KaneI reach the door, huffing and almost sweating. My heartbeat is still bullet-fast due to driving faster all the way and running up the stairs without breathing. "Here's— your— cro—", I don't complete and breathe heavily, unable to utter anything else my breath hitches."Take a breath, husband", she says calmly, still sitting on the ground in the same position. This time all the bags are open. Her back is facing me. I curl up my face, wanting to say something but I find it better to catch my breath first. "Will you come over here, please? See what I got", she says in an excited tone. Wasn't she going crazy just a while ago?Nonetheless, I finally get some strength to proceed after twenty minutes of rush. I walk inside towards the centre table and find her lap filled with vibrant-coloured clothes. Surprisingly, these aren't baby clothes. "There was a sale on maternity clothes", she says while bouncing them on her lap, still not looking at me. "I got all the colours"She hardly
KaneEmily looks at me through the mirror and the words come out of her mouth in such a random way as if it wasn't a big deal. I thought she would sound cold. As she should. I don't find anything to speak of and get no answer, she finishes combing her hair and then makes her way to the closet. This is when she understands the whole thing but wanted me to conclude it. I scratch the back of my head, not sure where to start. From the day I got to know about Samuel? Well, it's been like a whole month. I don't even know how she would react.She comes back with a pair of shorts and a top and slides her bathrobe down. Her gazes come to me for a while before she eventually looks away and finishes dressing up. Throughout that time, I have been staring around the room with a blank head. "It's okay, Kane", at last, she lets out a sigh and looks at me. "What?" I exclaim. "It's just okay", she says. "You have not uttered a single word in the last seven minutes and you're getting nervous for n
EmilyI think I need to run. As always. The same way I have done ever since. Whenever I know I'm gonna be hit by the overwhelming emotions of a situation and it becomes really hard, I feel like changing the whole surroundings. One month to go till the supposed last trial. And I'm already getting goosebumps all over. Even though I didn't let Kane know how nervous I am, I know he's able to figure that out easily. I had to have this conversation with him. As early as possible. That I knew he had been hiding this thing from me. It was needed to make him feel better. I could have easily pretended to not know anything. But he was getting bothered the most. It's not that he wanted to hide. If he wanted, it would be easy. But he wanted to tell me and that ate him up. I found it better to make all this easy for him. Samuel, not wanting to see my face isn't new to me but every time I hear this, I can't help going back to the same spiral of dark memories and how he was separated from me only
Ivanna"Mama, is it gonna hurt?" Chrissie asks in a low tone, half-lying on the hospital bed. There's clear fear on her face. It was not easy for me to tell her that she'll be undergoing surgery. She had no clue why we were here in the first place. We spent the first two days visiting the ranch and other places in the village and she was really enjoying it. She wanted to do so many things but it all got interrupted when the actual thing began. We told her about the surgery yesterday, after the check-up. Since then, she has been asking us questions. She's not crying or asking us to stop this. She's just making sure she can be strong enough for this. She wants to decrease her fear and measure the possibilities. I smile and sit beside her, touching her cheek gently. "No. It won't. You won't even know what's happening. The doctors will give you medicine so you don't feel any pain", I tell her. "Really?" She exclaims. "Yeah. Are you scared?" I ask.Her face drops. She looks down and r
TheaI woke up late again. It's been like six days in the hospital and three days in the mansion since I woke up at ten. That sucks. My routine has been completely changed but I'm not minding it that much. I think I kind of needed a change.After that accident, I was dealing with frustration, and nightmares of my past and the things I have been doing. They have been taking a toll on me. I was feeling lost. But thankfully, John had been there to comfort me whenever I had any panic attacks or negative thoughts. He also called a therapist who told me that I'm going through that disorder where people go through major distress about their life and their doings. I have been having thoughts that I never had before. I didn't tell anything about my life to the therapist because there was more in my life than I could remember. And I can't risk my secrets just for a stupid post-accident disorder. I know I'll cope with that. Especially when I have Ryan and Kevin to cheer me up throughout the da
Ivanna"What are you thinking?" Christian holds my shoulder, startling me. I flinch and look at him, a bit alarmed. "Chris! I don't think I can be there. I really don't think I'll be able to see all that. Please!""It's okay. It's fine", he touches my cheek gently. "If you don't wanna go, you don't have to"I feel so bad that I couldn't have the courage to be next to her. I'm letting her be there, alone, believing that she's much more courageous than me. It makes me feel more awful than I actually am. "Well—" Dr Decker shrugs. "In such cases with children, we always let one of the parents accompany the kids. In fact, we really don't let them. We suggest they be there. Because children are sensitive. They are used to being taken care of by their parents, like a shield and suddenly letting them go through this alone is kind of terrifying for them, no matter how courageous they are. Their brain, their sanity, it's all sensitive. Any kind of fear and trauma can be harmful to them. So—"
TheaJohn isn't ready to get me a phone because he thinks I'll end up calling my dietitian and gym instructor. It was really foolish of him because I can do that from another phone too. But well, Tiffany is there to spy on me all the time. But I'm somehow feeling better these days, after cutting off from the outer world. I was more into that world than mine."Good afternoon", John's voice comes from the door as I move my eyes from the window and look at him. My eyes open wide in shock as I find him holding a bunch of lilies. He has a wide smile on his face too. "Hey!" I exclaim. "You're kind of early today""Yeah. I wasn't feeling like working much", he says and hands me the bouquet.I happily take it. "Pretty""You still love lilies?" He asks hesitantly. "I wasn't sure if that changed because I didn't really get you flowers for a long time""I still love them", I say, looking down at them as the fragrance fills my nostrils. "Sorry for not getting them for you at all", he says.I p
EmilyI enter the OT, wearing the essentials. Chrissie is still lying on her back and she looks extremely confused by her surroundings. I walk towards her when she has been looking at the monitor next to her. Two nurses are working beside the bed, waiting for the doctor. "Hey, beautiful!" I whisper as soon as I reach her. And her face lightens up right away."Emmy!" She excitedly whispers back. I hold her hand. "How're you doing?"She fluffs her cheeks. "Honestly? I'm scared""I know. But now you don't need to be. Since I'm here", I squeeze her hand."Why do you have that mask on?" She curiously asks. "Because it's important to put it on when I'm here", I chuckle.Suddenly, the air feels heavy when the doctor comes inside. I was indeed confident to be with Chrisanna but there's always a bit of nervousness surrounding me when I watch these children going through it. Especially when the last time I was in such a position was two years back. It's been a long time since I have been the