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Chapter 65 - Never Leaving His Side
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2024-10-29 19:42:56I couldn't really remember what happened after that. It all seemed like a dream - hazy and blurry.
All I knew was Rai was no more. No one to love me as much as he loved me. I remember weeping all the time.
I never left his side. I remember watching them bathe him. Rai.. Why did you have to leave me so soon? I was in agony. I never thought I could feel this way - it was excruciating. My greatest love was gone, leaving me forever.
Standing beside his coffin, I saw them clothed him in the Dior suit, with the white shirt, his top three buttons unbuttoned. He looked so peaceful, just like when he was sleeping. The peaceful face that I’ve seen hundreds of nights. The difference was now he looked so skinny and pale and wouldn't wake up anymore.
“Rai.. I’m so sorry that I wasn't there for you.. I’m so sorry I didn't know..” I whispered, sobbing while reaching out my hand to hold his.
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