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Push me and see

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last update Last Updated: 2023-09-17 13:15:11

Push Me and See

Hycinth

The room was dark. Velvety curtains, the color of deep cobalt, hung over blackout blinds and ensured virtually no light penetrated the space.

I liked it that way....dark.

It was how the world should be because color and light just made me feel the pain of everything I had lost. I couldn't take it. I burrowed deeper beneath the covers, wishing to blend in with the blackness, to fade into an empty void of nothingness where I just stopped feeling.

But it didn't work...

...it never worked.

I couldn't shut off my thoughts and emotions. I couldn't stop grieving the past and fearing the future.

Luca had been right. Within two days of his stunning revelation that I was pregnant, I was able to scent the tiny pup growing in my belly. My little male or female. The idea was shocking. I was a mother. And within a few months, there would be a little life completely dependent upon me. How was I going to care for a child when I could barely get out of bed?

I reached out to my
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