LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW
I looked at my outfit in the mirror once again before struggling with the zipper of my dress.
Stupid zipper.
"Let me help." My heart skipped a beat as I heard Javi's voice, I shifted awkwardly as I felt his hands on my back.
It's hard to feel comfortable and safe around him but I'm trying, I want to make it work.
I forced a smile as I looked at him in the mirror, he pulls it up slowly.
"Thanks," I muttered, I suddenly felt his lips on my neck leaving wet kisses, my heart hammering as the images of that night flashed through my eyes.
~~"Who's Louisa?" Javi's mum looks at me in confusion."Javier hasn't told about Louisa?" I looked at my husband clenching his fork glaring at his mum.She must be really important."No, who is she?" The question now directed to Javier."She's no one."He replied pushing his food aside.I noticed Mrs. Grey was about to speak but she held back, Ace stabbing his food angrily."From my point of view, she seems pretty important." I urged."She's no one, drop it." He glared at me. I recognize those eyes, those eyes
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW."Come on Gemma, let me in." I knocked on the door one last time, she's obviously ignoring me but it's going to take more than that to get me to stop."I came with your favorite, chocolate cake." I waited a minute hoping she'd give in. Nope! Nothing.Stubborn ass bitch.I sighed. Well, I'm not leaving until she talks to me, I carefully placed the cake on the floor and took a seat on her doormat."I guess I'll eat this without you," I yelled."Hmmm, amazing." I rolled my eyes at my pretense."So good, Gem..." I looked at the unto
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEWI closed my eyes hoping the horror witnessed is nothing but a dream, but the images of his body falling right before I keep on flashing.It's real. "O my God, Are you okay?" I looked up to see a blurry figure of Javi racing towards me, I cleaned my eyes to have a better view. In a much clearer view, I saw Javi kneeling before me with a worried look on his face.I closed my eyes again as I felt Javier's hands on mine."I- I'm not okay." I choked out as tears dripped, it's like I'm reliving it in my head; Zach bleeding on the floor as I tried to save his life only to be dragged out of the way by Ace, out of stubbornness and b
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW"W- what, why?" Why is he leaving, it's not that I care or anything but why?Stop it, Loren,you do care."This place ain't that fascinating anymore." He shrugged, I stood there obviously not believing his words."What about your mum's wedding? It's this weekend." He can't just pack his bag and leave.Yes, he can. "Mum would understand." He resumes to putting his clothes into the boxes."When are you leaving?" I bit my lip looking away from him."T
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW."Ace!" I called out looking around for him, ignoring the voice in my head telling me that he left. I can feel the tears arising not knowing why I'm about to cry.Maybe I do want him to stay.I feel weird, almost like everything is crashing down, the heaviness in my heart, trying hard to control my emotion because I'm clearly not meant to be feeling this way.Maybe he's the one keeping sane without him, I have to face the fact that I'm in an unhappy marriage, I got raped my husband who clearly mental issues.I can feel the hot tears leaving my eyes, rolling down my cheeks as the salty water stop on my lips. I dropped the work of a
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW."Ace!" I called out looking around for him, ignoring the voice in my head telling me that he left. I can feel the tears arising not knowing why I'm about to cry.Maybe I do want him to stay.I feel weird, almost like everything is crashing down, the heaviness in my heart, trying hard to control my emotion because I'm clearly not meant to be feeling this way.Maybe he's the one keeping sane without him, I have to face the fact that I'm in an unhappy marriage, I got raped my husband who clearly mental issues.I can feel the hot tears leaving my eyes, rolling down my cheeks as the salty water stop on my lips. I dropped the work of art, fe
~~~~LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW."This is actually your fault." I looked at the arm have been stitching before looking up at my accuser."Really now?" I smirked. He didn't say a word since I started stitching his arm, probably because of the pain but now I'm done he seems to have one or two things to say."Yeah." I looked down at his already stitched arm, I made my way to my first aid kit to get some bandages."How's that?" I teased taking out some white bandages."How about when you were begging me to stay " Ace don't leave, please stay sexy"." I dropped the bandages before him, glaring at the cocky idi
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW.I gulped hard, my heart beating trying to calculate possible things to say.Ace is dead for this."I said what is this?" I turned around immediately in fear as his loud voice filled the room, my eyes meet with his angry ones."Hmm... Its..." I'm officially out of words."I'm losing my patience here Loren is that a..." I cut him off not knowing where the lie came from but I'm glad it did."R- reaction, I'm having a reaction to a new cream that I brought." I tried to control my shaky voice, my heart pounding as Javi looks at me indifferently.
FEW WEEKS LATERLOREN'S POINT OF VIEW"Hey." I awkwardly muttered, covering my baby bump with my coat. I slowly bent down holding the flowers on my right hand, looking at the tombstone before placing it on the grass.With a sad smile, I stood up while holding my baby bump."I sat in the car for hours because I didn't think I had the courage to be standing here but here I am, here I am." I repeated. I don't know why I just kept on staring at the birth year and year of death.Too soon."I am sorry, it's all my fault. It's all my fault that you are gone and I can't do nothing about it." I looked up trying to prevent the incoming tears from falling, I promised myself I would not cry but it is becoming harder.My eyes went to the other grave beside the one I am standing on, it's has Ace's dad name boldly written on it."Co
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW"Javi, please put the gun down." Ace voice came again this time calmer, my heart beating fast at each passing moment as the gun moved back and forth between me and Ace."Shut the hell up, that's not going to work again, I am not stupid." He yelled, anger evident in his eyes, one can tell it is only a thin thread that is holding him from completely loosing it."You know what? Both of you get the hell up." I slowly got up so did Ace, he pulls me behind him which I didn't like.I did notice Ace eyes constantly flickering from the ground and back at Javier, I followed his eyes only to see the gun which he dropped earlier.I froze at the thought of what he's about to do.Is he trying to get himself killed?Ace is obviously not thinking straight before he can get to the gun,
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEWHis reaction to my words makes me what to rethink my decision but I have to stay strong if not for me but for the child I am carrying."I understand your decision but if you could just hear me out." He spoke so softly."What do you what to tell me exactly? Hmmm, that you have been lying about Louisa's death, Zach's and you didn't think of giving me a heads up that your brother is a psychopath that killed his ex-wife. But what do you care as long as you can get in my pants." I am pissed, I really don't know what to believe."That's not true, Loren and you know that." He leaves the couch, standing right in front of me."I don't really know anything at the moment." I am tired of everything, everyone."One question Loren, if I came t
ACE'S POINT OF VIEW."Bet you didn't know, Louisa was in love with you, she was madly in love with you right from the start, she was going to leave me because of you." I froze at his words, staring at him in disbelief.Th-that's impossible.I raised my head only to notice the gun being pointed at me.I gulped hard, trying to process it all.He's lying, he has to be.He let out a low laugh, turning the gun back to his head."Always oblivious aren't you, Ace Grey loved by all yet he doesn't know." I didn't know what to say or think."Since we were kids, she loved you more than a friend. Louisa had always loved you and I had always loved her." My breaths soon became forced, realizing how everything is my fault.
ACE'S POINT OF VIEW.I watched her walk out of the club like something heavy just hit hard on my chest, I found my self feeling uneasy at each retracting step.It hurts that I hurt her, I wanted her to feel what I'm feeling by saying those things to her but it just became worse, I feel worse.I'm an ass. It's not her fault that I fell in love with her, it's not her fault at all. All this is my fault.My heart took control of my legs, I found myself outside the club looking for her so that I could apologize, tell her I didn't mean what I said.I finally spotted her car before I could get to it, it started moving. My head is telling me to go back into the club but my heart has other plans.So I got into my car and stupidly followed her all the way back home.
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW I looked over my shoulders to ensure that Javier is asleep, it's been 2 hours since Ace texted for us to meet. 2 hours of pure anxiety, I'm so anxious as I wonder what he's thinking right now? Is he mad at me?. I have made up my mind I'm going to tell him everything, I don't want to lose him. I just can't. My life is already fucked up as it is, I just want to the runway as Ace suggested. I'm done playing a cop, things are way bigger than me now, I have this lookout for my unborn child. Unborn child. I couldn't help but smile at the thought, I can not think of a better man to be with when welcoming this baby to the world. Excitement replaced my worry, no matter who the father is,
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW. All I could do was take rapid breaths in and out, feeling like if I don't breathe for a second the weight on my chest will rise up to my throat, tighten it and choke me up until I give out. I sat frozen on the bathroom floor, staring at down at the black tiled floor, fearing that moving an inch would mean facing reality, a reality that I'm damn sure I don't face, I can't face. Many thoughts have run through my head, thoughts I'm not proud off and it's eating me up alive. How can I be this stupid, this can't be happening to me, I don't miss my pills, I mean I don't think I did. Gosh, I'm so stupid. I don't want to be pregnant, I can't be, my life's a mess and its all my fault. I pretty sure the water in my eyes has run dry, totally b
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW. "I love you." My heart skipped a beat, while processing his words. I stared right into his eyes, my heart hurts just staring at the admiration in his eyes. I tried not to let the incoming tear drop but its hard just staring at the expectation in his expression. I bit my lips in a stupid attempt to ensure that I don't say something stupid, silence filled the room. He broke the stare, the smile that was once on his face disappeared slowly, breaking my heart. What's wrong with you Loren? I finally moved, I slowly placed my arms around his neck, lifting my feet up a little bit, staring directly into his eyes. I leaned in placing my lips on his, he didn't move for a second, my heart beating hard as my closed my eyes, he soon puts his ha
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEWI walked into the boutique, giving a tight smile to the cashier and at the corner of my eyes I spotted Leah, I looked away immediately, pretending to shop.I took out some clothes not paying attention, I walked over to where Leah is at pretending not to see her."Loren?" I turned to feign surprise."Leah," I called out, pulling her to a hug, which is super awkward.Leah could be the key to knowing what job my dear husband is actually involved in. She was able to slip once, I can get do it again."What are you doing here?" She asked."I shop here all the time." I lied."Really? I own this place." I gasped, trying to look surprised.