Flashback ***
6 years ago
“Ella, stop!”
I yell at my best friend, who keeps taunting me. We were outside in the woods having a camp out.
“Oh, come on, we used to play chase all the time”
“Yes, but not right now. Let’s, go roast some marshmallows or go inside the tent”
She brushes me off and runs.
“Catch me if you can“
I could feel my wolf coming forward as she taunted me. My 16th birthday was the month prior , I shifted for the first time and ever since, I haven’t been able to control my wolf.
Catch me”
She called out, not aware of the inner struggle I was facing.
Eventually, I lost the battle with my wolf and I charged after her, shifting into my wolf in mid air.
The sound of a scared heartbeat, the quick breathing of the victim as it's being chased, the sound of the feet as it thuds the ground in hurried movements felt heavenly to my wolf.
“Claire!!”
Ella screams my name, as she looks behind her, my Wolf closing in on her.
“Help!, somebody help me, please, Claire ”
Clueless Girl, this made her more excited, I was no longer in control. This wasn’t me, this was my wolf, and she was blood hungry.
Ella tripped on a rock and fell. My wolf wasted no time to pounce on her.
'“Hi”
She whispers, but this makes my Wolf angry, and she growls at her. She was not supposed to talk back. The animals she had killed didn’t make a sound.
Doggie calm down. I’m not bad, do you want meat? Clarie and I have some not too far fro
Before she could finish, my Wolf was ripping through her, only stopping when her heartbeat became faint.
“Omg Ella”
I cried when I shifted and realised what my Wolf had done.
“Claire”
Ella looked up at me in shock before she choked on her own blood and died.
“no, no”
I held her close to me. What have I done?
“Clarissa I hate you “
Attempting to bring her back, I shouted at my wolf.
I hugged her close to my body as the rain poured down on us
From that moment, I vowed never to use my wolf again, never to accept her as part of me,I rejected her.
"You are no longer a part of me. I don’t want you. Look what you made me do. You made me kill my best friend, you're a cold blooded killer Clarissa. "
***
Present Day
" Wakie, Waike "
My mom shouted and I slowly opened my eyelids.
" Hurry, and get ready for work, dad's waiting for you downstairs "
She then left and I climbed out of bed.
While taking a shower I tried to shake off the horrible feeling of the dream I had earlier.
It wasn't dreaming honestly, more like a flashback and I hate that I'll have to start my day off with this awful memory.
Mom was happy to see me in my nurse uniform and so was dad, with not even a minute to spare we left for work.
***
I was a little nervous to enter the building of the pack's infirmary, since it was my first day, but my father gave me a squeeze and now I'm ready.
Opening the doors I was greeted by the
welcoming aura of doctor Lynch.
" Right on time!, your desk is over there"
She motioned to a desk and I noticed some files on top of it.
I placed my handbag down and tested out the chair.
Pretty comfy!
" The first task of the day is to organise those files in alphabetical order, then call the patients one by one, by their names to see me, after that you'll make a new appointment for their next visit.
Once that is out of the way, we'll deal with the patients who don't have an appointment.
" Noted Doc "
I wasted no time to start arranging the files, there were only 8 patients which made it easy to arrange.
One by one I called each of them in, they visited the doctor then I made an appropriate appointment date which is in 4 months time.
These patients were doing fine, but due to them having chronic illnesses, it's important to have them checked regularly to ensure they're doing well and their prescriptions are up to date.
A man walked up to my desk, just as I was about to start calling in the patients without an appointment.
He appeared to be in his mid 20s, pure black eyes that reminded me of someone I once knew and dusky brown hair.
" Good morning Nurse, I'm Beck Bloomfield, I have an appointment for today "
I didn't remember calling his name, So I checked and his name wasn't on any of the files.
" Sir, I'm sorry but you don't have an appointment and we've already- "
I tried to explain but he cuts me off before I could finish
" Nurse, I know what you'll say, but I didn't mean for this to happen, I'm severely I'll"
" You said your name was Back Bloomfield right?"
He nods and I sigh
" Give a minute please "
I checked his docket and he was, he has what is called low healing count, which prevents a Wolf from healing at the rate a regular wolf would.
While a normal Wolf would heal in minutes, it would take someone with this illness from a week up to a month and in most severe cases months to a year.
" I have to assess you, before I send you to the doctor. What's the cause of your concern? "
He lifts his shirt and I was shocked by what I saw. It's pretty bad
I sent him straight to the doctor, that's pretty bad injury for someone with cells that doesn't regenerate at a normal level.
***
It was now lunch and I was sitting by the water fountain eating the fruits mom had packed for me.
My first day has been fantastic so far and I'm glad I pushed myself to do this.
" Hey "
Someone called out from behind me, startling me.
" Beck "
It was the guy from earlier with the low healing count.
" Oh my gosh, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you "
He apologises but I shook him off
" You're good, how's your abdomen?, "
He plopped himself down beside me
" Doc says it will take months before it would be fully healed "
" I don't understand how you could allow something like that to happen to you, your cells don't "
" Nurse, I know, but that doesn't mean I can't have a normal life or do normal stuff. I was training among the pack soliders when it happened "
" mmh "
I hummed, I understood where he was coming from, but they're " normal stuff" he could do, that wouldn't jeopardise his health.
"My aunt is into natural remedies, surely she must have a paste or a drink of some sort that could help speed up the healing process"
"That sounds great"
Something he said sparked my interest.
" Do you think she would have some herb or anything to help the relationship between a young woman and her wolf ?"
I asked hoping he'd say yes.
"Maybe, who do you want it for?"
"A patient "
Lying wasn't something I liked to do but I couldn't possibly tell him it was me.
"I will ask her when I visit her "
" Thanks very much Beck "
I went to hug him but quickly caught myself, that would be inappropriate.
For the sake of us both, it's time me and my wolf get over what happened 6 years ago.
I panted, my face and neck covered in sweat.When has shopping gotten so difficult?.I'm calling my father to come get me." Dad, I need you to come get "I breathed out once he answered the call." Why do you sound as if you're dying "He chuckles"That's because I am"" I can see that "He says, this time he sounded as if he was close to me and no longer as though he was over the phone.&nbs
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It's been a month since I've last seen Max and or spoken to my parents. On a positive note, work has been great. Doctor Lynch and I get a long quite lovely. Occasionally we have a few disrespectful patients or disagreements but nothing we couldn't handle. I was on my way to the storage room to fetch some medicines that needed restocking When I felt a familiar feeling. normally I'd curse but this time around I was ecstatic.finally! I turned around and glared at the man I've been wanting to see " Max, how could you tell my dad such a lie?" I asked but he kept his head straight pretending not to notice me. " Look at me, I'm talking to you " I grabbed his arm but he shook me off and said, " What's this, I could have sworn you said to stay away from you "Well I guess I did, but there's an issue that needs to be resolved, an issue he created when he lied to my dad. My parents and I aren't talking because of it.He walks away and I groan " We aren't done yet!"I yelled then
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“I thought you were in bed”Max asks in shock, as I pinned him to the wall the moment he entered through the door. “Quit talking”I smashed my lips out of his demandingly.He tried to touch my hair, so I secured his hands above his head. “Woah”“Let’s go home”“Why?”He teases, knowing full well how horny I am. The scent of my arousal in the Air. Within a mile second, the roles were reversed and I’m the one pinned. “You want me, is that it?”“Yes Alpha”“How badly”He smirks, using my hand. I brought it to my soaking pussy, and he growls Then lips, a finger inside me, followed by another. “Max, ah fuck, someone could see us”We’re literally in the living room. “They’re sleeping, relax baby”He continued to fuck me until I came into his fingers. Fixing myself up, Max throws me over his shoulder.“What are you doing ?”I giggled “Be quiet Babe”He slaps my bum playfully, then closes the door before taking me to the river near his parents’ house. Max takes me down, turns to lo
“Max, why don’t you go downstairs and sleep on the couch?”I groan as horniness continues to drive me crazy.The scent of my arousal filled the room.The jerk only smirked knowingly. “It’s best to give in now because you will, eventually”Rolling my eyes, I grab a sheet and a pillow. “Stay, I’ll go, besides I can’t sleep”He confesses, his voice going an octave lower The mate bond acted on its own and I’m cuddling Max.My mate latches on to me and I felt bad for never trying to help him with his obvious grief. “So you wanna talk about it?”“No, I want to fuck you”“Max I’m being serious’I exclaimed, though my pussy throbbed at the thought of that. “So am I’“please, Mr Steiner wants us to be happy talking about it is the fastest way to heal”He ignored the statement and pulled me closer, pecking at my shoulders. “Don’t torture yourself Clarissa, I can smell your arousal”Being this close and him doing that only ignited my horniness, and I growled.Horniness, hate and the need
“Can Nia ride you like this?”I moan, and he groans “Oh fuck, no”That’s what I thought. See before max, I’d never had sex Rightful so, all genders are to remain a virgin until mateAnd even now I’m inexperienced But after cheating with Nia, I’ll give him pleasure so good, he won’t have to think twice about touching another woman who’s not me. “Luna, Alpha”Jason’s mind-links frightening us “What?”Max growls, annoyed l Who the heck min-links someone when they’re in the middle of having sex?“You two might wanna keep it down, you’re waking everyone up”Shit, our parents, everyone’s still here “We’ll be quiet”Max hisses as I rub his nipples through my thumb. “or take a break. You guys been at it for hours now”The link closed, and we wrapped up.Plopping myself down on the mattress, I rolled to the other side, only to be pulled closer. Might as well enjoy the warmth “Did you mean it?”He asks out of nowhere “Huh”I looked at him, confused, but he remained silent. “Mean what
He pulls me up, but I’m not going back in there. I just lost dad. I can’t lose my mate too She was about to reject me, had mom not showed up.“Go on”“Not without you, so be a man and face your fares. I’m here by your side.”He says and embraces me in an emotional hug. The only man beside my dad, I’d ever let see me cry.“I’m glad you’re here”“Me too Brother”We went back inside and found everyone there. Equally devastatedClarissa stood there broken than the time I saw her in the woods, drenched in blood.The bond urges me to go comfort my mate. However, I’m a cheater and part of the reason. Mommy, where’s dada?”Asked my little brother Malvin, sitting at the edge of the stairs.“He’s busy”Mom tells him“You sway that all the time”Sophia, my sister, responded Claire and I’s mom took them back to bed, while her dad went to get us all drinks. “Make mine stronger ”She yell’d“This isn’t the only heartbreak on dealing with”Hearing that made my heart sink, and I couldn’t brin
Outside the door was Jason and Kylie. We all made our way over to the Steiners. Sitting on the couch was an almost unrecognisable man, had it not been for his ever so welcoming smile. Rushing over with tears in my eyes, I hugged him. “Sweet Claire” He says in a shaky, yet loving voice. “We’re right here” Max comes over and joins in on the hug. “uh, I love you two to pieces” He held us tight. When we pulled away, his mother calls us over to talk “He got worse shortly after you guys mated, there isn’t much time left” “And you’re just now telling me this?” Max hiss. “Your father was the one who said not to. He never wanted to worry you guys” That’s Mr Steiner, for sure, the happiness of his family above all. “You still should’ve fucking told me” “Don’t talk to your mother like that” She slaps him and he huffs but goes over to his father. I wish I could slap him too. “No, No” Max screams, capturing everyone’s attention. All of us ran over to see what it wa
My schedule was completely free today and initially I planned to visit my parents whom I haven’t seen in a while. Then PHG came to mind. It’s also been some time Max then suggested I go to both. PHG first since it starts in a few. And then their place after. I’m wearing a simple blue dress and some flip-flops, my hair done in a high ponytail as I left the house. Feels good to have a schedule free day. It is all thanks to Kylie, though. She’s been very helpful. Her mysterious, yet funny and straightforward personality blends well with me. Making it easy to be around and work together. I haven’t opened up to a friend or really had any since EllaSo this is amazing Upon entering PHG, I glimpsed Nia. Boiling with annoyance, my wolf growled. What’s wrong with this girl?, yesterday I wore a 3.5 inch heels and Maxi dress, Today she shows up in one too, a similar attire to mine and worseHer hair is now dyed dusty blond with golden highlights and curtain bangs Complete opposite
Ask her”Jason pushes Kylie in front of me.“Huh?”I looked at them, confused, while sipping some coffee. “Kylie want you to accompany her She wants to go shopping as she doesn’t have much clothes here, however; It scared her to ask.“I would love to”Are you kidding me!.Grabbing my purse, I kiss Max goodbye, carefully taking the keys from his pocket.“You have so many options to choose from, yet you always take my high end car”He whines and we laugh at him. “What can I say? I love luxury”With that, Kylie and I left for the mall. This is a great opportunity for us to get to know each other. “Where are you from?”“a small pack”Very vague, but okay. All her answers after that were too. Mysterious, I like it. From what she disclosed, we’re a year apart. Ugh, why’s everyone always older than me?.Max and Jason are 3 years above. She didn’t like the living situation at the pack, so she ran away and that’s when she and Jason met. Parking the car, Kylie got out first. Memories
“Did you guys find somewhere?”“Yes, we found a 2 bedroom home not too far from Jason’s cousin’s actually”She told me and I’m still stuck at “we”. They say they’re not an item yet sharing a home together. “Interesting”‘Look, we’ve had sexual contact, fucked many times, enjoy each other’s presence, but he doesn’t do relationships and neither do I”I nodded and tried to be understanding. Sexual partners, but no commitment this my first time seeing such a thing. Packs, werewolves, our lives centers around mating. Fated or not, everyone wanted one. Look how depressed I was when I couldn’t find mine?” But hey, whatever works for them. “Did you get a tour of the pack yet?”I questioned and Jason answers out of nowhere “She did. Where’s your mate?, I tried mind-liking him but it didn’t go through”“In a meeting”He nods and wraps his arms around Kylie, who pulls away at his attempt to kiss her. He whispers something that makes her blush and then kisses her cheeks.I smiled at them.
The next morning when I awoke, Max wasn’t in bed. Showering and brushing my teeth, I headed downstairs to check if he was there. On the island was a note, along with four failed attempts at making pancakes.It read “I tried”Laughing, I threw them away. Only to see a burnt out pot in the bin. “Max”I mind-link him “Morning Sexy,”He replies, earning a blush“From here on now, you are no longer welcomed in the kitchen”“Yeah, messed up pretty bad”“appreciate you trying though”The mind-link cuts off and I’m upstairs to pack. Last night, we agreed that I’d move back.I sometimes wonder if our pack was cursed.Everything always seems so perfect when we’re away from that environment. The best memories I have of us are from here. Running the pack would be hard to do living out here. But the selfish side of me wants to live in this city house forever. A girl simply desires to be happy.“Babe, get your sexy ass over here, someone wants to see you”He mind-links again, and I excite