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Chapter 205 - Depression
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2024-10-29 19:42:56The sun shining through the open curtains hit my eyes, blinding me for a while.
I opened my eyes and stretched my body, feeling the soreness all over my body.The memories of what happened last night replayed in my mind, and I blushed.I looked at my body which was covered by many love bites. Looking at the man who was still sleeping next to me, lying on his front, I felt myself blush even more.His strong back was filled with scratch marks, and I knew I was the one who put those marks on him. Last night it was like he was the one being drugged and not me. He only stopped once I passed out from fatigue.But now, what to do.. I still couldn't get back to him, especially since someone deliberately drugged me last night. I wouldn't let Damian get involved in my matters.At first, I thought it was Clarisa who asked her friend to drug me, but thinking about it, she wouldn't dare do anything to me anymore, knowing thaRelated chapters
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