“It was different. Very. The pack life is a lot more… natural. I don’t know how else to say it. We still have homes and appliances and cars and all that. But we usually live in remote areas—but all of us close to each other. And instead of our routine being ruled by the clock, it’s more… instinctive. Relationship based.
“As Alpha I always had responsibilities. The pack needed me every day. They needed me to make decisions, to decide disputes. And most importantly, to keep other wolves away from our territory.”
“How could you do that?”
I considered the question as I spread the bread with mayonnaise and started stacking with sliced beef, mustard, and lettuce. It was something I’d never really consciously thought about.
~ Kelsie ~It was going dark outside, so when Cain carried me into the room where I’d first found his wolf, the room was quite dark. It only had a small, high window on one side. But I kind of liked it, because I could still see him, but there was this veil of darkness between us that made me feel like I needed to touch more.At first, Cain dropped into the couch with my legs across his lap. My back was to the arm of the couch and he leaned over me, kissing deeply, his hand sliding up my legs, then under the hem of his shirt that I’d thrown on.His touch made me shiver every time. Everything was new and exciting, so my body seemed to thrill every time he touched me, even gently. I hoped I’d never lose that with him.
~ Kelsie ~Cain kept murmuring my name. His voice was deep and harsh, but his tone sounded awed and ecstatic. Like he couldn’t believe we were there.I knew the feeling.I’d always read books or watched movies and seen people frantic to tear each other’s clothes off. But it had never felt that way for me. I’d never been able to figure out how people got there and sometimes wondered if it was just a story people told, but maybe that kind of desire wasn’t actually real?But it was real. It was very real.In minutes, just sitting on his broad thighs and letting him touch me, I was trembling. That pressure building in my stomach already. And the sense of urgency, of need,
~ Cain ~There is nothing better than the post-sex afterglow with a mate. Both of you relaxed and brimming with pleasure. Tired, but happy. It had always been one of my favorite things.But laying on the couch with Kelsie was a unique pleasure. She lay beside me on the couch, smiling happily at the ceiling, her expression pleasantly stunned.“This is fun,” she said quietly, then she giggled.I laughed a little myself.“I’m glad you think so.”“Seriously, though, Cain. This is fun. Like… exciting and awesome and… fun. I never thought sex would be fun. But also…”
~ Cain ~Kelsie stared at me, her eyebrows high like she was surprised.“Cain, what’s going on? Why do you feel… scared?”I sighed and clawed a hand through my hair. “This whole thing is insane. I need you to know, Kelsie, Lauren is my past. My history. And I’m so grateful to her for loving me. But you’re my future. My tomorrow. And it’s just hit me that tomorrow for us is… work and school. And that means being apart and… and that’s just not going to work.”I took the picture from her and hurried over to the drawers in the entertainment center, slipping it away out of sight because we had something more important to focus on.
~ Kelsie ~I was standing outside Cain’s house, on the porch, knocking frantically. He didn’t know we were going to fall in love. He didn’t know we were going to bond. And he wouldn’t open the door.The hair on the back of my neck stood up, and I whirled around because I could feel eyes watching me. Menacing eyes. Eyes that belonged to someone I couldn’t see, but who meant me harm.“Cain, please,” I breathed, knowing he could still hear me through the door. “You have to let me in, please.”A shadow moved in the trees between the house and the door and a sick pit opened in my stomach.It was broad daylight, but there was no one around. The sprinklers were on and the wate
~ Cain ~Kelsie slipped back into sleep pretty quickly, which was a relief. But there was no way I was going to rest soon. My whole body hummed with tension, and my wolf was on alert.Ears pricked. Nostrils flaring. Body still.I couldn’t scent it, but something was out there.Or actually, someone.Felix.Every hair on my body stood up at the thought. My hackles rose and the urge was there to leap out of bed, shift, and hunt the night for him. But I wrestled that instinct back.I knew there was no way he would have come himself
~ Cain ~Kelsie made breakfast while I called in sick to work, using the gruff sound of my sleep-deprived, and sex-addled voice to give authenticity to the outright lie that I just wasn’t feeling well.Then I had to spend an hour posting assignments and lecture notes so that morning’s students wouldn’t be disadvantaged.Guilt hovered in my chest, but I knew I couldn’t avoid it. I could barely stand to be in a different room from Kelsie right now. The idea of being thirty minutes away sent me into a cold sweat.As I clicked through the student website portal and made certain everything was there, my movements were too-fast and jagged.I remembered the f
SOUNDTRACK: “Curiosity” by Bryce Savage.*****~ Kelsie ~Cain was my bath seat and it was hot as hell.I couldn’t see him, but leaning back against his chest and feeling that iron strength against my back, staring at his long muscular thighs on either side of me, watching his skin pebble when I dragged my fingers up and down his legs… god I wanted him.I had been teasing him, but I wasn’t playing when I said I’d persuade him. I’d never felt so much sheer desire before in my life. It was like every time we had sex it just made me want him more.
~ Cain ~The celebration lasted late into the evening. We talked and joked through the afternoon until the bonfires were lit. Then we feasted and danced. And the pack… whatever had happened between all of us was a miracle. Because suddenly, Kelsie could hear all of them clearly, and they could feel her—sense her love, her strength, and her heart.And they were starting to love her as much as I did.Well, almost.For the past hour we had huddled together on a log next to the bonfire, a thick blanket over our legs. But then Kelsie leaned into my ear and whispered, “I need to go to the bathroom. And I’m going to have to put pants on, there is just too m
~ Kelsie ~I’d been giddy all morning. Nervous, but only the kind of anticipation that came with something exciting. Cain and I were already mated, already claimed and marked. So I didn’t expect the ceremony to have any real impact, except to make me and my mother cry.But the moment the wolves closed in around us, it was like the air began to crackle.And then, when Cain started the words, goosebumps trickled down my spine.He swallowed hard, his voice deep and husky—and echoed a second time in the pack link.“See here my will that is bowed to yours,” he started quietly. “I eat my pri
SOUNDTRACK: “Every Part of Me” by BASHAM. ***** ~ Cain ~ Staring at Kelsie as she looked up at her Dad—whose face was a picture of relief and pride—made my heart begin to beat even harder. I didn’t know where she and her mother had found such a gown, but she looked stunning in it. It looked like the entire thing had been knitted—like a thick, luxurious cableknit sweater, yet somehow it hugged every curve of her body from the high turtleneck, all the way down to her hips where it flared and hung in heavy gathers—but when she moved, the fabric clung to her legs beneath the skirt as well, revealing every curve and… I had to clear my throat and remind myself we had an audience as Kelsie reached up to hug her father, and the pack began to gather
SOUNDTRACK: “N E W H E A V E N” by Conquer Divide ***** ~ Cain (three months later) ~ ‘Where are you, beautiful?’ ‘Won’t be long, they’re just finishing my hair.’ ‘Your dad is just about ready to plan a siege of the house if you don’t come out soon.’ ‘Mom will keep him under control, don’t worry,’ she laughed. I wasn’t so sure. I stood at one end of the small clearing near our packhouse, arms folded and my sweater-sleeves pulled up to my forearms because that was how Kelsie liked them. My breath made a cloud in the winter air, b
~ Kelsie ~I was stunned when Felix became human again. Then hope rose in my chest, because he was clearly weak and struggling. Bleeding and panting, staring at Cain and struggling to speak.A little piece of me crumbled. He looked so shaky and broken. I wondered if he would submit and Cain would let him live. I could feel my mate’s conflicting emotions, that he didn’t relish killing his brother. But the betrayal…The fiercest emotion burning in Cain was rage—at the betrayal.I knew this wasn’t easy on him.I swayed closer, wanting to go to him, but knowing I couldn’t intervene while they were still technically fighting.All the wolves stared at them, eyes cold a
~ Cain ~Had I been fighting another wolf who didn’t know me so well, this was the moment to engage, to rush and take their neck high and bear down, flip the dog on his back and close on his throat if he didn’t submit.But Felix would be expecting that. And sure enough, in the blink where he realized there was no danger behind him and returned his full attention to me, he switched—rushing his longer body and heavier weight forward, on the attack, to make me hesitate.I didn’t even think, just let my instincts take over and feinted, first to one side, then the other, waiting for the third switch and praying Felix would instinctively anticipate it.And he did.A howl of victory started in my head as Felix shifted h
~ Cain ~‘Kelsie, get back!’ I screamed in the link as I leaped into my wolf to meet an attack for the second time in a handful of hours.There was a sick pit in my stomach, something that told me I would hate remembering this day. But there wasn’t time to think about it or give in to regret.I had a wolf to kill.I didn’t hesitate.As Felix raised his hackles to make himself look as big—and be as difficult to grip—as possible, I was already flying through the air towards him, ready to take the throat of my own brother.But for the second time in a few hours, time slowed, as if I moved through thick mud and saw ever
~ Cain ~Shaking with the intensity I turned to Lauren. “You hated me that much?”“I never hated you,” she breathed, but she didn’t meet my eyes. “I just… I wanted to have what you had. And… Felix…” she trailed off. I waited, but then my patience snapped.“Felix, what?!” I roared.Many of the wolves flinched, including Lauren, whose head dropped even lower. She clutched her hands in her lap.“Felix admired me. He needed me. He wanted me. You… you didn’t.”“Didn’t need you?” Are you fucking kidding, Lauren?! You were my mate!”
~ Cain ~“Tell me,” I growled, low and hard. “Tell me how that day went down when I ended up betrayed by my mate and my brother.” I seared him with my eyes, let him see and feel my fury.But although he tensed, Felix only sighed.“I had already been… enticed,” he admitted.I felt sick. But Felix went on, relentless.“She’d promised me that she’d raise me. That I would become Alpha over the others, except her. She’d promised me that I would have her all to myself. I just had to make you believe that it was me who was running the whole coup. She didn’t think… she didn’t think she could fool you if you had a chance to actual