Chapter 2. Alive, at least for now

Ciera’s pov

Darkness was what I was seeing as was the face of Pablo, maybe because he had saved me so many times in the past, or maybe because I was dying of the heads of his wannabe girlfriend. 

A loud roar heard and I was studently at the floor trying to breath. I couldn’t see yet, I was just trying to take enough oxygen. I was between awake and senseless. Didn’t understand much of what happened. I just felt someone raise me up in his arms and carrying me. In that moment I felt safe. I know it’s ridiculous because I almost died but, in that moment, I was safe. 

I wass trying to open my eyes but they were so heavy and I my lips were dry. I was desperate for water. I must had sleeping cause I woke up in a hospital bed with Sebastian by my side. ‘’Hey sleepyhead, it was about time.’’ I could see the care in his face and he was trying to mask his worry with a playful voice. 

‘’How long was I sleeping? Did you save me?’’ I was full of curiosity and I needed to know what exactly happened. It makes sense for him to save me, nobody else cares and I was feeling safe nevertheless.  ‘’And water please’’ I asked him with puppy eyes, my body was so heavy that I couldn’t get it for myself. 

‘’Here, drink slowly’’ he said putting the glass carefully on my lips. ‘’No, unfortunately I was still in my room but thank the goddess Pablo saw what was happening and stopped her’’. I wasn’t expecting that but on the other head I was always feeling safe with Pablo. He a dickhead lately but I guess he is still here when I need him the most. 

 Two days have passed and I didn’t see neither Pablo nor Reichel. During this time Sebastian was the most considerate boyfriend, he even did my shores. Not good as I heard but he tried. I was insisting to do them by myself but he didn’t let me. I think he is feeling guilty that he wasn’t the one who saved me and that helps him to feel better.

By the third day it was the weekend and I was working on shores for the pack. I was in the kitchen on clean duty. It was a long day and I gathered my energy to make a cake for Pablo in order to thank him. I knew that cake with cookies flavor was his favorite so I made just that. I jumped at the chance to thank him for saving my life that way. 

I was exhausting by the end but I had to thank him. I was outside his door and I was ready to knock when I heard loud woman moans from the room and I turned my back in order to leave.  Tears were threating in my eyes and I didn’t even know why. I was feeling rejected but that wasn’t the case here. 

I ended up in my room and I started writing a thank you card in order to leave the cake outside his door.  When I arrived I saw the girl leaving his room. She was a tall, blond woman. I think her name is Alice and she is two years older than him. 

I took deep breath and I decided to knock. ‘’What do you want?’’ he asked me like he was annoyed by me. He was still shirtless and I was merely keeping my eyes at his head. My eyes were threatening to go lower. 

‘’that’s for you, thank you for saving me’’ I made a move to give the cake but he didn’t take it. ‘’you have to keep your thoughts to yourself, you are weak and easy pray’’ I could see how agree he was in his eyes and in his tone. But I couldn’t understand why he was mad at me. 

And the things he said about me being week it’s like putting a knife in my heart and squisite  ‘’it’s like hearing your girlfriend speak. You too deserve each other’’. I didn’t mean what I was saying but I was furious with him and with myself for being in this position to need somebody else to save me. 

In an instant, he had his head in my throat and he pushed me into the wall. The cake was now lying on the floor and in our clothes. 

Here we go again. In less than a week that’s the second time that someone wants to choke me to death. But this time I wasn’t feeling scared or threaten. I could only see his lips that was a breath away from me. I could almost taste his full red lips. And the way he was looking at me it was a mix of anger and last. 

He just kissed me with force placing his lips at mine. I had to resist but I couldn’t. I was drunk by his cent and lost in his touch. It was like I was floating and my feeling were all over the place. It was like I didn’t need air but that kiss. And I just kissed him back. 

His tong and mine were dancing and I was feeling complete. I was a strange feeling I had never felt that way with his brother. And then realization heat me, I can’t do that to his brother. I am dating his brother, he doesn’t deserve this. And he doesn’t deserve someone who is into his brother. 

So, am I into his brother? Oh, goddess I am and I have been all these years but I was too scared to admit it. And I was scared because I am not a high-ranking wolf and furthermore he is a player, and I am like any other girl to him. 

I pushed him away in the thought of these things. ‘’I am dating your brother, we can’t do this’’