Not His to love

ELSIDA

I let out an exasperated sigh as my heart thuds rapidly against my ribcage, Julien’s words reverberate like a symphony in my head and it’s all I can do to keep breathing.

“Don’t say that Julien, you don’t mean it,” I croak.

“El look at me please,” he rasps, his voice echoes in the elevator and comes out gravelly.

It takes every ounce of willpower within me to keep the tears that threaten to cascade down my face at bay.

I meet his azure eyes.

“I’m sorry Elsida, Fuck I’m so sorry, I wasn’t trying to push you away, I just. I just didn’t want you in on the shit going on with my Father, you’d been through enough.”

We shouldn’t be in this elevator alone, it was a precarious thing.

Not when every inch of my body threatens to cling to him and not let go. To promise him that everything will be okay.

Fuck, this shouldn’t be happening, I’m supposed to forget about him.

“El?” he rasps, drawing me out of my train of thought.

I don’t think even if I tried, I could forget him so, I sigh and