[~♥CORAL♥~]I don't know where I'm going with this. This constant push and pull is exhilarating.I'm trying so hard to fight these feelings swirling inside of me but somehow, deep down, I really don't think I want to. They're my mates after all.Why am I really fighting this?If I'm blind about their past actions, and look at them for what they are… they are everything and more that I want in a mate.Though three mates is a little excessive but at the same time, it feels… perfect, perhaps?Is it petty of me to be this way? Fight my feelings? Maybe because I'm too scared? Scared to move past it. Maybe I know it'd be too good to be true to have them as my mates.After all, they used to be a constant part of my daily life and they still are.They hurt me though. They lied and kept a deep secret. Even though it wasn't just from me, it affected me the most. Even so, am I supposed to just overlook it and accept them? Are my actions wrong?Is it… harsh? Cruel?I want to forgive them though
[~♣RAEGAN♣~] I take one look at my brothers’ faces and I know what's going on in their minds, though it's a lot harder to read off Rune’s face but Damian isn't even trying to conceal the despondency riding the features of his face. “If you keep scowling like that, you're going to swivel before you even reach your prime.” I taunt Damian, an attempt to ease his sullen mood but it just ends up causing his scowl to deepen. “I'm not scowling,” He states. “I'm thinking, Raegan.” “Oh yeah, what about, little brother?” It was a silly question but I couldn't help myself from taunting him, knowing it's only going to irk him more. Maybe because I wanted to alleviate my own misery and Damian is the sweeter choice. “You're only a few seconds older than me.” Damian clicks his tongue and I spill out a partly suppressed laugh at his jittering. “I'm still older though.” I keep up my taunting and Damian practically snarls at me. I smirk, the smugness of my satisfaction surfs across my lips and D
[~♦DAMIAN♦~] There’s an erring sense of silence in the room as we watch our pack’s doctor fuddle over our mate, and it’s hovering around my brothers and I like a darkly, daunting cloud on a stormy weather. We’re all trying to keep our cool so the theta can do his work properly but we’re also one second away from jumping at him at the slightest negative change at the hands of our mate. “How is she?” Raegan asks the question we all thought to voice. His right leg is bouncing in a steady but agitated rhythm and his thick, muscular arms are folded on his chest. On his words, our mate stirs in her sleep, a muffled sound leaving her mouth, a small frown contours her face before it lets up and disappears. She doesn’t seem to be in any more pain but her silky alabaster skin is now a ghostly pale and is almost awful to look at. Though the pain in her system have been abated, I still feel an unease to the cause of it and why she’d been quiet about it. For goddess’s sake, she could have been
[~♠RUNE♠~]“Do you think she’ll wake up soon?”“The doctor said she will, Rune, give it a rest.” Raegan reassures me with a sigh.It’s been hours since this incidence and it’s been two hours since Theo left after his much cutting diagnosis on our mate. None of us has left her side since, not even when mother and father rushed in afterward. Raegan had contacted them soon after the theta left. It took them a few long minutes to get here—given the location of their house—since they didn’t live with us anymore.After father’s retirement as the pack leader, they both moved into another house; it’s a traditional rule within the pack, one that’s been in place since the foundation of our pack. Mother however, wasn’t completely free of her duties as pack luna because at the time of Raegan’s coronation as pack leader, we, or rather, he, hadn’t found his mate yet—we never knew the three of us would ever be mated to the same girl.It still feels like a dream though, I didn’t think I’d ever find h
[~♥CORAL♥~] My gritty eyes peel open with a flutter and the first thing I see is a blurry dark colour before a clearing. An almost inaudible sound pries my lips open just as my head is spammed with a splash of haze. My face twitches with a frown, trying to blink the haze away when three familiar, masculine scents hijacks my breathing through my nostrils and I automatically turn my head to the scent that feels the closest, till I lock gaze with all three of them. Raegan, Damian and Rune are all staring at me with wholesomely worried gazes but beneath the cloudiness of worry, there’s a splash of relief within their warm pools. “Wh-Where…” I start to speak but my voice is so chapped, it sounds like a broken record and so is my lips. I slither my tongue across it, swallowing to clear what feels like a log in my throat. “Where… am I?” I ask, my voice is quiet but still feels patchy, vaguely remembering where I am or why I was lying on the bed with all three of them watching over me with
[~♥CORAL♥~] “Say, doctor…” I start slowly, taking the words one at a time, concentrating my attention to him. “Do you know what happened to me?” I ask and all four of them stiffen at my question. I knew they were hiding something. I never expected the doctor to be in on it as well. Now that my mind was calm, I could think clearly. I wasn’t sick in any way but then I’m suddenly coughing up blood and having a full on heart attack that nearly had me six feet under. Is it related to my mate bond? Did I take it too lightly? Questions… so many questions that I need answers to and here they were hiding something as serious as this from me, again. I frown at the thought. The doctor passes a brief look behind me before opening his mouth and slowly turning his gaze to me. “Well, I—” “Don’t lie.” I inject sharply, glaring at him.“I’m not stupid.” He swallow then throws his gaze back again. I follow his gaze this time and meet all three pair of eyes on me. There's hesitation in their eye
[~♥CORAL♥~] “Take care of yourself, my flower, I’ll drop by whenever I can.” Mother says, kissing my cheek and caressing the length of my hair. She catches my face in her soft but firm hands, her palm warm against my skin. “Don’t push yourself too hard, but keep in mind what I said, okay.” she whispers against her forehead before dropping a kiss on it. “Yes mother, I understand.” I say through a soft smile as I hug her one last time. She nods in response, a smile making way to her lips. “That’s good, darling.” “See you later, Pearl.” Father’s voice breaks through our moment and I raise my gaze to him. He smiles at me before his hands reaches out and he pats my hair, “Let us know if you need anything, okay?” He supplies gently, his ice blue eyes, warm as he strokes down his palm at the back of my head for a moment longer before letting go. I wave them goodbye, watching them walk off hand-in-hand under the twilight sky, their passionate love flashing before my eyes and I sigh, feel
[~♥CORAL♥~]A soft knock on my bedroom door alerts me before it pushes open and the person comes into view. Reagan. His tall, broad form fills the doorway and he’s holding a stainless tray with something on it that’s covered by a dome.“I brought dinner, moonbeam.” he says, a gentle smile plays across his lips as he steps in. “I hope you’re hungry.” he’s looking at me with a scrutinous gaze.I was. Ravenous even and my stomach seizes this moment to make an announcement. I turn a tomato red, Reagan doesn’t hide his amusement though, he laughs softly, the sound seemingly sweet to my ears.“I’ll take that as a yes, then.” he adds, placing the tray on the bed, beside me. Then he takes the open spot next to me, on the bed. His large presence eats up the space between us as he adjust the tray between us before taking off the stainless dome.Pasta and meatball fillings fills my nostrils. I can’t help it when I hum in bliss and from the aroma that circulates in the air, my mouth watering at t
[~♥CORAL♥~]“Do you need me to come with you?” Reagan asks. There's a look of worry etch on his face when I turn around, my hand pausing mid-air from reaching for the front door, to face him.My red hair bobs around me, caressing my face and shoulders. “No, I'll be fine.”“Are you sure?” His pries, his soft ice blue gaze narrows as he watches me intently and I force down a bundle of nerve threatening to push it's way through.Gifting him a warm smile, I grab unto my bag’s straps on my shoulders. “It's not my first day in school, Reagan. I'll be fine.”I tell him, trying to tamper his worries but even my false affirmation doesn't seem to be working either.My smile cracks when he says, “Yes, I know that but, this is different.” He takes few steps towards me until he was closing in on me. I don't drift in my step and let the soothing aroma of his scent seep into me.“We've not exactly made a public announcement.”He was referring to our mating bond. A lot of things has definitely happen
[~♥CORAL♥~]Today's been like a dream. A fluffy, fairytale like dream and I'm floating on clouds, delirious from the ecstasy I feel swirling in me. The sun is slowly setting, casting warm, bright light over us. The river overhead glimmers with the reddish orange hues of the setting sun. The fairy lights glow brighter under the glow it casts over them, it makes the flowers look like they're surrounded by a couple of fireflies.It's perfect. It's beautiful and serene, just like today and I can't help but feel grateful. Being outside has never felt so refreshing and it's because of them.This moment has unexpectedly been exactly what I needed. And as I watch them, sharing in the many snacks and dessert that they'd prepared—mostly by Reagan—a feeling of serenity percolates in my chest.I'm stuffed with so much food and desserts but I slowly munch on the last of my biscuits, enjoying the sweet, creamy flavor and chewy texture when I catch Reagan make an eye gesture to Damian and Rune and
[~♥CORAL♥~] We follow a hidden part into the forest grounds. The part resonates with my memories with every step I take. Rune leads, his hold on my arm, firm, he touch feels gentle, like he wants to keep hold onto it infinitely.Above us, the sky is clear and the trees shield us from the late-noon sunlight, casting shadows around us. Birds chirps in the distance and I could hear the soft rustling of the little forest creatures that move about their nature land.My blood steams with excitement; the smell of the forest—the deep earthy roots, the smell of grass and plants—is something I’ve missed in a while and walking down the familiar part again has an even deeper curiosity festering through me. Rune has remained quiet, refusing to give out any other piece of information that could damper my curiosity. But I did find out that Reagan and Damian were a part of this dern plan that he’d refused to lay out for me. And now the suspense is just really eating at me to know.“We’re here.” Rune
[~♥CORAL♥~]A Week Later…“Where are we going?” I ask Rune as he rummages through my wardrobe, finally picking out a blue sun dress, he finally turns around to face me.He had come into my few minutes ago, demanding that I get dressed but he wouldn’t spill a word about what the occasion was. Then he proceeds to run through my closet of clothes to fasten my prep up when I’d all but assault him with question after question; my curiosity and confusion remains unattended to.What is he up to now?“This would look lovely on you.” He says with a little smile, the pale cotton dress hangs down the length of his sturdy body and I run my gaze over it, agreeing with him.Taking a proper look at the dress though, I realize it's one of the dresses he bought me last year at a festival. Did he pick it out intentionally? Did he recognize it as well?I don’t get any chance to find the answers when I’m pulled off my bed to my feet and driven to the doorway of my bathroom. “Go on. Freshen up.”“But—”“I
[~♥CORAL♥~]“Hmm, those would definitely taste as good as they smell.” Damian’s voice fills the air, his large frame filling the entrance as he walks into the kitchen. “I hear we’re having a picnic.” His ember eyes find mine the instant he crosses the threshold and they immediately flash with excitement and something else as he stalks towards me with measured steps.“That’s right, and it’s going to be a big one!” Kiara chirps enthusiastically from the corner but without taking his eyes off me or responding to her, Damian stops two feet away from me and cocks his head to the side. A thin layer of his combed back hair falls free, the dark lock feathers his temple with the movement.“Hmm? Was this your grand idea, sweet girl?” He flashes a smile that could steal breaths away. With his left hand inside his pocket, his right hand reaches for my face and his fingertips caresses the hollow of my cheek.A subtle shiver runs down my skin at the contact but I make a manageable attempt to respon
[~♥CORAL♥~]“We’re having a picnic!” Kiara sing-songs, throwing her hands up as she waltz into Reagan's office like she owned the place.“Kiara, you can't just burst in without knocking, what if he's busy or something?” I complain, my voice a low yell as I tail behind her, entering the office without taking my eyes off her.“Nah, he wouldn't mind at all.” She says over her shoulder, her hazel gaze catches mine monetarily before she faces front again, flipping her curly blonde hair and the short length bounces on her shoulder.I knew it wasn't routine and Reagan doesn't let anyone into his office without his permission, I also knew she hadn't been in here, often and without me being present with her but the confidence she oozed walking into Reagan's office like she's been in it countlessly, gave room for an unfamiliar feeling to curl in my belly.“Right, Reagan?” Kiara face breaks open with a smile and that's when I turn to face him too.He has his gaze locked on Kiara and there's a lo
[~♥CORAL♥~]“Y-You’re going to give them a chance?!” My best friend shoots as she abruptly gets off her feet, surprise riding the fine, smooth lines of her face as she holds my gaze. “Which technically means, no rejection? You're willing to accept them as your mates?” She adds, still seeped in shock and I almost chuckle at her outburst.As before, my response to her stunned expression is a simple, vehement nod.“Just to be sure,” She puts her hands out between us and twirls an index finger in a circular motion before adding. “All three of them?”I nod again, my resolve getting firmer with every answer I give, with every moment I think about it.Her gaze shifts to the door, lingering as though she’s expecting someone to pop out from the corner. A look crosses her features before she mutters.“Why?”There’s a hint of an emotion in her voice that I don't recognise but it almost sounded wistful. It sparks an alarm in my head and I frown, my brows lowering with confusion.“What do you mean
[~♥CORAL♥~]Overwhelming.Everything in this moment is utterly overwhelming and I feel it all at once. The fast pacing of my heart, the warming body heat of my mates around me, the sudden sense of warmth and safety I’ve always not let myself sink into, the happiness and heat in their stunned gazes but most of all… relief. It encompasses all other emotions that I feel in this moment.Relief that they still want me even through my tantrums…Shifting my gaze between all three of them, waiting for the flash moment where I’d catch a hint of hesitation or something that would set them back on their decision but also making sure this moment was real and not a dream. If my hands were free, I’d probably pinch myself to check if I was awake or still asleep and this was all a blissful dream.They didn’t hate me for it.“Thank you.” I say, my voice a quiet whisper.“No, moonbeam,” Reagan supplies quickly. His smile is warm and bright and beautiful when I look at him, his beautiful ice-blue eyes s
[~♣REAGAN♣~] The air is thick with something heavy and the curator of this burning nerve is our very much antsy looking mate sitting across from us in the living room. Her summon this morning had been abrupt and unexpected but it had left an air of intuitive preconception in its wake, though even without that feeling, her summon alone would have stirred the same pull it did right now, to respond to her call and it was the same for my brothers as well. And that was why we were all seated here, awaiting the moment she’d speak. The tension swirling even though I’m trying not to let my nerves get to me because I think deep down, I have an inkling of what this moment was all about as I try not to let the negative thoughts break free in my mind. Curiosity and wariness races through my bloodstream. This was probably that moment. The one that hangs the fate of our new relationship in the balance; one that could build or destroy us. The last few hours have been a whirlpool of gut twis