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Forty seven

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* Hang in there. God's gonna make you feel better. *

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------- Mira. -------

† I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I'm not enough

Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up

Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?

Remind me once again just who I am because I need to know. †

I decided to take a short noon break, before moving on with my daily activities. I'd just turned on my music app when my favorite christian song, “ You say ” by Lauren Daigle started playing.

The song meant a lot to me, as it had gotten me through some of my weakest and toughest times.

Mixed with meditation, it worked like magic in renewing my self confidence.

“ Ooh oh. You say I am loved when I can't feel a thing

You say I am strong when I think I am weak

And You say I am held when I am falling short

And when I don't belong, oh You say I am Yours

And I believe, (I) oh I believe (I)

What You say of me (I)

I believe. ” I sang the lyrics along with the
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