"Bakit ka pa pumasok? Ang init mo, Bestie." Kinapa nito noo ko. Pagdating ko pa lang. "Mukha ko pa lang.. halata na ba talaga?" Naitanong ko tuloy. Kagabi pa ako nilalagnat gawa ng pagka-babad ko sa ulan pero hindi ko ramdam ang pananakit ng katawan ko bagkus nanunuot ang sakit sa puso ko. Gusto ko na lang mawala yung sakit pansamantala para magawa ko ang dapat gawin. Meron pa akong tungkulin. Iyon ang pagiging mabuting anak at mangyayari lang yun kung hindi ako magpapabaya sa pag-aaral ko. Kaya.. Kaya naman heto pinilit kong pumasok. Kakayanin kong pagsabayin ang lahat habang dumadaing ang kalooban ko. "Bakit ka naman nilagnat? Isang araw pa lang kayong hindi okay." Si Kera na expert sa mga ganitong bagay. "Nakita nyu ba si Avry?" Blangko ang mukhang tanong ko. Imbis sagutin sila. "Pwede bang sarili mo muna? Huh? Uminom ka na ba ng gamot? Kumain ka ba bago umalis sa inyo?" Pangangaral at usisa sakin ni Kera. Hindi ko siya sinagot. Nilabas ko ang phone ko para tignan kung may
"You know the exact feeling now when you really fall in love.. huh.." Napatingin ako kay Kera. We are here at the Cafeteria, having our lunch but I'm just hilariously playing with my food. "It's different, Kera. Avry didn't cheat. I'm the one at fault." Tumikhim muna to bago muling nagsalita. "Does not what I mean." Sagot niya."What do you mean then?" Bwelta ko. Nasa plate pa din ang tingin ko. Para akong moving creature without a soul. Zombie perhaps..."It's really hard to just let go whatever the reason was when you are deeply in love with that person."Nakuha ko ang point niya. Sa lahat ng past relationship ko nagloko man sila or hindi, after break up at isang bagsakang iyak ay ang bilis kong maka-move forward. Ang tapang ko pagdating sa bagay na yun. But now with Avry....Mapapakanta na lang siguro ako ng Ere sa sobrang sakit.. Nakakaputang ina! Not because she abandoned me but the feeling was like... Ayokong mabuhay sa isang mundong walang kami. I did everything para map
"You know what.. It's time for you to have a new one." Sabay lapag ng hawak niyang Smirnoff sa table. After ng klase dumiretso kami dito sa hideout. Sinama na namin si Rain at Allie, tutal hindi na sila iba sa amin. Pero syempre damay na sila sa monthly rent. Mabuti na lang dahil ekis na si Xander samin. Malaki ang bayarin kung ako, si Rafa at Kera lang maghahati-hati. Hindi naman dapat damay si Rafa at Kera sa galit ko kay Xander o sa kasalanan nito sakin kaya lang sabi ng dalawa, malaki daw pinagbago ni Xander. Ang gago na daw talaga. Parang ibang tao. Malayo sa Xander na nakilala namin. Sinubukan nilang intindihin si Xander dahil nga broken-hearted pero pinagtatabuyan daw talaga sila nito. Palagay ko ayaw ni Xander magkaroon ng kahit anong magpapa alala sa kanya sa akin. "You know me, Bestie. I don't just jump into a relationship after one." Sagot ko sa kanya sabay tungga sa alak na hawak ko. Si Kera at ang mag jowa busy sa paglalaro ng billiards. Ilan sandali, lumapit ang m
I DISREGARD Kera's warning, heading to the address that Alexa sent me. To think that Avry has already a girlfriend.. that didn't stop me from looking after her nonetheless. I just wanna make sure that she's fine. The moment I arrived at the place, my eyes abruptly searched for the person why I ended up here. And there was the girl who captured and caged my heart, Avry Valeri Blossom who seemingly tanked up already in the corner. I heaved in relief as I spotted her, approaching them. "What happened to her?" I asked Alexa without looking, scanning Avry's state. She didn't give me an answer. She's with the girl I and Avry saw the last time. "Let's go home, hmm," I uttered, staring at the woman who still has a strong effect on me. Obviously, she was already drowning in intoxication. "The fuck! How many times should I tell you to leave me alone??" Those words hit my aching heart even if it's so clear that it wasn't for me but for anybody that would try to persuade her. "Just take her
THE entire time I was just sitting on the bed, leaning against the headboard while staring at my girl sleeping soundly beside me. It took me two months for this moment so I grabbed all the odds to memorize every single inch of her gorgeous face. I don't know if I could still have this when she wakes up. I miss her badly to the point that I couldn't care less about breaking all my fucking rules. With open arms, I wouldn't think twice to embrace her when she decided to come back to me. Crazy right? I made those rules. First.. Never get back to exes.. No looking back whatever the reasons are. Second... Shed tears once and that's it. Now, I throw them into the trash like they didn't come to mind. "W-where am I?" I was stunned and shifted when she suddenly spoke, barely moving. I was indecisive about meeting her blue orbs but I still managed to. "A-avry.. Y-you are here at my Condo." I said, stuttering. Her gaze turned dark, giving me a deadly stare that could divide me into two.
NAUNA ng magpaalam si Rocky ng mapansin ata niyang walang balak ang katunggali kong magpatalo. "You really are shit, Ice." Mapang husga ang mga tinging ibinabato niya. "Yeah! I'm full of shit! So are we done here? 'Cause you're wasting my precious time, Val." Ayoko na siyang tawaging Avry. Nauurat ako! "Don't make me repeat myself, Ice. You are not going out with her.." Napasinghal, igtad ako sa hindi pagkapaniwala. "And who the hell are you to tell me what to do?" Inulit ko yung sinabi niya eksakto kagabi. Lintik lang ang walang ganti sa babaeng to."A concerned citizen maybe.." Ano daw?? "What? Another prey of your games? That Rocky? Seriously?" Sabi pa niya na tila nanunudyo. Oh shit! I know what she's referring to. She's using this card to have control over me. I thought I got her, making her die of jealousy. Pinaka titigan ko siya bago nagsalita. Tutal sarado utak niya.. Iyon ang gagamitin ko to crack her, destroy her walls."Alright.. I'm playing games. A challenge to
ANOTHER TWO MONTHS had perished since my last encounter with Avry. Hindi na din siya nanggulo pa na akala ko nga ikaga-gaan ng kalooban ko pero ikina-bigat pala ng mas malala. Ginawa ko ang lahat para matanggap ang masakit na katotohanang hindi na siya babalik. Katotohanang wala ng next chapter sa love story namin dahil narating na nito ang masaklap na ending—a downer. Walang Saabado at Linggo na hindi ako laman ng club, bar o inuman. Hindi ako iniwan nila Rafa, Kera, Allie at Rain pero kailanman hindi naging sapat para matabunan yung sobrang pangungulila ko kay Avry. In my 20 years of existence, I've come to reach the hardest peak of my life that I haven't ever imagined coming. It's too painful to deal with but still, I managed to strongly maneuver my studies, the least I can do. Despite myself drowning in despair. Naglalakad kami nila Rafa ngayon papuntang gymnasium. Kahit saan ako magpunta kasa-kasama ko sila maliban na lang kapag abala ako sa cosplay. "Hey! Bestie.. Okay ka
ARAW ng Linggo at naisipan naming magsimba ng mga kaibigan ko. "Kera, yats.. Until when you're gonna ignore me?" Yats! Their new endearment. Pfft. Akala ko yats kasi parehas silang payatot. Ayun pala STAY. They will forever stay on each other side daw for the rest of their life till death do them part.Ikinatuwa ko ang isiping iyon na ikinasakit din ng puso ko. Sana all my forever. Makiki-sana all na lang ako sa kanila. Ganun din kasi si Rain at Allie. They were so in love with each other. How I wish I could be on Avry's side too until our hair turns grey, our skin wrinkled and our soul leaves our body. And then in the next life, we would meet again, and love each other in an undefinable way. If I could reincarnate 1000x I would still want to meet and fall in love with the woman who taught me what more there was in love a 1000x. "I told you.. Georgette is just a friend." Muling pangungumbinsi ni Rafa kay Kera. Simula kanina pa lang sa byahe nagtatalo na sila. "Guys.. Mamaya n