I’m so tired!
After changing into pajamas, my body feels free. I rubbed my feet with medicated oil to relieve the aches. Cause age factor, walking a bit in the mall made me feel so tired. As usual before going to bed, I read my favorite story on the app. Thank God, I can rest early.
Knock...knock...knock....
There's a knock on my door, who is it? Is that Bik Inah. I opened the door, it was Amelia with a pitiful smile showing, she brought a bolster.
"What is it, honey?"
"Auntie, I'm sleeping here. Please," she pleaded with a pitiful look. This child is adorable, very spoiled.
"Yes, you can. But tomorrow you have to get up early!"
"Okay!"
She immediately burst in and lay down hugging the bolster she had brought. She is so adorable. How were the days when I haven’t come? She must be so lonely.
"Want to straight to sleep? Or do you want to eat something?" I said while rubs her hair. She answered with a shake of his head.
"Yeah, just sleep."
I lay beside her immediately.
"Aunt .... "
"Hmm...."
"I want to hug you Aunt," Amel said softly. I grabbed his head and she hugged me tightly.
"Go to sleep, okay?"
I rubs her hair slowly, and gradually her arms weakened and her breathing was regularly. She's asleep.
*
Knock...knock...knock....
Rani ...!”
Someone knocked on my door and called my name. Am I dreaming, huh?
"Rani ...!"
Yes, someone is calling my name. I do my hair quickly. Then open the door, there was Mr. Kusuma in front of me with a confused look on his face.
"Rani! Amel is missing! She's not in her room!" He hoarsely said. There is a lot of worry implied.
"Amel is in the room, sir. She is sleeping."
"Nothing! I checked! How are you doing! I'm just a short stay and it's a mess!" He snapped loudly while his eyes bulging.
"Sssttt ..." I gave the code not to make any noise by putting my finger in front of my lip. "Not in her room, sir. But here in my room."
I opened the bedroom door wide to show Amelia sleeping.
Rushed, he pushed his way through to his daughter when sleeping. Cares her hair and kissed her forehead, while mutter something. This sight affected me deeply. A father's love for his daughter is clearly seen on his face.
"Amelia asked to sleep with me last night. Let her sleep, Sir. It's already 3AM in the morning, it's almost time to wake up," I whispered.
"Fine then. I was really worried earlier. I don't know how if something happened to Amelia," he said, stroking his tense face.
He got off the bed and headed for the door. Suddenly he turned to me.
"Rani! Please take care of her, okay?! From now on, your main job is to watch Amelia. Whatever you ask for, I will surely fulfill. But, please take care of her!" he said firmly. His face was very serious, his brow furrowed.
"Okay, Sir! I'm trying my best. Today I started dropping off and picking up Amelia," I said emphasizing my sincerity.
"Make me some tea! So I can relax a bit. I'm in the office room." He begged, then rushed to the room at the end of the house.
His sure steps with look down. I looked to his back, the back of a father who loved his daughter very much, the back of a man on whom the fate of his hundreds of workers depended.
"Rani!" he shouted suddenly. He stopped and leaned back, and glanced at me.
"You look different today! Good job!" he said briefly with a smile, and continued on his way.
Oops, did he catch me when I looking at him from behind, huh?
I am shy!
Or, did he see my more glowing appearance due to make over?
***
The morning of the first day, I took Amelia to school. Pretty busy, because I have to prepare boxed rice. Bik Inah was also ready in the morning.
Amelia also woke up early in the morning. She was awake when I prayed at dawn. She was astonished by what I was doing, praying and reciting the Qur’an. Immediately I told her to go back to her room and get ready to go to school.
"Amel… dear, open the door. Are you ready yet? We leave early, okay," I said. I knocked on her bedroom door slowly.
"Taraa ...! I’m ready!"
I purposely left 30 minutes earlier. Pak Maman said, in the morning time will avoid the snaking delivery queue like yesterday.
"Auntie, I'm happy today. I can go to school with parents now. How could Daddy be like this?"
Like yesterday, she was hanging and spoiled. Stick on me. Thank God I fragrance. Her hands hold mine all the time, and occasionally I stroked her gently. All the way long smiles on her face.
I'm wearing the clothes I bought yesterday. Dress canal form a long body silhouette past the knee slightly chocolate milk color. Simple cut plus bright color motif scarf. My hair is tied in a bit high bun with a hair tie with a few jewels, my long neck looks prettier. I'm wearing medium heels, shiny brown. My body is already tall make a little taller.
Simple look, but luxury.
Perfect!
If you leave early in the morning, there is no queue for drop cars. We could park near the gate. There were already several teachers stand by. I went down to accompany Amelia inside, followed by Pak Mamang who brought food. We were greeted by a teacher, after we introduced ourselves it turned out that she was Amelia's homeroom teacher. I explained that from now on I'm taking care of her school. And, also asking permission to give lunchboxes to Amelia's classmates. I also add the boxes for teacher too.
Amelia was so happy, she hugged me before I went home.
"Auntie, today I'm so happy. Thank you," she whispered when she hugged me. I lightly kissed the top of her hair.
"Love you, honey. Study hard, okay? In the afternoon, aunty will pick you up again."
***
I rushed out of the car, time was running out. I have to prepare Mr. Kusuma needs to go to office. For work clothes, I always prepare them at night and they are complete in the wardrobe. Now all the remains to prepare a briefcase and have breakfast.
A glass of hot tea, warm water, and uduk rice complete with galangal chicken that he ordered yesterday.
"Morning!"
"Good morning, Sir!"
He asked about how had brought Amelia. He went back being serious with his phone. Eat while playing on the phone. If it's Wishnu, I'll be angry.
"Here is the bag, sir. Please check if anything is missing."
"No. There is no meeting today," he said while accepting the bag I gave him.
"There you go! Rani! Your clothes fit you perfectly. I want you to look like this every day. Sometimes guests come to the house. Or, suddenly there is an assignment. So you have to be ready. Claudia will come often to check your appearance," he said with a smile.
He stared at me for a while. And, smile.
"You are just gorgeous!"
******
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Instantly my eyes widened, and my smile widened perfectly."Dear My God!"Wisnu, still carrying his rucksack, had just entered the side yard of the gallery. In the parking lot, we can still see the travel car that drove him.My son is already looking grown up. His face is like a duplicate of Mas Bram, my ex-husband. Only his light skin inherited from me.I stretched out my arms to welcome him. He ran to me and hugged me."Kak Wisnu, why didn't you tell Mom when you were going home?" I asked after kissing both cheeks. he used to be chubby-cheeked, now her face is gaunt. Is he eating less?"On purpose, Wanted to surprise mommy."Then approached Mas Suma to kiss the hand Likewise, Amelia immediately snuggled spoiled in his arms. We ate together, told stories about Amelia's school, Wisnu's campus and lastly Mas Suma bragged about what I had achieved in this gallery.I smiled proudly. As a wife, happiness is priceless when the husband is proud of himself."Is it true that you have one week
“ I thought, Suma is normal or not," he said, looking at me and laughing. "Abah is joking. I'm normal, ABah. This is the proof, Abah will soon have grandchildren," said Mas Suma. "Alhamdulillah. That's called fortune. You must be grateful, as soon as possible to get a mandate from HIM. Sorry, when you’re wedding, Abah could not come. At that time, it coincided with Abah's umrah schedule," he explained. We talk about anything, Especially about life. Mas Suma is right, he is a wise man. It can be seen from the lectures about life that were conveyed to us. Then we toured the factory. I'm not allowed to enter the warehouse, said Abah in a very loud voice, sorry for the fetus in my stomach. Accompanied by Pak Salim, I took a walk in the back garden while waiting for Mas Suma. The land behind is very wide. Lots of piles of wood waste there. Some have large blocks piled up eaten by termites. Mr Salim! This wood is not used?" I asked pointing to a leftover log measuring about forty centi
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"How are you feeling right now?" asked Mas Suma.Now we are at the Club 21 restaurant located on the outskirts of town, The club that was founded by Mas Suma's school friends, numbering twenty one people. They are the majority of entrepreneurs who want a special place, where they can let go of the attributes that are in them. Being a leader or a public figure makes them feel tired, and this is where it belongs."How do I feel? It's extraordinary. There is a feeling that this heart has been separated from me. This feeling has started to grow since the beginning of the construction of the building and it has become more and more crowded. Now, that feeling is broken, separated and destroyed!" I said while taking a deep breath.Mas Suma stood up from his seat and approached my seat. He rubbed my shoulder and said, "Rani, how heavy is that?""It's very hard, Mas. The feeling of worrying that I will fail and not make Mas Suma proud. The gallery is my responsibility and hope. If I fail, it w
This is first time, a Kusuma-Big Boss opened the gate, Usually the security guard does it.I stared at him from the gallery terrace. The door opened by itself after he unlocked it.The door opened slowly, showing several people lined up behind the gate. There was Aitu and another employee there. Aitu, Mas Suma's trusted employee who was appointed to help me.Maybe they had come earlier, the proof is that Mas Suma opened the lock and they immediately opened it from the outside.It turned out that I wasn't the only one who was diligent on the first day. Luckily, Mas Suma set an alarm, otherwise they could dry up outside the fence. I smiled remembering our silliness earlier."Good morning Miss Rani!" they said taking turns nodding at me.They went straight to their posts. Gardener, sweep the yard and trim the leaves that look old. The Cafe section is busy preparing food and beverage ingredients. Aitu went back and forth checking the gallery and ended up in the office tidying up administr
I looked up at the towering building in front of me. This building is a wedding dowry, this is a monument to our love. The story between Maharani and Kusuma is imprinted here.He is a husband who understands me. Starting from my intention to make him proud, I received an international award. Maybe on that base, Mas Suma gave me the opportunity to work by giving me a dowry for a gallery unit complete with employees and all operations.Maharani Gallery and Cafe, the name is carved beautifully on a large rock. The gold color contrasts with the black of the river stone. Water gushes between these boulders, falling in a pool full of rocks and green plants beside it. Colorful fish running through the gurgling of spilled water."Are you happy Honey?" said Mas Suma, hugging me from behind. I deliberately asked to be delivered early in the morning, before the employees came. It's the first day of the gallery. I want to be satisfied enjoying just the two of us with Mas Suma, my husband.His han
"Mas Bram, live happily. Our story is the most beautiful part we have. And now it's over. Let go of the shadows of your mistakes. We have forgiven you. Be happy with Wulan and the children," I said trying to give understanding.My words were not comforting, instead they made Mas Bram cry even more. Dropped from his seat, his knees fell to the floor. He sat down and wept uncontrollably in front of us."Mas Bram!" I shouted.Wisnu immediately stood up and ran closer to his father. He immediately sat hugging Mas Bram. Son and father cry together.My chest suddenly tightened. This heart hurts again. Farewells always leave scars Not only us as parents even children will be scratched in their hearts.My tears rolled down uncontrollably. I was drawn to another world where there were only the three of us. And, we were nervous together there."I'm sorry! I was wrong! Forgive me Rani, Wisnu!" he said hugging Wisnu tightly."My son, every night I always think of you. Daddy is crying, can't imagi