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He couldn't sleep not even with Hilda and her voluminous hair sprawled all over his chest for old times sake. She would not let him go through out the night, she held onto him tight. He could not shift without waking her up. Austin thought he'd go give Merrigold her clothes and a blanket when Hilda was finally dead asleep but it was close to impossible. His thoughts were on Merrigold, he knew what he had done was wrong. He had not done anything with Hilda, even though she had begged to but ended up passing out and confessing her love for him as always. It was not anything new... he thought. It was nearing eight am. He had to get up, Hilda had to leave. Austin did not feel at peace. Even if he tried, a subtle nudge of concern would not go away. Managing to get out of her clenching embrace. Austin tip toed out of the room, expecting Merri to be wildly upset with him for locking her inside a room during what later turned out to be a breezy cold night. As if he were a thief his his own h
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She had a lot on her mind. All regretful solicitude. It was hard to speak of something she had not came to terms with at all. The journey felt extremely long, dawdling. Merri noted that, the first journey with Austin had not felt this way because she was happy...excited...and...in— she would not say it. She was glad she had never said it with her own lips. She would never say it, unless she was begging to look like a fool. Her thoughts wondered off to that woman, Hilda? Merrigold spitefully still remembered her name. Who names their child Hilda? Merrigold hated the name. Hilda? It irked her... so did Stella. A part of her felt sympathy for Austin when her thoughts wondered off to the confession he had made to her. Merrigold thought a lot throughout this nearly 36 hour carriage ride. There were stops here and there but it did not daze her from thinking.Ofcourse Austin had been intimate with Hilda before. An old friend, he had lied in her face. What was wrong with him? He said he loved
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Scrambling around waiting for the right moment or push to approach him. She felt nervous, Faith always felt nervous in Thomas presence. No wonder she made a full out of herself most of the time. Her nerves got the best of her only resulting in her displaying a bad defensive attitude. That wasn't her at all. She could be caring, likable, generous and pleasant to be around. Having a change of heart, she wanted to apologize to Thomas. He did not deserve that. He did not deserve to be ill-treated in the manner that she did. Today was a special day, she would earn his forgiveness and hopefully start a friendship afresh. Faith was aware that Thomas still loved Merri, that was alright. She'd simply be a good friend to them both...maybe just Thomas... and wait for their separation."Are you busy Thomas? I won't be long." Thomas stopped what he had been doing. Standing up straight, sweat visible... she could not help but admire how hardworking he was. He never complained even when overworked,
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"...I'm exhausted...please Merri open the door..." Austin pleaded softly. He could hear Merrigold's muffled cries. It had been this way for the past hour. She would not speak or reply no matter how hard he tried. Only her bewailing could be heard from the other side. He could easily break in but he did not want to. Austin knew he would lose his temper soon enough but he did not want to hurt her. He was seemingly trying to handle this in a civil manner."...open...for...w-what reason..?" Merrigold hiccuped on her tears."Why are you crying?" Austin questioned. "You never cry, this is so unlike you. You're being a child right now. I don't understand this."After hearing that, Merrigold wiped her nose. She...did not know why she was crying either. She had been through so much and this was the one time she'd cuddle herself to bed and cry. She felt sick, her stomach was churning with rage. She felt nauseous. She was feeling so much at the same time. Hurt, nausea, confusion, dizziness, head
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"Get her ready Evelyn!""For what reason you're so ashamed you never want to be caught anywhere near her... in public."Stella turned her head to look at what her sons had been calling a vegetable for the past three weeks. She felt a tad bit of sympathy but Stella needed to use Mandy to get to Austin."We're going to see Mandy's daddy!" Stella grinned excitedly. Her sister stared at her as if she was cuckoo."Everyone's life is alright the way it is. Why do you suddenly want to pretend you care about Mandy, she probably knows nothing and she has not asked for a father... she is happy with me here.""I'm not taking the vegetable away from you for goodness, I'm just taking her to visit her daddy. She will be back not like she could suddenly stand up and run off." Stella chuckled, she thought the last part sounded funny. It seemed her sons nickname for Mandy was growing on her too, how odd. Stella knew deep down the boys were very much adequate. Mandy is a vegetable."How could you—" Eve
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"So that is your ankle biter..." Austin said pointing at the little boy running with another little girl. Oh God!I have a child?I hate kids, arghh..!"My child, Austin. Yes, that is indeed my son." William corrected, taking a shot of whisky. Austin sighed, he was never one to talk much about his feelings or anything that bothered him. He was never one to display his emotions. William knew something was terrible wrong with his friend, he had not been acting like himself ever since his move from Manchester to Marlborough."Child, kid, ankle biter, brat, urchin... same comparison." Austin said hastily exhaling his cigarette in the other direction. Putting his right leg on top of the other. He kept tapping his foot on the titles."What is the matter with you?" William questioned, concerned. Austin had dark circles under his eyes, he looked as pale as a ghost... unwell. His lanky frame even more in display, for someone who cared so much for his appearance. He looked dowdy. For someone w
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She flinched each time Thomas fondled her breasts. She tried to suck it in and be strong but it was unbearable. They were so sensitive from any touch even if it were soft. They felt... like balloons."Are you alright?" Thomas questioned."...I'm fine...I just haven't been feeling too well." She expressed."We don't have to make love, I simply love playing with your breasts that's all and oddly enough. I do not know if it's my eyes deceiving me but they look bigger than usual." Thomas snickered with excitement like a teenage boy."They're really painfully sore, I must have slept on the wrong side of the bed." Merri expressed."I suppose so." Thomas replied."I have been having cramps too but I will be alright.""Being a woman is tough!" Thomas chuckled. Merrigold smiled caressing his jaw and the little goatee on his chin."Yes, it's awful." She replied thoughtfully. "I hardly do any physical work but I'm having back pain. I might have a fever or so. I can't keep any food in, I do not h
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Dear AustinI write this to you because I'm seeking my own closure to move on and nothing else. I'm choosing to forgive you knowing you never apologized and probably never will. Only because I need my closure and sanity. You have no conscience what so ever. You have no thought process, I reckon. Meeting you was the worst thing that could have ever occurred to me. I had faith and glimmer of hope that I'd be the one. With everyone warning me, I shied away from the truth. Chose to believe they were all jealous of what we had.I'm a firm believer of Christ and that every single thing happens for a reason. Perhaps this was a test from God, I failed the minute we committed fornication. I failed, but I'm choosing to correct it all by writing to you and making peace. Walking around with hatred is a burden for my heart, with knowing that where ever you're, you do not even think of me. You do not even feel a glimpse of guilt. I might even have to include my name or you might not remember. You h
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Hiding behind Merrigold. Hiding behind 'I love Merri.' Continuously chasing Merri to redeem him from his guilt, sins and the feelings he was developing that made him very uncomfortable. His anger was once rooted on Merri, why had she left? This was all her fault. She had led him into falling victim of this horrid unjust demonic behavior. He did not know whom he was anymore. Merrigold had been the only person in his whole entire life who shielded him from judgement. No one would ever think differently of him with Merrigold by his side as his lover. No one would ever assume he took a liking to other men. It was an unpleasant feeling that he was thoroughly ashamed of. Thomas noted, he had not always felt this way; he had not always been this way. He had never been one to look at another man twice. Never! It made him wonder were his feelings for Merrigold ever real? They were, he thought. He loved Merri not as a friend or a sister but as a lover. He enjoyed all their intimates moments tog
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"Mrs Brown?" Austin called her. She was quick to squeeze his cheeks and give him kisses on both cheeks. She'd always see him as a child even though he now towered over her."I've been meaning to have a word with you.""Out with it then?" She continued to wipe the kitchen countertops."I'm sorry you had to constantly deal with me. I've come to realize, I was such a huge burden on you and my parents. It's never easy setting upright a rebellious child." Austin muttered ashamed. He could not count the many times, his parents were not aware of his location. For months or even years at a time. The trail of debts he sent their way. Austin loved the west. He loved the ignorance within America.The transatlantic slave trade was abolished first with an act of Congress on March 2, 1807, followed with a British act of Parliament on March 25. This abolishment outlawed the international slave trade, but not slavery itself. In England, the abolishment of the transatlantic slave trade only pushed for
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Bad conscience over responsibility.Regardless of who was right or wrong, she felt shameful for her actions. Black people were already named barbaric uncultured swines. Her anger had pushed forth a uncaring attitude for consequences or self dignity. For someone who knew how to always hold it in when being insulted and abashed; she had clearly derailed off the road. Her whole life Merri had been called names, made to feel inferior, lesser than anything and anyone else. She was well aware, having mastered the art of ignorance to the hurtful slurs. Ignorance to the hypocritical attitudes of those who claimed to be above her. This was not new to her, it honestly wasn't but when Stella did—Merri could not hold herself.She was angry. This was the woman who had caused so much harm and refused to acknowledge any of her devious actions. This was the woman who had turnt Austin into a horrid cynical unlikable bastard. Stella has triggered Austin into hurting Merri. For many reasons, she blamed
MerryGold CHAPTER NINETY SIX
"Please stay away from me!" Thomas the young black man who had approached him."I've done nothing wrong." Hasani added still a little flummoxed by Thomas's cold shoulder."If you're not here to work away from me, you're literally the most disgusting person I've ever came across in my whole entire life. Merri was disgusting for being with the white man but you definitely took the trophy away from her." Thomas was quick to click his tongue and he sorted the hay.Hasani felt embarrassed but nonetheless shrugged his shoulders. "Your insults do not phase me.""Will a beating do the trick?""Why are you so violent and bitter?" Hasani questioned, a little addled by the situation.Thomas rolled his eyes at him. "Out of my sight. The sight of you revolts my whole body. I will never forgive you for what you did.""What I did?"Looking around Hasani noted it was just them and the horses. Walking towards Thomas he backed him against the wooden barn wall; one hand gripping his neck the other strok
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Whenever everything was going well there always had to be a dilemma waiting. Austin and Merri had so much trials and tribulations in the time they had shared and known each other. For many reasons just when it felt as though everything was going their way, something had to occur and dismiss their union.Merri slept early that night. Not really asleep but staring at her side of the lamp. She hugged herself trying to keep warm. An awful feeling of betrayal and treachery inhibited within her chest. She blinked a couple of times, standing up to check on her kids. They were sound asleep. It must have been because they had not sleep in the afternoon. Merrigold adored looking at them, they were so precious. She had no idea she would be able to love any other person on this earth and forsaken world the way she did her kids. Sometimes she had to snap herself to reality. 'I'm a mother, I'm a wife? I'm a mother? I'm really a mother?' Her life has changed so drastically. Her babies were every rea
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"Oh goodness..!" He teared up. "How do I hold them? They're so delicate, small, tiny and adorable... wow Merri, they're going to grow to be such handsome lads."Blushing Merri, gave Thomas a subtle smile. "The white wool is Lennox and the blue wool is Lionel. Lennox has a birthmark on his neck, it's really helpful with telling them apart."In awe, Thomas decided against holding them. Afraid they'd fall or something. Afraid Austin and Walter would be out to get his head. He did not want any problems for himself. Instead, he stood a bit far and only bent down their cradle to play with their small fingers."How's motherhood treating you?" He questioned turning back to look at her. She looked exhausted, nonetheless happy. The smile on her face overshadowed the bags under her eyes. She had certainly put on a bit of weight. Her breasts much fuller with milk patches seeping through her clothing. Her stomach, would take a while to return to being as flat as it used to be before Austin had mad
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"Grandpa was very very upset, folks always try to put me in a bitter mood but I feel so much better with you little buggers." Walter said playing with their little fingers. "Isn't it?" He tickled their little bellies. "Isn't it?" His voice became restrained and small. They seemed so attentive and both quiet in their cradle. Clearly occupied, if he got any closer they would be quick to pull his nose, they loved that. Walter sat back on his wooden cushioned chair, facing the balcony enjoying a drink, he had always been one to hide his alcohol but at this moment he did not care if anyone saw him drinking. He wasn't perfect, clearly he was sick of acting as if he was."I have every reason to be upset with that daft uncle of yours." He added taking another swig. Adjusting his stroll-hat, the little ones buoyantly wiggled their arms and feet at each other. Lionel then hit Lennox while doing so, even then the little boy didn't cry. He only wiggled harder as if to return the hit. Walter laugh
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I never add songs but sure thing by Miguel would be the theme song that played on this (scene) chapter if it was a movie. anyways enjoy and stay safe x⬆️⬆️⬆️—Pride will always be the longest distance between two people. Austin was willing but Henry was not having it. A sense of bitterness sat right on the top of his chest. He would never be able to get over any of this mediocrity. He thought, he could but he was failing dismally. He had not slept that night, blankly staring at the ceiling. As if punishment, he could hear Merri and Austin giggling... God, knows what they were doing. They acted like hormonal teenagers who finally got to be with the one they had been courting for the longest time. It annoyed him to no end, did the walls have to be any thinner? Did the echoes have to be any louder? Did Austin's room have to be right next to his? Why was it so difficult to see Austin happy... his own brother. It bothered him. Perhaps because for the longest of time, he had believed wit
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"Austin...""Henry..."With a few meters between them. The two brothers stared at each other with unsaid words of regret, guilt and shame. They had not talked, a good morrow, good evening, pass me the salt, have you seen mother? Is Merri here? did not count as proper conversing."So much has been happening..." Henry added, scratching the back of his head."See, Henry consider yourself very lucky. If I had not met Merri, if I had not fathered my kids, if I did not have any reason to want to be better. I would have kicked you in the nuts and aimed for your a good hit then told you to return to your ratchet wife.""Fair enough!" Henry let out a nervous laugh. Austin stared at him with distaste. He could not hide the bitter feelings he had grown for his brother over the years. This was the same man who had called the authorities on him over his innocent wife. Accused a much younger Austin of raping her. So many nauseating accusations made by his brother. One who ought to protect him and l
