His gaze on me forces my eyes to return to my fingers on my lap. "Why did you do it?"
"Because..." A sigh leaves my lips and I start all over. "I know you won't touch me and when she offered, I could not say no, my body wanted it. I need to feel like a woman."
Brandon nods in understanding, his tone when he starts to speak is still chilly but his gaze softens. "I have not touched Sophia since we got married. She is one of my sub, the oldest one. I didn't touch her. Whatever you think you saw was simply her trying to seduce me. I didn't cheat on you. I'll never."
The sincerity in his voice as his words descend on me like a cloud of darkness has me unable to look at him due to the immense guilt I feel. I cheated on my husband two days after our wedding.
"I'm sorry," I manage to say with my head cast down. "Please. I can't handle a divorce."
"I want this marriage to work," Brandon says and my heart begins to gallop, it's the last thing I expect to hear from him but I am glad to hear it. I also want us to work. "Did you like her touch? Don't lie to me, Elna."
No one calls me by my full name, everyone calls me El, even Brandon but since we got on his private jet, he has been calling me Elna. I am not sure I like it because he started it due to anger but I nod in response to his question, my eyes barely meeting his.
"Get rid of the robe," Brandon murmurs and I obey. The robe pools at my feet and a knock at the door stops his next order.
A slim lady steps in at his request and my eyes scan her outfit from head to toe. She is putting on a red, fitted suit, a beret of the same colour sits atop her brown hair which is in a bun at the nape of her neck and her red heels make her tower over me.
"Thelma," Brandon says. "I need some ice."
Thelma nods at him, then at me, she picks the empty cup at his feet and leaves the room with a sway of her hips. She is pretty.
"Have you slept with her?" I ask. The bronze skin damsel with long legs who just walked out of this room is like those models I worked with in the past. Tall, sexy and beautiful, any man will be glad to bed her.
Brandon chuckles, he angles his head and his tongue swipes over his lip. "No." He laughs again. "Please give me some credit, I don't sleep with the staff." His eyes darken and my breath hitches at his intense stare. "Where did Sophia touch you?" I point at my crotch area and breasts. "Sit on the bed."
His tone brooks no argument, I nod and lower myself to the edge of the bed.
"Spread your legs."
My eyes widen at his command and my heart starts a wild dance. I do as I am told and the throbbing between my legs resume.
"Show me."
"What?" I breathe out.
I heard him loud and clear the first time, I did. My body begins to thrum in response to his order but I stay still and wait. Wait for him to repeat himself. I don't want to be too forward again. Moisture gathers in my panties, my nipples are awake and straining against the sheer lace top I am wearing but I wait with my head angled to one side.
The top leaves nothing to the imagination, my huge breasts are on display and Brandon's eyes rest on them the longest he has since we got married. I suck on my lip, my eyes glazed over as I watch him, hoping he will touch me. He's the major reason I am putting on this outfit. I want his touch.
Brandon comes to kneel between my legs and I suck in a sharp breath when he points a finger to my rock hard nipples as if to touch me but doesn't. I blink twice and sigh.
"Show me," he says. "Touch yourself. Erase every single memory of her touch from your body. Can you do that for me?" he asks in the softest voice he can muster and I nod.
For him, I can. If it will get me back into his good book, I will do it. I want us to work.
He places both hands on my knees, urging me with his eyes to start and I nod again. Two of my fingers slip into my wetness and I moan at the sudden pleasure that overcomes me. My back arches as I pick up speed, I try to squeeze my breasts with the other hand while my fingers continue their thrusts but it's futile so I just close my eyes.
"Eyes on me, Elna," Brandon says and I nod. My eyes fly open; my breathing comes in pants as I struggle to keep them open. I move my hand to the hem of my shirt to pull it off when he whispers, "It stays on."
I nod again, both of my hands come to my chest and I squeeze, knead them like bread dough. A knock on the door slows down my movements, I blink and lick my lips.
"Don't stop," Brandon calls out as he moves to the door. He returns shortly with a bowl of ice and I swallow when he returns to his kneeling position. "Do not stop, Elna."
My hands are shaky as I continue groping my large breasts while his movements are steady, determined as he pulls my short and lingerie down to my knees. He blows air on my core and I shiver, I want his touch.
"Lie down. Do not stop touching yourself."
The words to answer him dry in my throat as my back connects with the bed. I don't stop touching myself, I try not to as I feel a cube graze my clit. My body jerks at the full contact of the cube inside my vagina, a strange warmth comes over me and I have to bite down on my tongue to keep myself from flying out of the bed and into his arms.
"Let me know if you want to come," his words pierce through the fog of horniness in my head and I manage to nod twice.
Waves of shock crash over me, my toes curls and my body squirms as he begins to circle the ice over my clit. He has not used his fingers yet but it is more than enough to cause a tightening of my belly. My eyes roll to the back of my head, my hands drop from my chest and my legs begin to vibrate.
"I'm coming," I whisper-shout, "I'm coming!"
All of Brandon actions cease, he walks back to sit on the sofa and I groan, feeling the loss of the ice more than ever. Pushing myself to a sitting position, I try to avoid his eyes as my hands pull my short and underwear over my waist.
I will see to it that he finishes what he started and I don't care how I will go about it but it must happen. I have two weeks with this sex god, I intend to make use of it.
"Get dressed, we land in twenty minutes."
Once the door of the private jet slides open, I am blessed with a view of the limousine waiting for us. The chauffeur in black suit is standing by the side, a hand on the door handle, ready to open up. I chuckle at the sight, I have never had a chauffeur, I don't even have a car and I can't help but think about how much my
No words leave my lips after that and he seems to find it okay. We step into the building and I see it's a hotel, a big, fancy hotel with no one in the corridor except for the pretty receptionist. Her face lights up in a smile as she walks over to hand Brandon a key card without a word spoken to me or an acknowledgement of my presence.
Silence descends over us, the tension in the room is thick, each passing second leaves me feeling dumber for voicing out such an awkward request. What do I know about sex, let alone being a submissive? My eyes raise to meet Brandon's, my lips part open to tell him to forget anything I said but he cuts me off with a soft glare and a sigh."Sex in my world is different," he finally says. He runs his fingers through his hair, letting some of the brown locks fall over his forehead. I palm his cheek, the pad of my thumb caresses his prominent cheekbone."You can teach me; you can show me how."Brandon's hand comes to the small of my back, my legs tangle in the sheet when I try to change position to straddle
We stare at each other for a bit before I pull my shirt over my head. My breasts point at him, my nipples stand at attention but I make no move to touch him, neither does he try to touch me. I bite my lips and wait. Whatever happens next is up to him, he's the teacher and I am the willing student.
"You quit what?" Brandon asks in a voice that is so low I am surprised I can hear him. I wrap my arms around myself, shiver and sink my teeth into my lips as the distance between us disappears. "Quit what, El?""Being your sub," I reply without meeting his gaze, afraid to see the disappointment swimming in them. "I'm sorry, I can't do it."Water from my hair streams down my back and I shiver again. I make sure to keep my eyes on the floor; I don't want to see that part of him that's responsible for this embarrassing situation. I tried, I did try to swallow but I could not. This is not a movie where the female lead swallows the man's cum like it is her f
Giggles spill from my lips at the distress in his voice, my eyes shut and I pull the duvet over my head. He owes me an apology, after that, I might let him in on the location of the pillows, maybe give him the beddings and join him on the bed. A tug on the material causes me to pull it down and my lips move into a scowl when I see Brandon standing by the side with a similar scowl on his face.He says, "I need the pillows and bedsheet.""Say sorry, apologise first," I reply.His nostrils flare and he crosses his arms over his chest. The muscle of his biceps ripple, I am tempted to touch them, see if they are as firm as they look. Light brown hairs are scattered all over his chest haphazardly, trailing a line down to his stomach where they disappear into the
"Elna!" I jump in fright at the sound of the voice, eyes wide open and lips pulled into a frown as I turn around to face whoever thinks it fun to shout out my name on a warm, beautiful evening. "Get away from there.""Goddamit Brandon, lower your voice," I scream back at him and push away from the railing. "You are screaming like a crazy banshee whose wife left him a day after their wedding and now his life is a mess."What am I even saying? I offer Brandon a sheepish smile, thankful to see that he finds my statement funny. "Sorry," I murmur. This is what I become when my best friend is upset with me, a swearing mess.
My mouth drops open, I blink twice, he's the reason Pa was fired? Pa was miserable for a short period until the marriage proposal came up and the culprit is right here wearing a proud smile. I jump from the couch to come and stand in front of him."You!""He told me to shove my apology far up my dirty, white ass because I refused to clean the coffee spill," Brandon murmurs with his hands raised in surrender. "That's racist."I huff and shake my head with a frown. "That's not racist and your ass is dirty for making an old man clean up your mess. You dirty, white ass," I say and we both
"You promised," he whispers. He lets go of me to run his hands through his hair. "You promised me, Elna. Your beginning, middle and end." Jumping to his feet, he folds his hands behind his head and murmurs, "You promised. You can't leave me. Baby, please."Unable to look him in the eyes, I bury my face into the pillow and continue shaking my head. I know the answer to his question now, I am so certain of it. Do I still want him? Yes, I will always want him, more than I have ever wanted anyone but I can't have him.Murder is murder and he killed his brother.And it hurts.It hurts every fibre of my being. I love him so much it hurts to think of a future without him. I don't think I can stop loving him but when I look at him, all I see is a killer. If I cannot look past his sins then I shouldn't be in his life. It will be our secret, it's not in my place to tell other people and I am fine with that. I wi
It is hard.Really hard.
He doesn't regret it. But he feels bad. What does that mean? I race down the stairs as fast as I can, my car keys dangling in my hand. Hopefully, I look sane with the way I hurriedly dressed and left. I need to talk to Clarissa but about what? Do I want to tell her what Brandon said? What if she calls the police on him? Will she do that? She won't.
I wake to amber eyes staring down at me. I flash Brandon a sleepy smile, he presses a kiss to my hair and I giggle, he must love my new shampoo. "You slept well?" I ask.He nods, placing another kiss on my temple. "I did, you?" he says against my skin and I hum in response, loving the wet kisses he litters on
The next day, my phone is pinging with notifications. David shoots me a grateful text I don't reply, I am sure he doesn't expect one, we are not friends. My finger hovers over the delete option on his contact, I hesitate. It won’t hurt to have it so I save his number, something I had failed to do. Bored, I send Brandon an SOS and switch off my phone.Time to take matters into my hands.Bathed, shaved and clad in lace lingerie that barely holds my breasts and reveals my bump, I sit up, legs crossed while awaiting that click that will announce his entrance. He won't talk to me like a normal person and now, I am pissed. And horny. And frustrated.The click to signify his presence sounds, reverberating in the room. I shoot up from the bed as fast as a pregnant woman approaching her third semester can and saunter to the door, swinging my hips. Brandon eyes me from head to toe, the appreciative glint in his gaze is missing but I shrug tha
Curiosity kills the cat. Satisfaction brings it back. It has to. That is the reason I am in this café, waiting for David after I made the spontaneous decision to see him. I pull my oversized tracksuit over my belly, trying and failing to blend in with the scanty crowd.A wave of nostalgia hits me when someone passes with a tray of fish and chips. I need to call Clarissa. I don't understand how we let life, thesis and coursework pull us apart but we need to meet. Sending her a short text, I roll my lip between my teeth while awaiting her reply. If she replies before David comes, I will cancel our meeting. She comes first.I shouldn't be here.That seems to have become my new mantra and each time, things turn out better than I expect. I hope it's the case today. Taking a swig from the water bottle on the table while I wait for the first person to show up, I try to push the nagging thoughts out of my head.
Seconds of silence pass, when Josh doesn't seem to be leaving, I ask, "Who is Brendan?""Our brother, Brandon's twin." I blink, my head spins from the sudden information and my thoughts crash to a stop when he adds, "He is dead." Josh's smile is pitiful, I don't know when I move to stand beside him. I pat his shoulder. "He died in an accident."Brandon has a twin, a dead twin. It's all I can think while my hand meets Josh's shoulder in an awkward show of comfort. He pries my hand off him with a smile I don't comment on because of how fake it is. I rub my hand against my hip. Brandon has a dead twin.Seeing how shaken I am by the news, Josh pushes me into his seat, I sink gratefully into it. I shouldn't have asked. My husband should have told me himself. "When did he die?""A while ago."I snap. "How long is a while ago?""Five years," he rep
Josh catches up to me before I reach the house, he offers me a smile, I shrug. None of this is his fault. We take a seat by the kitchen window, staring at the trio seated inside the gazebo. From our position here, we can't see their lips moving but I can't help wishing they will start a conversation. Talk to each other even if it ends in a screaming bout."Do you think they will reconcile?"Josh snickers. He hops to the fridge like he pays rent and returns with a huge chunk of cake. The leftover I had saved to munch on later because I can't resist anything sugary and his family didn't let me enjoy it. Fleeting anger surges through me, I close my eyes."Nope. Not a chance," he says. I turn to see him dragging another stool close to me.The poise and gracefulness he was forced to adapt when we were outside vanish when he gobbles the cake. I smile foolishly, this is the Josh I know. Slapping his knee, I mot
The gazebo is deathly quiet and the tension promises to suffocate us. Everything is going well, if you count the curt greetings from Brandon's snobbish parents. Queen Elizabeth doesn't hold a candle to Brandon's mother with her prim and proper manners, wrinkles and white hair cropped short. All she needs is a crown and I'll genuflect before her.Brandon's dad is an older beardless version of him with thinning hair. He is so quiet, the kind of quiet that allows his haughty wife freedom to speak to people as she pleases. A minute after exchanging greetings and I can already tell it was a bad idea to invite them.Seated beside Brandon, muscles tight and frustrated at my lack of release, I drum my fingers on my legs hidden under the table. He didn't have to punish me this way. I am pregnant, he shouldn’t leave me horny. One look at him shows that's the least of his worries.He is as tensed as I am, maybe even more and a wave of gu