Still Married I SLOWLY turned my head to Erwin. "H-hey, let's go,"I stuttered grabbing his attention from him who was now staring also in the direction of Magnus.Shit! Why am I so nervous? What’s wrong with me? It's just Magnus.I blinked, then gently pulled Erwin's arms again. Magnus looked at me."L-let's go, Erwin."Keep calm, Tamara. Just ignore him.“Who is he, Tammy? Why did he look so badto me?" Erwin whispered near my ear.“I-I don’t know. Let's just ignore it.”"Okay, let's go then."I still clung to Erwin's arms until we settled into our separate offices. Before entering, Erwin clenched his fist in front of me. I was hesitant to decide whether to do the same.Why was I stressing myself out that much? What now if Magnus saw me with a male companion?I sighed, and then I finally moved my fist to fist at him even though there was a pair of eyes earnestly glancing at me during those hours.That is our gesture to each other when separating. But now, it seems different. I first
Dear WifeyI MET his gaze. “So, yes, really? What you want to imply now if you don’t admit to yourself that I'm really what you meant then like before, and chase me again and dig like before?”Magnus grinned and still shook his head. “Hmm, you are too advanced to think about it. Okay, to tell you the truth, I’m here because I want to talk to you.”I smiled. “See? It's okay with me if you say you really want to see me too.”"Partly, yes.""H-huh?"“Yes, I also want to see you because I want to talk to my wife. Happy to hear that?”He then approached me a little bit on my face.“Again, I’m not your wife anymore. We are gone. It's been a long time.”“Yes. But the fact is we’re still married. So, whether you accept it or not, you’re still mine... You hear me?”I laughed. “I don’t even care about it. We just only bind in a piece of paper. So you don’t have the right to own me.”“Really? That's why you dare to show and be proud of me you have something new now?”I frowned. Ah, I knew it. It
Determined [ Tamara Pov... ] WE WERE having our lunch at one of the most exclusive restaurants in town. I had no choice. No, because I was shuddered by Magnus's threat so I just go with him now. I just thought I didn’t want to be chaos and issues within the company so I quietly just agreed to this lunch with him. I was quietly blown away by the wind whileglancing at Magnus. His features hadn’t changed at all. I admit that he was even more stunned in my eyes now. Hmm... He really enjoyed eating while I didjust played with the food in front of me. “You don’t like the food I ordered, Tamara?” I immediately took my eyes off him. “I like it. But I'm full. “You can't get full enough of just staring atme.” He grinned and immediately raised an eyebrow at me. “Oh, really?” I rolled my eyes. Magnus shook his head, then stabbed a beefsteak and brought it to my mouth. "Eat." "Hey, I don't want to," I said, then tapped his hand. “Eat or I’ll kiss you?” “I don’t want to. Stop it." "
Unexpected Dinner[ Tamara Pov ]AT LAST, I'm happy because temporarily I'm with someone again. Although she gets uneasy, Bianca agrees to stay at my house while she is still in town for his on-the-job training.I know Bianca is still shy even though she is almost two weeks living at home. But still, though I always remind her not to feel uncomfortable with me."So, you're really going home to the province now?" I asked Bianca as I was driving home.“Yes, Tamara. That's what Mom and Dad know I am going home today. I haven't been to the office for a few days because it's a holiday on Monday and Tuesday,” Bianca replied."Anyway, it's still Saturday tomorrow. But are you really going home now? Isn't it dangerous to travel at night?” I worriedly asked her.“Thank you for your concern. It is not dangerous because it only takes three hours to travel on the way home. My brother and father will pick me up at the bus terminal before I arrive.”"Okay then," I agreed. I don't want to interfere a
ReminiscingRather than rest I just took care of my unfinished work earlier in the office. I spent my time at work and there I poured out my annoyance to Magnus.When it was eleven o'clock in the evening I went downstairs to see if Magnus was still in the living room.He was still there— asleep and twisted because of the cold coming from the stand fan.The stubbornness of this man's head. He would find it harder on the little sofa than to go home to rest properly.I was tempted to go up again to get some blankets. Yes, I hate him, but there is still some left of my conscience.Back in the living room, I approached Magnus, then I laid the blanket on his shoulder and body. I wish I could wake him up and send him home, but there are really traces of tiredness on his face, it may be because of a day at work.I decided to let him rest in my house. Maybe, when he wakes up later he will leave immediately.I sighed when I was free to stare at the entirety of his face. The owner of the face tha
Throwback 1"TAMARA... Hey, baby."A voice brings me back to the present. Someone caressed my wet cheek. A couple of worried eyes stare at a part of my weakness.I shook Magnus's hand, I wiped the tears that never stopped flowing."Get out!" I say emphatically.He sighed. "I know I've made a lot of mistakes. I know I'm the reason for your tears and heartaches right now. Tamara, I'm so sorry, sorry I have made the mistake I have made for so many years for you.""Sorry?!" I said while my tears still continue to flow. "I-I hope it's that easy so I can forget everything you did with the pain in my feelings then. I tried to forget that nightmare in my life, but you are here again to remind me of all the pain.""Tamara, I know, sorry, can't fix all the foolish things I did to you before." I saw Magnus kneel in front of me. "I also know it's not easy to forgive." He stared at me in pity. "I want to correct it all. I want to make up for everything. Please, please, just let me ease the pain, ba
Throwback 2[Continuation]"Rebeka, get out!" Magnus shouted."No, darling. I'll stay here with you. You should have separated from her right now. So that we can be happy and build a new family—""I said get out!" Magnus shouted at my cousin again."Okay. I'll give you a chance to talk to your soon-to-be... Ex-wife, darling." Rebeka turned to me full of pride. "Back off now, Tamara, because he will be mine soon.""Rebeka!""Your husband is delicious. I'll borrow him again, huh? While you are not separated yet." She turned around hard to Magnus. "Darling, hurry up and talk to her, okay? So that we can continue what has already happened earlier." That was the last thing she said, then she left our room."Tamara—"As Magnus approached, my palm immediately dropped on both his cheeks. "You want an annulment? All right, do it and I'll sign it right away!" Magnus was stunned. "I am tired. I don't want to be your wife anymore! Let's break up. Let's end this bullshit marriage, Magnus!"As I com
Cemetery I sighed first, then finally entered the yard where I used to live in the time I was hiding from Magnus. In the place, where I found out about my pregnancy and where did I lose her too…It’d been a while. It's been seven years since I lost a child. She would have been six years old now. But Cassey is just not for me. Heaven is her destination.On the outside of the yard is obvious that it had surrounded by the sadness of the house.I couldn’t help but feel sad. In that house, I learned to be contented with my life, that's where I felt the love of my parents. I was there to feel the fun during the times I was carrying my child in my womb.I smiled bitterly and tried to forget that event in my existence. Because until now, the loss of my daughter is still excruciating pain to me. I still feel it, I tightly hugged her little body. Sign almost didn't want to let her go then. Even though she has no life I still want to hug her and set her aside from me."Who are they?" that voice