felt heavy; Just like the burden of the memories— The moments I'd spent with Sebastian. But what was left to do anyways? I could not just leave my heart behind, it was incredibly stupid and impossible. It was fucking disappointing to stay stuck with the truth that this heart was what keeps us alive— The same bloody organ that makes us take on the dumbest decisions ever and still stay dazed, deprived of the sight of what is right for us to do.The thing I could do was to kill the emotions of it, the sentiments that come for that one specific person only and who was he? I guess that was not news.All these things known and reality imprinted on every cell of my brain, why did it still feel like I was leaving my heart behind? And why the fuck did it saddened me when this freedom was what I had been looking for from the day I was born? Why couldn't I celebrate this blessing the one captived under his curse has bestowed upon me?Fuck it! Just fuck the concept of love— Puttin
Six Months LaterAthena"Sweetheart, have you packed the parcel yet? That arrogant bloke might be here anytime soon," Shelly's voice, draped in an extremely thick British accent like always, came floating in my ears."Almost done, Shelly babe!" I yelled out from the other side of the huge kitchen that currently had more than ten people working, putting their best in their jobs. The fresh aroma of freshly baked pastries was coasting in the air, and some of it wafted into my nostrils which I, to be very honest, did not complain about at all— The entire kitchen smelled delicious.My wolf rolled her eyes, slumping back in my head and letting me know her extreme distaste for Shelly's accent and this sight of her caused a small laugh to slip past my lips.It astonished me how my wolf could get so moody sometimes and act like those high-school mean girls— She had different moods and, today's one was one of those that have always turned out to be a hassle to handle. However, I was happy to ge