The birth process had begun. During the initial stage I remained intact and was hoping that the delivery would be normal but during the delivery I was losing my patience and I was getting into unconsciousness.
There would be a chance of death for me and for my upcoming baby. I have to bear some more pain so that we both could survive because I wanted to live and wanted my baby to also live. The delivery was going well and suddenly there was a shut down of electricity.
This would be a problem because I was waiting for it to happen soon so that I could not get unconscious.
But I was getting conscious and the doctor was Telling me to hold it for a few more moments. The delivery was still in process. I was holding myself so that there would be no danger for both of us.The baby was coming out and the doctor was asking me to push more so that the baby Would come out. I pushed and it would start coming out slowly. I was hoping that delivery would occur without any trouble.Finally the delivery occurred successfully and I thanked God that it would occur without any problem and without getting into any complications.
I lost consciousness after the delivery and I did not know that it was my daughter or son. After that the doctor went out and told Brent about the good news. Brent was very happy to hear that Because he was so excited about the upcoming baby.The nurses cleaned everything. They gave a shower to a baby. The doctor told Brent that he was blessed with a baby girl. He was happy that he had a daughter now. The doctor told him to go to the counter and make a clearance for the bills.He went to the reception and made the clearance and after that went out to bring sweets for everyone because it was very happy news for him and he was very happy about his baby girl.
After an hour I came back to my senses. I asked the nurse where my baby was. She told me that she was in a child's ward. I told her to bring her here because I wanted to see her for the first time and do some love for her.She told me that she didn't bring her here right now because there were some hospital's policies that she had to follow. I requested her to bring her here because I was so curious to see her.She told me that she would bring her here to fulfill my desire but I would not tell anyone that she brought her here. I promised her that this would be a secret between us and no one would know that she brought her here.She went to bring her here and when she reached there and the ward supervisor was there and in his presence she could not bring her here.
She waited till the supervisor had gone but there was strict security over there because a lot of children got kidnapped from there when there was little security. She tried her best to take her here but she couldn't because in the presence of security she couldn't bring her here.She came back and told me that she failed to do so because there was a lot of security and if she got caught while taking her here then except for firing her she would go to jail whether she was taking her here to me. She apologized to me because she couldn't fill my desire to see her right now.
The doctor came to me after some time and asked me how I was feeling now. Till now Brent had come back along with the sweets for doctors and all other employees as well. Brent came inside to the room and after looking at me there was a glow on his face that showed how happy he was.He gave the sweets to the nurse and told her to distribute it in the whole hospital. He came to me and sat on the bed beside me and hugged me warmly. He was thankful to me that I gave him a beautiful daughter and that was a blessing for both of us.The doctor was still there and told me that my husband was so loving and caring. He asked the doctor when he would discharge me.
The doctor told him that tonight or in the morning he would discharge me after looking at the condition of me and the baby as well. I asked the doctor if I could see my daughter because I had not seen her yet. The doctor told me that he would tell the nurse and with my permission she would take her here because without his permission no one would be allowed to take the baby from there.I told him that I would be very thankful if he would do this favor on me. He told me that it was his duty and I should not be thankful to him for this favor.
Standing at the edge of the roof, waiting for the perfect moment to die, thinking how unfair this life was, I started to think about my dreams and wishes that will never be fulfilled.I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and tried to jump from the building, when someone held my hand and hugged me.I felt the warmth of someone after so much time and tightly hugged that person back without even knowing who that person was, and busted into tears.My tears flowed as if they found the way out after so much time. Not knowing who that person was, I let my tears out.When I came back to my senses, I looked upward towards his face.
Chapter 2: The walls around my heart.After being betrayed and being hurt by so many people, I decided to keep as much distance as I could from all people, so in this way I ended up as an introvert. I focused on my education and managed to get admission in a top Medical College but still after such a huge achievement, something was not right, I felt nothing but emptiness in my life. Although I was popular among people for my good grades and my cute looks, especially among boys, such shallow thoughts no longer impressed me as I was once despised by people for my very own appearance.I did manage to change my appearance according to the way people like it, but the scars that body shaming left on my self esteem never healed. Near the end of my undergraduate years, I started getting marriage proposals but no one managed to win my trust and my heart.For the very first time and especially when I was near my death, I felt sincerity and care and this feel