TAMMY’S POVI quickly stumble to my feet and back to my bedroom where I try to close the door as softly as possible and jump back into bed. I close my eyes, needing to fall back asleep. But I can’t. Not as I hear a set of footsteps walking down the hallway and towards the bedroom. The door to our bedroom swings open. I don’t look over but I know Sean is standing in the doorway, looking at me hiding away in the bed.“Tammy?” Sean asks from the doorway.“Tammy, come on, I heard you in the hallway just now. Were you listening to my conversation with Sue? Listen, we were just joking…Tam? Honey?”I’m frozen in anger, wanting to confront him but not knowing what to say. He walks into the room and sits at the foot of the bed. He tries to rub my foot under the cover but I pull away.So much for my “sleeping’ act. Now he knows I’m wide awake and that it was me hiding in the hallway. “Tammy, look, Sue just wants what’s best for us, okay? Yes, she got those tickets to the concert and bought yo
TAMMY’S POVI wake up feeling exhausted. I make quick work of getting up and getting dressed. I have one thing on my mind and I need an answer. I know Valentina is working somewhere in this apartment.I find her in one of the guest rooms, obviously cleaning the bedroom that Sean had slept in last night. She spots me and stops fluffing the pillows.“Buenos días Missus Saunders.” she says meekly.“Good morning, Valentina.”There’s an awkward pause as I struggle to ask outright about the emergency contraception pills I found in Sean’s study drawer. Valentina quickly cuts in to try and pry the words out from me.“How can I help you, Missus Saunders? Is there something you need in your room? A fresh set of towels?”“Valentina…I…er…need to ask you something. I found some…medication in Mr Saunders study.”I see a sudden shift in her facial expression. She looks worried. “Ah, yes, Missus Saunders. The medication in Mister Saunders office room.”So she knows about the emergency contraceptive.
TAMMY’S POVAfter Sean and Sue disappear into the study, I can’t just sit here alone in the kitchen.The way Sean put his arm around Sue when they were walking towards the study made me feel uncomfortable. And the way he spoke into her ear, I know how that feels. Because he gets that close to me and speaks into my ear when he lusts for me.It always manages to make me hot and bothered but it’s been a while since I’ve felt that. I decide to give Rain a bath. It could be a great distraction from the fact that Sean’s attention has been redirected to Sue. Again.The last thing I want to do is start a fight with Sean by going to check in on him and Sue in the study. “Rain!” I call out and he comes running down the hall to me, tail wagging, “you ready for a bath?” I fill the tub full of warm water and get out the special doggy shampoo from the clinic. Time for Rain to get in, but he looks apprehensive as I pick him up and slowly place him in the bath water.I’m glad I changed into an ol
TAMMY’S POV“Are you fucking serious, Sean? ” I screamed at him.“That dog was aggressive! He bit Sue! How did you think bringing a dog home was a good idea?”“Sean, he was a rescued puppy. We still had to train him. I was ready to commit to having Rain be a part of our family. How could you do this?”“To be honest, I didn’t like that stray anyway. I would have just put a bullet through its head if I found it on the side of the road, just put it out of its misery.” Sean said coolly.I choke on whatever words are coming up, I’m at a complete loss. How could he be so unfeeling like that? Harming a poor, innocent animal? I feel queasy.Sean knows how passionate about animals as a veterinarian. That my soul purpose is to heal and save them every chance I can. He must know that speaking of harming an animal in front of me would break my heart into a million pieces. “And please, Tammy, don’t bring home any more strays.” Sean said as he took another sip of whiskey. I hardly recognise this ma
TAMMY’S POVI get into my car and pull out of the apartment parking garage at quite a speed. The roads are quiet, it must be close to midnight. On the drive to the shelter Tito had directed me to on the phone earlier, I ruminate about how Sean ended up taking Rain to the shelter and the actual size of the wound on Sue’s arm. Rain was such a well-behaved pup in the week that I had him. Puppies are known for biting objects like furniture or shoes. But I made sure to have enough teething toys for him so that he wouldn’t feel the need to bite anything important or expensive in the house.Valentina even enjoyed having him around. I overheard her talking to Rain when he would sit with her, going from room to room as she cleaned. Ángel even started giving Rain some offcuts of meat when he was done cooking Sue’s meals in the kitchen. Rain would be so well-behaved, sitting politely waiting for Ángel to command him to take it “gently, gently” from his hand. Could it be that Sue was antagoni
TAMMY’S POVI sit down on the barstool next to Gideon. How could I pass up his offer to grab a drink after he helped me save Rain from the shelter?I make sure Rain is securely fastened to the open barstool next to me with a bowl of water that the bar staff didn’t mind pouring for him. He promptly falls asleep on the floor, exhausted after what he’d been through today.It’s pretty late but the last place I want to be right now is home. I’m not sure if Sean and Sue are back from their run to the hospital for her ‘bite’ and I definitely didn’t want Sean to see that I’d rescued Rain from the shelter. I order a cocktail as Gideon sips on his beer. “High-risk adoption, huh?” I ask, circling back to why he was at the shelter when I arrived there an hour ago.“Yeah, I was locating two wild lynxes that were being circulated through a trade syndicate. They ended up in that kill shelter. After we get them out of there and into our rehabilitation centre, we go after the sick fucks that put them
TAMMY’S POVHow the hell did Sean find me here at this pub with Gideon?“Sean, how did yo…?”Sean cuts me off, knowing exactly what I was about to ask, “I put a tracker in that new car I bought you.”“That’s a complete violation of privacy, Sean!” I bark at him.“It’s for your own safety, Tammy. For instance, this little encounter with your friend.” Sean says, sneering at Gideon.As shocked and upset as I am, I’m almost moved by his caring about my safety. To know he still cares lights a little flame inside of me. With the way Sean’s been acting recently, I don’t know how he feels about me anymore. Anger builds back up inside of me as I say, “Why don’t you go and make sure Sue is safe? That’s what your priority has been recently. I’m perfectly fine on my own.”Sean just shook his head at me and continued, pointing once again to Gideon standing next to me, bracing for the conflict, “And you call this fine, do you? Drinking with a complete stranger in a pub in the early hours of the mor
TAMMY’S POVThe drive to Gideon’s house with Gideon and Rain in the back seat was awkward. Probably just because I was overthinking everything. And after he helped me save Rain from the shelter, he was repaid with an uppercut to the jaw by my husband.He directs me all the way and eventually I stop at his driveway. “Thanks again, Gid. You can just grab his bed and food out of the trunk.” I say shyly.“No problem, Tammy.” he says, opening the back door and ushering himself and rain out onto the sidewalk. Before he closes the door, he leans in and says, “And, Tam? Good luck. With everything. I’ll take good care of your boy. See ya around.”The door slams closed, probably just because Gideon is too strong for his own good and didn’t know these damn car doors are so light. He grabs Rain's things from out the trunk and makes his way to his front door. I wait for them to step inside the house before I take a big sigh and head home.My heart feels heavy as I pull into the basement parking g
SEAN’S POVTammy is making life really fucking difficult. She hasn’t come home yet after the conversation at the breakfast table about Sue not moving out. What does she expect? This is Sue’s home. We’re just guests.It’s been almost twenty-four hours and I haven’t heard anything from her. Where the hell is she? I tried calling late last night thinking she might be working over time. But nothing. My calls went straight to voicemail. So, this is what our relationship has become. She threatens to file for divorce and flees? Really mature, Tammy. To be fair, I haven’t been the most mature in this situation either. Last night when I couldn’t get hold of Tammy, I made a turn at Gideon’s house, thinking Tammy might be there again with that brute. I made sure to leave behind another smashed window before Gideon pulled up into his driveway, insisting Tammy had been in his house all day. My last resort was to call Tammy’s mother. Again, I came up short.I’m running out of ideas here. Tammy i
TAMMY’S POVAfter a long day and very little sleep the night before, I pull up to The Monarch Hotel, a mid-rise building in the city. Sean brought me here for dinner just after we got married. I thank my cab driver as I step out and into the lobby of the hotel made of modern steel and glass architecture. I decided not to drive my car around for the next few days, I’ve learnt my lesson. Sean will inevitably track my location and try to force me to come home, causing another embarrassing scene. I check into my suite on the 10th floor and unpack my suitcase. I find myself gazing out of the floor to ceiling glass windows overlooking the city. The panoramic view reminds me of the apartment as the soft orange light fills the serene hotel room.I think of Sean as I get comfy on the emerald green sofa. He hasn’t called me yet. By now he must have realized I’m not home and that my suitcase is missing. Finally, after my second glass of wine, the calls start coming in from Sean. I decide to
TAMMY’S POVI wake up the next morning feeling sore and strange. How could Sean and I be in such a rocky place yet get deeply intimate with each other? Share our bodies even though our minds are at war.I think I need some space to really think this through.But first, I need breakfast. I’m exhausted after last night. I’m pretty sure we could not have gotten any more than a few hours sleep. Sean is already up since I’m the only one stretching awake in our bed. He must be having breakfast with Sue.I rinse my face, brush my unkempt hair and make my way to the kitchen where Sean and Sue are already seated at the dining room table, enjoying a freshly brewed cup of coffee and some hand-squeezed orange juice. “Morning.” I say, going over to the kitchen island to pour myself something to drink. I look over to Sean, already scrolling through his phone, checking his emails. Sue looks perturbed. She’s always been friendly with me but not today. Something is off. She takes a look at me and
TAMMY’S POV“I want a divorce," I said calmly.He immediately catapulted out of bed and stormed around to me, blocking my way forward.“I understand tantrums. Might not like them, but I understand them.” he says with intensity, inches from my face, “but you’ve gone too far now, Tammy.”“This isn’t a tantru…” I say but Sean instantly cuts me off.“You are acting out, Tammy. I don’t know what the fuck has gotten into you, but this isn’t what I signed up for when we got married. The woman I proposed to would never storm out in the middle of the night demanding a divorce.”Sean is enraged but composed. He’s breathing so heavily that his muscular pecs rise and fall with every breath he takes. He’s standing so close to me that I can feel the heat radiating off of his body.I reply quietly and calmly, “The girl you married didn’t think she’d have to share you with another woman.”Sean scoffs and looks at the ground, looking incredulous. A small smile peeks out from the side of his mouth, “You
TAMMY’S POVThere’s a light tap-tap on our closed bedroom door. Sean and I both look to the door and then at each other, neither of us willing to break the silence yet. He’s still livid. “Darlings?” Sue genty calls out. She doesn’t open the door but adds, “Ángel has put together a lovely spatchcock chicken for dinner. Please join me at the dining table when you’re ready.”I hear her footsteps as she makes her way back to the kitchen. Why does she always interrupt my and Sean’s conversations? Maybe I should even start expecting it every time Sean and I talk privately.“I’m not hungry.” I say to Sean. It’s the truth. I can’t stomach anything right now, especially the thought of Sean’s dick inside of his step-mother. “If you care about us at all, Tammy, you’ll join us at the dinner table tonight.” Sean says finally and stalks out of the bedroom to join Sue for dinner. I have no response to what he just said. I still do care. Even though my gut says I shouldn’t. I join Sue and Sean at
TAMMY’S POVThe rest of the day went by in a blur. I try to keep myself busy by responding to any personal emails, cleaning out my too-full closet and even organizing my sock drawer. I do so many mindless tasks that don’t even realize that night has fallen. I then decided to sit in the living room reading The Chicken Health Handbook by Gail Damerow when I hear laughter coming from the entrance foyer. It seems Sean and Sue are home from another long day at the office.Sue makes her way to the kitchen bar to start pouring her usual drink; an extra dirty martini with three olives. Afterwards, she pours Sean a tumbler of whiskey and hands it to him with a wink.Do they not notice me sitting here, reading?They toast their full glasses at each other and look deeply into one another’s eyes as they smile and sip.“Hi.” I say loudly from the living room sofa. Sean and Sue turn towards me, surprise all over their faces at me sitting there. “Darling!” Sue exclaims, and makes her way towards
TAMMY’S POVI act quickly before Tito catches me looking through Sean’s reports.I take my phone out of my pants pocket and snap a picture of the document. I’m so frantic in trying to restock the files exactly how they were before I touched them that I almost end up knocking the pile of documents off the kitchen counter and onto the floor. I compose myself as Tito walks back into the kitchen and I’m waiting with my hand on my hip, acting as nonchalant as possible. “You okay?” Tito asks me as he reemerges into the kitchen to find me standing there awkwardly. “Oh, yeah. I’m fine. I uh, haven’t been sleeping well recently, things have been a bit crazy…” I quickly change the subject so Tito doesn’t catch on that I’m acting very suspiciously, “Did you enjoy the coffee? You know, Sue is crazy for these hand-roasted coffee beans that come from all different parts of the world. It’s amazing, really.”“Ah, yeah, thanks, it was great. Thanks. I’m not much of a coffee snob so I wouldn’t know
TAMMY’S POVI woke up on Gideon’s couch, still in his oversized t-shirt. I couldn’t bring myself to put Sean’s shirt on, his behavior last night made me beyond upset.I get up to find that Rain isn’t lying on the sofa next to me in a half-dazed state, but that he’s sitting on the floor in the living room, looking at me with his tail wagging. It seems he finally has his energy back. Thank goodness!I call Rain over and give him cuddles as he licks my face and I laugh.I remember that today I have the day off. I need it after last night’s insanity between myself and Sean here at Gideon’s house. It was mortifying, especially for Gideon to witness the whole fight. Rain sniffs around for his bowl of food and digs in. Mmm, breakfast sounds good. I’m starving. I could probably ask Ángel to whip me up a little egg and bacon when I get back to the apartment. I grab my phone to check if I have any missed calls or messages from Sean. Nothing. I don’t know why I feel…disappointed. I know I shou
SEAN’S POVI pull away from Gideon’s house so fast that the wheels spin, leaving smoke in my car’s wake. I’ll have Tito buy me a fresh set of tires tomorrow.I should have pulled Tammy home, kicking and screaming, rather than leave her there with that idiotic brute, Gideon. Who the hell is he anyway? But when Sue called saying she urgently needs meds after getting some vaccine at the hospital because of Tammy’s mutt biting her, I knew I had to just leave that escalating situation at Gideon’s house and help Sue. Before stopping at the twenty-four-hour pharmacy, I grab a spare shirt out of my trunk (seeing as though I just left mine with Tammy). I grab painkillers, anti-nausea and some sleeping pills from the tired looking pharmacist before I finally head home. I make sure to give her the right doses and help Sue to bed. I make my way to my bedroom, slowly unbuttoning my shirt as I pass the empty King-sized bed on my way to the closet. Tammy’s not here and it makes my blood boil. Wh