Ashley POV
He didn't follow me, though. But I knew he had seen my tears. I tried to wipe them away as I hurried out of the stadium. I didn't know why I was crying. I should have been screaming with joy, celebrating his betrayal, maybe drinking a beer by myself. I was free. My life is so ironic, isn't it? Like some kind of cheesy drama in a TV series. Then why did it hurt so much?
When I arrived, I saw Eva's face immediately turn serious when she saw me, and she silenced her tired and cranky mother and her friends. There seemed to be something in my expression that made them worry and not talk to me, as they remained silent all the way home. Eva's mom made sure to drop me off first, even though the trip to Beverly Street would take the longest because of the detour from the stadium.
"I'll call you tomorrow, okay?" Eva asked after I thanked her mom. Her eyes were worried.
"Sure," I said quickly as I got out of the car. I found myself sounding much more harsh than I wanted to, so I added, "Thanks for the ride."
Her mother nodded with a face so similar to Eva's that when I first met her, I thought they were sisters far apart in age. After all, she was also very young, having become a mother at the age of 22. "Are you sure you don't want to sleep over at our house? I know school is tomorrow, but Eva said your parents are in London and will be there until next week."
"I'm fine, Auntie," I said quickly. "I'm used to it." I was definitely not in the mood for any kind of hang-out at the moment. Even though Eva was more mature than most, she still couldn't help but ask me what had happened.
And there was no way I was going to repeat the events of Jayden's cheating affair, which hadn't really happened yet. Although I couldn't talk about it even if I wanted to.
"Bye!" Eva and the others said. I could see the curiosity in her friends' eyes. But I wasn't in the mood to talk about it.
I could only smile slightly. "Yes."
My parents' apartment was empty at the time. There was a note on the refrigerator door to remind me that they were on a business trip and vacation in London with Jayden's parents. The four of them were gone until Saturday. That meant that if I told my parents now, his parents would know and they'd have six days to argue.
Well, I debated about contacting my dad. Maybe I should tell him and my mom right away. Even if it wasn't the right reason, because there was something as simple as the face cam option on W******p or G****e Meet. Still, I was reluctant to call.
With a tired exhale, I rummaged through the cupboard for a packet of instant noodles. I had already skipped dinner because of Eva's sudden invitation, and my stomach had been rumbling for a few hours. I also had the feeling that I was about to eat something bad.
But I refused to know why. Lea had been blocking me out from her until now. Poor thing she must have been pretty shattered by this whole unfortunate turn of events and I knew that very well.
While I waited for the water to boil, I prepared a tray with a fork, spoon, water, and a small portion of parmesan and parsley so I could take the food into the living room. I was used to eating by myself. When my paternal grandparents were alive, I almost always had to eat with them when my parents were away. It was all they could do after they got too old to travel, so they gave my father the responsibility of being the chief representative of Red Moon Inc. But ever since my grandmother died and my grandfather got sick from grief before he finally passed away five years ago, well, for werewolves, when one of their mates dies, it's bound to be a deep sadness because we only have one soulmate, so I understand the situation my grandfather was in.
In fact, my family is of werewolf blood, along with Jayden's extended family. They try to blend into society side by side with humans. From the moment my grandparents died, I had to cook for myself. I also never knew my maternal grandparents, as they died before I was born, and none of my relatives lived in the neighboring town.
But it didn't really matter. Apparently, I've always felt lonely all my life, as far back as I can remember. The curse of fate, I guess.
I put the noodles in steaming hot water and added the packets of various spices and dried vegetables. The little screen on the microwave said 11:30 p.m. I hated myself for eating so late instead of sleeping, especially since I had to go to school at eight in the morning. But as I stirred all the ingredients and watched the noodles and ingredients soften and the clear water turn reddish, I realized that I was waking up with an eerie feeling.
Lazily, I remembered the expression on his face. It seemed like he was about to say something in our earlier conversation. Maybe something important. What was it? He's not stupid enough to think that he can go out with his girlfriend while he's engaged to another girl, is he? No, I don't think so. There had to be a reason - either bad or unexpected - why he'd decided to stay with me now that his heart was hers.
"Ugh, stop it," I hissed inside. "Get him out of my mind, he's not worth wasting my mental energy on. Well, just give my parents a call in the morning, since they're probably asleep right now. Let them take care of their poor only daughter."
My tone sounded bitter. I think my face looked bitter as well. But hey, at least I was out of a hell marriage and a cheating mate that was probably doomed to end badly. I don't know what I would have done if I found out about Blair Anderson after I walked down the aisle. Let's just say that a bowl of noodles in the middle of the night would be the least of my worries.
At the moment, I'm sitting in front of the TV, absentmindedly flipping through the channels, when I finally feel drowsiness creeping into my eyelids and my body. The long-cold pot of sauce and my glass of water had already been emptied and refilled twice. I turned off the TV and headed for the kitchen with my dishes when a voice suddenly broke the silence.
Ring, ring, ring.
The sound was coming from my cell phone. I immediately ran to the kitchen, having forgotten to put the phone in the kitchen, and picked it up. But, the caller was someone I didn't recognize.
Why would someone call me in the middle of the night?
Screw that, it's already past midnight, I noticed as I looked at the microwave. But there wasn't enough time for me to think, so I answered right away, without considering various possibilities.
"Hello?" I said hesitantly.
"Um..." a male voice sounded soft. "Who is this?"
"Shouldn't you know, since you're the one calling?" I parried, immediately becoming suspicious. The person sounded vaguely familiar, though I couldn't guess who it was.
"Well, this is the only number I haven't called on this phone, and it doesn't clearly state the person's name."
I frowned. "What?"
Suddenly I heard a voice in the background near me - or rather, a speaker on another phone - and I realized, "He's really cracked the code!" and "Who are you talking to?" until finally, "Tyler, give me the phone."
There was a rough scraping sound in my ears. My brow furrowed further as another male voice spoke to me.
"It's Clark Walter, one of the lead managers of Boyz Hits Bullets."
"Okay?" I said slowly.
"Are you related to or friends with Jayden Ronan Keller?"
"I wouldn't say either," I replied, feeling cold at the sound of his name. "But I do know a guy by that name who happens to be in this group."
There was a sigh in the voice. A long, laborious breathing out and I suddenly stiffened.
Suddenly I knew that something was very wrong.
"Over there... there has been a serious accident. If you could come to the Silvercross Healing Center as soon as possible, it would be a great help. Did you need help getting here?"
Ashley POV There was a moment's pause as I digested his words. A sense of fear and uncertainty filled my mind. "What happened? Jayden, is he okay?" my voice was slightly shaky, though I tried to hold it in. "There was an accident. Jayden was involved in it," Clark explained in a serious tone. "We hope you can come as soon as possible because we need the support of those closest to him." 'An accident?' Lea whimpered instantly. "What kind of accident?" I could hear myself asking the question. "It'll be easier to explain when you're here," he said impatiently. "When can you get here?" "I... I can get there in about twenty minutes if the traffic clears," I overheard myself saying. "All right, I'll meet you at reception." All the way there I was so worried that I couldn't even sit still. I didn't even bother to call my parents to get a driver for me. In the meantime, the taxi driver gave me an odd look as I kept fidgeting, scratching my arms and ruffling my hair. I didn't care that
Ashley POV Clark seemed like he was about to say something else but I had already gone inside. Sitting on the edge of one of the two infirmary beds with his booted feet firmly planted on the floor and his back to the door. There was a lonely man wearing a large T-shirt and baggy blue jeans. A layer of bandages was wrapped around his head, his right arm was splinted with a brace, and I could see small scratches and bruises all over his body that had mostly been patched up. A few spots of red blood stained his white T-shirt. Other than that, Jayden Ronan Keller looked just fine. As soon as I entered, he instantly turned around. The look of suspicion on his face turned into a face full of familiarity - and excitement. "Ashley!" he called out and all of a sudden stood up and made a motion to come over to me before stopping. His eyes flicked to something behind me and his face seemed to stiffen. It was Clark Walter walking right towards me. I quickly gathered myself and cleared my thro
Ashley POV Even so, I reached over his shoulder gently, squeezing his bicep with my other hand. He stiffened slightly but then relaxed as I started talking. "We are going to work this out," I said softly. "One step at a time. I don't know how, and I doubt I'm even qualified enough to help you, but I will do my best. I don't want to see you broken because of this." "I... I have wanted to be a singer for a long time..." The sound of his voice was almost barely audible. It took all my strength not to put my arms around him and hug him until he told me to stop. I knew it was wrong. "I know," I replied. "I'm not going to let you lose this opportunity. I'm going to help you get through this, Jayden Keller." Even though I knew it was a silly thing to do after what he had done to me, I felt responsible for helping him through this difficult time. Part of me blamed the stupid bond that still clung to me and him. One of his hands found mine and grasped it. "Even though I have been bad to
Ashley POV Oh, shoot. Not because he had a famous girlfriend, but because he had cheated on me, my soon-to-be ex-fiancé, for who knows how long. And even though he was suffering from amnesia which made him more mellow - probably because he did not recognize anyone else but me as well as the pair bond between us and therefore he was attached to that sense of familiarity - yet I still did not consider him a friend. Besides, technically speaking, he is still a pop idol who definitely has tons of fans who adore him in various ways. So, he did not qualify as a friend, other than as an idol, and here I was, wallowing in my own emotions. Great. Before I dragged myself off to sleep, I decided to go see Clark. The man paces back and forth in front of the door, and opens his mouth to speak when he sees me coming. In a flash, I put a finger to my lips, shutting him up. "He is finally asleep," I whispered as I peered through the gap between the door and the frame. "I will be here until morni
Ashley POV Really, I had no idea what to say. This could have been an opportunity for me to tell him the truth, that the two of us had been engaged and mated since the age of eighteen. But then, he had cheated on me and I had called off the engagement and rejected him. Now I might have to change all that. Frankly speaking, I did not hate the idea of it anymore. I was the only person he trusted and, as I admitted a few hours ago, I felt that I was starting to really like him, perhaps because of the bond that still lingered between the two of us or because it was only me who was there, no matter how scary it was. And I will keep my promise to him - I will help him get through the amnesia. But I still could not get the image of him and her out of my head. So, despite it hurts more than anything in the world, more than when I break my collar bone falling down a hill or more than all the words and "jokes" from my friends, I decide to lie. "There was a girl who visited you earlier," I st
Ashley POV I stared at him incredulously. "You have got to be kidding me, right." "I don't think so," Clark replied, sipping his cup of coffee unwillingly. "I will help you as much as I can, but it all depends on you." "I... I..." I trailed off. Hesitating. "You hesitated?" "That does not even come close to describing how I feel," I admitted and nervously scratched my arm. "I... I will try my best, I really will. But..." I cut myself off right then and there. I had only promised Jayden that I would help him through his amnesia. I did not need to bring him back to the top of the music industry again. But I knew he had suffered and worked hard and spent too much time in his life to lose it all just because he was ignorant and impulsive enough to run drunkenly through the streets at the wrong time. On top of that, I also felt a little guilty. Despite him - or rather, I could call him an asshole scumbag. If only I had never let him down so much, he probably would not be in such a de
Ashley POV However, then I remember Jayden's face when he looked at Clark. I recall the anxiety creeping into his voice as he spoke to me, and he looked so desperate as he tightly held my hand. He had become someone entirely different. Afraid and vulnerable. So close to his dreams yet suspicious, confused, and alone. Now, he only trusts me. Of course, I couldn't forget how his eyes were fixed on his dear girlfriend as well. As that scene replays in my mind, my wolf, Lea, starts to whimper and feels a sting. Eva had been discussing her favorite solo performance as I reminisced when she said something that caught my attention. "'Tyler James'?" I repeated. "Who is he?" "Are you serious, Ash?" Eva exclaimed. "I have been talking about BHB for years, and you're just now paying attention?" "Sorry," I said nonchalantly as I checked the time on my phone. It seemed like the class would start soon. "You never listen to me when I talk about my interests." "Oh, is that so? Okay, I will kee
Ashley POV "Sweetie? We are so sorry that we have not been able to call you back until now. Jayden's parents have been in a frenzy since noon, trying to find a cheap ticket back to Beverly. We did not worry you, did we?" As it turned out, it was my parents who called me. My dad's gentle, low, humming voice comforted my ears. Truth be told, I was a little worried when they did not answer my phone calls even during lunch. I had left a voicemail that I had something important to tell them but had no time to think about it anymore because of school matters and battle plans. By battle, I mean the battle against Jayden's amnesia. "Did you know that their son had an accident last night?" The piercing voice of my mom pierced through the phone line, making me wince. She was a beautiful, strong, determined woman, and the woman I admired most in the entire world, but her voice could cut through diamonds. "Yeah," I said, holding the phone slightly away from my ear and turning down the volume
Jayden POV23.02 - Fine, I'll go get your stuff. See you in five minutes?23.02 - Perfect! Hey, baby, you're not mad at me, right?Rolling my eyes, I replied with the word “No”. To be frank, I'm not mad at her. I'm just tired of her. Blair was prettier than most, very talented, and kind despite being more of a loner than Jean and overall she was a very nice girl. She is the kind of girl that guys dream about, because of her sweet and lovable nature, her graceful and slender figure. In fact, she was exactly what I wanted when I first laid eyes on her. I used to think I could finally fall in love, and it would be with her because she's almost perfect in every way. I mean, how could a guy not like a woman like Blair?At first, it was fun and exciting. I had never had someone... someone who I knew was definitely interested in me and talked to me for twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week. She made me break down my walls, to the point where I felt I could trust her. I thought I could
Jayden POV—Flashback a few hours before the accident after the concert in NY in February—“Good job, everyone! That's a wrap for our concert in NY!”Clark escorted the seven of us from backstage to one of the leather couches in the dressing room before darting off somewhere. Some of the other coordinators and managers who had been with us for a few months to a few years came next, all with smiles on their faces. I poured the last contents of my water bottle over my head to cool down as I sat next to Jax. The liquid dripped down my face, neck, and back, soaking the black T-shirt I wore at the end of the concert, and though it felt relatively warm, I was still able to breathe a sigh of relief.“There's a place called the bathroom.” Tyler leaned over to my right and tugged gently on my sleeve. “Man, you're soaked.”“You too,” I retorted as I stared intently at his hair stuck to his forehead.“I'm starving,” whimpered Jean as he fanned himself frantically with someone's magazine. He plop
Ashley POVJayden was checking himself out in the massive mirror, eyes trailing from head to toe. His dyed light brown hair was a mess, and he had just enough makeup on to cover the small scar on his left cheek. Titanium earrings dangled from his ears, and rings wrapped around his fingers. He wore a red bomber jacket over a teal patterned shirt, paired with tight— very tight— black skinny jeans and branded sneakers to complete the look.“Hey,” he greeted, locking eyes with me through the mirror.I pushed a rolling clothing rack filled with expensive-looking shirts and jackets. “No white tees? What’s going on?” I asked.Jayden let out a small laugh. “Sorry to disappoint,” he replied, adjusting his collar. “Anyway, where have you been? I’ve been looking everywhere for you.”“I was at the mall,” I lied, trying my hardest not to rub my wrist. “I’m actually feeling kinda sick. I don’t know if I can stay for the whole concert.”He immediately turned to me. “You have to,” he said, a hint of
Ashley POVChugging his water bottle, Jayden turned his attention back to his friends. Miles, however, kept sneaking glances at me, his expression unreadable. I gave him a small smile anyway, hoping to reassure him that I was fine.A lie, of course. I was fine. I just had no idea how.“Are you and Miles having a thing or...?”My jaw practically hit the floor, and I gawked at Blair in disbelief. “What?” I blurted, unable to hide my shock. “Of course not!”She tapped a finger against her chin, flashing me an apologetic smile. “Sorry, that was kind of fishy.” She came closer, the scent of her strawberry perfume stinging my nose even more. “Come on, we’re friends. You can tell me.”I was this close to telling her that friendship didn’t work that way. Hell, I wanted to punch her square in the jaw. But I managed to hold back and just shook my head. “No, really,” I said, sneakily shifting away from her. “There’s nothing going on between me and him. Or anyone else in this group, for that matt
Ashley POVAs Clark and I stepped out onto the empty stands on the east side of the arena, the music was blasting.He left me alone when a female staff member hesitantly approached us, wanting to talk to him about something backstage. He apologized for having to leave so suddenly, but I assured him I’d be fine. Honestly, he could’ve walked away without me even noticing.Because there were seven guys dancing in the middle of the brightly lit stage, I couldn't take my eyes off them.Or, more specifically, the one wearing gray sweatpants, a loose white T-shirt, and yellow-branded boots.Jayden Keller.The last time I saw him dance, I was honestly shocked. Not because he was bad— far from it. It was just… before, I’d seen him dance like there was nothing else in the world except the stage, the audience, and the rhythm of the music. When he performed, he became someone entirely different… No, he transformed into something more than just a regular person. His singing and dancing wove togeth
Ashley POVMonday was chill. I spent the day wandering around the area near my hotel, snapping pictures of the city. Somewhere along the way, I stumbled upon a hobby store packed with all kinds of trinkets and ended up buying some dolls and tiny figurines for Eva before heading back. I also swung by a small shop to grab some snacks.A hot shower melted away my exhaustion, and soon enough, I was lounging on the bed in a ridiculously oversized bathrobe, binge-watching N*****x for hours. I meant to change into my pajamas, but I crashed before I even got the chance.For a moment, I floated in darkness— no real-life drama, no danger, just peace.Then, a buzzing noise across the room yanked me out of my sleep. Still half-asleep, I clumsily rolled out of bed and made my way to the desk where I'd left my phone charging. My eyes fluttered as I tried to shake off the drowsiness. It was bright outside, but I didn’t really stop to think about it.Not until I, still groggy, picked up the call and h
Ashley POVIt wasn’t jealousy or some masochistic urge that led me to my newest idea. No, seriously, it wasn’t. Honestly, I just wanted to know more about her, because she was the reason behind everything that happened that night at the stadium back in February. Because I could swear she had planned every single one of those so-called coincidental meetings between me and Jayden, which eventually led to the accident and his amnesia.I mean, I had no solid proof, but judging by the way she acted and spoke… something felt off. My gut just told me so.I didn’t think Blair had planned for Jayden to go on a drunken rampage afterward and get hit by a car— especially judging by how damn annoying she was in the Silvercross Healing Center parking lot— but she sure as hell wasn’t innocent, either. But I also knew she hadn’t known about my engagement to Jayden at the time, which was obvious from Jayden’s own words and what she said to me after he kicked her out of his hospital room.Besides, I st
Ashley POVThe streets weren’t exactly empty, but David had been circling the block for the past half hour, worried about my safety. That’s why he managed to pull up right where he had dropped me off just a few minutes later. Before getting into the car, still a little tipsy, I waved goodbye to the BHB band members— except for Jayden and Jamie, who were still upstairs looking for something they’d left behind.Even though it felt kinda weird leaving without saying goodbye to everyone, maybe it was for the best that I didn’t see Jayden again. At least, not that night.I had to wipe my eyes more than a few times on the way home. Not even the alcohol could numb the sharp ache in my chest.The moment I got back, I collapsed onto my bed and passed out.The next morning, fighting off a pounding headache, I came to the conclusion that my trip to Milan needed to be about more than just Jayden’s concert. I had to make this trip for myself too. And since Eva was too busy to come along and Jared
Ashley POVIf my brain wasn’t so clouded with exhaustion and alcohol, I might’ve reacted properly to what he just said. But right now, I was way more drunk than I wanted to admit. I pushed aside every thought fighting for space in my head, whether real or not, because his body heat and the scent of white musk, soap, and just him made something inside me shiver with longing. I didn’t trust myself in this state. I didn’t trust myself when my lips were this close to his neck, where his scent was strongest.So instead, I focused on one thing— holding on."Ash, I have a question."He had already reached the second floor, adjusting his grip on me. I glanced at him, curious, urging him to continue. "Shoot.""I was wondering if you’d come to our show at the end of May," he said quietly as he stepped onto the last staircase. "I know it’s around finals, but..." I felt him swallow hard. "I want you to be there. To see us, to see me... perform."I pretended to think about it for a second, but hon