CHAPTER THREE

The past is what you went through to be who are, it's what paved you to be who you are. The past is what you were not what you are, not who you are. The past doesn't define you. That's why people say that the present and the future are important and not the past.

But I believe the past is what's crucial, new memories can always be created but old memories can never be expunged. You live on with the memories, good or bad, they live within you. You make space for them.

Dark or bright. Happy or sad the past stays with you. You can't forget the past it's impossible to, but you make peace with the past. And carry it wherever go.

My past is, was, and will always be painful. I carried the pain with me like a mosquito sucks blood from our bodies, it sucked and sucked onto my soul until I made harmony with the fact that the only thing I was destined to, was pain.

Over the years heartache became my mother and the physical pain became my father, the day I realized that those two things were my parents, that they raised me and made me the girl I am was the day I inaugurated sucking on the anguish instead of it sucking on me.

I was broken, beyond being restored. I was lost, going on a route I couldn't be found. I used to laugh at people who tried hurting me. I mean what is the point of breaking something that's already shattered? I was like a broken mirror, even if they wanted they couldn't bring back the pieces of my broken soul together, and mend me.

His making my life dreary was worth nothing but I wouldn't mind taking this roller coaster ride with him.

Since I was twelve I was whipped, afflicted, and left half-dead by rogues. I was used to everything that was classified as pain. And the one he promised, is nothing compared to what I've been surviving all these years.

Remember when I mumbled something about the principal's office? On my first day ever attempting to go to school I got a two weeks suspension for backchatting at the alpha. How immature right? I mean I'm, not a soothsayer how was I supposed to know that he is the notorious alpha? But me though!

I wish I wouldn't let my mouth and emotions get the best of me sometimes.

If I had just kept my small mouth shut I wouldn't have angered the stupid alpha for Pete's sake!

A home without Phoenix was boring as hell. Maybe I should admit guilt, it wouldn't hurt to, I hope.

Just as these stupid thoughts were running through my head I heard a door knock.

I quickly rushed there hoping they decided to suspend Phoenix so I wouldn't be home alone

My jaw dropped down due to disappointment. The so-called "Alpha" decided to grace me and bore me with his presence

"Hey" No response

"Do..." He let himself in and scanned the whole place with disgust written all over his face.

"I see you missed me a lot it's just been three minutes since I left your sight and you're already here, How sweet!" I said faking a smile.

He clenched his jaw and his hands balled into fists, and my heart gloated. For some reason getting him angry felt good.

"Don't clench your jaw line that you'll break your teeth" Still no response

But he gave me a glare that said 'You won't be able to make it to the next second if you keep blabbering like this' and I took the hint and shut my mouth.

"What can I do for you?" I asked. He looked at me and raised his eyebrow.

"What. Can. You. Do for me?" H chuckled.

"Mhmm" I nodded my head.

"It's the other way round" Say what now!

"What do you mean?" I folded my arms while he made himself comfortable on my untidy couch. I kinda felt a little embarrassed but whatever!

"No one in their right mind pulls the stunt you pulled back there and anyone who does..."

"Gets punished" I finished his threat for him he got angry again and I felt elated this is is so cool

"Yes, and your punishment Miss Rouge Is...."

"Let me guess you'll throw me in the dungeon or maybe make me clean the school's toilets with my toothbrush or better yet kill me rumors say you kill people like they're flies. The point is I'm ready for any kind of punishment."

A lie. But one I was willing to tell as long as it lessens my punishment

He seemed a bit tensed I'm sure I must've caught him off guard in he wasn't expecting me to be ready to be murdered.

He took a while before uttering a word

"You are going to be my maid until you resume school again"

"Only?" I asked as if I was expecting more.

"Were you expecting anything else?" I shook my head.

"Let's set some ground rules"

"One. You are going to stick with me all the time" I opened my mouth to speak but he beat me to it.

"Two. Don't interrupt me when I speak"

"Three. No asking questions" I frown this chicken thinks I will listen to him and his stupid rules. I have a five-year-old brother to take care of.

"I can't even keep one of these rules you've laid out" he chuckled, stood up, and made his way toward me.

I felt shivers running down my spine. Part of me wanted to step back as he came closer but I knew that would be a bad idea because one, that would mean I would hit the vase behind me, and two he would notice that he terrifies the shit out of me. Unfortunately, I couldn't let him know that

"Phoenix right?". The minute he called my brother's name shockwave hit me.

" wishes to go cliff diving and skydiving with his sister, his favorite color is blue and his favorite cake is ice cream chocolate cake"

"How?..." He cut me mid-sentence

"He's such an adorable kid imagine if he one day explores the cliffs here and accidentally falls with his head"

"You wouldn't dare kill my brother that brutally" I hissed knowing perfectly well he could.

"That's because you wouldn't dare break my rules right, Miss rouge"

"You wouldn't, I dare you"

"There's one thing you're missing I can. I have the ability"

The pain of wanting to kill someone but feeling completely paralyzed when you have to is the most haranguing pain I've ever felt.

I swallowed hard and blinked twice to stop the tears threatening to come out.

"I can't leave him alone he's my top priority. I can't do what you want me to. I don't want to do it"

He took yet another stride towards me his face calm and collected as ever. This man wouldn't need a Halloween costume to scare people, anyone would wet his pants by just looking at his face right now. I was even surprised at myself for being able to stare at him.

"When I started talking did you hear me say 'if it pleases you, your majesty?' No right? so were doing things my way"

I rolled my eyes it's not as if I had a choice Phoenix's life was on the line.

I sighed.

He grabbed his jacket

"It's rude to welcome guests in an untidy house, I was sitting on your bra," he said.

I'm sure you positioned yourself there. I said to myself and scoffed. if I said anything we'll probably go around on cycles. It was good that he's decided to do a good thing ever since he met and that leaves me alone in peace

It's rude and shameless" now I have to talk.

"Shameless? Don't talk to me about being shameless when you have crossed all the limits of being shameless you just threatened to kill a five-year-old boy for your insensitive desires so if you want to talk about someone who is shameless rather look in the mirror"

His eyes shot red and widened I could tell he was livid.

Oh oh, I shouldn't have said that!

He raised his hand, I closed my eyes and awaited a tight slap, but to my terror, it didn't come.

I opened my eyes. He was just staring at me.

"You're going to be a handful," he said.

I always believed that nothing can kill me but I swear this guy's shocking reactions will be the main cause of my death.