KATE
The Monday started off rainy, and I mustered up considerable effort to get out of bed. After a hot shower, I looked for something to wear. I should have stopped by home to get something for work.
I opened his closet in search of a shirt. Damn it, there were clothes of mine in his closet, from months ago. Not that it was a bad thing at the moment, but it made me realize that I was spending too much time at his place. It was like having a drawer for a toothbrush and socks, it was so strange.
There was a lacy lingerie set that I loved with a garter belt and thigh-high stockings, folded among the other pieces. I put them on under a white shirt and a pencil skirt. Mary always said that there was nothing better than fabulous lingerie to make a woman feel powerful in any situation. She was right. I put on my pumps, a blazer, and applied light makeup.
I grabbed my bag and headed to the living room, since I didn't have my car; I would have to call a taxi.
KATEI followed Mary inside the bar. There weren't many people. Perhaps because it was Monday and still early. I noticed two men sitting in a corner with jackets on the table, and a girl sitting alone at the bar, possibly waiting for someone.We sat in a corner at the back. A waitress came to attend to us shortly after. She was blonde and had a flashy tattoo on her neck.Mary just waited for her to finish saying 'good evening' and ordered a bottle of whiskey. That meant she was willing to drink for real. Then the girl looked at me, waiting. I didn't think much about it. I ordered a beer and thanked her before she left."Beer? Sometimes I forget how Texan you are."I shrugged. I noticed a group entering the bar, three women and two men. They laughed loudly before settling at a table."So?" Mary caught my attention."What?""How are you feeling now?""About?""Ryan.""I don't think I want to talk about him ri
NATHANI was mentally exhausted, my only thought being that she would regret ignoring my messages and calls. Where the hell was she? She didn't come home, and James didn't find her when he went to pick her up from work.I managed to solve the problems I could in Tokyo as quickly as possible to come back, and she simply disappeared.When I arrived home, I was ready to have someone track her phone, but the security guys informed me that she was coming up. It was almost one in the morning in New York. She must be kidding with me, trying to annoy me as always.I waited for her to come up, sitting on the living room couch. We were going to have a serious talk. Even though I wanted to avoid arguments now that we had reconciled, she couldn't do this.The elevator opened, and she walked out, leaning against the walls. Was she drunk? Throwing her purse and what seemed to be a blazer on the floor, she took off her shoes and walked towards the bedroom, slight
NATHANI made her leave my shoulder, so I could kiss her. I immediately wanted to remove her robe when I felt her soft, warm lips on mine. Her kiss turned wild in seconds, and woke my cock instantly..I untied the knot on her robe while still kissing her, her tongue still managing to surprise me. When had she become such a confident woman? With experienced lips and tongue that made me lose my mind.I tried to remove the sleeves of the robe through her arms, but she stopped me and stepped back, inhaling deeply."No.""No what?"I stared into her eyes, her mouth, and her heavy breathing. My erection was throbbing."No.""I don't want to play this game right now."I approached again, holding the back of her neck with one hand, trying to kiss the skin on her neck."Hey, no, look at me."She was smiling as she held my face in her hands. But I was impatient, and getting harder by the second."What?""I'm no
KATESomething was wrong. He was acting strange. His hand tightened around my neck slightly before his lips touched mine."When did you cut your hair?" I asked.Had he cut it himself? Now it was almost shaved. It was even sexier than when he had the topknot, either when he put it all the way back, or when it was messy."Shhh."He opened my robe as he had said he would, sliding the fabric off my arms until it was off me.I was too excited to stop him, but also a bit tormented by what had just happened. I was accustomed to his sexually rough behavior, and I liked it. I enjoyed wild and even violent sex. But what were those things he believed he shouldn't even imagine? Did they cross my boundaries?I was too excited to think about it.I hurriedly pulled his shirt off. I wanted to touch him urgently. He moved away after I pulled it off, and leaned on one knee to remove my panties. His fingers purposely brushed against my skin, teas
KATEI closed my eyes, still smiling, and tried to use the next minute to breathe and return to normal. My desire hadn't vanished, and I wasn't going anywhere without satisfying it.He shifted in bed, and I felt his lips on my belly."Have my minutes run out?" I opened my eyes, staring at him."I thought this area wasn't included," he said, smiling, and kissed slightly higher, without averting his gaze."They all are when you touch me anywhere. It drives me crazy.""I like that.""It's pure torture just to look at you, especially when we're not alone or in public places.""Always? Not exclusively now?""Yes.""I'll remember that.""As if you didn't already know." I rolled my eyes, and he smiled in that wicked way before kissing higher, stopping between my breasts."I really want to be inside you right now because I know you're completely wet, hot, soft, and tight. Let me know when I can." He whispered,
KATEMy cell phone alarm went off, waking me up. I had to be at work in an hour. I quickly got up, feeling a bit groggy. Wait, where is he?Damn it! I said those words. Damn it! Damn it! Was it too early? Of course, it was. But I didn't care; it came out naturally. I just said what I felt.But deep down, I knew I was just trying to convince myself that saying it was the worst part. And the truth was, what bothered me the most was that he didn't say it back.I needed to forget about it. I had to rush to work. I took a step and felt a slight pain between my legs, a reminder that he had been there.I reached for my phone again; there was a notification, a message from him.From Nathan: I went for a run in the park. Have a good day, baby.I stared at the phone screen. It wasn't exactly what I expected. It was too direct and simple for Ryan. There were no jokes or innuendos about sex. That made me certain that I shouldn't have said, 'I lov
KATEWhat? I was perplexed.The waitress brought the martinis and left them on the table. I thanked her without paying attention."Continue..." I encouraged him."It was a difficult time, Kate. I don't remember it well, but I think I witnessed some of his episodes. It wasn't pleasant to see. But anyway, with treatment, he improved. The symptoms regressed a lot over the years.""Can you tell me more about this disorder?""Are you afraid that he'll lose control?"No. Of course not. I trusted him completely. I couldn't imagine him hurting me.Suddenly, the words he had said earlier seemed to make total sense. His usual dark look, which seemed to carry a bit of darkness, also made sense. Was I afraid of something?"I just want to know more.""I don't know much. They say it can be genetic or due to other reasons. When the episodes happened, Nat would be consumed by anger, impatience, and he would swear a lot when he co
KATEOn the way to my apartment, I tried not to dwell on the confusion I was feeling and ended up growing a bit concerned about him. How could our relationship be so unstable? Just hours ago, I had told him I loved him, and now I was rethinking how harmful this relationship could be.When I got out of the car, it was starting to rain. I went inside, throwing my bag on the couch, and grabbed a bottle of wine and a glass before heading to my room. Where I took off my shoes and everything else.A bath and a bit of wine, that way I could organize my thoughts. I turned on the hot water to fill the bathtub.I was feeling a discomfort, like a tightness in my chest. I felt bad for leaving him alone with his own thoughts now. Maybe I could even understand him a little more, after what Stephan had told me. But it didn't change the fact that I felt used in a certain way. But it had been so long, as Stephan said. Yet all the signs he was showing of this dark side of hi