The next morning, I called the number on Vlad’s card and set up a meeting. I wore a pair of Valentino slacks that hugged my ass and an Armani button-down shirt that left little to the imagination. “Mr. Solonenko,” I said, shaking his big, square hand. I held on for just a moment longer than necessary, making eye contact. “It’s so nice of you to agree to talk to me.”
“Pleasure is mine.” He licked his lips, and I felt like Little Red Riding Hood meeting the wolf. But I’d met a few wolves before, and I knew how to handle them. “Please, have seat,” he said, motioning me to a big leather armchair across from his desk. “So, who is Adam Beller?”
I sat back and crossed my legs. “I’m going to be the best-known party planner on the Beach. Within, say, six months or so.”
Vlad raised his eyebrows. “Really?”
I went into a quick spiel about my experience in college. My hand found its way to my neck. “It’s hot in here. Do you mind if I…”
I unbuttoned the second button of my shirt, then the third. Vlad’s tongue was nearly hanging out of his mouth. “You are very handsome man,” he said.
“You think so? That’s sweet. I know I’m kind of a twink, but some men like that.” I looked down for a moment, then back up at Vlad. “I prefer my men older, bigger. Like you.”
If I’d been a fly fisherman, I couldn’t have set the hook better. Vlad was starting to sweat.
“Maybe we help each other. I know many club owners. I introduce you.”
“That would be wonderful.” I unbuttoned the rest of my shirt and slipped it off. “What could I do for you in return?”
Vlad shifted in his chair. I figured his hard-on was pressing painfully against his pants by then. “I must be discreet,” he said. “Would not be good for my reputation, you know, in business.”
“I am very discreet.” I stood up, kicked off my loafers, and unbuttoned my slacks, which slipped to the floor. I’d gone commando that morning, so I stood there naked, waiting for Vlad to make the next move.
He pressed the intercom on his phone. “Marina?” he said, his voice hoarse. “You hold calls, please?”
“Yes, Mr. Solonenko.”
Vlad walked over to the office door and pressed the button to lock it. Then he came up behind me and kissed the back of my neck. I shivered at his touch as he ran his big hands over my thighs and then my sides. He groaned softly as he pressed his body against mine. Then he moved me over toward the desk.
Keeping one hand wrapped around me, he jerked open the desk drawer and removed a condom and a bottle of lube. “Yes, such sweet ass,” he murmured into my ear. “Such sexy man.”
Vlad was a big boy, and while my ass isn’t exactly the Holland Tunnel, it’s seen a dick or two. He was in me quickly, banging against me in short spurts, groaning. I yelped a few times but then surrendered myself to the experience. I’d never been with a Slav before, and I was already chalking his name onto my roster. With a final burst, he shot into the condom, and said something in Russian.
He pulled out, then grabbed a handful of tissues from a box on the desk and pushed the box toward me. As we both cleaned up, he said, “I have new premium vodka. You can plan party, no?”
“No,” I said. “I mean, yes.”
“You are good, you keep mouth shut, there is more work.” And then his mouth snaked into a smile. “And more play, yes?”
“Yes.”
He e-mailed me a contract later that day, and two weeks afterward I ran my first party, the Vladi Extreme launch at the Palms. Vlad didn’t want word getting around the Beach that he swung both ways, and I wanted my reputation to rest on my ability as a party planner, not as a piece of ass. So I didn’t tell anyone about our relationship, and neither did he.
Sometimes he came over to my apartment for consultations, and sometimes we fucked in his office. With minor bumps, we established a relationship that worked for both of us. I knew there was something shady about Vlad’s business, but I looked the other way.
I had a taste for big men, so sex with Vlad was no hardship. Vlad’s dick was a shower, not a grower, a chubby ten inches soft, hardly bigger when erect. He wasn’t into foreplay, which was sometimes a pain -- no pun intended. But I loved the way he filled me up, the way his pubes scratched against my ass, the Russian sex talk. Pososi moyu konfetku meant “suck my dick;” vstat' rakom meant “give me your ass.”
I looked at my watch as I downed the last of my coffee in Javier’s shiny kitchen. It was almost one, and I had to be at Vlad’s office at two. I cleaned up after myself; I could tell Javier was the kind of guy who wouldn’t appreciate coming home to a messy kitchen or bathroom. Then I hurried downstairs and hailed a cab.
My business attire hadn’t changed much in the four years I’d been on the Beach. I favored sleek black slacks and skin-hugging silk shirts, and I changed quickly once I got back to my apartment, keeping on Javier’s tiger-print briefs. When they slid against my skin, I remembered the night before and got hard all over again.
I was hoping Vlad would be in the mood for love that afternoon; I needed someone to take my mind off Javier. My ass was already tingling as I got to his office, a tall building on Lincoln Road. Marina, a statuesque blonde from Minsk, was on the phone when I walked into the reception area. While I waited I gazed at the lush photos of Russian landscapes on the walls: the banks of the Volga, snow-capped Urals, the harbor at Vladivostok. The furniture was sleek and Scandinavian, blond woods and eggshell cushions. The whole office breathed money.
Marina finished her call and then buzzed Vlad. When I walked into his office, he was seated at his massive mahogany desk, the location of so much of our sex play. He wore a tailored Hugo Boss suit in black pinstripes, with a white shirt and bright orange tie. As usual, his hands and arms were loaded with heavy gold -- chain link bracelet, diamond-rimmed Rolex Masterpiece, massive rings set with star sapphires and smoky topaz.
I licked my lips and crossed my legs when I sat down across from him. But Vlad had only business on his mind. “I am launching new product,” he said, handing me a draft brochure. Vladi Vodka was introducing a line of premixed specialty martinis: apple, chocolate, key lime, orange, cherry, and lemon.
I’d run a ton of parties over the last couple of years promoting Vladi Vodka, though it wasn’t my favorite; it had a metallic aftertaste that had to be covered up with mixers. “Sounds yummy,” I said, toying with the top button of my shirt.
He barely looked up from his laptop. “I want to introduce new products in gay neighborhoods around the country. You will coordinate all events.”
My mind was spinning. It was by far the biggest job I’d ever gotten, and the first that would take me out of my Miami Beach comfort zone. I’d have to scope out the best bars around the country, recruit staff, supervise decor, music, and guest lists. I forgot about my dick and started thinking about my wallet instead.
“You have two-hundred-fifty-thousand-dollar budget,” Vlad continued. “I want Palm Springs, LA, San Francisco, Fire Island, New York, Chicago, maybe Key West. You can do this?”
I nodded, having trouble finding my voice for a minute. “Yes, I can do it. When are you going to launch?”
“Three months. Is enough time?”
It wasn’t. But I would make it work. “I’ll put together a proposal for you.”
He reached behind his desk and brought out a cute little carrier box with six slots in it, containing pint bottles of each flavor. I stood up and took the box from him, and he said, “I have many meetings today. E-mail me when you have proposal.”
I almost asked him if he wanted to bang my ass before I left, but I stopped myself. I never beg for sex. And besides, the rush I got from knowing I was facing my biggest job ever was almost enough to satisfy me. Almost.
I walked out to Lincoln Road toting the six-pack of premium martinis, still processing everything. I went right to the Ghirardelli Café, ordered a massive dark chocolate raspberry shake with vanilla ice cream, and pulled out my cell phone to summon Jean-Jacques.Jean-Jacques and I met at that first party at the Palms, where I noticed him lounging next to the bar as I was unpacking 1.75 liter magnums of Vladi Vodka for the bartender. He is still skinny as a rail, and that night he wore a skin-tight white silk tank top with a low-scooped neck and white short-shorts that highlighted his coffee complexion.It was about as close to naked as you could get and still be dressed. I looked him up and down and liked what I saw. He reminded me of one of my college boyfriends -- a chocolate-colored alto with the glee club who sang to me in bed. Though we’d broken up after a couple of months, I still remembered him fondly.I flirted with Jean-Jacques as I worked. “I judge the quality of a club by t
My cell phone rang, but I didn’t recognize the number. “Adam Beller, Beller Beach,” I said. I’d chosen Beller Beach as the name for my business -- but I might have to rethink that, if I was going national.“Mi amor. I’m thinking of you.” A voice purred, low and sensual. It sent shivers through my body, right to my groin.I turned to Jean-Jacques and pointed wildly at the phone. He grabbed my arm and listened in. “Hey there, handsome,” I said.“You sleep all right?” he asked.“Mmm. I always do, after great sex.”“I’ve been yawning all day,” he said. “If we keep seeing each other, I’m going to have to start taking vitamins.”“Gee, I didn’t realize you were a senior citizen. I can fuck like that and then be ready for more the next day.”Jean-Jacques squeezed my arm.“I want to test that theory,” Javier said. “Dinner tonight?”I almost agreed without thinking, but fortunately I caught myself. I couldn’t see him again so quickly. I needed a couple of days away from him to forget how amazin
I made it to Scott Rakow Park on South Beach just before seven, hurrying into the locker room where a couple of my teammates were stripping down and warming up. There’s a core group of about seven or eight guys who show up regularly for practice, though others drop in occasionally. We’re an incestuous little group; I’ve slept with four of the regulars and another couple of the drop-ins, and I don’t think there’s anyone who has never hooked up with a teammate.The locker room vibe is always a little sexual, but it doesn’t freak anybody out the way it might if the team was mostly straight, or a gay/straight mix. It’s a gay swim club, after all. If we didn’t sleep with each other, there’d be something wrong with us.At the first locker was Rashid, a fine-looking African American man with coffee-colored skin and short, curly black hair. He made no apologies for having grown up in wealth and privilege on Martha’s Vineyard, and had been sailing almost as long as he has been walking. He was
I got to the club just before ten. The DJ was working the small crowd, and Jean-Jacques was in the control booth cuing up the custom video mix of movie screen shots, model clips of big guys, bodybuilder shots, and so on. We played outtakes from Richard Karn’s appearances on Home Improvement and Family Feud, and other icons of the bear community like John Goodman and Top Chef’s Tom Colicchio.The party picked up quickly, and I spent the next couple of hours running around, making sure everything went smoothly, dancing and schmoozing, and working the room. Around midnight, I noticed Sean hanging back by the wall, looking lonely and uncomfortable.“Hey there, handsome,” I said. “You should have told me you were coming over. I’d have put you on the guest list.”“I was sitting around my apartment moping when I saw your Twitter notice about the party.” He looked around. “I thought I might as well get out of the house, you know?”“Absolutely.” I leaned in close to him. “So, who floats your b
Wednesday morning I woke up thinking I was back in Javier’s bed, confused to look around me and see my own bedroom, my posters on the walls, my clothes strewn over the bedside chair.How was it that he was just a few years older than I was, yet seemed so much more grown-up? He lived in a gorgeous penthouse with a skyline view; my bedroom window looked out over the Dumpster in the alley next to my building. His furniture was elegant and comfortable; mine was a collection of hand-me-downs and thrift shop finds.The one place I didn’t skimp was on clothing. My closet was more crammed than his, with more expensive stuff -- though I did remember that Armani tux he had worn to the condo launch party. And that reminded me of those formfitting jeans he’d been wearing when we met at the Publix, and before I knew it, I was hard again.To distract myself, I grabbed my iPhone and scrolled through my morning messages. My brother Richard had some notes on the contract with Vladi Vodka, a woman from
I disconnected the call before I sounded even more foolish and desperate than I already had. I looked at the clock. Almost two hours until dinner. What would I do? I threw on a tank top and shorts and grabbed my roller blades from the closet. I took a couple of turns around Flamingo Park, pushing myself, hoping that the exertion and discipline would take my mind off Javier.It worked, for a while. But when I was back home, in the shower, I remembered Javier’s touch, and I was nervous and excited and horny all over again. I checked my e-mail one last time before I left the house; Sean had sent me a proposal for the giant martini glasses we’d discussed, along with thanks for introducing him to Barry.I forwarded the proposal to Jean-Jacques with a note that we’d discuss it the next day. At the end of the e-mail I wrote, Dinner in a few minutes with Javier. DON’T CALL ME. I knew that would make him crazy. Join the club, I thought.Lincoln Road was packed with tourists and locals. A bald
I couldn’t get to sleep. I kept thinking about Javier and worrying about the effect he was having on me. I didn’t want to fall in love, because love meant you couldn’t fool around, and you wasted your time mooning after a guy when you could be out having fun instead. I dozed off around four, as the early-morning birds were just beginning to chirp outside my window, and didn’t wake until I heard Jean-Jacques letting himself in with his key. “What time is it?” I said groggily, coming to the bedroom door.“Ten o’clock,” he said. “Get your ass in gear. We have a lot of work to do.”That’s the negative of sleeping at the office. Irritating employees with cheery attitudes too early in the morning. I dragged my sorry butt into the shower, and by the time I was awake, Jean-Jacques had a cappuccino waiting for me. Maybe he’s not all bad.“What time did you get home last night?” Jean-Jacques asked, handing me a steaming mug topped with whipped cream and cinnamon. “No sleepover?”“He ditched me.
When I woke up Friday morning, I looked around me. My apartment was darker than usual. My bedroom window faces south, and usually by the time I wake up the room is flooded with light. I yawned, stretched, and looked at the clock. Eight o’clock. I guessed there was something to that old Ben Franklin saying about early to bed and early to rise.Lying there in bed, I wondered if this was what my life would be like with Javier. Going to sleep every night before midnight, waking up to early-morning light and the sense that I had a whole day ahead of me. I tried to go back to sleep, but after a while I gave up and kick-started my day with a phone call to Vlad’s office.No answer. Usually Marina was at her desk by nine. I left her a message, then showered and dressed. By the time Jean-Jacques came over, around eleven, I’d called Vlad’s office again, answered a bunch of e-mails, and paid a batch of bills. I couldn’t help but notice, though, that my personal bank account was dropping down into
I made arrangements to take the GMAT at a center back in Florida, then started considering business schools. The ones my father had suggested -- Columbia and Harvard -- were givens, though I didn’t have the kind of stellar grades you probably needed. A lot would depend on my scores. I pulled down the application for the University of Miami too as well as a couple of other schools in South Florida.By the time my parents came back from their event, I was prepared. After dinner, my father and I sat down in his study and I showed him the list of schools I was considering.He didn’t say anything about my use of his computer, though I did mention that I had done most of the research online. Score one for Adam.He added and subtracted schools until we had a group we were both happy with. “You’re going to have to do very well on your GMAT if you want to get into Harvard,” he said. “And you’re going to have to make your business sound like a lot more than just a way to spend your time in nigh
At dinner, we didn’t talk about my plans. Instead, I told G-rated stories about my life in Miami and heard about my father’s latest case and the fundraiser my mother was organizing for the local library. I waited until I was up in my room, surrounded by swim team trophies and posters of 1990s bands, to call Javier’s cell.I worried that he’d shift me directly to voice mail, that his confrontation with his parents had been too explosive. But he picked up on the first ring, though his voice was missing some of its purr. “Adam,” he said, and I noticed he hadn’t called me mi amor.“How are you?” I asked.“I’ve been better.”“I’m sorry about what happened last night. But you had to know you couldn’t have a life and keep it secret at the same time.”“Adam, I’m not like you. I don’t come from your world.”I wasn’t going to get into that. Instead I talked about being home, that my parents weren’t happy about the Vlad situation.“You should have known better,” Javier said.“Look, I’m getting e
“Your mother and I aren’t comfortable with the track your career is taking,” he continued. I knew it wouldn’t do any good to protest, so I kept my mouth shut. “It’s time you stopped fooling around in Miami and made some sense out of your life. By the time I was your age, I was clerking for the chief justice of the Supreme Court of New Jersey. At your age, your grandfather had started his own law practice. And your great-grandfather, well, he came to this country with nothing, started shoveling horseshit, and ended up selling hay and feed to the top racetracks in the country.”Horseshit was one of my father’s favorite words, though usually it was used to denote how little he thought of something Richard or I said. “Your mother and I can’t sit back any longer and watch you waste your time. You need to train that intelligence of yours in the best way you can. It’s time you grew up and got yourself to law school.”My first reaction was horseshit. I am my father’s son, after all. But I did
The drive out to Summit was quick, mostly on route 78, and soon I was motoring through the tree-lined streets of my childhood. They were just coming into leaf, and daffodils and crocuses sprouted in the manicured yards on our street. It was sunny and crisp, and I remembered how much I loved the springtime, which we get for about a week or two in Florida.I kept the key to my parents’ house on a stuffed-monkey key chain from a Kipling bag, and as I drew it from my pocket, my mother opened the front door. We gushed and hugged, and she led me inside.My mother is a brunette, though her hair is starting to streak with silver, and she refuses to dye it. Richard takes after her, while I look more like my father. I was okay with that; he was a damn handsome man, and I wouldn’t mind looking that good when I get to fifty. “Your father’s at the club,” my mother said. “He’ll be back soon. In the meantime, you and I can have a chat.”Here it comes, I thought. Good cop, bad cop. The standard paren
I got to the Miami airport with plenty of time to spare before my flight, but by the time I had made it through the serpentine security line, I had to hurry to the gate. The best Margaret had been able to do was a middle seat at the back of the plane; my fellow passengers were returning snowbirds, partying college kids celebrating the last few hours of spring break, and a sprinkling of business types on their way to early meetings in the city the next day.It was an uncomfortable couple of hours, scrunched into the narrow seat, listening to people having fun all around me. I couldn’t concentrate on the mystery novel I had brought, about a gay detective in Honolulu, and I refused to think about Javier and worry about how things were going with his parents. I had my own family issues to deal with.The man in the window seat was a Sikh, with dark skin and a red turban. “You are going back to college from spring break?” he asked me.“You’re flattering me. I graduated from college a few ye
The Estrella del Mar was a three-story block of a building, with only the vaguest art deco details. A chain-link fence surrounded it, and a Dumpster took up much of the small front yard. A big sign proclaimed it was under renovation by Marisco Construction.Javier was lounging against the fence when I walked up to the building. He took my hand and pulled me toward him for a hug. “I’m glad to see you.”It felt so good to be in his arms. The tension of planning the show, and worrying about my father’s summons, drained out of me. “Mmm,” I said, nuzzling his cheek. “I missed you tonight.”He pulled back. “I want to show you what I’ve been working on.” He took my hand and opened the gate into the yard, then pulled it closed and slipped the padlock. “You have to be careful, mi amor,” he said, shining a flashlight ahead of us.The front door was gone, and we walked directly into the small lobby. “Four apartments on this level,” Javier said, shining the light from room to room. “And four on t
That night, back at the theater, I was nervous, and not just about the Vlad situation, the FBI situation, or whether or not I would break up with Javier. We’d nearly sold out the theater, and I hoped that the acts wouldn’t disappoint. Jean-Jacques and I hadn’t seen them all together; all we’d done was go over the order with them before the show, making sure they were all there and had all their props.Iona Trailer opened the show, dressed as Ginger Rogers, and sang “We’re in the Money,” against a video background of spinning coins and bills. Of course that made me think of Vlad, and that box of cash in the storage locker. What was he thinking of, hiding that money and not telling me? Of course, if he’d said something, I would have freaked out.I was so preoccupied with thinking about Vlad that I missed the stand-up comic’s act, and only realized when the two acrobats came on and the audience got quiet. Seeing them reminded me of Javier, and I wondered if we would ever have mind-blowin
Friday morning my phone rang at nine a.m. Of course it woke me; I hadn’t gotten to bed the night before until almost three, worrying and obsessing over my relationship with Javier. “Hello?” I mumbled.“I spoke with your mother last night,” my father said. “I think it’s time you and I had a chat about your future.”I sat bolt upright in bed. “Morning, Dad. Jean-Jacques and I checked our credit reports to be sure Vlad didn’t open any accounts in our name. We can’t think of anything else that might get us in trouble.”Lots of people believe that gay men have passive fathers and over-attentive mothers. There’s some theory that the lack of a strong male influence leads a guy to want that in a lover. And maybe for some guys it’s true. But in my case, there was no doubt my father was in charge.My great-grandfather was the oldest son of a minor count in rural Poland. The family lands were confiscated in the wake of World War I, so he emigrated to north Jersey, where he worked as a stable han
I told that to Richard. “You’re giving me a headache,” he said. “I’ll have to talk to dad about this. I’ll call you back.”Jean-Jacques and I stopped at the office and told the clerk we weren’t going to renew the lease on the unit, and that we’d emptied it out. The VW wasn’t meant for transporting lots of crap, and I already had my computer equipment in the trunk. We piled the backseat with the bags we were donating, and I drove Jean-Jacques over to his place to drop them off. He said he was going to see his mother over the weekend and would deliver them to the thrift shop on his way.We’d just finished unloading the bags when my father called. “You have no knowledge of that money. You don’t know where it came from. Do you understand?”“Do I tell the FBI that Vlad gave me the lock?” I asked.“If they ask you directly. Don’t volunteer any information.”“How bad is this, Dad?”“Do you have any more secrets?”“Dad. This wasn’t a secret, it was ignorance.”“You’ve been ignorant of a lot o