Lilian POVAfter a while visiting the new town being built in Rustburg, I left Jensen with the mayor and walked to my old house, which had a flower shop underneath. No one was around, not the neighbors or the children who always played in the little square in front of the flower shop. Jensen said it was good for everyone, but I couldn't deny that I was going to really miss the way Rustburg used to be. .In my old house, the place was still destroyed, with rubble piled up just as I had left it the day everything collapsed. I sighed, looking at that place. Maybe I really needed to look one last time, so I could accept my new life and say goodbye to my old one.I mean, my new life in Richmond would be much better than what I had here. It wasn't about Jensen and the fact that I was living in his house, but rather the fact that now, with my studio, I could actually achieve giving myself and my triplets a good life without worries, maybe that was what I really should do. I should let go of
Lilian POV“Where were you, Lilian?” Jensen asked as soon as I returned to the city hall after he called me. “I was here, and the next thing I knew, you were gone.” He was analyzing me, looking a little scared by the suddenness.I chuckled smugly. “Chill, I didn’t run away. I'm still where you want me to be,” I said sarcastically, making Mayor Reynolds look our way curiously. Of course, Jensen introduced me to everyone as his wife, as if we still had a relationship, so that's why the mayor was curious about my words.Embarrassed, Jensen put his hand on my elbow and led me to a more private place, a little away from the others. “Why are you doing this? Why are you trying to embarrass me in front of the mayor?” he asked, looking at me with a furrowed brow.“Embarrass you? Should I remind you that I never agreed to be your wife again? Or pretending I'm your wife again?” I asked sharply.He sighed in annoyance. “I can't understand why you still keep denying it. I'm doing everything I can
Lilian POV"Hello?" I said so as soon as I answered Jensen's call. “Why are you calling me? Any problems?” “Oh no, it’s everything okay. I'm just calling you to ask what time I can come by and pick you up so we can go home together,” he said on the other end of the line.It was four in the afternoon, and I was in my studio still sorting things out for the opening. Since starting a fashion studio from scratch was a very difficult job, I even hired some people to help me because, alone, it was too overwhelming for me. I had to order fabrics, the materials and the models. There was also the whole process of image and public relations, not to mention the legal process, which somehow my ex-husband helped me with this technical part, but other than that, the work was still a lot, so I ended up hiring some people to help me.Now he was calling me to ask what time I was going to drop off so we could go back to the mansion together. That call wasn't new to me, since he always did that and alw
Lilian POVTo my surprise, Finn Sawyer took me to an exquisite five-star restaurant in the city center that was close to a beautiful view of the James River that washed the city's coast. The place was beautiful and cozy, with nice music. He pulled out the chair for me, and I sat down, thanking him for his kindness.“Thanks, Finn. You are a true gentleman,” I told him with a smile.“You deserve it, Lilian. All this and more,” he smiled charmingly at me and then sat down facing me. “What do you think of this place? Do you like?"“It’s really beautiful here, I like it that way,” I replied while the waiter poured wine into our glasses. “But to be honest, I didn't expect you to take me to such an expensive place. Actually, the place doesn't matter as long as it's with you,” I held back.I didn't want him to be too worried and think that he has to please me, since he knew that my life before Rustburg was all fancy and high social class, so he might be feeling a little pressured by dating so
Lilian POVWhen dinner was over, he and I walked hand in hand across the Railroad Bridge while enjoying the beautiful view and the serene evening breeze. At that moment, I ended up thinking about my children. Had the nanny already given them hot milk? Were they sleeping now? I hoped they didn't miss me that much and that everything was going well. Actually, I was just worried as a mom because if something was happening to them, I was sure Sadie would call me immediately. I was even expecting a call from Jensen in case something happened to the kids. Thinking about Jensen gave me little goosebumps because the image of him standing outside the gallery with a big bouquet of flowers while looking at Finn and me kissing kind of tormented me.I wasn't going to deny that I knew that the love he felt for me was real, regardless of everything that happened, what we had was true, not only in the past but also in Rustburg. I knew Jensen loved me, and it would be insensitive of me not to acknowl
Lilian As Finn drove me to Jensen's mansion, we weren't saying anything the entire trip. Of course, I was a little uncomfortable after what had happened in his apartment. There was no reason why I, as his girlfriend, should have refused to be more intimate with him, but I had refused and asked to go home.Did he hate me now? I thought to myself. Was he thinking the wrong things about me? Good God, I needed a talk with my friend April. I was sure she would help me think more clearly and help me understand myself.It wasn't that I didn't want to go to bed with Finn, he was a man I was attracted to, but being physically attracted to him wasn't enough for me to want to sleep with him. I wanted there to be a stronger feeling than that, I couldn't lie. I really wanted Finn Sawyer to make my heart flutter and set the butterflies in my stomach fluttering, just like Jensen Grimes always did. Likewise, I frowned. I really didn't want to compare the two, but I had to admit to myself that my ex
Lilian POV“By the way, I thought you would be late. Did something happen on your date with Finn Sawyer?” My ex-husband asked, looking at me, and at that moment, I couldn't answer that question.I mean, why the hell did he keep asking me that question? What did he want me to answer anyway? What, were we supposed to take all that in stride now? I rubbed my head, visibly uncomfortable.“Um, that was pretty good, actually,” I replied, nodding. “We took a walk along the Railroad,” I added, but then regretted doing so. Not because I was in the mood to hide details from him, but because that city was the center where most of Jensen and Lilian's story had been written; that is, Jensen, and I were born and grew up in that city; we learned everything there; we fell in love; we had our first kiss; and most of the good memories we had of our relationship had happened in that city.So places like the Railroad Bridge brought back such intimate and personal memories that we couldn't help but end u
Lilian POVWhen Jensen Grimes asked me that desperate question, I wasn't able to answer because if I answered, I was sure I would let on how vulnerable I was. So I just stood there. The ambient light in the room was so low that it was difficult to see his face properly, but I could see the tears rolling down his eyes. I wasn't made of iron, I was making a great effort to hold myself back, trying to contain the urge I had to run to him and hug him, wipe the tears from his face, and comfort him. I wanted to do that so much that it hurt.So, with only my silence as an answer, Jensen left the children's room and headed to his room without saying a word. I had clearly rejected him again, but I was making a big effort to keep things the way they were. It was too dangerous; all of it was dangerous. I had to force myself to think about how a mother would act in this situation because of my triplets, those children needed me, they needed me to have a healthy relationship with their father, ev