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Guilt of a happy life

Author: Carmen Writes
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56

Sitting on the edge of the bed awkwardly, Cammie is baffled, “what is going on with me?”She asks herself. Here I am throwing myself at a man and day dreaming of a happy life as the wife of a homesteader, while my sister could be out there in the forest, dead, or even worse eaten by animals. Hell, being married to a mountain man was never my dream. It was always Callie’s dream, to have a rugged man who would worship the ground she walked on and care for her. Terrible thoughts running through Cammie’s head, ‘Why isn’t Callie here now, instead of me? how can I take her dream like a thief in the night?’

Robin was meant for Callie, with his tall, dark and handsome looks, his soft, attentive and caring manner and his sheer strength. With the will and need to provide for and keep safe no matter the consequence, somehow this universe has muddled Callie and I up.

Cammie’s thoughts rushing ahead of her now turning to what Callie’s final moments would have been like. How terrified she would
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