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2023-03-22 00:01:00Ryan’s POV
I was running like crazy with my heart up my throat from panic I am not usually used to feeling, even during the many battles I joined in on with Alec in his attempt to rid the world of rogues. I never felt this amount of dread as I did now at the thought of not finding her or losing her before I got the chance to help her heal.
I can’t find Mila.
I came back to my place an hour before dinner and have looked everywhere for her in my quarters but she wasn’t there. So I started searching the entire pack house looking for her, asking anyone if they saw her at all.
“Calm down! You’re the one who told her she can wander around. She must be here somewhere” Sword tried to calm me down.
“I didn’t want to make her think she’s a prisoner again but I didn’t expect her to really wander around on her own in an unknown place. I thought she’d be too reluctant because of her past! I shoul
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Mila’s POV“I do owe you Ryan. You paid a fortune of your money to get me out. I owe you my life, my freedom but….”“You don’t owe me anything Mila! You’re my mate” he said in a hard, emotional tone “If you’re doing this just for me…”“It’s not just for you. It’s for me, it’s for Tina too. It’s for all of us, believe me. I’ve thought about it after you left at noon. I will hate myself so much if after what you did, I turn my back and just leave without giving this a chance. You did something so….heart touching and admirable for me, something I know not everyone can do in the same situation. And it is because of that I want to try for real. Not just because I owe you, but because you proved you’re worth trying to heal for. I’m not really good at expressing myself Ryan, it’s been a long time since I was asked to explain my feelings
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Alec’s POVI groaned in agitation as I turned from sleeping on my stomach to resting on my back while my eyes fought hard to open up.I could tell and feel that I didn’t sleep as much as I wanted to. My muscles were still tired and my head was complaining through a fierce headache telling me that it wasn’t done resting yet.So why did I wake up?The damn bond.The girl was in distress. I could feel her struggling with something deep and painful. I don’t know why though. She was supposed to be out cold after all the chores she did last night.Finally my eyes complied and opened up. Everything was blurry at first but after several blinks, things started to get more clear.I buried my hand under the pillow next to me and pulled out my phone.I unlocked it and opened up the cell feed to see her.I spared the clock on the notification bar a second to check the time and stifled my yawn when I saw it was
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Alec’s POV “I will tell you in exchange for something” she bargained. “You’re in no position to make deals, slave” Maddox hissed at me “Stop calling her slave, dick!” I spared him a comment before shifting my focus back to her “I’ll stop when she calls me alpha Alec. Tit for tat” She pursed her lips “It’s just a simple, very harmless question” “Fine, Let’s hear it” I relented out of sheer curiosity to hear this so called harmless question of hers. “What’s today’s date?” I raised my eyebrows “Seriously?” “Do I look like I have any reason to joke with you?” she said coldly. I sighed not having a clue what the date has to do with any of this. She could have asked for something a lot more valuable than that, like I don’t know… clothes maybe? It’s bloody freezing down here! I raised my hand to check my smart watch and answered curtly “12th of December” She released a sigh and I felt a pang of sadness through the bond. “Have somewhere important to be today?” I asked mildly. “I
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Alec’s POVHer words kept repeating in my head, kept gnawing at me.For once I wasn’t angry at her, I was angry at myself, at being proven wrong and inadequate, and giving her a chance to hurt me again using my own mistakes against me.I should have been better. I should have worked harder to keep my pack safe and taken more responsibilities instead of depending on my brother to run things I didn’t like to deal with. I’m not saying my greater goal is irrelevant, but I should be capable of picking the fights I can win more thoroughly.“Hey, sorry for being late” Ryan said as he entered the dining room with his mate walking a step behind him.I was sitting at the head of the dining table waiting for them to join me for breakfast, while my mate’s words were running inside my head on repeat.Ryan told me briefly through the mind link last night that he wanted to make Mila a part of the pack in addition t
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Alec’s POV“Ouch, that must have hurt” Ryan said in surprise after I told him everything right to the moment she called me an inadequate failure, poor excuse for an alpha right to my face.“I’d be lying if I said no. You know how much I’m still messed up about that massacre, I’m probably never going to let that go for a very long time if not never. But that’s not the reason I hate her. Everything she said about that subject, she was right about. I hate her because she is claiming to know me as this very bad, cruel person that’s done her some great deal of pain that makes me deserve to die, and she won’t even justify her assumptions nor actions! She keeps disobeying me, insulting me, refusing to acknowledge any good thing I try to tell her or do for her, she keeps provoking me on purpose to make me lose control and prove herself right about me, and most of all, she won’t tell me who the hell she is! If yo
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About The Songs Hello! This is a note about the songs that Alec heard from Andrea. I wanted to put the lyrics so you could feel what Alec felt when he heard those words and really felt them in her voice, felt the pain, the agony, and her emotional struggles. He also felt how much she longs for love, warmth, and safety in other songs too. Putting them within the chapter would have made the chapter cost more just for reading song lyrics and that’s why I decided to put them within an author’s note. If you are really interested to read the words that touched Alec’s heart and made him hate her a little less, carry on reading and tell me what you think of them. Here are the songs: The first song she sang; the one she prepared for her audition, is called go easy on me by Adele. There ain’t no gold in this river That I’ve been washin’ my hands in forever I know there is hope in these waters But I can’t bring myself to swim When I am drowning in this silence Baby, let me in Go eas
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Mila’s POVI walked inside the vast training room with Ryan and instantly got hit with a wave of nostalgia from the time I used to spend hours in this place training for my future role to be a beta for my pack after my father retires.I was his only child and therefore, it was my legacy to carry on the torch after him. Being a woman doesn’t matter. Even though most betas are males, female betas work twice as hard to prove themselves worthy of that responsibility, and that’s what I was trying hard to achieve before we got attacked.To some point, being captured and overtaken proved I was not so worthy after all, and all those hours spent training didn’t matter as I still lost in the end.But here I am again, training with my beta mate, and if alpha Alec ever accepts his mate and I end up also accepting Ryan as mine, it will be my responsibility to protect her; the Luna, with my life. How can I protect her when I couldn’t even protect myself five years ago?“This time will be different.
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Alec’s POVI was still in my office listening to her sing from the old feed I saved earlier. I’ve been listening to those songs for far more than I am comfortable to admit.Her voice was soothing and addictive at the same time. Which is completely unreasonable considering how much of a pain in my ass she is being.My brother Adrian mind linked me while I was too absorbed in one of the songs “Hey Alec. I wanted to check in see how you’re doing with everything” he said gently.I paused the video and pulled out my airpods “Hey…. I am fine to some degree. She is being difficult. Not telling me what I want to know. Trying constantly to get under my skin and hurt me with her words and assumptions to get a reaction out of me, and I’m barely holding myself from giving her what she wants” I said calmly.“Understandable, considering she has some unknown score to settle with you. I’m not even going to ask if you hurt her because I know you would never do that, so I’m curious what your plan is ex
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My Alpha, My Hellfire Acknowledgement
Another book finished and another thank you to everyone who reached this far and finished the book, I’m glad you stuck around and went through this journey with me. I hope it met your expectations and was worth your coins and bonuses. I have to admit, this was the hardest book to write until now. Not for lack of imagination, but more like lack of motivation in addition to multiple sicknesses that overtook me through the course of writing this book, it all made me spend many days not having the right mood to write and I didn’t force it because I would never write unless I was focused one hundred percent otherwise it wouldn’t be fair to my characters nor readers. But I am glad I was finally able to pull through and finish it and it all comes down to one person who kept me going. This book is dedicated to you, you made me have the energy and will to keep writing despite everything. When it felt like no one else was reading the book, you gave me everything I needed to continue writing
My Alpha, My Hellfire Epilogue
The Moon Goddess’s POVIf you ask me what are the best moments I enjoy watching between two mates I have paired together, I will have more than one answer for you.The moment they first meet and their wolves whisper that one word I love hearing the most, the moment they pretend they hate and loathe each other or act as if they hate the fact that they were each other’s mates or even when they get angry with me for mating them, the moment they begin to feel that tiny little spark of love but try as hell to hide it even from themselves, the moment they start with a verbal or physical angry fight and end up kissing each other heatedly, the moment they show their care for each other even when they visibly and stubbornly insist they don’t, the moment they finally accept and admit how much they are madly in love with the other, and even the small little moments they do or say something that shows me how right I was to pair them together…. Like this moment right now for example.It was three
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Andrea’s POVAfter what seemed like forever, she nodded her head at him and looked down at his hand that was clamped over her mouth, asking him to remove it so she can talk.“Keep your voice down” he asked gently before removing his hand away, and got off her, giving her a little space to sit up against the wall.She had wavy, long, brown hair that she kept tied in a low pony tail. Her brown eyes were gazing at Robert uncertainly, unsure about his claim that he wouldn’t harm her even if she agrees to help.“How will you break the spell on the bracelet? Alpha King is the only one who has the key to unlock it” she said in a small, raspy voice.“Are you going to help us?” he asked pressingly before answering her earlier question.“If you promise to let me live after I uncast it. Give me your word” she said tensely.“You have my word. As soon as you uncast the spell, your freedom is yours. You can either portal out of here and go anywhere you want or you can stay until the battle is over
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Andrea’s POVRobert was busying himself with transferring the food from the trolley to the small round table when he got Jude’s text.He took his phone out of his black jeans pocket and visibly stiffened in his place after reading it.He started typing after a few seconds and Jude read his reply out loud “There is no way I am doing anything to hurt her. Find another way while I feed her, she’s starving”Davina said heartily “Ethan please! Is there anyway you can…. I don’t know! Cut the feed or something! Make it look like the camera broke down. They probably won’t interrupt him just to fix it in the middle of his paid session right?”“That won’t work, a camera once broke down during one of the sessions and they…. moved us to another room instantly” Mila said nervously before lowering her head down sadly.Ryan squeezed her shoulder supportively and raised her head back up by touching her chin gently.They looked at each other without exchanging words and she nodded her head at him emot
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Andrea’s POV“A man by the name of Ryan Evans told me about this place. He’s a dear friend of mine and we regularly keep in touch. Told me he bought a slave from you a while back and seemed pretty satisfied with his purchase. It tempted me to visit this place and experience it for myself” Robert said egotistically.Ryan put his arm around Mila protectively after what Robert said. She leaned into him and clutched his shirt tightly.It was the answer Alec and Ryan suggested for Robert to say. It seemed fitting considering he met him pretty recently and would most probably remember Ryan’s name more than any other name Robert might come up with to avoid any suspicion and further questioning by alpha King.Alpha King’s face split into a bright grin as he nodded his head enthusiastically “Oh yes, I remember beta Ryan. I also remember that slave he purchased, she was a long time favorite of mine. It was a little sad to part with her because she was pretty useful around here but well…beta Rya
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Andrea’s POVI released a deep sigh for what felt like the thousand times in the past hour alone.I was barely holding it together but I could feel that control slowly slipping the closer we reach to the go time of the battle.Alec made sure to keep me by his side the entire day today, knowing how much I need him by my side for as long as possible before he leaves.Yesterday was a turning point for us, not just because we made love multiple times and confessed our love to each other, but also because I realized how much his love for me got me out of my darkness and gave me a new happy beginning I never thought I would be able to have before he came along. Being with him takes all my fears and pain away. Being with him makes me feel blessed, safe, and happy.That’s why I was slowly getting restless the closer it gets to his departure. I needed him like I needed air, like I needed my beating heart.I cannot lose him, not now, not ever.Everyone was ready and on alert. All the warriors f
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Andrea’s POV“You have no idea how much you telling her you love her really affected her Alec” I mind linked him affectionately.It’s been two hours since our wolves officially met each other and they are still inseparable until now. They won’t let us shift back yet despite Alec having a ton of responsibilities to do and prepare for tomorrow.“She’s truly adorable, Maddox is totally smitten” Alec said lovingly.I chuckled and asked him lightly “I want to talk to him as well, don’t shift right away ok?”“He wants to meet you too. I finally got him to start saying goodbye, they are reluctant but he does understand that I have somethings that need to be done before tomorrow. I’m sorry I’m going to have to leave you on your own until dinner” he said apologetically.“Don’t worry about me I will hang out with Mila. I love you”“I love you too, Andy”I shifted back into my body while Maddox stayed in his form, gazing at me with glowing light blue eyes.I stepped closer to him, I didn’t need
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Alec’s POV Her outburst took me a little by surprise but it kind of made me admire her more. Okay, yes I was trying to protect her from the scary truth, I didn’t want to make her imagine the worst case scenario or make her fears worsen for tomorrow, but she also had a point… kind of. She’s not eight anymore. She will become my Luna and she needs to learn to remain strong in the face of any threat or doom that might or might not come at us in the following years. If she falls apart, the rest of the pack will fall apart as well so she needs to keep her fears well hidden and stand strong despite everything. A part of me wanted to keep her protected and hide her from ever getting hurt or scared again, but a bigger part completely understood her. I said she isn’t weak before and I meant it. She is really strong, so strong because despite falling apart consistently in the past few days, she still picked herself up and handled everything that was thrown at her despite how hard it was to t
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Alec’s POV“Say it again” I asked softly, my soul requesting to hear this sentence over and over again. I realized that I too longed for that sentence to be said to me. I wasn’t as deprived of love as she was for the past ten years, but let’s just say it’s been a rough month that had me realizing that I needed her in my life now more than ever and was thankful; despite the very horrible circumstances in which we met, that I had finally found her… My fated mate, the one chosen for me by the moon goddess. I pray she forgives me for cursing her out at first because I seriously thought she had it out for me for making this girl my mate, but now I know she was really giving me exactly who I deserve to spend the rest of my life loving and caring for.She smiled, knowing how much her admitting her feelings to me made me very delighted.“I love you so hard, Alec” she said tenderly with a bright smile, the brightest
