"Did you find Ryder?" Jeremy suddenly asked.The topic changed too abruptly and it took Jake by surprise. For some reason, he started feeling shy.He slowly nodded before turning his head to look at his Ry once more. Who would have thought that the moment he turned his head, his and Ryder's eyes would meet?!It lasted for two or three short seconds before Ryder turned her head to look at Jasmine, but it was more than enough to make Jake feel like his heart was trying to leap out of his chest.Is this what a heart attack feels like?Fuck...Why does it taste so sweet though?Jeremy noticed Jake turning red at a speed visible to the naked eye and tsked.Tsk tsk tsk. Puppy love."Why are you even blushing?"Jake blushed even more. "We... we locked eyes..." His voice was low, almost whispering but Jeremy could still hear it.He facepalmed himself, leaving a red mark on his forehead. This dude is hopeless."Why are you acting like a fourteen-year-old?"Jake refused to answer that. Instead,
Jake had Leah in his arms, and even if he wanted to do something he was too far away to rush and stop Aiden from doing anything. Besides... if he went there and said anything, Ryder would immediately recognize him."You... can you go? Please?" He told Jeremy, but his eyes didn't leave Aiden.The latter on the other hand was decisively walking to his girlfriend, determined to at least get his smooch! To kiss her right there in front of everyone, in front of her friend to let her know that no matter how much she bullied him, he still had won in the end because Ryder was his girlfriend!"Congra-..." Ryder was smiling at Aiden, but when she saw that the look in his eyes wasn't quite right, the word stuck in her throat and something in her heart was telling her to flee. Her eyes widened as she saw Aiden approach her and grab her face between his hands, his lips closing the distance between them. At that moment only three words crossed her mind as she panicked to the point of almost faintin
A.N.: ⚠ trigger warning ⚠ This chapter contains some self-harm scenes that may make you feel uncomfortable. They're not that serious, but just to be on the safe side and avoid any casualties. "Jay." Leah sobbed in Jake's arms. Her tiny hand clutched tight on his jacket, pulling at it to get Jake's attention, but it was useless. The young man was frozen in place, not moving... not blinking... it even looked as if he wasn't breathing. Yet tears rolled down his face. This scared Leah. Somehow she could sense that something was wrong with Jake. What's worse is that she saw Aiden yelling, showing that scary angry face again and her father punching him... Tears welled up in her eyes. "Jay, I'm scared." Leah cried. Her sob finally managed to bring Jake back to reality. He wiped his wet cheeks and barely managed to give Leah a sad smile. "Don't be scared. Everything is fine." He planted a kiss on Leah's forehead and walked towards the exit of the gym. Behind him, Mathew was more confused t
Once he was inside the dark room, Jake locked the door, but couldn't even bother to get to the bed. It was almost as if his body had been holding on only until he was alone. Now that there was no one around to watch him, his legs couldn't keep him standing anymore. His body slid down the door to the floor. He sat there on the cold floor, hugging his knees, trying to subdue the pain in his heart.He wished he could stop thinking. He wanted to empty his head and heart. Not to think anything, not to feel anything. But his head was a mess of thoughts, tangled so badly that nothing made sense anymore. And his heart... why did it feel as if it wasn't made of flesh? Why did it feel as if it was made of glass and had already shattered?When he recalled how Aiden had rushed right to Ryder... the way he had intended to kiss her... all sorts of feelings mixed together and made him feel sick.He was so angry and jealous, so scared... so much in pain.But no matter what he felt, the thought of hat
"He's not willing to open up.""Jeremy tried talking to him yesterday, but it was useless.""You should try to cheer him up. Don't let him stay alone for too long, but don't overdo it. He needs some time for himself too."Mathew sighed. "Just when things were starting to go fine..."Natalie looked at the man whose head had more white hair since the last time they met and felt bad for him. "He will overcome it. Even though he thinks otherwise, I know he's strong. He just needs some time."Mathew nodded silently."The Chicken Fajitas were delicious, by the way."The sudden change of subject took Mathew by surprise. Nevertheless, it brought a smile to his face. "Oh. Thanks. Jeremy wanted to try cooking some new dishes tonight. I'm glad you enjoyed it."Natalie simply smiled and patted his shoulder before walking to the front door."Do you want me to walk you home? It's quite late..." Mathew offered. Truth be told, he felt a bit embarrassed. Because he was extremely worried about Jake, he
Jake raised a brow, looking at Jeremy with disbelief in his eyes. "Dad wants to buy us drinks?""Yup," Jeremy answered. His smile was so big, that the corners of his lips almost reached his ears. It was obvious that he intended to get drunk with his father's money."By us, you mean..." Jake asked again.Jeremy threw an arm around Aiden's shoulders and pulled him closer to his body, ignoring the annoyed look on Aiden's face. "All of us," Jeremy answered Jake once again."He's eighteen." Jake pointed at Aiden. Then he pointed back and forth between himself and Jeremy. "Both of us are twenty. Not counting dad, we're all underage to be drinking alcohol.""Don't be such a party pooper. Let's do something fun." Matthew's voice came from behind Jeremy. Soon his face popped out from behind his brother and friend, both or, both of his arms thrown around Aiden and Jeremy's shoulders."What?" Jake felt that his almost dead brain cells from the lack of food and sleep were struggling to comprehend
"Come here, you fucking-..." Mathew angrily grabbed Aiden by his collar and dragged him out of the club, ignoring the twenty-something-year-old woman who shoved a piece of paper on his son's jeans and blew him a kiss.This punk got himself dragged away from the group by that woman and went all "Step up 4" on the dance floor. Mathew had been unable to find him in the middle of the crowd, almost losing his sanity from anxiety. HIS UNDERAGE SON WAS LOST! IN THE CLUB!Mathew was panicking! At the disco!!!To make things worse, he was already drunk. He had started yelling his son's name when he bumped into someone. The youngster saw him crying about his lost son and pulled the phone out of his pocket to call the police. That's when Mathew turned his head and saw Aiden... with his phone in his hand... dialing 911... (҂‾ ▵¯)Both son and father were so drunk they couldn't even recognize each other.Mathew felt so ashamed he wished he could forget whatever happened inside that club and preten
Jeremy never thought that getting a girlfriend could be so hard. Especially when both parties liked each other! AND BOTH PARTIES KNEW THAT THE OTHER LIKED THEM!This is simply nerve-wracking! It's completely and utterly absurd!... I should go pick Nina up from her afternoon classes with Leah and throw the blame on my unfilial daughter. O(∩_∩)OWhile Jeremy made up his mind to use his daughter as an excuse to curry favor with this yet-to-be girlfriend of his, Jake was caught up in a dilemma called writer's block.After being forcefully fed breakfast, he went up to his room, picked up his laptop, and then locked himself in the bathroom for his writing session.The bathroom on the second floor during these two weeks had been occupied by Jake almost the whole time, giving Aiden and Mathew no choice but to use the bathroom downstairs when Mother Nature made her unexpected calls in the middle of the night, which was quite infuriating because it was far away... and it was dark. The two grow
Jake, who was with one foot in dreamland, snapped his eyes open, fully awake now.Didn't we drop this topic?Why did it come back to haunt me?"It's really nothing. Now sleep. You have to go to work tomorrow."But Ryder wouldn't let it go this time. "But he looked like he wanted to tell me something.""You know my dad. He always talks nonsense.""But you threatened him and then you blushed when I asked you about it, so it's not nothing or nonsense as you claim it to be. Even now, you're rubbing your fingertips. You do that every time you're nervous or thinking about something. So what is it?"Jake groaned. "Why do you always pull this Sherlock Holmes thing on me every time I don't want to tell you something?"Ryder smiled and turned around to face him. The dim moonlight entered the room, and she could vaguely see Jake's face in the darkness. This made her feel like she was back to four years ago when she was close to him but couldn't see his face. No matter how much she tried to reach
4 years laterJake had no idea where his father took it, but Mathew was going through a baby fever lately and wouldn't stop nagging Jake about it. He would suddenly drop by Jake's apartment and follow him around asking for babies. He would suddenly pop out of nowhere when Jake was book shopping, and shove books about how to conceive a baby in his hand. One moment Jake was looking at a cover with dragons on it, and the next one the titles "It starts with the Egg", "The Fertility Diet", "The Trying Game", "Making Babies" and more, almost blinded him.Mathew wouldn't be stopped at anything.He was dead set on it. He needed grandchildren at any cost."I want grandkids, Jake!""Dad, I'm not even married.""Make me a grandfather, Jake!""Go ask Aiden.""But he's still in college. He has to study.""Ryder has to study too!""But she graduated this year."Jake took a deep breath to calm himself down before looking at his father again. Mathew looked like a child begging to go to Disneyland, bu
2 years agoEver since Ryder changed schools, she came to find out that being alone isn't actually that bad. She could read all she wanted with nobody interrupting her, and she could concentrate more in class. She also came to find out that she didn't actually mind it. Being alone... Ryder slowly started to like it, even though sometimes it was too lonesome.Yet a certain someone who suddenly got an interest in her wouldn't let her be alone no matter what. Apparently, this crazy punk named Jasmine had set her mind on adopting her.Ryder just couldn't understand how the mind of this girl worked. Still, the more time she spent with her, the more Ryder got used to her... The more she got to like her. Even though it took quite a while for Ryder to trust Jasmine, the two of them became friends and would spend a lot of time together.Ryder still liked being alone, but she also found out that occasionally spending time with so
"Where are you now?""I'm behind the house. Are you coming down, or should I come up?""You come up. I'm not done packing yet."That word again... Packing...Jake frowned when he heard it.Several months after the two of them got together, after spring and summer came and went, and when September was finally here, his Ry would leave for college. She was majoring in mechatronic engineering and would leave tomorrow. The place was only a few hours away from here, but Ryder wanted to live on the campus because it was more convenient, but that meant that he couldn't see her as often as he used to.He breathed out a heavy sigh and jumped over the fence.A lot happened during these months. Ryder introduced him to her parents, and she also met his father. She eventually found out that Jake was a writer... that writer... The cold war with Aiden gradually died out... Even though things were still a bit awkward between Jake and him, it was better than they had been before. Aiden even apologized
Jake smiled and put the phone back in his pocket. He lifted his head right in time to see Ryder running to him with a wide smile on her face. The girl he has liked and loved for so long threw herself in his arms, wrapping her arms around his neck tight. The happiness this simple thing brought was unexplainable."Did you miss me that much?" Jake chuckled when Ryder's cold nose was buried in his neck.Ryder nodded. "I have been a third wheel for half the day. I was miserable."She pulled back and saw Jake's smiling face. That smile made her unable to breathe. Her heart beat faster against her chest as if trying to leap out. That handsome face was his should never have a sad expression on. Should never be washed by tears. Her Jake was so handsome when smiling. Lethally handsome.Being stared at by those cognac eyes, Jake wanted to bow his head and kiss her, but just as he was about to do so, his plans were ruined by a roar coming from behind Ryder."RYDER QUIN! YOU EXPLAIN TO ME... now..
When Jake walked into the house, two grown-ass men jumped on him, hundreds of questions thrown at him in rapid fire. One grabbed his face looking for any wounds, looking at his eyes that had turned red from all the crying, and the other checked his wrists in fear that this time instead of scratching them to the point they bled, he had started cutting them."Do you know how scared I was?""Where did you go?""Why did you leave?""Are you okay?""Does it feel uncomfortable anywhere?""Does anything hurt?""Do you need to go to the hospital?"Jake barely had time to answer any of those questions and kept shaking his head to tell these two that he was fine, but the questions didn't come to an end.At least not until Mathew and Jeremy saw Jake smiling.The moment they noticed that he looked genuinely happy, they almost lost it, terror making their minds go blank.It's over. He has turned silly.Mathew started crying on the spot. "His brain died. Oh God, my poor precious son! It is all my f
In the morning, Jake was the first to wake up. His eyes opened halfway as he stared in confusion in front of him. He still felt tired both in body and soul, which was a pretty familiar state to him. However, this was the first time, despite the tiredness, he felt rather calm and warm. He was still trying to fully wake himself up to understand why things were different this time when something on his head moved.In a daze, he realized it was a hand stroking his hair. His heart fluttered, and Jake looked up to meet the owner of the hand only to see two cognac eyes looking at him sleepily."Morning," Ryder muttered. The hand that was resting on Jake's back lifted and reached out for her phone. It was four in the morning, and it was still dark outside, but the light in the room was left on.Jake was convinced he was dreaming. How else could he be in such a situation if it wasn't a dream? He was lying down in a bed with Ry, his Ry holding him tightly, stroking his hair. The first thing he
Truth be told Ryder was quite shocked when she heard Midnight's voice in Aiden's house. She was even more shocked when she saw that Midnight's voice came from Aiden's brother. EVEN MORE SHOCKING WAS THE FACT THAT SHE GOT TO SEE HER MIDNIGHT HALF NAKED!He looked so adorably hot, Ryder was lost for words.Her Midnight was so handsome >w
The voice was low and tender, but it broke the silence of the night and echoed in Jake's head, giving birth to a bone-shaking fear that overwhelmed his entire soul, almost making him fall apart. He finally noticed Ryder sitting on the swing seat, hugging her knees. He unconsciously tensed and took a step back, but his back hit the fence. Maybe it was because he didn't expect Ryder to be out here or maybe it was because of the thoughts and speculations that felt as if a hand was squeezing his heart, but his knees went soft, and Jake fell on the ground.His teeth bit deep in his lip, but tears welled up in his eyes and flowed down his cheeks involuntarily. For a moment it was as if they were back on the first night they met.One girl.One boy.One staring.One crying.Both frozen in time.Both looking at each other in disbelief.And just like back then, the crying young man broke the silence with the same two words."I'm sorry."Ryder felt her chest tighten. Her heart hurt with every he