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54. I Can't Breathe.

Author: LORA ASHLEY
last update Last Updated: 2024-07-21 21:33:57

‘You don't have to say you love me

I just wanna tell you somethin'

Lately, you've been on my mind’

— Adore You By Harry Styles.

LEO

My heart feels like it is trying to hammer its way out of my chest.

I pause in my advance towards her, still not hearing her say anything to me. I need a word. Just one word. Even if her response will be non verbal, like just a nod, or the shake of her head, I will take it. I will accept it wholeheartedly, because right now, all I want to do is to show her that whatever assumptions she may have about me and Madison still hooking up are all wrong.

She is still hesitating, but when I dare another step forward, showing her how badly I need her to hear me out, she senses my desperation and finally gives me permission, stepping aside.

“Thank you.” I murmur, walking past her and entering inside her room. The familiar scent of her cozy abode wraps around me instantly, just like the first time I entered her room. The scent of black orchids and roses and so
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