The Tutor (3)

“You’re okay?” Shana asked as soon as she saw Luke standing in the living room. She was coming out of the kitchen after washing her hands.

Even though her expression and tone seemed like she was showing care, for some reason, Luke felt like it was not really the case.

“Yeah. Thanks,” Luke replied despite feeling uncomfortable. He then could not help but remember what he did inside the shower room. 

The moment he stepped in there, his libido disappeared.

‘Why is that?’

Because his disappointment was way over the hills at that time, he even ignored the fact that he was standing in the room where Shana would take a shower, naked, every single day.

I hate not having a better imagination, Luke thought to himself. Of course, he also knew that the other reason was embarrassment and low self-esteem. He realized that he was just dreaming all along.

Shana was too perfect for him and her being interested in him in a romantic way was impossible.

With that in mind, Luke felt like he was lost and somewhat hurt. The sad part, it was not even Shana’s fault. It was just him assuming that she would be willing to be intimate with him.

‘Sucks to be me,’ he thought to himself as he smiled bitterly.

“Really?” Shana asked as she looked at him intently as if trying to guess his thoughts, but he did not express any of his current thoughts.

Luke got up and put his things in a bag, and said awkwardly, “I’m sorry about what happened.”

The smiling girl nodded and then calmly said with a smile, “Don’t worry, it seemed like you need help.”

He wanted to interpret those comments in the best way, but he couldn’t prevent his world from breaking apart every time she made one of those jokes.

It was impossible for her to know what he felt and the idea of ​​telling her was terrifying, she would move away from him without a doubt, and that dream that for some reason he was living at that moment would end, in his mind, the idea of ​​having Shana at least in that platonic way it was better than not having her at all.

He went to the door, and the young woman looked at him with some uncertainty. He wanted to know what those eyes meant but just remembering what had happened was a very big burden for him.

If only I was a little more attractive,he thought darkly. He looked at Shana to say goodbye to her.

“Do you think we can see classes tomorrow?” She asked with a half-smile.

He looked at her and could not believe the words that came out of her mouth, it had been a long portion of the previous minutes in how she would make fun of him, but still, she asked that they could continue with the classes, perhaps hoping his wish It would be fulfilled but, being him who he was, that would possibly not be the case.

He nodded shyly, and she walked with ease and advanced to the door. She opened it calmly and looked at him with those beautiful eyes. 

She said, “Don’t forget about me again, teacher.”

Luke listened to her, and her comment amused him.  ‘Forgetting her again?’He recalled her words. As if that were possible to remove the image of the perfect woman from his mind.

He looked at her, somewhat embarrassed and somewhat angry and smiling. He then nodded before leaving the house.

As he walked away from her, he felt Shana’s gaze that did not separate from him, it was strange the mixed signals that that girl sent, but he could not stop thinking of her in a romantic way, although for her, that idea was totally ridiculous.

That night playing, reading, or even watching a movie, everything was total nonsense, even listening to music that for a long time was Luke’s primary vice was difficult, all the songs talked about her in some way, as if the world was conspiring to make him lose the reason.

‘And now I have to see her tomorrow as if I needed more reason to think about her. He thought as a song played’, drawing his mind to tomorrow’s date.

His phone began to vibrate, and that for him was strange. Not many people called him, and at that moment, he was not expecting anyone in particular.

He then looked at the cell phone screen, he could not recognize the number, and without giving it much importance, he answered, wondering who it was. And without waiting for a second that the voice on the other side of the receiver would be that of an angel.

He held his breath without being too sure of the reason and said, “Sharan, is it you?” 

His hands began to sweat drastically, and the memories of that girl flocked to his mind.

The young woman said with an extremely seductive voice, “Yes! After the way you left, I wanted to know if you were okay,” 

‘This is impossible. This will not happen to me.’Luke thought with determination as he listened to Shana’s breathing on the other end of the receiver.

He breathed in as best he could, and determinedly, he said, “I’m fine. You didn’t have to worry.”

She was silent for a second, and Luke’s mind began to fly through impossible scenarios, and Shana’s beautiful smile in her mind went through every possible disguise that he could put on her.

“Of course I worry after all you are-” She said and then abruptly fell silent.

Luke said in his thought, ‘I’m you… you what?’ 

Keeping silent in anticipation of what Shana might say, and she released a full snort at the sentence of her saying, “My teacher!”

Luke felt a strange nostalgia in Shana’s voice as if she remembered something when talking to him. It’s like there was a hidden meaning to her words.

Luke asked curiously, “Are you okay?” 

She was silent for several seconds, and this puzzled Luke.

“Yes! Thank you so much for asking!” She replied assuringly before laughing.

‘Thank you so much? Why so much?’Luke wondered at her response. This woman had the knack of elevating his mind with absurd predictions and wishes that would probably never come true.

Luke then replied, “No problem! After all, you are my student!” Making a great effort to sound cool.

Shana replied casually, “Just your student?” 

At that question, his heartbeat so fast, as if she was controlling it. He looked in all directions at his room without understanding what she was asking and said, “What else could you be?”

Shana snorted in frustration, and Luke didn’t understand her reaction when the young woman said, “Nothing, don’t worry, we’ll see you tomorrow at the park!”

And without waiting for an answer, she hung up the call. Luke was confused, his life had changed, and he had just been on the phone with Shana, but why? And what was that lady’s game? That night the dream eluded Luke under the influence of the memory of Shana.