The worst feeling in the world is watching the one that you love struggle for their life and itis not a struggle you can fight for them.
The doctor says that she has lost too much blood, she might not make it, I say bullshit, and she is a fighter.
Her rollercoaster is still going, she ain't getting off.
Things have been a bit rocky between me and Jackson since the whole shooting thing. He is not spending as much time as he usually does over here. When I am at the Club he is mostly out sorting shipments and other shit out. This time I know there is no other women involved. Our relationship is not what it used to be before.How do you come back from nearly dying and losing a baby?I don't think you can.All the girls are going out today.I want to dress up but I also need to hide my scars.Matthew ~”Boss are you ready? We need to pick the others up at the Club.”Kayley ~”I am ready. Where is Dre?”Drake ~”Here boss.”Kayley ~”Okay we can go
I hate that moments that you get when you need to remind yourself why you did something. It's been almost a month since I broke things off with Jackson. They say that things get easier with time, I don't know so much about that. Even though things were already rocky, making it totally rocked is a different story.I need to remind myself why I did.As per instruction from Jackson, none of his crew is allowed over at my place. Ant wants to talk to me today so it seems I will be heading on over to the club.Since Danny and the two stooges are not available today, I will be driving myself. I dress and head on out to the club.I really hope he is not there.No such luck, as I walk in I see him sitting at the bar. I have forgotten how good he looks. 
…Jackson POV…God my life is confusing, my baby girl is even more confusing. I guess that is why she calls it her rollercoaster ride.She is laying so peaceful sleeping, last night is the first night she did not have a nightmare. I want to believe it is because she is better but it really only is because I was sleeping next to her.I don't want to wake her but I have to. I give her a kiss on her forehead and her eyes open.Kayley ~”You kidding me.”Jackson ~”What now?”Kayley ~”You had sex three hours ago.”Jackson ~”I know.”Kayley ~”Now you want more.”Jackson ~”I would love to b
Oh my god my head is pounding. It is the most fun I have ever had with Jackson but I swear it is the most I have probably ever drank.And the ass is standing next to the bed with a smile and cup of coffee in his hand.Kayley ~”What the fuck are you smiling at?”
I have come this far, I don't know what waits for us behind that door. Absolute chaos is about to erupt, is she even there, will this end the way that we have planned to for days. The minute I step through that door there is no turning back.Jackson ~”Kick the damn thing down. They know we are here.”
So my crazy ass life has brought me to this. A mafia queen, a hot as fuck mafia boss about to become my husband in only a few weeks. A few things in my buckle that no manor women should be proud of and most of all a stupid crazy ass extended family to make my rollercoaster ride worth every single stop.But today I am making a special trip on my own.It’s been three weeks since that whole suicide miss
My wedding is in three days, I am nervous. In less than a year I fell in love with a mafia boss, became a mafia queen and did some scary ass shit. Now I am about to get married and we having a baby in nine months.Talk about crazy.The big question on everybody's lips.Is Kay still going to be a mafia queen?My answer I don't know.Every day I think about our baby, every day I think that I should not take the chance. If something has to happen, it will devastate Jackson and probably ruin our marriage.Kayley ~”Jackson, baby.”Jackson ~”Yes baby.”Kayley ~”I have been thinking.”Jackson ~”Am I going to like this?”
…Jackson's POV…I have had it with her, she is reckless and does not care what happens to her and the people around her. I am tired of her shit, she is putting my child at risk and I will not stand for it. If she cannot stop doing this shit then she will have to learn things the hard way. She is not a damn mafia queen she is a mother.Drake ~”
I always used to say that I am not a normal person. That I never used to do things the normal way. That I lived by my own rules and I never met people the normal way. My life was a crazy rollercoaster ride. I had a crazy normal life.Until I met him.Jackson D'Angelo.
He has moved back into our room and there is nothing that I am happier about. It feels good to have him back in my bed but I feel like a bus and his heavy ass is making it worse.Kayley ~”Jackson!”Kayley ~”Wake the hell up.”
This morning when I wake, I find a very fast asleep Jackson ~ next to me with The Cat In A Hat laying open on his chest, if I did not love him so much, I would kick his ass out of my bed. I take the book away and cover him up with the blankets. I get out of bed and make my way downstairs.Matthew ~”Morning Kay. We made you and Jackson coffee.”
So Jackson has called off the wedding and also ended our relationship.I am left here alone with my damn hormones and shitty morning sickness.And now the asshole is banging on the door.Jackson ~”Kayley are you okay?”Kayley ~”What does it sound like Jackson?”Jackson ~”Just open the fucking door.”Kayley ~”Just go away.”Jackson ~”Kayley open the door.”Kayley ~”Go away.”Jackson ~”I will kick this door down.”Kayley ~”Then how do I come to the bathroom?”Jackson ~”Open the damn door then.”
…Jackson's POV…I have had it with her, she is reckless and does not care what happens to her and the people around her. I am tired of her shit, she is putting my child at risk and I will not stand for it. If she cannot stop doing this shit then she will have to learn things the hard way. She is not a damn mafia queen she is a mother.Drake ~”
My wedding is in three days, I am nervous. In less than a year I fell in love with a mafia boss, became a mafia queen and did some scary ass shit. Now I am about to get married and we having a baby in nine months.Talk about crazy.The big question on everybody's lips.Is Kay still going to be a mafia queen?My answer I don't know.Every day I think about our baby, every day I think that I should not take the chance. If something has to happen, it will devastate Jackson and probably ruin our marriage.Kayley ~”Jackson, baby.”Jackson ~”Yes baby.”Kayley ~”I have been thinking.”Jackson ~”Am I going to like this?”
So my crazy ass life has brought me to this. A mafia queen, a hot as fuck mafia boss about to become my husband in only a few weeks. A few things in my buckle that no manor women should be proud of and most of all a stupid crazy ass extended family to make my rollercoaster ride worth every single stop.But today I am making a special trip on my own.It’s been three weeks since that whole suicide miss
I have come this far, I don't know what waits for us behind that door. Absolute chaos is about to erupt, is she even there, will this end the way that we have planned to for days. The minute I step through that door there is no turning back.Jackson ~”Kick the damn thing down. They know we are here.”
Oh my god my head is pounding. It is the most fun I have ever had with Jackson but I swear it is the most I have probably ever drank.And the ass is standing next to the bed with a smile and cup of coffee in his hand.Kayley ~”What the fuck are you smiling at?”