Ashley POV
Well, I'll take it back. His mom is actually a good woman. It's just his father that's the problem. But that doesn't change the fact that Jayden R. Keller, my mate and fiancé, already has a girlfriend who even dared to cheat on me behind my back. Isn't that ironic?
Meanwhile, Blair walked to the sink beside me and carefully washed her hands. Her pale skin looked whiter than it did in the commercials, though I couldn't tell if that was due to good genes, makeup, or the pale light from the overhead light. Really, public bathrooms always have horrible lighting.
I have to admit, though, that she was still beautiful. In fact, she's even more beautiful in real life. Commercials take some of the humanity out of the people who star in them, and even dramas have managed to dull her light a bit. Or maybe it's her "imperfections" that enhance her beauty. The slight curve of her nose, the slight dip of her ears, the slight imbalance between her upper and lower lips - every little thing.
His jacket was a thick but sleeveless denim jacket and a hoodie made of a comfortable, oversized gray sweatshirt material. I remembered that the jacket fit him well, but it was too big for Blair. She even rolled up the sleeves, exposing her slender wrists and fingers. She had a slender, graceful neck - like a swan's - and around her neck, curving to follow the shape of her clearly visible collarbone, was the thin gold chain necklace I had bought for him. I was so sure because I'd spent hours thinking about its unique design, and even longer staring at it after I'd forged it to make sure it was exactly what I wanted. It was the first gift I'd given him after our engagement, and I wanted it to be special. Something he would always remember.
And here it is, in someone else's possession. Isn't that sweet? I was the one who gave it to Jayden, but he had the audacity to give it to another girl. What a sweet person, I scoffed in my heart.
Feelings of jealousy surfaced and told me to snap. But I managed to ignore them. To be honest, I wasn't really in love with Jayden or anything, maybe because we are mates and bond so I could feel that sense of pain. I hated him more. But I wasn't going to let him cheat on me. Not if we had to mate and get married.
Although, is that even an option anymore? If my parents find out, our engagement will definitely be called off. Is this my ticket out of the soon-to-be horrible, shitty wedding town? Is this good for me?
When she realized that I was staring at her, trapped in my own swirling thoughts, Blair looked back at me and smiled politely. "Finally finished today?" she asked in a light, trembling voice. "You and the other coordinators have worked very hard and deserve at least a week off."
This statement took me by surprise for a moment, and I was just about to open my mouth and tell her the truth - that I was just there to get my keys - when an idea popped into my head. "Yes," I replied quickly, putting on my friendliest smile. Strangely, it was painful to smile at her. "I've been here since morning with some other people. I'm exhausted."
My smile must have looked as hurtful on my face as it did in my chest because she gave me a sympathetic look. "I'm sure. They're lucky to have you. At least you can get some rest on the flight overseas."
"Yes," I repeated, not knowing anything about traveling abroad.
I continued to wash my hands, rubbing and scrubbing them in a way that suggested I'd gotten something sticky. While I waited for her to finish washing her hands, I followed her to the hand dryer. When she was satisfied, I stayed in front of the machine, praying fervently that the plan would work.
"Do you want to go back together?" she finally asked, raising her voice above the loud roar of the machine.
I nodded and followed her to the door, remembering the guard who had escorted me earlier. He probably wouldn't approve of me following her, knowing that I wasn't... What did she mean by a coordinator? What did she mean by that?
"Wait," I called out as I stopped.
"What's going on?" she asked, turning her head with her eyebrows raised in surprise.
"There's this guy," I began, hoping my lie didn't sound as outrageous as it did in my head. "He's in security and he's been asking for my number all day. He's waiting outside the bathroom right now. I'm kind of afraid he's going to follow me home or something. If you could do anything to help me get away from him, I'd really appreciate it."
Her eyes widened in horror. "Are you sure you don't have to report this to the manager?"
I shook my head. "I just started working for him, I don't even have an ID yet." Inwardly, I clenched my fist at the brilliant idea of mentioning my obviously non-existent identity. In front of her, I tried my best to play the shy intern. "I don't want to get in trouble."
"It's not a problem, you should know that," she said gently. "But I understand the need to show self-identity, and the girls need to stick together." She gave me a big smile. "What do you want me to do?"
She was really sweet. Really, I almost felt sorry for her. Almost.
"If you could tell him that you want to talk to me backstage or something," I replied, "I could use that opportunity to sneak out of here through one of the back doors. Make it look like you're really mad at me or something like I did something wrong or insulted you. He could stay away from Blair Anderson. You're pretty famous, you know."
She giggled. "I sound like an Alpha mafia boss." She quickly caught herself and regained her composure. "But if he tries to bother you again in the future, you'll have to find his manager. Promise me?"
Okay, now I'm starting to feel bad. In another world or timeline, we might have been best friends. Fortunately, a glance at the necklace on her skin and the jacket on her body restored my resolve.
"I'll do it," I said, managing what I hoped looked like an anxious or at least shy smile. It wasn't too hard to put together since what I was doing was practically trespassing, and it was being done under the guise of being a fake worker. It was probably an illegal act. I could already imagine the media bad-mouthing my family name and the pack that had made my late grandfather a great achiever if I got caught.
"Come on," she said as she pushed open the bathroom door.
Nodding, I followed her out. The guard who had been watching me wore a puzzled expression as Blair wrapped her arm around mine and began to pull me in the same direction I had come.
"I need to speak with her," she said coldly. "Please return to your position."
He opened his mouth to speak, but she cut him off. "No protests. She's mine for now."
"If you're sure," he said hesitantly, not really backing down.
"I'm sure." She stepped away from him. When we were both far enough away that it was safe to talk, she muttered, "What an asshole."
"Thank you," I exclaimed, feeling a genuine relief wash over me.
"Yes, of course," she said cheerfully, letting go of my arm. She continued walking down the hallway, very quickly considering her small frame, and I had to work hard to keep up with her. "Do you have a ride? It's a little late for a girl to be walking home alone."
"Actually, I don't," I lied with fake embarrassment. "Do you mind...?"
"Not at all!" She smiled. "I need to take care of the coordinators while they take care of my boyfriend and his group members. In the end, I will take care of him."
"What?" I did. Bingo. The beans had been spilled.
"Oh, you're new, I forgot," she said before lowering her voice conspiratorially. "Everyone has been very good about keeping this hidden and private, and I thank them for that. Inevitably, however, the media will probably find out sooner or later, and our managers have agreed that those who work closely with them will probably find out as well."
"Know what?" I asked stiffly.
"I... I'm in a relationship with one of the members," she said, then blushed.
Suddenly I felt my heart getting cold. I had known it since I had seen her, but it felt worse to hear it in person. In the end, I could only nod once.
"And who is he?" I asked, trying to sound curious but not like I was prying for information.
By then, the two of us had turned a corner that led to a narrow hallway with a pair of double metal doors - not unlike the ones in the women's restroom - at the end and on the west wall in the middle. "Backstage" was written above the door at the end of the hallway, but the fact that I had arrived at my destination was not what caught my attention.
What caught my attention was the crowd of people coming out of those doors - specifically, the seven people I had just seen perform on stage who were walking forward.
They had changed into more casual clothes, wearing jackets or coats with various hats and masks covering their mouths and noses. But even in the opaque bodysuit that covered his entire body, I could catch a glimpse of Jayden, I could smell his scent, the white musk filled my nostrils, even as long as he could still talk. To be honest, even if he couldn't, I'd probably have a better chance of finding him than most. I've known him for so long, that I can even recognize him by the way he walks and moves. He would need more than a white mask and a black Puma brand hat to hide from me and my fierce gaze.
Maybe he felt it too. Because as soon as my eyes fell on him, he glanced between me and Blair. His familiar brown eyes widened in surprise, and I could see movement behind his mask that indicated he actually opened his mouth in surprise. He even stopped abruptly as the person behind him bumped into him, causing him to stumble slightly. Had it been another day, I probably would have felt a sense of joy at the look of confusion on the face of one of the most annoying people in the world.
But now I was angry, and I had every right to be.
"Jayden!" Blair shouted in an overly sweet voice. "Why are you all trying to leave without saying goodbye? I was just in the bathroom with..." She looked at me. "Uh, what was your name?"
I had forgotten his presence and reflexively shifted my focus to Blair. I saw a glimmer of light in her eyes, but it disappeared before I could confirm its nature. Instead, I did my best to stay where I was and continue the charade of being a shy intern. It was also possible that Jayden would do the same and pretend not to recognize me. He was smart enough to pick up on things very quickly. He would play it smooth and keep his cool, and so would I.
However, to my amazement, and I must admit, with an unnatural mixture of satisfaction and fear, he reacted in a completely different way.
Narrowing his eyes to mine, he opened his mouth and swore loudly. Before anyone in the hallway, including me, could speak or react, he growled in the same cold voice I had heard so many times before.
"What are you doing here, Ashley?"
Ashley POVThe situation became silent, as if in suspended animation. The only thing that reminded me that I was still alive, or that time hadn't stopped, was my racing heartbeat. And, of course, the fact that I could feel my face quickly turning red. It was as if life wasn't going to let me off the hook for such an embarrassment. It was just too cruel."Jayden, isn't she a friend of your family?"The figure of the man who spoke, finally breaking the spells that had everyone glued, was about the same height as Jayden. I couldn't see his hair or most of his face, but I recognized him by the deep voice that had captivated the entire stadium an hour and a half ago with a very painful song. It seemed like he had introduced himself at the beginning of the concert."Is it really her?"The other man who spoke was the tallest of the group. He opened one side of his mask behind his left ear, revealing his whole face. I recognized him, he was the leader of the group, Jackson or better known as
Ashley POV A few excited shouts and cheers were heard as soon as the exit door opened. The guy broke away from my gaze and slipped out after Jax. Then it was just the two of us. It took about ten minutes for the guards to shoo the fans away and for all the staff to be let out of the building. It took me another ten minutes to prepare to confront Jayden. I stared at the worn rubber floor for that long, trying to find the right question. Since when? How? Why? As soon as the door closed and everyone was out of the room, he walked over to me. I looked up as he stopped half an arm's length from me. His face was without makeup and the ends of his hair sticking out from under his hat looked wet. His expression was hard to read as he crossed his arms and stared intently at me. It was then that I realized he was much taller than me. When did he grow so fast? "Why are you here?" The question that popped into my head was cut off. "Eva invited me," I replied stiffly. His eyebrows knitted toge
Ashley POVHe didn't follow me, though. But I knew he had seen my tears. I tried to wipe them away as I hurried out of the stadium. I didn't know why I was crying. I should have been screaming with joy, celebrating his betrayal, maybe drinking a beer by myself. I was free. My life is so ironic, isn't it? Like some kind of cheesy drama in a TV series. Then why did it hurt so much?When I arrived, I saw Eva's face immediately turn serious when she saw me, and she silenced her tired and cranky mother and her friends. There seemed to be something in my expression that made them worry and not talk to me, as they remained silent all the way home. Eva's mom made sure to drop me off first, even though the trip to Beverly Street would take the longest because of the detour from the stadium."I'll call you tomorrow, okay?" Eva asked after I thanked her mom. Her eyes were worried."Sure," I said quickly as I got out of the car. I found myself sounding much more harsh than I wanted to, so I added
Ashley POV There was a moment's pause as I digested his words. A sense of fear and uncertainty filled my mind. "What happened? Jayden, is he okay?" my voice was slightly shaky, though I tried to hold it in. "There was an accident. Jayden was involved in it," Clark explained in a serious tone. "We hope you can come as soon as possible because we need the support of those closest to him." 'An accident?' Lea whimpered instantly. "What kind of accident?" I could hear myself asking the question. "It'll be easier to explain when you're here," he said impatiently. "When can you get here?" "I... I can get there in about twenty minutes if the traffic clears," I overheard myself saying. "All right, I'll meet you at reception." All the way there I was so worried that I couldn't even sit still. I didn't even bother to call my parents to get a driver for me. In the meantime, the taxi driver gave me an odd look as I kept fidgeting, scratching my arms and ruffling my hair. I didn't care that
Ashley POV Clark seemed like he was about to say something else but I had already gone inside. Sitting on the edge of one of the two infirmary beds with his booted feet firmly planted on the floor and his back to the door. There was a lonely man wearing a large T-shirt and baggy blue jeans. A layer of bandages was wrapped around his head, his right arm was splinted with a brace, and I could see small scratches and bruises all over his body that had mostly been patched up. A few spots of red blood stained his white T-shirt. Other than that, Jayden Ronan Keller looked just fine. As soon as I entered, he instantly turned around. The look of suspicion on his face turned into a face full of familiarity - and excitement. "Ashley!" he called out and all of a sudden stood up and made a motion to come over to me before stopping. His eyes flicked to something behind me and his face seemed to stiffen. It was Clark Walter walking right towards me. I quickly gathered myself and cleared my thro
Ashley POV Even so, I reached over his shoulder gently, squeezing his bicep with my other hand. He stiffened slightly but then relaxed as I started talking. "We are going to work this out," I said softly. "One step at a time. I don't know how, and I doubt I'm even qualified enough to help you, but I will do my best. I don't want to see you broken because of this." "I... I have wanted to be a singer for a long time..." The sound of his voice was almost barely audible. It took all my strength not to put my arms around him and hug him until he told me to stop. I knew it was wrong. "I know," I replied. "I'm not going to let you lose this opportunity. I'm going to help you get through this, Jayden Keller." Even though I knew it was a silly thing to do after what he had done to me, I felt responsible for helping him through this difficult time. Part of me blamed the stupid bond that still clung to me and him. One of his hands found mine and grasped it. "Even though I have been bad to
Ashley POV Oh, shoot. Not because he had a famous girlfriend, but because he had cheated on me, my soon-to-be ex-fiancé, for who knows how long. And even though he was suffering from amnesia which made him more mellow - probably because he did not recognize anyone else but me as well as the pair bond between us and therefore he was attached to that sense of familiarity - yet I still did not consider him a friend. Besides, technically speaking, he is still a pop idol who definitely has tons of fans who adore him in various ways. So, he did not qualify as a friend, other than as an idol, and here I was, wallowing in my own emotions. Great. Before I dragged myself off to sleep, I decided to go see Clark. The man paces back and forth in front of the door, and opens his mouth to speak when he sees me coming. In a flash, I put a finger to my lips, shutting him up. "He is finally asleep," I whispered as I peered through the gap between the door and the frame. "I will be here until morni
Ashley POV Really, I had no idea what to say. This could have been an opportunity for me to tell him the truth, that the two of us had been engaged and mated since the age of eighteen. But then, he had cheated on me and I had called off the engagement and rejected him. Now I might have to change all that. Frankly speaking, I did not hate the idea of it anymore. I was the only person he trusted and, as I admitted a few hours ago, I felt that I was starting to really like him, perhaps because of the bond that still lingered between the two of us or because it was only me who was there, no matter how scary it was. And I will keep my promise to him - I will help him get through the amnesia. But I still could not get the image of him and her out of my head. So, despite it hurts more than anything in the world, more than when I break my collar bone falling down a hill or more than all the words and "jokes" from my friends, I decide to lie. "There was a girl who visited you earlier," I st
Ashley POVI rolled my eyes and used my other hand as a barrier to block my vision from seeing something I didn't want to see. “You'll never know,” I stated. “Better to be safe before you regret it.”“I'll go change in the bathroom,” he said with a grunt. “I just wanted you to know about the appointment.”His figure disappeared, and I let out a breath that I didn't realize I was holding. The allure of his scent was too strong for me, for some reason. “Why?” I asked without turning around.“Would you like to come along with me?”I frowned. “I can't,” I said quietly. “I'm going to see Jared that day. He and I... we're getting a ring.”It wasn't my idea, nor was it Jared's idea to do that. The first week in April, my parents returned here for a short break and to meet up with Jared before they were forced to return to London. According to my mom, their business venture there hadn't been entirely successful, and still needed more time before they came to a final agreement. Despite the bit
Ashley POVAs time ticked by, March ended and April slowly turned into May, I found myself and Jayden drifting further and further apart. It wasn't a deliberate move by either of us, or at least not a deliberate effort. It just happened.Jayden was spending more time at the dance studio, and he started coming home with a sore throat some days when he decided to hum along to the choreography. He started singing and reading the lyrics whenever he had time in my apartment, and despite me pretending not to notice, I actually did. I loved his voice, pleasant and velvety like that, soothing my mind and body. And he kept showing drastic improvement with each passing week. Also, when he wasn't dancing or singing or memorizing song lyrics, he went and exercised.“I'm getting fat,” he told me as he read comics on the extra bed one night.I was editing an essay at the time, and didn't think much of it until he mentioned it. “I guess not,” I replied bluntly with a shrug.“I've gained almost five
Ashley POVHe didn't speak, but he didn't need to. His silence was enough. However, the stubborn part of me wanted to push him to bring up the topic... more specifically, how he had been affected by his father.“What about you?” I continued cautiously.His eyes narrowed slightly as they scanned my face. “You know about Jayden,” he pointed out.I averted my eyes.“How long have you known?”He didn't sound accusatory, or angry. No, instead, there was something more familiar, something I also felt related to his... childhood.“Too long,” I replied stiffly. I didn't like being reminded of my mistakes, so I replied automatically, defensively with, “You?”“Me too.”And when my eyes locked with his, I saw that it was there. The endless shame, regret, and guilt. It reflected a part deep inside me, so much so that I could hardly bear to look at it.But I forced myself to do so. Because if I hated it, so did Jared. Yet he was brave enough to stick to his stance.Dinner ended shortly after that.
Ashley POVLooking at the menu, I already knew what I wanted to order. My mom's favorite dish at The Monarch was pasta with a sauce made from roasted oysters, so I went with that. By the time the waiter returned with our drinks, Jared and I were ready to order. She took the menus from us, and as I watched Jared pour himself a glass of dark red liquid, I decided to strike up a conversation that would hopefully shed some light on our upcoming wedding and Jayden. It took me a few precious minutes to gather my courage and organize my thoughts, but I finally went ahead with it.I started the conversation with a light topic. “How was Europe?”Jared quietly observed the interior design of the restaurant and kept doing so as he answered. “Warm,” he said, “and dirtier than I imagined. But also incredibly beautiful in moments I didn't think possible.”“How so?” I asked.“I often hitchhike with my group of friends,” he told me as he raised the wine glass to his lips. He took a slow sip, his eyes
Ashley POVAs Jared and I walked out of the building, I spotted David parked and waiting in the car. But instead of going over to him, Jared stopped at the end of the concrete steps and pulled out a small red cardboard package. It was an automatic action, I could see that, from the way he pulled a lighter from the same pocket and pointed it at the cigarette already tucked between his lips.“Wait,” I chided, ”You can't smoke in here.”He glanced at me. “Why not?” he muttered, stroking his cigarette.Peeking over my shoulder, I glanced at the security guard outside the entrance. “That's illegal,” I said after making sure they weren't watching us.He didn't speak, but his lighter stopped halfway to his lips.“I'm not joking,” I continued. “It's illegal in almost all public places.”“I see.” He hurriedly lowered the lighter and stuffed the cigarette into his shirt pocket. “Where else can I go?”“Er.” I scratched my cheek and looked around for the smoking booth shyly. I didn't find one. “G
Ashley POVSmartly dressed in a suit and tie and polished leather shoes, Jared stood outside the apartment entrance, looking like he was ready to walk the red carpet. He had just finished shaving, revealing a clean jaw, and his dark hair was stylishly combed to the side along the neatly cut sides of his head. The scent of men's cologne and aftershave mingled with the sweet scent of flowers coming from the large bouquet of red roses he held in his left hand. I could see gold on his cuff and silver and black leather on his left wrist, which indicated a watch, and probably an expensive one.Compared to how he looked yesterday, for a moment I thought that I was hallucinating.Jared was also checking me out but seemed unfazed as my eyes were glued to him. “Good evening,” he greeted in a stiff, flat voice.“Hi,” I replied plainly. “Is David here too?”“He's waiting in the car.” Jared stepped closer to me and handed me the flowers. “Here. This is for you.”The bundle of roses was surprisingl
Ashley POV“Ash! You home?”Quickly walking back to the entrance, I found Jayden crouching down and untying his shoelaces. He looked up at me, and despite his caramel brown eyes looking heavy with fatigue, his lips curved into a smile. “Did I just wake you up?”“It's Saturday,” I replied automatically. “Who cares if I wear pajamas all day? You look exhausted though,” I added, a little softer.He snorted. “Hunter's a tough trainer,” he replied as he got up and wriggled out of his boots. “But never mind, I'm starving and smell like shit. Let me shower first before we warm things up.”“About that...” I averted my gaze as a pair of curious caramel brown eyes immediately focused on me. “I have plans tonight.”“Oh?”I scratched my arm. “Yeah. With Jared. He'll pick me up around six.”“From here?”I nodded stiffly.“Okay. Looks like I'll have to eat the leftovers alone, then.”I looked up, stunned, and saw him smiling at me before he darted past me and into the bathroom. I had no idea what k
Ashley POVIt was almost eleven hours later when my eyelids finally snapped open. With a big yawn, I sat up in bed and stretched my upper body before dragging myself to the kitchen. The extra bed was empty as I walked by, and as I poured myself a glass of water, I spotted that there were already dishes in the sink.“Jayden?” I called out hesitantly.Hell, no. He wasn't there.As much as I was instantly relieved when I realized that, I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel a little sad. After all, it was surprisingly lonely having breakfast alone.And despite all the decisions yesterday, I still wanted to see him.The most likely scenario was that Jayden had left for a choreography dance rehearsal with his bandmates, especially since it had become such a routine that he no longer told me that he would be gone for most of the day. It was just that I felt it was a good idea to check the messages on my phone, just in case. And so, after making some warm oatmeal to satisfy my ravenous hunger,
Ashley POV“It's never going to be what you want,” I said softly. “I have my responsibilities and duties as the heiress of Red Moon Inc. just as you have your responsibilities and duties as, you know, Jayden Keller... the hunky celebrity and the golden man.”I sneaked a glance at him, trying to elicit a smile from him, but his face remained stony. His eyes showed no emotion. In the end, I had to look away again. “I have to put my parents and the company first,” I continued, “while you have to put your band members and your image first. Nothing is more important than that to you and me.”“Being forced into marriage is nothing,” I said candidly. “It's just like a drop in the ocean compared to what my parents have sacrificed and done and still continue to do. It's a star in the entire galaxy compared to how hard my grandfather fought and struggled throughout his life to establish this company. And while it's mostly a marriage of convenience now, it's not a bad deal. At least I know Jared