Chapter 105

KATE

I finish my shower and return to the room, where I find him sleeping. Damn, I don't have anything comfortable to wear, and I'm not sleepy. Nathan is lying on his stomach, naked. Mr. and Mrs. Ryan did a good job here. I need to remember to thank them someday. I bite my lip as I watch him. *What a wonderful ass, Mr. Ryan*. I try not to laugh out loud and look for his shirt.

I'm starving. Can I order a pizza at this hour? Where is my cellphone? When I find it, I sit on the couch and try to find a pizza place open at two in the morning through an app.

Here I am again. How did I end up here? So far away? Maybe not as lost this time. Ready to admit many things, like this feeling, and the fear. Fear that everything might be a lie, fear of clinging to something that can destroy me, the same old fear.

But I decided to give him a vote of confidence, right? And I can't go back anymore. Nor do I want to. Sometimes I could confidently say that everything is real.