Chapter 3

I remembered, that I always hear my parents having no-ending arguments and how I hid in the corner while listening to them.

And there's that day when my dad asked me to come with him. I didn't want to, but he forced me. That was when I become part of the organization called 'Thanatos' when I was seven.

My father drags me to be part of the organization as payments to his debts or as his way to get rid of me. I let him, even though I know that he's still a lot of money because my grandfather is rich and I'm so tired of seeing his face.

After three years, I came back to the place that I once called home. I'm expecting my father that already regretted what he did to me cause I'm all ready to forgive him and recreate all the things that we did together since I was a child.

Excited and blissful like I was on cloud nine when I got home. I was looking forward to what will be their reaction.

My mind was still on the verge of repairing and my heart was still fragile. I'm still a child, what do you expect?

But never did I expect that the time that my mom opened the door, I will see her beautiful face and bright smile, but instead an unfamiliar face of a woman welcome me.

"Who are you?" She irritatedly asked me. She's holding a cigarette, chewing a piece of gum, and pregnant.

I bit my lips while looking for words, "U-Uhm I'm looking for my mom," I started.

She looks at me from head to foot and grins at me, "You're that bitch daughter? Aren't you?" She laughed as if there was something funny and put the cigarette inside her mouth, the smoke from her lips emit in front of me.

I didn't flinch nor cough. I was in a maze of what she said. Did my parents move to a new house? Where are they? And why is she calling my mom a bitch?

The whole place changes a lot, the garden that is full of plants and roses is already withered or not in the same place. The house paints were already gone and already full of moots and wild grass. Even the servants aren't anywhere to be seen.

"Where's my mom?" My soft voice couldn't resist it and asked again the same question I asked earlier.

"Ha! that crazy bitch is inside the hospital for years, treating her mental issues, " She sarcastically said and laugh.

She throw the cigarette stick somewhere and raised my face using her hand, "But look at you, standing in front of my house. You even exactly look like your mom, but a blonde bitch..." she let go of me and cross her arms, "I thought Henry already get rid of you? Why are you still alive?" She asked irritatedly.

"How did you know my dad's name?" I innocently asked instead of answering her.

"Stupid girl, I'm your father's new wife, I own this place so that means you have no rights to be in this property anymore, even if your Henry's daughter," she grins at me and lightly slaps my face, after that, she turns around, almost bumping her stomach at the wall and close the door.

I touch my face where her long nails dug. Thoughts come rushing into my mind. No one knows and no one told me. I've been inside the organization's wall where I spent my three years being someone that I don't even know I'll become.

I thought I'm gonna die. I was once inside a dark room, a prison perhaps with no perks of light. The silence and darkness almost made me insane, I've been inside the room for a week and three days, It was a nightmare that will make anyone lose their sanity.

For three years, I study hard and learned stuff that a normal kid will not going to do or even try. I almost got killed, but all the torment and suffering got paid off after I stained my hand in exchange for my freedom.

The rain start to pour, I didn't even notice that it was going to rain earlier. I shed myself on the porch and hug the stuff I bring. It's getting darker and my dad's new wife didn't let me come in.

I'm already sleepy and hungry. I was trying to save my money for my mom's birthday, I also don't have an Idea what that woman say earlier, maybe my mom was at my grandparent's house. I'll visit them tomorrow, it's raining hard and it's impossible to find a ride when it's raining and already dark.

I close my eyes to help myself. I'm so tired and I want to take a nap, but I'm outside and it's raining, I can't sleep like this, I'll be wet.

I opened my eyes after I hear a sound of a car coming from the outside garage and there I saw my father running in my direction while holding an umbrella.

"Daddy!" I called.

He stopped and almost fall. I look at him puzzled. He slowly look at me, shocked as if he saw a ghost-written all over his face.

"Welcome home!" I greeted happily.

I was ten and stupid, I thought it was all because of our blood, that he's my father and we both have bonds with each other, but I was wrong. I'm just being stupid that I didn't realize I was in the prison of my delusions for the whole time.

I only realized the whole thing when I saw my mom's hanging body on the ceiling the day I visit her at the mental hospital for her birthday. Her eyes were open and were directly looking at me. The roses I bought for her birthday are scattered on the floor along with the gift that I've been wanting to give her after I learned where she is.

The first time I visit her was also the first time I witnessed myself being drowned and eaten by darkness. My emotions exploded that I cried everything out till there was nothing left.

"Silas? why did mom leave us?" I asked my brother, he was the unexpected visitor who attended the funeral except for my grandfather and my mother's siblings.

I want to ask him the same question, but he's too occupied to notice me. It's been five years since I last saw him, I was five years old when my mom sent him to her parents abroad. He didn't know what I'd been through or what mom.

I collected myself. After the funeral Silas talked to me after years, "Lily, come with me," as a response, I smiled.

"Maybe next time," I answered.

Years had passed, and I learned that I'm eligible to become the next leader of the organization. I tried harder. I exceed at everything, from getting intel to killing. I thought that when I become the leader, I can avenge my mother and myself.

"L-lily?" I was stunned when I heard his voice, "What are you doing here?" He asked. I faced my brother, I saw the shock and confusion written all over his face.

"I've been here since the day you left," I said, smiling.

Our encounter didn't last long, but fate played with us too well. I was in the middle of playing with my toy, blood all over my clothes, and smiling at the corpses lying in front of me when Silas saw me. That was when Silas saw me in that version of myself.

"I'm so sorry," he whispered after he run the distance between us and hugged me, "I should be the one protecting you."

"P-please don't leave m-me," I raised my hand to reach him, but even before I touch him The settings change, it turns into pitch black and nothing more.

I catch my breath as I slowly open my eyes. The first thing that welcomed me is a white ceiling. I heard the door open and entered, he dropped something after running towards where I'm lying.

"Thanks god, you're awake!"I didn't react when I heard a familiar voice.

"N-nate?" I called. My cousin Nathan Morgan hug me tightly.

"Fuck, you're unconscious for a month! you fucking make me worried."

"Huh? what happened?"

"Wait, I should call your doctor first."

I was left alone after he storm out of the room. I close my eyes and calm my breathing. As Nate said, he brought a doctor to see my condition, I was so occupied that I didn't even notice that the doctor already left.

"Where's Silas?" I asked Nate who was busy peeling an apple. He almost cut his fingers.

"We shouldn't talk about it right now."

"What? Why?"

"Liliana, your brother is dead." And that hit me. Yeah, now I remember. The party, Silas, and how useless I become. Pain starts to arouse inside my chest. It's hurt. It's an unbearable pain inside my chest that I can't explain.

After waking up, I mourn for Silas death for months. I caged myself and didn't let anyone try to comfort me, not even Nate. At that time, I didn't admit that I had been abandoned, it was an unbearable pain that I just think of it as a nightmare. I'm in denial, Nate tried to send me to a psychiatrist, but I declined.

"Can you help me," The first time I spoke to Nate for months.

"Sure, what is it?" He asked, gently stroking Arceus's fur. He adopted Arceus after I lost my senses to live. Good thing, he didn't hesitate to help me and even feed and pet Arceus.

"I want Liliana Huxley dead."

"That's easy," he smiled.

It was Christmas, I have no desire to celebrate it, especially since I'm alone. but Nate fill that day. He celebrated Christmas with me in his condo, instead of celebrating it with his family. Arceus, Nate, and I celebrate Christmas together. Even though there's a hole inside of me, I tried to become a better and strong person after what happened.

He's dead and there's nothing that I could do rather than accept the realization. It's hard to move forward without him, but he'll scold me if he saw me stuck with the past.

"I have a gift, Lils!" His bright and handsome face of Nathan flashed before my eyes. He's wearing a Santa hat and smiling brightly.

"What's this?" I asked. He handed me the paper he was holding. My lips formed 'o' when I saw what was written at the paper and let myself smile.

"Welcome to the world, Lily Morgan!"