*Onyx POV*
Tic glowers at Bill, who seems completely unphased by the heat directed his way. Not that he ever is. In fact, it takes a lot to get to Bill. Unless you are a blind girl with a smart mouth, it would seem. He lasted only thirty minutes with the smart mouthed woman named Tilly. Now Tic and I get to be graced with his shitty attitude for the duration of this meeting.
Day one of training is over, as is customary. We are dividing the fighters up based on capabilities. There are zero surprises in who the top five are. Anna, Harriet, Flint, Peter and Lux. All five have excellent form, powerful strikes and their own style. Of those five, only two are humble. Anna and Flint.
I understand Flint’s humility. He comes from a lower-ranking family in a large pack. There is no doubt that he got his skill from nothing other than hard work and dedication. Anna, however, is a natural and has every right to be a cocky warrior. Yet, she is considerate and quiet when she fights. She weighs her options and goes for the most ethical kill. I can only assume that has more to do with her personality and friendship than with her training.
“I think we know who the shittiest warrior is,” Bill chuckles darkly, leaning forward and writing the name Matilda on the little white board. It’s strange how seven letters in black can cause me so much discomfort. Yet they do, and I am struggling to pinpoint why.
“We can hardly judge her based on her skill when she can’t even see,” Tic argues, sounding offended.
“If she were any kind of warrior at all, she would rely on her other senses. Hearing and smell are just as important as sight. She might be the worst warrior we have ever seen through here and you know, Tic. Shit, you both do,” Bill retorts, looking at me to verify the truth.
He isn’t wrong. Not even a little, but I’m not feeling like taking his side on this one, not while I’m still trying to understand why talking about her like this seems wrong. Then again, I have always been weak for those with severe injuries, so perhaps her blindness has struck a chord in me.
“If you were any good, you would have tried to actually teach her and not make a fool of her for the others to laugh at.”
Bill rolls his eyes and sits back in his seat, giving Tic a close look.
“You have a thing for the handicap, Tic?” He lifts a brow, the entire exchange now becoming a game to him.
Tic shoves off the table and stands with an annoyed growl. “We are here to help them become warriors.”
“Not everyone is fit to be a warrior,” Bill shrugs.
“So we should give up and send them on their way to a sure death?” He says, his voice growing louder by the minute.
“Better off away from their pack than staying and getting others killed.”
“Enough.” I groan, pinching the bridge of my nose. “Tic is right, Bill. We are supposed to be training all of them, skill or no skill. We don’t want to lose anyone to being a rogue.”
“Some people are better off left behind, Alpha.” Bill gives me an incredulous look and I know he is right. But it doesn’t mean I have to like it. It doesn’t mean that we should give up on her and let her die on her own. Because truth be told, she will die on her own as a rogue. Especially if her eyesight doesn’t come back.
“Bottom five warriors.” I say, choosing to ignore him and move this meeting along. I avoid Tic’s heated gaze..
“Lincoln,” Tic sighs after a moment. “And Naomi, Hyacinth. I’d probably throw Patrick in there, too.”
“And Matilda…” I verify.
Maybe if I say her name, the idea of her being in the bottom warriors won’t bother me as much. It shouldn’t bother me at all. I don’t get attached to anyone. Hell, not even Harriet, who is going to be my chosen Luna.
“Shit, I bet she won’t even last two weeks before she renounces herself and ends up rogue,” Bill grumbles, crossing his arms over his chest.
“I think she will surprise you.” I reply, my eyes meeting with his. His face lights up and there is a glimmer of excitement as his lips twitch at the corners into a wry smile. I groan, knowing exactly where this is going.
“You think she will make it?” He asks, quirking a brow.
“Perhaps. She has guts.” I shrug, trying to walk myself back out of the verbal corner I just found myself. Tic grins and Bill leans forward in his seat.
“Guts won’t get her through training…” he says, watching me carefully.
“Persistence might.”
Bill snorts a laugh. “Persistence is just a dead man prolonging the inevitable.”
“I bet she will surprise you.” Tic says.
“Tell you what, how about we make a real bet?” Bill gives us both a childish smile and I groan in annoyance.
Bill is notorious for his stupid bets. He loves a good gamble, but since I refuse to let him do so in a real environment, we agreed he could make bets with others on small things.
Things like who might fall asleep on night duty and the likes. His most recent bet was on how long it would take Harriet to bed me. I left out that she had already been trying for some time. He feels cheated by my win on that bet. Now he is looking for that win with this new one.
“What kind of bet?” I ask, narrowing my eyes. “I won’t have anyone’s training interfered with.”
“Nah, this is a two parter. Sort of win-win for me.”
“Hardly seems like a fair bet then.” Tic scoffs.
“You train her, woo her, do whatever you have to do to ensure she tries her darndest to succeed.” He says to Tic. I instantly hate the bet already. “And I bet she will still only last two weeks.” He chuckles and gives us both a satisfied grin, which feeds my competitive alpha nature, or maybe it’s my sympathetic nature. More of me not wanting to think she might lose and wind up a rogue.
“Deal,” Tic agrees.
“No.” I say shortly, then stand. “She will make it to the Warrior’s Ball, and I will be the one to train her.”
I look down at the table pretending to be doing something, anything, to negate the shocked eyes I know are on me.
“You? You are going to train her?” Tic asks, the surprise in his voice apparent.
“Yes. Can you think of someone better than me?” I ask, looking up in challenge. Both of them throw their hands up in defeat.
“Nope. Just…you’ve never focused solely on one person. Especially not a lower-ranking warrior, before,” Bill says.
“If anyone can do it, it would be me.” I mutter standing and collecting the papers in front of us and erasing the names off the small white boards.
“Fine.” Bill says slowly. “I accept the bet. But with you training her, I’ll give her four weeks. Harriet will not be happy.” he laughs, standing, and moving toward the door.
“Why do I care about Harriet’s happiness in this?” I ask, annoyed.
“Uh. Well, isn’t your chosen Luna…You are supposed to announce it at the Warriors Ball,” Tic reminds me and I roll my eyes.
I keep forgetting about that. The last warrior’s ball was my final to find my mate. My pack can’t wait any longer for me to have a Luna. So I have discussed with Harriet and her family my desire to take her as my chosen mate, as she has also not found hers.
She stands to lose a lot by agreeing to being a chosen mate. We both do. The typical instant attraction, the undying pull and need to be around each other won’t be there. Our bond would be that of a more human relationship.
Then again, I’ve never been one for needing affection or intimacy beyond a certain type of touch. Harriet is understanding of that. I know she is in it just for the title. But she is ruthless and an amazing warrior. She will be an excellent man.
“Harriet is not my Luna until the ball, so she has no say in anything I decide to do with another she-wolf. It’s not like I will fall for an incapable future rogue.”
Bill stops at the door and gives me an assessing look before a smirk spreads across his lips.
“And what exactly do you plan to do with this little she wolf?” He asks. His words are harmless, but my wolf takes it as a cocky, disrespectful tone.
“Whatever I have to do to win.” I snap at him. “Train her, make her want to stay. Hell, I’ll stoop as low as to woo her if I have to. I’ll do anything to wipe that cocky grin off your face, short of slapping you.”
“You’d screw her…?” He shrugs like it’s a common question. “Are you willing to bed a blind girl and make her feel loved just to win a bet?”
My spine tingles and I roll my shoulders back, that competitive edge waking up once more and rearing its ugly head.
“Did I not explain myself well enough? I said anything, Bill.”
“Good, because if I win, I get your truck... fair?”
“And when Alpha wins? What does he get?” Tic asks, narrowing his eyes.
“Whatever he wants.” Bill shrugs and gives me a mischievous smile. “Though I have a feeling he is getting much more out of this bet than I am.”
It’s not a fair trade. My truck for a little one-on-one training time with the worst warrior we may have ever seen. But I can’t deny that he may be right. I may get more out of this little bet than I think. That and I get time to understand the draw to this spunky, blind, pretty girl who seems unbreakable. Even if it’s for a short period.
And I realize that’s enough of a bet. Because I want her, even if deep down I know she won’t be in my life long.
She is worth the gamble and what I stand to lose.
“Listen,” I instruct Tilly as we stand just within the confines of the woods. “Can you tell where we are?”“We are near the woods?” She responds. I look around and feel a sliver of defeat. Near the woods? Trees and wild woodland creatures engulf us. The best she can give me is a guess?“Near or in the woods?” I push, needing her to really try. “In the woods, I suppose. I mean, I can hear animals all around me,” she responds with a shrug. Tilly’s nose crinkles in thought and a smile finds my lips as I try to focus on the task at hand and fail. Her face is a map of tiny little imperfections. Each freckle, every wrinkle when she moves her lips seems to make me like her more, each one a reason I should take another risk for the first time in my life.“So, what now? I just stand and listen to animals for the next eight hours?” She asks with a frustrated huff. I chuckle, stepping close to her and lean down, my nose brushing her earlobe.“Now we train.” I whisper huskily before moving away,
*Tilly POV* “Wait…so when did your eyesight come back?” Anna asks me excitedly, and I groan in frustration. “It’s not back, Anna. I can see specks of light and the occasional dark blob.” I insist, walking alongside her toward the training center. As if on cue, my feet collide with something and I stumble forward. Anna grabs my biceps and steadies me. “Watch where you are going,” an angry voice shouts, and Anna’s grip grows tighter on my arm. “You’re the one with working eyes, asshole. How about you use them instead of blaming the blind girl?” “Maybe she shouldn’t be in the way.” A feminine voice says. Anna and I don’t have a second to respond when there is a heavy sigh and everyone falls silent. “Cassie, you’re being a catty bitch for no reason. If you spent more time training and less time being jealous about who the Alpha spends time with, you might actually improve.” Another voice cuts in. Anna’s clinging to my arm and I can only assume she is wearing her excited face. The
“What the hell!” I squeal out as my knee glances off a rock on the way down. My cheek bounces off the dust covered ground and I groan in frustration and pain. I can sense someone is there, watching me, but no one speaks or offers me aid, so I push myself up. A foot presses in the center of my back, pushing me down to the ground again, this time pinning me. I can feel the vibrations of feet coming toward me, multiple sets just before the kicks land. One after another raining down on my body as I try like hell to fight against the foot holding me flat. My instincts are screaming at me to protect my vital organs. Curl into a damn ball, anything to lessen the places they can hurt me. My arms fly over my head as the tears fall, wetting the ground beneath my cheek as I accept that there is nothing I can do.I steel my resolve, promising not to cry out loud or make a peep. There is no way in hell I will allow them that satisfaction. My body jolts with every blow, each hit taking me further
*Onyx POV*Tilly swallows roughly before wiping the shock off her face and snapping her jaw shut. She gives me a tight smile and a soft chuckle.“I’m just frustrated with my lack of progress…” she lies and it just fuels my rage. The second I saw her dirt laden clothes, I knew something was off. Never mind the best warrior that is locked up in her dorm pacing a new trail into the tile flooring, I can deal with Anna later. But Tilly?I had to see her, had to know she was ok after what went down. I needed to know that she hadn’t run off and left. It’s not been nearly a week of training and I can’t stand being away from her. Who knows what shit she will say or the scenario she will land herself in? And the way she is looking right now, it’s obvious I was right to worry. Tilly is a downright beautiful mess.“It’s obvious you are still blind if you think that tears on your cheek are the only thing off with your appearance.”“I- uh-” she stutters and searches for Harriet, a look of pleading
*Tilly POV*The moment I open the door, Anna yanks me into her arms, squeezing with more strength than she realizes. I feign a choking sound and she chuckles into my hair, but she doesn’t release me.“Anna…” I complain as I try to wiggle out of her embrace before I notice the small shake in her hold. My brows furrow in confusion as I try to understand why she is shaking. Is it fear or anger? Maybe she is saying goodbye because she thinks she is going to get kicked out.“They won’t kick you out.” I assure her, and she sniffles before finally letting me go. Air rushes back into my lungs in a sharp inhale.“You think I care about that?”“Then why are you crying?”“What? I am not.” She says, though she sniffles again. I place my hands on my hips and tilt my head like I am a mother seeing right through her teenage daughter’s lies.“What is wrong?” I ask as I reach out and she places her hand in mine.“You. How they treat you. How they are letting everyone treat you. Til,”I put my hand up
“GAH!” I groan out in frustration, rubbing my eyes roughly. “Stupid things!” Today is the team event, and my eyes are still shit. I mean, they are a little better every day, but still shit. What once was just near shapeless blobs are now blurry faces and formed figures. I can distinguish colors and differentiate between people. But the blurriness gives me killer headaches. Which, since I am a werewolf, there is no medication for. Human medication metabolizes out of our body too fast. So I am stuck using eyes that are defective and eventually make me want to slam my head into a wall in pain. There is nothing quite like the torture of knowing pain is imminent. I blink at my fuzzy reflection in the mirror with Anna standing next to me. I can see the downward tilt of blurry lips, but she says nothing. “This is going to suck.” I groan, and she chuckles. “Yes, but I got your back,” she promises, trying to calm me, but it only feeds my unease. “How? I’m not on your team.” I remind he
There is a low growl from my right, and I push my legs harder in panic. No way am I allowing myself to get caught. I glance over my shoulder and see nothing, but that doesn’t mean much to me.Alpha Onyx taught me to trust my ears and my instincts and both are telling me someone is chasing me. I take one more peek before turning back around and slamming roughly into a stone-like surface. I yelp in surprise as a loud whoosh of air escapes my lungs as I fly backward.“What the fuuuuu–” I wheeze.There is a deep chuckle above me as my vision sees stars from the lack of oxygen I am pulling in. I try to scramble backwards, but a hand grabs my ankle and I am dragged closer to the man who is looming over me.“Leave her, Paul.” The other man says, sounding bored.“Oh, come on! It’s been weeks since I’ve been this close to a pretty girl…” the guy above me whines. He falls to his knees, legs landing on either side of me, straddling my waist and trapping my hands at my side. I can feel my chest c
The moment I make it into camp, I beeline straight for the showers. I swear I can still feel the film of filth from Paul’s touch. My cheek burns and I am truly convinced it’s infected. How could it not be? The asshole cut up my cheek with his grubby fingers and then licked me, no doubt with a mouth just as foul as his tainted mind. I shudder, remembering his words, the promise to take advantage of me. I turn the water to the hottest setting it will go, standing under the stinging stream as steam surrounds me, clouding me with its warmth. No amount of soap can make me feel clean enough, so I choose to sear the dirt away. It doesn’t matter that it hurts and I have to grit my teeth to stop from gasping in pain. The reality of what happened slowly seeps back in with the warmth and a whimper escapes my lips. I knew becoming a rogue would be hard. It would mean leaving behind everyone I love and everything I have ever known. I knew I would need to look out for others to avoid and to keep
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*Onyx POV** SIX YEARS LATER*Tilly’s leg bounces nervously in the seat next to me as I chuckle to myself, shaking my head. She instantly shoots me an annoyed glare. In six years, I still can’t get enough of her, annoyed or not. Hell, sometimes I prefer her annoyed. It makes for a very fun game of groveling at the end of the day. Her glare slowly morphs into a hidden smile as my emotions transfer to her. “Stop it.” She hisses and I shake my head, looking at the road before us.“I didn’t do anything,” I laugh.“I can feel you being amused and…stuff. It’s like you don’t even care about me and my feelings.” She fakes a whine, her lips turning into a big pout, and I growl in my chest. “Oooh, Oh I promise you, I care VERY much about feeling you. Uh, I mean your feelings.”She groans and presses her head on the back of the headrest. “You know how…” She pauses and looks behind her at the perfect five-year-old little boy we created who watches us intently. Then she looks back at me, her ch
***Bonus Chapter****Anna POV*Tilly looks perfect in her usual oversized top and scuffed up jeans. If I would have had it my way, that girl would be in the most expensive lace dress Onyx could muster up, but that wouldn’t be her. That would be me dressing her and honestly…She looks just as good right now as she would in any dress. It’s not the clothing she is wearing that makes it, but the smile on her lips that I am certain will remain there until the end of our days. It wasn’t easy keeping this secret from her, but damn, was it worth it. Onyx looks at her like our wolves look at the moon. She is more than his mate but his everything, and damn it, she deserves it. I think when the Goddess made their union; she knew Tilly would need a little extra from her mate. She and Onyx dance as the rest of the party guests leave, heading home just as the sun rises. It was one long ass party, that is for sure, and I am exhausted. Ty’s hand slides into mine, lifting it to his lip and pressing a
*Two weeks later**Tilly POV*One week in my new pack and I can, with absolute certainty, say that I have found my home. The pack is full of genuinely kind pack members. I have not had a single day without at least three cookies for breakfast and that is NOT a complaint. Onyx made the joke that they love me more than him, but I think they are just happy he is happy. It makes sense now why he felt he had to make a promise to them to take Harriet as his mate. She emulates what his pack is, and she is truly beloved by them all. But she is more cherished as a Gamma, more loved by her true mate than she would have been by a chosen one. And she deserves to be with the man meant to complete her. Just like I deserve the love I have with Onyx. It took some acceptance and I’ve got a long way to go, but I deserve it. Just like everyone else. I am meant to be here. With them. With him. My whole life, I have craved this fairy tale of someone being able to love me. I gave up the notion I could e
“Are you sore?” Onyx teases me as I limp to the bathroom, looking back to shoot him a glare. “No.” I lie and bite back a smile. “Mmm, good.” He murmurs, making the bed. “Means I can go harder tonight.” I gulp as a pang of needy pleasure shoots right for my sore bits, and I curse Onyx under my breath. He knows what his words do to me, and he is taking great pleasure in my struggle for more of him while my body simultaneously begs for reprieve. I’m a glutton for sweet, delicious punishment at his hands, apparently. He surprises me as he wraps his hands around my tummy from behind his chin finding the crook of my neck and he presses his cheek flush to mine. Then he walks me to the window, showing me the stunning view of snow-capped mountains as the sun cascades down on them. The world has been awake for hours while we had snuggled in the comfort of our bubble. “That’s home,” he mutters, nuzzling my jawline and dropping two kisses there. “Our home. Just beyond the mountains.” “Hm
Onyx eats the last of the pesto chicken and stands from the bed, taking our plates and setting them on the desk near the door. When he spins around, he has a glint in his eyes and I blush as his emotions flood my mind. It seems he is hungry again. Instead of coming to me, he moves to the bathroom to clean himself up and I chuckle to myself as my body is ravaged by the barrage of emotions he still has hammering into me. When he walks back out, he is clean shaven, his perfectly angled jawline on full display and it does to me exactly what the v shape at his waist does. Which is going to be great when we are in public. Nothing wrong with being hot and bothered ALL the time, right? His smile morphs into a sheepish grin as he stalks over to me, his eyes dark and his hands dropping to the waistband of his shorts. Before he shimmies them off and leaps onto the bed. I howl in laughter, giggling as he reaches out and takes hold of my ankles, yanking me down onto my back. Onyx then crawls u
*Tilly POV*“I hate meetings,” I whisper to Anna, who elbows me in my side. I stick my tongue out at her and she rolls her eyes before biting back a smile. Onyx reaches out and takes my hand, entwining our fingers as he pulls me back to the conversation that’s about to start.“Behave,” he whispers in my ear, but I hear the smile there. He prefers it when I misbehave and we both know it. It was my lack of decorum that drew him to me in the first place, right? My grandmother sits to the right of my grandfather and to his left another middle-aged man with a peppering of gray in his black hair. I tilt my head, trying to figure out who he is when my grandfather clears his throat, calling everyone’s attention. Only respective alphas and their mates are here. Anna being the exception to the rule since she will take the role once she gets home since she has found her mate.“I would like to first start by apologizing profusely.” My grandpa mutters, his eyes much clearer than they had been whe
I stand, and in one singular motion, I lift her and spin so she is on my lap. She rises on her knees, hovering just above me as I look up at her. The light shines from behind her, illuminating her hair and outlining the curves of her body as water splashes off her skin.The look in her eyes, that shy hunger, has my heart stuttering in my chest. I reach up, gingerly stroking her cheek before wrapping my hand around the nape of her neck and yank her lips to mine in a needy kiss. Her body presses to mine and the shock of how strong the sparks are makes us both gasp. She giggles into my mouth and it sends a thrill through me and down to the place where I need our bodies to meet.There is nothing I need more than to feel her in every way. But we are on her time right now. Meeting or not, nothing will make me rush this, rush her. Why the hell would I want to? I want to lap up every damn second like the thirsty wolf I am. I nibble on her bottom lip, then press my tongue along her lips, sea
*Onyx POV*We are all on edge, as we should be, considering where we are, but if what Tilly and Anna have told me is true, I think they are trustworthy. Not to mention Tilly is now this pack’s only hope of survival. To attack her or anyone she wishes to protect is death to the pack with no redemption. And it’s their own dumb rules that tied their hands like this.The boy leading us to our room stops for a minute and then turns toward Tilly. She clings to me, her pain seeping through the mate bond, notifying me she has once again done too much too soon. She should have just let me carry her the entire way. “If you need anything, just stick your head out and holler. I’ve already put clean towels and linens out. Audra, the she-wolf attending to you will be by with some clothing that fits.” He then gives a curt bow and walks off. “Well, that was interesting…” Tilly says, then her tired gray eyes look up at me. “Do we have servants like this in our pack?”My heart swells at her words. Ou