169. Shouldn't Call Me Papa

For a long time, Lucas bent down and hugged his wife's grave. He wanted to give all his attention and affection to her. Unfortunately, no matter how many sweet words he said, no matter how sincere the apology he offered, he realized. His wife would never answer. He could only cry and lament his fate until he fell asleep, hoping that Rachel would come in his dream.

When Lucas woke up, nothing had changed. Rachel was still gone and he had to let her go. The only thing he could think of to survive was to return to the forest house—the place he had once promised as home to his beloved wife.

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All the way home, Lucas felt empty. Moreover, Canis was not beside him on the plane. His mind was easily carried away by feelings that he should have reconciled with long ago.

"Is it appropriate for me to continue living after what I've done?"

"Is there any reason for me to rise again?"

"What is the meaning of life to m