JESSICA’S POVIt was supposed to be just one movie, but I wasn’t ready to face the broken reality that was my life yet. So, I saw another movie and then another movie, then another until my eyes were sore and my head was full with over thinking and longing for the cute and cringey romance movies i had just stuffed myself with. I stared at the screen of the fourth movie I was watching and when I peeked at the digital watch on my wrist, it was way past 9pm, truly time flies when your life was falling apart. I felt broken still, and no amount of sugary and buttery popcorn was going to take the pain of Nathan giving up on me – on us. My eyes started filling up with tears again after the credits started rolling and I realized I had to go back home to an empty house and there won’t be no Nathan seated at the desk in the corner and going through case files.I wiped the tears from my eyes and headed outside where the cool breeze swept through my face and drying my tears. It was freezing in th
I stepped into Parrish’s house and I was immediately engulfed by the sereneness of it all, the neutral colored curtains draping softly to the floor adding to the warm glow that the cream colored walls provided. I took it all in as I walked in, Parrish’s hands placed on the small of my back.“You have a – lovely space.” I said to him.“Pretty small isn’t it?” he said and I shrugged.“I mean for a billionaire – it’s pretty small.” I chuckled walking further into the house and dropping my bag on the table in his dining room while he followed suit behind. He took off his suit jacket and rolled his sleeves to his forearms and revealing some set of muscles that pulsed with each movement he made and I gulped, pulling my eyes away from and concentrating on scrolling through various apps on my phone, I so did not want to look at him.“Do you want something to drink?” he looked at me, his eyes scanning through the mini bar at the corner of the room.“Something strong.” I suggested because that
JESSICA’S POVMy head pounded mercilessly as I opened my eyes, suddenly greeted by the blinding morning light filtering through the unfamiliar room. It took a moment for my blurry vision to adjust, and comprehension slowly tricked in, panic surged through my veins.I sat up suddenly with my eyes roaming around and trying to make sense of my surrounding. I was definitely hangover and the sheer intensity of it made me feel as though a freight train ran straight through my skull. Images of the previous night flickered in fragment and mingling with a haze of alcohol-induced confusion. What the fuck have I done?As I pushed aside the tangled sheets and stumbled towards the door, a wave of mortification washed over me. The memories were tricking in slowly, my mind replaying the embarrassing moments like a cruel movie reel. I had come back with Parrish to his house to look over my presentation slides which we ended up not doing at all, but instead I got insanely drunk and wanted to have sex
My heart pounded in desperation as I raced towards Parrish, and there was desperation fueling my every step. As I reached him, breathless and shaking, our eyes locked in an intensity that spoke volumes. The air crackled with a certain electric anticipation, a magnetic force drawing us closer and pushing towards the edge of the forbidden. Without a word and without a second thought, our lips crashed together in a desperation that sent shockwaves through my entire being. The kiss was fire that blazed, its flames consuming every ounce of rationality and restraint.Parrish’s kiss was delicious, his lips moved against mine with an intensity that resonated deep within me soul. There was the taste of longing at the tip of his tongue, and he gently slipped it into my mouth like a bad decision and I was more than too happy to oblige.“We shouldn’t be doing this.” I breathed into his mouth.“Right.” he echoed back, grabbing my hair gently with one and the other cupping my face as he traced kiss
“Did anyone see me? I said to Parrish as I hurriedly hopped into his car after I made him park a few blocks away from his company because I didn’t want anyone to see me leaving work with him.“I doubt,” he said, “Because suddenly everyone is interested in seeing who you get off work with.”I smacked him playfully, “A lot of busybodies you have as employees sir.”“I don’t care about that.” he said.“Well you should and I don’t want anybody to find out that we’re, well you know – fucking.”Parrish chuckled as we got down from the car together and he walked over to take my hand in his as we walked into yet another fancy restaurant with bright golden chandeliers, waking those damn butterflies that I wanted to stay dormant but I stepped dead in my tracks just at the door of the restaurant and looked up at him.“What’s the matter?” he asked in that husky voice of his.“I mean I don’t want to sit down at another fancy restaurant and just – eat. That’s boring.” in all honesty, I found zero ex
Apart from the innate curiosity that occupied my brain to know what Parrish had been up to all these years, I couldn’t emphasize enough on the warmth that enveloped me when my eyes met his as I stepped out dressed in this wedding dress. He walked over to me, gently caressing the lace that adorned my shoulder. The touch sent a shiver down my spine and ignited a simmering passion within me and in that moment the world seemed to fade away, leaving just the two of us – lost in a intoxicating haze.“I can’t seem to pull my eyes off you Jessica.” Parrish’s touch lingered in every pose, his hand finding its way to the small of my back or fingertips lightly grazing my cheek, I could feel the chemistry crackling between us, my heart bursting, and my stomach fluttering. We giggled like children and held unto each other a little bit excessively.“Now look at her, like she’s the only person you’ll rather look at.” the photographer said and without hesitation Parrish turned to me, and I looked up
Jessica’s POVSome drunken years agoIt was Parrish’s birthday dinner and Parrish had invited me alongside his father and his estranged mother and after that he was throwing a party at some fancy hotel. At this time Parrish and I had been going out for exactly three months and somehow I could feel it in my guts that the honeymoon phase was slowly fading out, but yet I chose to ignore, to push it to the back of my head and not talk about it with Parrish.I was seated at the restaurant dressed in a red fancy dress that I had picked off a boutique even though it was slightly above my budget, Parrish was seated beside me but dressed casually in a black t shirt and some cargo pants with his eyes fixed on his phone, then there was his Mr. Holmes seated opposite us with an empty seat beside him because we were all still waiting for Parrish’s mother. As usual, Mr. Holmes always looked sharp, crisp suit with a bald shining head but seemed to even add more to his mysterious allure.“Nice to mee
Jessica’s POVThe car ride to the party venue was painfully quiet and Parrish had his jaw fixed the whole time and his eyes set on the road as he drove. I fiddled with my fingernails, my brain racking for something – anything at all to say to ease the tension that was already brewing within us and from my point of view, Parrish wasn’t making any effort at all.“Are you going to say something?” I managed to voice out but I was only met with silence, until some moments later and he said.“Not right now Jessica.”“Fine.” I agreed and soon enough we arrived at the location for his party which was already jam packed with people. There were people jumping in and out of the pool, staggering in and out of the house drunk and confused. I could already spot some couples way too freaky to be in public.The moment Parrish and I got down from the car, he had the largest smile plastered on his face like he wasn’t just upset and brooding. Immediately, everyone rallied around us wishing him happy bir
PARRISH’S POV“Oh damn” I exclaimed as I peeked at my watch to find out I had drowned myself in work way too long this time, it was crawling late into the night but I was still seated at my desk pushing myself into files that didn’t need my attention at all. But it was the only way to keep her out of my mind – damn it was even harder to say her name. I fucked, I knew I had fucked up but I never thought she’d find out what happened all those years ago. When Sophie had called me with panic in her voice and all teary, I knew that it was over – I was going to lose her for good. When she texted that we were done, I figured that it’d be for the better. I had done so many things to hurt her, so many unexplainable things that were unforgivable. So I figured, maybe we weren’t meant to be, maybe I was just a passing figure in her life that was created to hurt her and that thought alone nearly drove me over the edge of insanity. But that was what I did – I let her go.I glanced at my phone for w
JESSICA’S POV“Stop” I said, looking into his eyes as his brows knotted in confusion and he pulled away for a bit “I’ll appreciate it if you don’t try to kiss me anymore”Matteo stayed quiet, he had a curious but surprised look on his face that somehow seemed to brighten the darkness in his eyes but only just a little bit.“I told you this changes everything, I’m not about to be in another scandal with my boss – I’m over it”Then he gave a low chuckle “And if it was Marvis?”“You’re messed up in the head” I threw him a dirty look and pushed past him but he held me back by my arm.“Don’t walk out on me, no one walks out me Jessica Peters” he had had his jaw fixed, some sort of annoyance festering in his eyes “Where I come from, that’s the last thing you’ll ever do”I felt instantly infuriated by his words, I wasn’t scared of him – yes, he towered over me, his upper body area was properly built and looked firm to touch even from his expensive looking tailored suit, and also he was my bo
MATTEO’S POVI felt Jessica’s stare burning a hole into the back of my neck as I revealed I was the CEO of this fine establishment and this was the last way I wanted her to find out that I wasn’t just a flimsy manager at a flimsy restaurant but I actually owned it.“Get him out of here” I signaled the doorman to excuse this gentleman away because the last thing I wanted was a pompous prude talking down on my employees. I turned back to face Jessica who still had her hands covering her mouth and her eyes wide with shock.“Come with me” I said immediately before she could dwell further in her theatrics, I walked out of the building to a covering at the side that could give us privacy and when he reached there, she spoke first.“You – ” was all she managed to let out, pointing her delicate fingers at me and I stood amused“Me?” I repeated“You’re – you lied about your identity, why did you lie?”Why did I lie? That was an interesting question that I had no answers to because why did I ac
JESSICA’s POV“Why are you not picking, I’ve been trying to call” I heard Parrish’s voice from outside the door while I remained quiet in the house and hearing knock tirelessly.“Jess – please open up, I know you’re in there” he went on but I stayed quiet and watching him quietly with my chest silently hurting and tears rolling down my eyes but I couldn’t bring myself to actually talk to him, to set my eyes on him and raise in the conflictions in my chest.“Jessica – I talked to Sophie, just me hear out, talk to me please”My heart only sped but still I refused to move from where I stood because talking to him meant I had to see his face, meant I had to let him use my weakness for him to earn my forgiveness, it meant letting him seduce me with his eyes and taunting me with his buttery voice.“Jessica – ” he kept knocking “I won’t stop trying to get you to speak to me”Then he retreated to leave, I watched him walk away while I sent him a text that embodied my emotions“We’re done”I w
PRESENTJESSICA’S POVThe evening sun dipped below in the horizon, casting a warm glow over the tranquil lake where Marvis and I sat. I had just finished narrating everything to him from how it happened from my end and point of view, from losing my pregnancy to how Parrish eventually broke up with me and for the love of Christ, I couldn’t figure out at what point Sophie had come in. Had she always been sleeping with him behind my back and smiling in my face after or had it been a one night of irrestible desire, I wasn’t sure if I actually wanted to know because either ways I knew I wouldn’t be able to forgive both answers.“So that’s what happened” I said finally and Marvis sighed not taking his eyes off me as I narrated the whole ordeal.“Wow!” he finally murmured, breaking the silence that settled within us “That’s crazy”I nodded, staring out at the water rippling softly in the fading light, then he asked me “So about Parrish, are you going to confront him about it at all?”I let t
SOME DRUNKEN YEARS AGOJESSICA’S POVIt was the week after my father had died and had been buried already. It had been the longest and most agonizing week of my life and it didn’t help much that I was beginning to feel like Parrish was being distant even as we were living together at that point. He couldn’t meet my eyes when he managed to speak to me, he claimed he was giving me the space I needed to grieve my father but I felt like it was something else, I knew it was something else but I just couldn’t place my finger on itJust until that fateful night, I woke up in the middle of the night, my entire body gripped by a sudden sharp pain. At first I thought it might have been another bout of morning sickness that usually chose to attack me in the middle of the night or perhaps the stress of losing my father finally catching up with me. I was merely three months gone and sometimes it was better to ignore that I was pregnant at all to kill the overwhelming that plagued me of not taking
“You” Marvis pointed surprisingly at me, like I was the last person he expected to be crouched down in a random parking lot and crying my eyes out. Immediately, I wiped my tears and stood up to his height, well half his height judging from how well he towered above me. He was still dressed in the same suit as he had on earlier, which was at all not surprising just the fact that he was standing before me now with a curious look on his face.“You’re crying” he said as a matter of fact.“Well no shit Sherlock”“Why?”I gave him a strange look, dragging my sleeves across my nose wiping the snot that threatened to drip “Do you just expect me to tell you why I’m crying?”He returned my look with an equal strangeness in his gaze “I mean you got the job you wanted, I’m wondering what else could be making you cry especially in public like this”“So you’re trying to say there could be absolutely nothing else going on in my life except my desperate need for a job?”He shrugged nonchalantly, and
“I need to get out of here” I said immediately, standing up from the chair and ready to dash out of her office but she stopped me immediately.“Jess – wait” she stepped in front of me immediately, grabbing my arm. The guilt was plastered boldly allover her face followed by the glossy look in her eyes which looked like her eyes getting clouded with tears and I rolled my eyes.“You have got to be kidding me” I scoffed “I thought Nathan was just being jealous, I thought he was trying to sow a seed of doubt in my mind so I could go back to him but oh my God, it’s a full grown tree – ”“Shit Nathan!” she smacked her forehead “You were not supposed to find out this way – ”“Or at all?” I cut through. “You were never going to tell me, weren’t you?”“I was going to tell you okay, I was going to tell you. I told Nathan about it on the night of the engagement party but I didn’t think he was going to tell you” her gestures screamed exasperation and she had a tone of urgency like she desperately
“What the hell!” I gasped looking at him in horror with a pounding heart “Are you following me now?”“I was peacefully enjoying my meal when I saw you walk in to meet him. What are you trying to prove? How do you think that makes me feel huh? It’s barely been a week and you’re rubbing it in my face, gallivanting your new boyfriend around –”“It’s not like that Nathan, how was I supposed to know you were here at this particular time?”“Bullshit” he spat, still backing me up on the wall and leaving no space for me to breathe but I managed to push him away the amount he was willing to budge which wasn’t very much.“You know what Nathan? You’re going to have to find a way to deal with this and stop – stop this”The look he gave me after that statement was murderous, like something had ticked inside him giving his eyes a weird kind of glaze that I wouldn’t lie scared the shit out of me.“I’m going to have to find a way?” he scoffed, then pushed back unto the wall with my back slamming hard