Still Married I SLOWLY turned my head to Erwin. "H-hey, let's go,"I stuttered grabbing his attention from him who was now staring also in the direction of Magnus.Shit! Why am I so nervous? What’s wrong with me? It's just Magnus.I blinked, then gently pulled Erwin's arms again. Magnus looked at me."L-let's go, Erwin."Keep calm, Tamara. Just ignore him.“Who is he, Tammy? Why did he look so badto me?" Erwin whispered near my ear.“I-I don’t know. Let's just ignore it.”"Okay, let's go then."I still clung to Erwin's arms until we settled into our separate offices. Before entering, Erwin clenched his fist in front of me. I was hesitant to decide whether to do the same.Why was I stressing myself out that much? What now if Magnus saw me with a male companion?I sighed, and then I finally moved my fist to fist at him even though there was a pair of eyes earnestly glancing at me during those hours.That is our gesture to each other when separating. But now, it seems different. I first
Dear WifeyI MET his gaze. “So, yes, really? What you want to imply now if you don’t admit to yourself that I'm really what you meant then like before, and chase me again and dig like before?”Magnus grinned and still shook his head. “Hmm, you are too advanced to think about it. Okay, to tell you the truth, I’m here because I want to talk to you.”I smiled. “See? It's okay with me if you say you really want to see me too.”"Partly, yes.""H-huh?"“Yes, I also want to see you because I want to talk to my wife. Happy to hear that?”He then approached me a little bit on my face.“Again, I’m not your wife anymore. We are gone. It's been a long time.”“Yes. But the fact is we’re still married. So, whether you accept it or not, you’re still mine... You hear me?”I laughed. “I don’t even care about it. We just only bind in a piece of paper. So you don’t have the right to own me.”“Really? That's why you dare to show and be proud of me you have something new now?”I frowned. Ah, I knew it. It
Determined [ Tamara Pov... ] WE WERE having our lunch at one of the most exclusive restaurants in town. I had no choice. No, because I was shuddered by Magnus's threat so I just go with him now. I just thought I didn’t want to be chaos and issues within the company so I quietly just agreed to this lunch with him. I was quietly blown away by the wind whileglancing at Magnus. His features hadn’t changed at all. I admit that he was even more stunned in my eyes now. Hmm... He really enjoyed eating while I didjust played with the food in front of me. “You don’t like the food I ordered, Tamara?” I immediately took my eyes off him. “I like it. But I'm full. “You can't get full enough of just staring atme.” He grinned and immediately raised an eyebrow at me. “Oh, really?” I rolled my eyes. Magnus shook his head, then stabbed a beefsteak and brought it to my mouth. "Eat." "Hey, I don't want to," I said, then tapped his hand. “Eat or I’ll kiss you?” “I don’t want to. Stop it." "
Unexpected Dinner[ Tamara Pov ]AT LAST, I'm happy because temporarily I'm with someone again. Although she gets uneasy, Bianca agrees to stay at my house while she is still in town for his on-the-job training.I know Bianca is still shy even though she is almost two weeks living at home. But still, though I always remind her not to feel uncomfortable with me."So, you're really going home to the province now?" I asked Bianca as I was driving home.“Yes, Tamara. That's what Mom and Dad know I am going home today. I haven't been to the office for a few days because it's a holiday on Monday and Tuesday,” Bianca replied."Anyway, it's still Saturday tomorrow. But are you really going home now? Isn't it dangerous to travel at night?” I worriedly asked her.“Thank you for your concern. It is not dangerous because it only takes three hours to travel on the way home. My brother and father will pick me up at the bus terminal before I arrive.”"Okay then," I agreed. I don't want to interfere a
ReminiscingRather than rest I just took care of my unfinished work earlier in the office. I spent my time at work and there I poured out my annoyance to Magnus.When it was eleven o'clock in the evening I went downstairs to see if Magnus was still in the living room.He was still there— asleep and twisted because of the cold coming from the stand fan.The stubbornness of this man's head. He would find it harder on the little sofa than to go home to rest properly.I was tempted to go up again to get some blankets. Yes, I hate him, but there is still some left of my conscience.Back in the living room, I approached Magnus, then I laid the blanket on his shoulder and body. I wish I could wake him up and send him home, but there are really traces of tiredness on his face, it may be because of a day at work.I decided to let him rest in my house. Maybe, when he wakes up later he will leave immediately.I sighed when I was free to stare at the entirety of his face. The owner of the face tha
Throwback 1"TAMARA... Hey, baby."A voice brings me back to the present. Someone caressed my wet cheek. A couple of worried eyes stare at a part of my weakness.I shook Magnus's hand, I wiped the tears that never stopped flowing."Get out!" I say emphatically.He sighed. "I know I've made a lot of mistakes. I know I'm the reason for your tears and heartaches right now. Tamara, I'm so sorry, sorry I have made the mistake I have made for so many years for you.""Sorry?!" I said while my tears still continue to flow. "I-I hope it's that easy so I can forget everything you did with the pain in my feelings then. I tried to forget that nightmare in my life, but you are here again to remind me of all the pain.""Tamara, I know, sorry, can't fix all the foolish things I did to you before." I saw Magnus kneel in front of me. "I also know it's not easy to forgive." He stared at me in pity. "I want to correct it all. I want to make up for everything. Please, please, just let me ease the pain, ba
Throwback 2[Continuation]"Rebeka, get out!" Magnus shouted."No, darling. I'll stay here with you. You should have separated from her right now. So that we can be happy and build a new family—""I said get out!" Magnus shouted at my cousin again."Okay. I'll give you a chance to talk to your soon-to-be... Ex-wife, darling." Rebeka turned to me full of pride. "Back off now, Tamara, because he will be mine soon.""Rebeka!""Your husband is delicious. I'll borrow him again, huh? While you are not separated yet." She turned around hard to Magnus. "Darling, hurry up and talk to her, okay? So that we can continue what has already happened earlier." That was the last thing she said, then she left our room."Tamara—"As Magnus approached, my palm immediately dropped on both his cheeks. "You want an annulment? All right, do it and I'll sign it right away!" Magnus was stunned. "I am tired. I don't want to be your wife anymore! Let's break up. Let's end this bullshit marriage, Magnus!"As I com
Cemetery I sighed first, then finally entered the yard where I used to live in the time I was hiding from Magnus. In the place, where I found out about my pregnancy and where did I lose her too…It’d been a while. It's been seven years since I lost a child. She would have been six years old now. But Cassey is just not for me. Heaven is her destination.On the outside of the yard is obvious that it had surrounded by the sadness of the house.I couldn’t help but feel sad. In that house, I learned to be contented with my life, that's where I felt the love of my parents. I was there to feel the fun during the times I was carrying my child in my womb.I smiled bitterly and tried to forget that event in my existence. Because until now, the loss of my daughter is still excruciating pain to me. I still feel it, I tightly hugged her little body. Sign almost didn't want to let her go then. Even though she has no life I still want to hug her and set her aside from me."Who are they?" that voice
FinaleI smiled as I looked at Magnus and our little twin boys. What he wanted to happen — to have twins again and have a mini him came true. Macey was also very happy.She is really a sister to her two youngest siblings. Magnus was talking to our twins. I laughed in silence. The children are teasing their Dad.I bet the two wanted something from their father.Well, it was his fault. He is spoiling the two.Kennedy and Christian were already two years old. The two are identical twins. They were both handsome like their father.Like Magnus, there is also real awkwardness and mischief. The twins were really a perfect mini Magnus. It was as if the two were sculpted and deliberately made to look like him.It's just annoying because I suffered from pregnancy and childbirth but Magnus really looks like our twin children. Even Macey was a female version of her father. It’s very sulking. Sometimes Magnus just laughs at me every time I jokingly ask if they are really my three children.But his
CravingsWE were here at my husband’s exclusive resort. Magnus canceled everything booked at the resort whether tourists or locals— for me and my friends. This is my promise to Roberta. I was so glad and surprised when Magnus supported me on this. I was even surprised that he had a resort that was so beautiful.Magnus told me that this resort is really for me. He had it built eight years ago. This was supposed to be a graduation and wedding anniversary gift for me. But it wasn't done yet so he didn't immediately give it to me before. My dream house really should be like that. But when we separated, he decided to sell the property but his family did not agree.Even before Magnus's daddy died, that was what he was busy doing.He converted it into an exclusive resort that could be monetized rather than just sold. At first, Magnus also lost his appetite for the place so his dad was still in charge of it. But when he found out that I was Macey's mommy, her desire to fix the resort returned.
Hormones“AM I really have a little brother soon, Mommy?” Macey asked again even if I continuously nodded."Yes baby, but mommy doesn't know yet if it's going to be a 'he' or a 'she."“Yes! Thank you, Mommy, Daddy. Yehey! I will be a big sister, soon...” Macey was happily jumping on her father’s bed.“How? When? I-I mean… When did you find out about it, Tamara?” Magnus still couldn't believe that I was finally pregnant.I handed the cake to Ester again, then turned to Magnus. “In the other day. I'm having trouble waking up, and I'm vomiting. When I try to use my excess pregnancy test, it's positive. To make sure, I immediately visited my Obstetrics Gynecology, and here are the results. I assured my Ob Doctor everything before I told you and Macey because I don't want you to expect it,” I took the test results from the bag with me.I showed it to him. “It’s positive. I’m six weeks and four days pregnant, sweetheart.”Magnus took them in my hand, then smilingly hugged me and kissed me al
Surprise "Nanny Ester, is everything ready?" I ask while eying all the things that I was preparing for that time. “Yes, ma'am. Everything is ready,” she replied with a smile. “Baby, are you ready too? Your guitar?” I asked Macey. "Ready and I'm excited mommy," she replied with a big smile form in her lips. We were going to Magnus’s condo unit. I admitted to Macey yesterday that we were not on the good terms with her father. And now, I decided to reconcile with him with our daughter’s help. Our daughter had a suggestion for me to surprise her father. We will serenade her daddy. Macey will play the guitar and I will sing a song. Gosh! I never imagined myself singing a song. I’d never sung in front of other people. It's embarrassing. But, for my husband... I can do it. The three of us carefully entered the condo unit. Magnus must still be asleep because there is no work today. I just made breakfast at home. It was good for four people. I endured even though I was dizzy from the sm
MisunderstandingI AM lazy to reach out and turned off the alarm clock on the side table when it rang. I did not get up and my eyes remained closed even though my mind was awake. It's only Friday but I really feel like Saturday because I'm too lazy to go to work.Five more minutes.I turned off the clock again and set the alarm again.Even lazily I actually woke up before it was too late to go to work. I looked around the room. I am still sleeping here in our room even though it was very sad to be alone. At first, I wasn’t used to it but I endured the longing for Magnus’s presence next to me.I picked up the pillow he was using, then hugged it very tightly. It had been a while since I told him I needed space. I'm really having a hard time.Almost from time to time, Macey would ask why her daddy was no longer with us. Why doesn't he come home from work anymore? I know our child is very alarmed. The only thing I can answer is that his daddy is busy with out-of-town business. That he's al
Conversation“SHIT! He’s still as hot as ever, Tamara… Gosh, your husband can still take off panties.” Roberta uttered. "I'm still salivating," he added.I picked up my cell phone and looked at the call logs. That's why. Apart from Grandma, Macey also called her father. I just shook my head.“Um—” I was devastated to feel Magnus's presence behind me. Macey and my friends shouldn't notice that Magnus and I are at war now. So, I needed to pretend we were okay.I sighed, then turned to my husband and child."Hi, sweetheart." Magnus greeted me, then bent down and kissed my cheek.“Ahh, shiiit! I'm thrilled. What the heck!" Roberta still doesn’t change and still bites the nail when thrilled."Hmm, a-aren't you busy anymore?" my cheeks flushed and my heartbeat quickened as Magnus and I stared at each other. I noticed that just like my eyes were a bit puffy as well as his."Not anymore—" he doesn't continue speaking when Macey interrupted him.“Daddy, I'm sorry if I disturbed your important m
Macey's PlanROBERTA immediately approached me, he even hardly hugged me at the same time.“Oh. My. God. My jewel friend. My God! Is that really you, Tamara? ” he examined me well, then turned around to see my whole being. “Shit! Not fading, you're still beautiful, gurl.”I crossed my arms and smirked at him. “Of course, this is still me?" It was like I was back in the old days we are still students."Nice. She's still really beautiful herself.”I winked sexily."You know each other?" a question from two kids who looked confused staring at me and Roberta.Smiling we nodded.“Eh, Auntie, are we really going home now? Please, don't. I still wanted to play with Macey,” Daisy pleaded to her Aunt Roberta.“Go home? Oh, no, my niece. Nothing will go home, okay? Anyway, Tamara, this is my cute niece, Daisy. My sister's eldest child. Daisy, say hi to Auntie Tamara.” Roberta introduced his niece."Hi, Auntie Tamara." Daisy waved and smiled at me."Hello, Baby." I patted her on the head in retur
Ice SkatingI JUST bowed while sitting and was quietly crying at the edge of our Master's bedroom. I'd rather not go home, but no, because for sure my daughter will look for me when she came home from school later.My face went up when suddenly someone entered the room. I tried to wipe my tears, but still, I wouldn’t stop them from falling.Magnus stopped in front of me and sighed. "Sweetheart,"I was speechless. I let him see me crying and hurting.“Tamara, please stop crying—”"I hate you!" I say emphatically.“I know you’ll hate me again after what you’ve seen. But please, let me explain first, sweetheart…”“I want space. Leave me first,”He sighed. "I'm sorry…"I raised my face. "I want to be alone, Magnus!"“No. I'm not leaving. Please, talk to me. Let me explain—”“I asked you about your past, but why did you still hide it from me, huh?”"I'm sorry." He closes her eyes tightly. "…I do not want you to doubt.”“So you’d better lie to me than tell me about your past with that woman?
Jealousy“SWEETHEART, where are you? How long have you stayed there? Isn't it over yet?” successive immediate questions by my husband when I answered his call.“Honey, why are you in such a hurry? I'm coming back. Promise,” I laughed.I attended a meeting at Macey's school because the school year is about to close and overall, Macey got the top three throughout the Grade 1 level. Of course, Magnus and I are proud parents, so we would have been to attend the meeting, but my husband has a sudden meeting in the office. So, I just go alone.“I immediately miss my wife. It is bad to check on you every minute?”“Of course, no. I miss you, too. Don’t worry, I’m on my way now, Mister. So prepare yourself, because I'll take care of that later when I get there.”“You’re teasing me, Tamara. You probably know what will happen when you start me.”My smile widened at what he said and I deeply bit my lip. “For your info, Mister, I don't have started doing it because I'm not there yet next to you. So