MaurícioSeeing her arrive in that state hurt me inside and I felt a luxury for making her arrive in that state, because it was all because of me and no one can deny that. While the good memories I had of the two of us came to my mind like a movie, I cried silently and asked for forgiveness for, in such a short time, making her suffer more than anyone should. In truth no one should suffer because of love, but Louise has already suffered what was supposed to happen in our one year relationship and all because of me, a big idiot. I saw Emma approach and open Hamlet, so I could hide that I was crying."What were you doing with Alicia last night? Aren't you going to tell me that you got back together?""So she saw!" - For a moment I wanted to run out of there and go back to the past for not having accepted to talk to Alicia, but as in life you reap what you plant, I was reaping my harvest and she was not happy at all. But I can't let all this misunderstanding end our love, I have to prove
Louise"Daughter, don't leave to live tomorrow what you could live today. Don't wait for forgiveness to kneel at your feet to grant it. Life, Louise. Live intensely, you have someone who really loves you."When I woke up I was lying on Mauricio's chest, feeling his hand on my head, stroking my hair, and I liked that."Good morning, my love." - His husky voice said, as if he knew that I had woken up."Good morning, my love." - I replied, letting a silly laugh escape as I lifted my head. But, I was still ashamed of myself, and in no small way. - "How long have you been awake?""A few hours. I was waiting for you to wake up. I wanted to be the first person to hear your voice."My fingers touched my face and I couldn't feel anything but revulsion, as if something was wrong with me and it bothered me a lot. The horrible scar was now another one of my marks that would never come off. After getting out of the shower, Mauricio was naked on the bed, looking at me seductively. I was just wrappe
MaurícioRoberto was humming when we arrived in an enormous happiness. When Louise saw him she tried to hide her face, but as nothing goes unnoticed by my brother..."You have arrived! I thought they were going to live there anyway. Does that hurt?" - Roberto asks, pointing to Louise's face. But little did he know that she was becoming as terrible as he is at sarcasm."No, it just tickles. Do you think they're kind of tasty? Want me to do one on your face too?" - They both laughed as if this was funny, and after realizing that Clarice was not with him, she spoke again: - "Where is Clarice?" "She's gone to take care of her mother's business and it seems your father is in the middle of it. For God's sake, Louise, don't do that anymore. If you want to talk, feel free, I'm all ears, Mauricio is insensitive.""You can be sure that at some point I'll ask you a lot of questions. As for Norely, nothing about him matters to me anymore." - It was clear that even his name, when mentioned, made
Clarice The scene was deplorable to watch. My mother was completely shameless when she saw me, didn't seem to care, and was on her way to give a statement by the time I arrived."Here are her documents." - I handed the folder to the lawyer, who was expressionless. - Do you know what she did?"Trafficking. She was caught red-handed with almost 200 kilos of cocaine, a big load." - He was nervous, but who wouldn't be?"It will be a long process!" - I sat with my hand to my head and wondered why this was happening to me. Why did she get herself into this now? - "Is it that serious?""Unfortunately it is. It's more serious than it seems, your mother took over everything. But, I'll do the best I can.""Was she caught alone or did she have someone with her?""She was approached while driving a van with all the drugs under the seats. The policemen had dogs and that helped them."I didn't want to know anything else. My mother didn't have much chance of getting out on bail and neither did I ha
LouiseIn front of the mirror I was stroking my stomach, which was horrible because of the scars and it made me sick to my stomach to look at it. I didn't want to accept the fact that I was pregnant, I had taken so much precautions and yet this was happening? I can't accept it, I can't even believe it.After leaving the bathroom, I found Mauricio sitting with his hand on his face, as if he was focused on something."Is something wrong?" - I asked, sitting next to him and holding his hand."Why would there be? I was just thinking about some possible business from now on. I have a lot of things pending, I wish you could help me.""And why do you think I can't? If you don't trust me, why should we get married then?""It's not about you, it's that I don't want to put you in the middle of my problems, you are the only good thing I have and you are the one who gives me the strength to survive. I won't put you in the middle of the wolves, but who knows, in a few days this situation may chang
Maurício"The feeling of insufficiency is what fucks me up every time I make a decision, Davis. I don't want to have to live with this weight on my back, even after forgiveness I don't feel forgiven." - There I was in another session with Davis, I want to live without this weight on my back. Davis was a replacement for the terrible, shitty psychologist."Why does this feeling bother you? Could it be that you are not forgiving yourself? The weight of guilt weighs more heavily on you than on the head of the person affected!""I don't know, I haven't known who I am for many years. That damned scene left me without feelings, without emotions, and all this is resurfacing now, all after I met Louise. The size of the fear I have of making a mistake with her is unwritten." Everything was new to me, this love thing was new. I confess that I had already given up hope, but Louise came into my life at an unexpected time and is making me feel the weight of guilt for everything I have ever done. W
MaurícioI was feeling terrible and guilty for leaving her alone and having to leave without seeing her first, only I know how I was feeling and it was not good. I wish I could shout to the world how much I love her, but I don't know how to do it without hurting her, because that would be the last thing I would want. The phone was right in front of me and I was hesitating to call, it was early in the morning and she could be asleep or not..."I wanted to call her now and tell her everything I felt." - Roberto looked at me with a contemptuous face, as if he was recriminating my thoughts."You'll never get tired of being a jerk, will you? You know what I think? Louise should have looked at another guy and not at you, you don't seem to like her. The woman is there, giving her blood for you and you always want to think when it comes to doing something related to her, what's your problem?""I know I'm being an asshole and that's why I need your help, but you don't seem to understand me and
AliciaI knew I had done everything wrong, even though no one saw me, but Emma saw me and worst of all, she didn't die. I don't know what came over me at the time, but I couldn't pull the trigger and the most she'll be is a paraplegic now.(...)"Are you happy now? What are you going to do now, Alicia? Are we going to live on the run for the rest of our lives?" - Willy shouted, making me even more nervous."Let's calm down, let's calm down…""And where are we going? Even now I can't believe you left Edy with Norely to live such a shitty life. Look how far you've come, Alicia. You're not like that. I'm not like that." The point I've reached is that I can't accept rejection anymore and I've decided that if Mauricio doesn't want to be happy with me, he won't be happy with anyone else, and I'll go all the way, but Willy doesn't need to know that."I've always been like that, Willy. Do you know how painful it is to want someone you can't have? I was not in my right mind when I had sex wit
18 years later...Say"Why do you insist on continuing with this madness? If our mother finds out what you are doing, your punishment will be severe and you know it." - Charles was the typical protective brother, but nothing could beat our father, he was terribly terrible and I knew he monitored my every move."Calm down, Charles. Besides, tell me, don't you also find this place interesting? Why do you think they don't let us come here?"My father and mother have always been conservative. Charles and I were in our first year of college, I had chosen chemical engineering and Charles hadn't decided yet, but the annoying thing was that for my father this was normal when it came to Charles, since when the subject was Say here, he was always rude. Today was going to be our week, but I'm alone and Charles is just going to drive me, since I can't even walk by myself, it's just my life.The room we were in was forbidden for us to enter, but today our parents went to settle some things in Los
LouiseSay was in Julie's arms, I had no anger toward her for what had happened in the past. I trusted Mauricio, so as long as she didn't destroy my children I had no reason to hate her. Lucius was holding Charles in his arms and was softly telling Emma that he was her grandson too, which made me very happy. It's so good when your child is loved, isn't it?"I think we'd better go where everyone else is already." - Maurício says in a loud voice, taking everyone's attention. We had planned to spend this date with our brother and sister after supper, but he knew that this was not what I wanted, so he didn't want Julie to stay too long in our house either."I tried to talk to him, but he interrupted me immediately:""Don't even come, Louise. I don't want any trouble here today, it's only been two three weeks since you gave birth and you can't and I'm not going to let you stress yourself out. Not now!" - When he looked at me without bowing his head, I knew he was serious and didn't fight b
RobertoIt was like a joint effort inside the hospital. Edgar, Klaus (who was now Maria's daughter's boyfriend), Jason, Emma, Lucius, me, and Clarice. Mauricio was in distress in the delivery room, helping Louise who had gone into labor in the early hours of the morning. We were all waiting for news and I swear I never thought that the feeling of dread would come over me again, but now, I was feeling it all over again. It was the same feeling as when Clarice was having our child, but the difference was that I was inside, and now I am distressed that I don't know how things are going inside. Brian had stayed home with Mary, Clarice was more nervous than all of us put together. Edgar was pacing back and forth, when suddenly Parkinson came through the door, with a worried expression and all awkwardness, he looked as if he had been taking heavy drugs, so thin he was. Before he could come to us, I walked towards him discreetly and he followed me into the other waiting room."What are you d
Some time later...LouiseEverything was going well. The pregnancy was going well, I was 39 weeks and super heavy. I woke up and decided that I wanted to get out of here. We are living in the same place, and Roberto and Clarice are nearby. Mauricio had just come home from work, and I was in the kitchen preparing dinner with Maria's help."Honey, can you come up in a little while?" - Maria looked at me dubiously and smiled, denying it with her head.After having no trace of him, she began to speak:"I think he is very lucky to have you." - Maria said looking at my belly, which wouldn't stop moving. - "You'd better go, I'll finish the rest. I'll set the table and leave afterwards. I'll be back tomorrow.""Thank you, Maria. You are an angel in my life." - I climbed the stairs slowly because of the discomfort my stomach was causing me.We hadn't planned anything yet, Mauricio has some projects for the future. No more auctions, not from Mauricio and not from any of my ANC members. This gav
RobertoThe days have been passing quickly, but Louise still hasn't made any statement about her pregnancy. Clarice was devoted body and soul to Brian and I thought this was perfect.Mauricio had been moody lately and this was bothering me. We were on our way home from work when he brought up the subject I had been sworn to secrecy about."Did Louise say something to you?""About what? If she said nothing to Clarice, it wasn't to me." - I lied, but I was terrible at it and he didn't stop looking at me until I stopped walking."You are a bad fucking liar, Roberto. You two are good friends, I know she would tell you secrets. She sees you as a brother!""But you just told her a secret, and you know that you don't share it with anyone. It's no big deal, but if you want to know, ask her yourself.""Are you on her side now?" - Was it immature of you? Yes, but Mauricio was really outraged and he was pissed off when this happened."I'm not on anyone's side, I'm just not going to meddle in any
MaurícioEveryone was singing Happy Birthday to Brian when I saw someone passing by the garden, the service was short, but I know it wasn't from any ghost. I left without anyone noticing and went to the garden, while everyone was too excited about what was going on inside."I don't want to get in your way, please. I need to talk to you, just listen to me for a few seconds and then you can do what you want with us." - Willy had Edy, Alícia and James' son, by his side.The boy was all bruised and Willy was almost unrecognizable. He had never hurt anyone, had always been against Alicia's atrocities and was only with her because... because he was the only person she could turn to, her family was a bunch of junkies and she had chosen her fate."Alícia committed suicide, it's been three months since this happened and I don't know what to do anymore." - In her eyes there was despair, I know how Louise won't like this, but I can't leave it like this."Okay, what do you need?""Someone to take
One year later...LouiseThe preparations for Brian's birthday were in full swing. Clarice was more than happy, as were Roberto and all of us. The time on the invitations was 6:00 PM, but Edgar and his darling daughter arrived early, and I would not deny shelter to her who sponsored me, that would be too selfish. He taught me too much, but I couldn't stand her. In the past, Edgar forced Mauricio and his daughter, Julie, to be together. And wherever Mauricio is, she won't mind forcing herself on him, and I knew that a long time ago."Do you know what I want?" - Clarice smiled wickedly as she looked at Julie. - "To teach that bitch not to stare too much at other people's men.""You have no idea how much we both think alike." - I smiled at her and she did the same. Mauricio approached us both with a small box in hand, handing it to Clarice. He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my neck."This is our present for our little boy. You know that he is the most precious thing in our f
ClariceThe feeling that I would die at any moment was still very present. My son was in the incubator in the UV light. My body hurt even under anesthesia. I still hadn't eaten anything, I couldn't even drink water, but now, I was waiting for the nurses to help me up. If not, my blood would not circulate and could lead to a thrombosis, because of the anesthesia. Louise and Roberto's voices were loud, and when they talked, they sounded like they were fighting, and Mauricio was always quiet."Where is my baby?" - Louise came hurriedly to see him, but was disappointed when she didn't see him there. - "I forgot he's tiny. But, how are you feeling? - She sat down next to me and held my hand.""I am fulfilled, sister. I have a wonderful family. I have a strong sister that I have been very proud of ever since I met her, and now, you don't know how much I admire you for all your strength.""Do you know that even though I haven't seen him yet, he is the most important thing I have in my life?
LouiseWith each sip I took of the different drinks, I felt my stomach turn and the vomit want to come out, until I realized I was overdoing it and needed to sober up for the morning.The last time I looked at the time it was almost two in the morning, but I didn't intend to leave now."I finally found you, do you know how long I have been looking for you?" - I couldn't believe who was standing in front of me! It was Klaus, now in a nice suit, but with the same shoulder-length hair."Oh my God! I'm sorry I left without any warning. How is Miss Margot?""She passed away two weeks ago. But, she knew you were fine and that's why I didn't come after you. But now, I was going home when I saw her hiding here and thought: why not go and talk to her?" - Why did he have to be so handsome? He was very similar to Maurício in some ways, but so different in some."I was sorry." - If it weren't for this man and this woman, I wouldn't be suffering now, I would be dead. - "Sit down, have a few beers