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41.NO REGRETS.

Author: Adeola
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56

TRISTAN’S POV

Vanessa's words hit me like a rock, and I can't deny the pain. I watched as she ran into the bathroom, the door clicking shut behind her. I should have realized she was still healing; maybe I shouldn't have been so forward when she was still clutching to her painful past that she was reluctant to reveal it.

I stood in the same position, feeling stupid for what just happened, berating myself for not keeping my emotions in check.

What was I thinking? I just couldn’t help myself the moment I saw her like that, so pretty and with a body begging to be worshipped, I couldn’t resist.

It’s been years since I felt this way with anyone and I never expected to feel this way with Vanessa of all people. Heck, we had a arrangement which I probably made her question by making that move to kiss her.

I know she would probably blame herself too but none of this would have happened if I had suppressed myself in the first place. I knocked gently at the door of the bathroom, hoping to gain
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