Vanessa's POVIt felt like my whole world crumbled right in front of me as the doctor announced the dreadful news. I lost my balance and almost fell from the seat. No, this is just another dream, right?It was just like the nightmare I had a couple of days ago. Dame is hale and hearty. There is no way anything could have been wrong with him. We were playing a few hours ago… He was okay. There was nothing wrong with him…If this is another nightmare, someone should wake me up. I looked between the doctor and Declan, and both of them had their gaze fixed on me, studying my reaction.I let out a dry laugh, refusing to believe the doctor. My vision became blurry and every other thing they were saying suddenly became a whisper in my ear. Their voices were too faint for me to comprehend what they were saying.I staggered out of the room out of shock, still trying hard to process what was happening.I need to find Dame. I need to see my boy, there is nothing wrong with him… he just needs his
Declan's POVMy chest tightened from the pain I was feeling from within and I clenched my fist on the steering wheel. I felt helpless. Despite all my money and power, I can't seem to help my son survive his desperate time.My chest rose and fell from trying to hold back so many emotions and it felt like I was about to lose it.Seeing how Vanessa acted earlier, I knew I had to be strong for her, for Dame, but no matter how strong I tried to be, it didn't make the pain go away. I can't believe that Dame was truly dying.I had missed four years out of his life. Four long years that I can neither buy nor get back no matter how much I tried. No amount of pleading or good effort would make up for the lost time, but I was willing to live with it, and now, Dame is dying and there is nothing I can do about it.It was times like this that I do think maybe the universe has something against me. Maybe I was cursed or the universe is just a jealous motherfucker who can't afford to see me happy.Wh
Vanessa's POVI woke up with a throbbing headache and found myself in my room. I didn't remember how I got in here and I looked around, to see Jenny who had squeezed herself to fit into the little space I left on the body.I moved a little, leaving her with more space to sleep comfortably, as I tried to recall what happened. I was suddenly reminded of how I was screaming and hitting Declan in his chest at a place which seemed to be a hospital.My brain felt numb from just waking up, and the headache wasn't helping my situation either. Everything felt like a dream but it felt too real to be a dream.I sat up on the bed, trying to gather my memory when everything finally clicked. I jumped up at the realization and raced to Dame’s room. Is he back? How is he doing?I must have woken Jenny up in the process because she jolted up immediately and ran after me, but she was the least of my problems. I opened the door to Dame's room and I had expected to see him in bed, sleeping peacefully to
Declan's POVI tried to pull myself back, reminding myself that Vanessa wouldn't like the outcome of things when she woke up in the morning, that she was only trying to forget her pain at the moment, but no matter how I tried to control myself, I couldn't resist her.We put our emotions into the kiss. At first, it was soft and gentle but then my hands started traveling around her body, exploring it.Soon the kiss became more tense as we both got entangled with each other sucking passionately at each other’s lips like our lives depended on it.She intertwined her hands around my neck, pulling me closer to her as if she couldn't get enough. Her body was quite warm giving me this comfort and increasing my urge, making me want to devour her any moment as soon as I can.We continued kissing for minutes till we were out of breath then I pulled out, staring at her with lust in my eyes matching hers. She pushed me gently to the bed, and I just stared at her, taking in her features when she
Vanessa's POVI woke up with a big hand wrapped over my body. I don't need to turn around to know that it was Declan. His smell was all over me. I turned around gently, making sure not to wake him up in the process, as I stared at his sleeping face.I remembered every single detail of what happened last night as if my mind was recording it to remind me this morning in case I wanted to have any regret.Declan's gentleness surprised me, and I had never seen that part of him before. The way he looked at me as if I was a fragile egg he was scared of breaking if he didn't handle me with care… his gentle touch and I could tell just how much he was holding back the entire time.I felt my heart tightened in my chest at the realization of what happened. Declan made love to me so gently because our son was dying and we both needed to escape from the harsh reality.What hurts even more is the fact that deep inside of me, I knew that this was just another random sex to Declan and it didn't mean a
Vanessa's POVA week passed by in a blur with the hospital turning into my second home. I'd wake up early as soon as I could, make Dame's breakfast, hurry to the hospital so that he could have his bath and play with him until it was time to leave again.This has become my daily routine and today is not an exception. I went into the kitchen to prepare Dame's favourite just so he wouldn't miss home too much."You are up, I thought I would beat you to it this morning and make breakfast before you woke up," Jenny said, as she rubbed her eyes, trying to blink away her drowsiness. She has been working tirelessly since the day Dame was admitted into the hospital.Her sleeping routine was messed up as she woke up earlier than usual to help me prepare his food and returned back home very late at night after we had exhausted ourselves from trying to keep up with Dame while playing.I know she was tired, and I didn't need a soothsayer to inform me about how she needed to get a good rest."You sh
Tristan's POVWork is the only way to get my mind off things, so instead of grieving the love I never had, I decided to put all my energy into work, and that is exactly what I did. Ever since I learnt the truth about Vanessa and Dame, I prioritize my pack because, at the end of the day, that is all I have.I worked day and night, helping the people get their lives back to normal, as I tried to regulate everything while rebuilding the pack all over again. The threats from the rogues had reduced and thankfully, the help from the southern packs came at the same time, giving me enough things to work on.I tried to avoid people's company as much as I could because they always managed to push me to the edge over the slightest little thing. No matter how much I try to keep my emotions in check, they always find a way to push my buttons which ends up with me yelling and having unnecessary mood swings every now and then.Everything reminded me of what happened when Rhiannon betrayed me. I was
Chapter 133Vanessa's POVIf shame was a person, that would be me. I didn't know what I was expecting to see, but the look on Tristan's face wasn't any bit welcoming. I bet he was only trying so hard to hold back his disgust.I knew he was disappointed in me and it took everything in me to be here, but maybe I was wrong. He wasn't just disappointed, he probably saw me as a piece of trash who shouldn't be welcomed into his house anymore. I knew this was bound to happen, and I thought about it at least a thousand times before coming, and I was right, I wasn't ready to face him yet.If it wasn't for Dame, I would have turned back right before I could reach his pack and save myself from the shame, but my son was dying, and his only wish was to see the man he knew as his father, and I can't possibly let him down, not when that might be his last wish, so I decided to swallow my pride and beg on my knees if I must.Declan offered to come with me and talk to him but I know the chances of them
Vanessa's POV"Vanessa! Come and play with us!""Yes please, we are tired of playing alone," the kids whined as I sat down on the swing and watched them play by themselves."No, we want to play hide and seek," one of the kids whined, and I smiled at them."We have been playing hide and seek all morning," I said, still panting, from running for a long time. "You should play another game or I will have everyone go back inside," I threatened them, but it didn't even look like they were listening to me."Let's play a video game. Whoever wins gets to decide what we do next," one of the kids suggested, and I couldn't help but smile about how they reminded me of Dame in every way. That trick was the same Tristan and Dame always used to get whatever they want, and watching the kids say the same thing made me smile.It was as if the kids knew about my past life. They always find a way to remind me of the past in every way.It's been three years since I left the southern pack. Three years of le
Vanessa's POVI have concluded that I would be leaving once I regained my strength, but I do not want what happened when I tried to leave the last time to repeat itself. I know Declan would probably be looking all over the place for me, and he might have stopped me from leaving again, so I thought of writing a letter to him instead.I knew going to see him and telling him whatever I had to say was the proper way to end everything, but I was afraid that I might change my mind if I saw his pained expression, or even melt at his words if he surprised me by begging me to stay or do something worse like lock me up in his house to prevent me from leaving. With Declan, one can never be too sure.I opened the drawer and saw everything the way I left it. It was as if Tristan was hoping that one day I would return back to him. I expected him to throw out all of my belongings and wipe out every single trace or reminder of me in his pack, but he didn't.I imagined the good life I could have had w
Declan's POVTwo days have passed, and I have no clue where Vanessa might be. Even after watching the CCTV footage, I refused to believe that Vanessa would leave me. I spoke to the doctor and he said the side effects of the drug and injection he gave her were drowsiness and hallucination. Judging from how she left the hospital, I want to believe that she was sleepwalking and she is properly in some kind of danger right now.I had my men look everywhere for her, but she was nowhere to be found. We searched everywhere… every single road that led to the hospital. The streets nearby, we even went as far as searching through the people's houses, but there was no sign of Vanessa.I sat in my room, tapping on my table as I thought of where she might have gone. What if she had an accident? Then, the police would have said something. She doesn't have anywhere to go. She doesn't even have anything on her, where could she possibly go?Jenny…I rushed over to the kitchen where Jenny was busy cutt
Vanessa's POVCrying for so long made me feel numb and it felt like there was no water left in my eyes to shed. The injection given to me made me drowsy and my head felt heavy. I know the smartest thing to do right now was to sleep or at least lay on the bed and get some rest, but I can't afford to be anywhere around Declan anymore and I just wanted to leave.Staying in the hospital reminds me of how I watched Dame's lifeless body on the bed without being able to do anything to revive him and I think it's best to just leave.My vision was blurry, and I felt so weak. I knew I had to leave, but I couldn't even think straight. With trembling hands, I reached for the tube in my arm, wincing as I pulled it out. The pain shot through me, but I gritted my teeth and kept going. Finally, I was able to pull it out, and I staggered out of the ward, barefoot and disoriented.Every step felt like a hassle as I made my way down the corridor. I have to get out of here. Those were the only thoughts i
Declan's POVI stormed back home, feeling enraged, as my insides boiled with anger like a pot left unattended on a raging fire. Guilt weighed down on me at the reminder of Vanessa's accusations, and shame chewed me up inside. As much as I hated to admit it, she was right. Dame died because of me, I killed him.Even if that was true, it's not like I neglected them intentionally. She has equal blame in all of this. She ran away with my child and only showed up years later. If she hadn't left, or if she had ignored her pride and informed me about the pregnancy, none of this would have happened.Dame's death hasn't been easy on me too, heck, it hasn't been easy on anyone. Even the maids are grieving his death so what made her think she could get mad at me on this? I understand that she was mourning her child, but he was my son too.I could feel all sorts of emotions surge inside me; anger, irritation, hurt, and pain.The last time I felt this way was when I lost Ellena, and now, once agai
Chapter 140Vanessa's POVI woke up in the hospital bed, surrounded by the sterile scent of antiseptic and the low hum of medical equipment. My body felt heavy like I was being dragged in the mud, and all of my pain came rushing back in double folds.When I lost Dame in the rogue attack, I thought that would be the end of me. I cried every day and became a mess because he was all I lived for. But then Tristan came back to tell me he was alive, all of my pains vanished into the air. It felt like I was given a reason to live again. To work harder, to become a better mother.Just when I thought I had all the time in the world to be with my boy, I lost him to the cold hands of death. I wanted to scream, to yell out my frustration. I wanted to blame somebody so badly, and hate them for the rest of my life, but where do I begin?I haven't shed a single tear since we got back home from the hospital. This one was different— I had two weeks to prepare for his death. His death wasn't exactly ne
Chapter 139Declan's POVIt's been a week since Dame died. Seven miserable days of wishing and hoping even though no amount of breakdown would bring him back. The last time I felt this vulnerable was when Ellena died. I wasn't even this sad when I lost my parents.Everything felt vain and I had lost the will to continue with my role as the Alpha or do anything to gain more wealth or power. What was the use of all my power and influence when it couldn't save my son from dying?What is the point of being the most powerful Alpha when I can't even keep the one thing I wanted most in my life?What hurt the most was the fact that I was beside Dame when he took his last breath, but I wasn't there for him. I slept peacefully that night, thinking I still had another day to grant his wishes. I went to bed feeling on top of the world because I finally got to hear him call me father, not knowing those would be his last words.If only I had known that those were the last time I'd hear him speak, m
Vanessa's POVI traced my hands on the bed, expecting to feel a small hand or at least a tiny body, but there was none. I opened my eyes lazily and found myself in a room different from the one I thought I would be in.I was at Dame's ward until last night, how did I end up here? Judging from the smell, I could tell that I was still at the hospital. Did I pass out? I searched my body checking for any visible injury but other than the throbbing pain in my heart and the headache that has become a constant thing since I found out about Dame's health, I am all good.Maybe Declan brought me here so that I can sleep peacefully. I stood up from the bed and made my way to Dame's ward, where Dame and Declan were sleeping peacefully.This is the first time Declan has looked peaceful since we have been visiting the hospital. He was trying so hard to stay strong, to hide his feelings, but he couldn't always keep them in check. His expressions sometimes sell him off.Dame clung onto Declan's cloth
Declan's POVVanessa paced the room anxiously, waiting for Tristan to return with Dame as I watched from the minibar. We haven't said a word to each other since our last encounter in the morning and I do not want to say another word knowing she would end up misunderstanding it.Right on cue, Tristan came in with Dame sleeping peacefully in his arms. Vanessa's worried expression was soon replaced with excitement as she rushed over to his side."Thank you so much for today," Vanessa gave Tristan a warm smile which made my stomach twitch. The way Dame and Vanessa act so comfortable around Tristan was enough to rile me up, and once again, Tristan does that thing he always does.He acts like the perfect gentleman that Vanessa could always lean on. Too fake if you ask me. They seemed to be carried away with their little conversation to notice my presence.I made my way to them, and Tristan handed a basket of fruit to Vanessa simultaneously."What is that?" I pointed at the little puppy roam