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Instead of answering her, I cried harder, then Lisa worriedly asked, “Was it something I said?” She looked from dad to mom and then back to me, about to tear up, “I am sorry, I didn’t.”
When I saw the single tear in her eyes, I hurried to her side and called her into my arms, I hugged her tightly “Oh Lisa,” I said between tears,, “it is not something you did, I am so, so sorry.”
“What? I don’t understand. Why are you apologizing? You did nothing wrong.” She said, confused.
“No, I did everything wrong.” I sob as I hold her face up; I can’t let them be driven to an edge this early. “Can you ever forgive me?” I asked in tears.
Lisa took my hand from her face, she teared up as well, and Lora followed, “Of course, big sis.” She sniffled and added, “I forgive whatever you think you did wrong.” She smiled, and it was the best.
“Thank you,” I said and stood, and patted both her and Lora’s heads.
“Mary.” Father, who had been quiet, called me.
“Yes, papa?” I answered as I dried my tears.
“I don’t know what happened or what you think you did wrong, but everything will be okay; alright?”
“Of course, papa,” I said as I returned to my seat. I knew what I had to do. My mind was made up, and they are not turning back now. I looked up at my father, who was observing me, perhaps waiting for me to say something. Determined, I handed over the envelope back to him. “I can’t accept this, sorry, papa.”
While dad remained quiet, mom attacked me with questions, “What are you doing, Mary? This is your tuition f*e and nothing else.”
“Why?” Father calmly asked me.
I sighed and asked, "Papa, is this money for tuition?"
“Yes.” Dad replies, “two years of it, to be precise.” He added as he ate.
“Lisa and Lora’s fees will only take half of this money, right?” I asked again.
“What are you trying to say, Mary? Speak in a language I will understand.” He said as he looked at me with questions and confusion in their eyes. All of them stared.
“Yes, sorry.” I paused then continued, “I think it’s best if the money is used for their tuition and probably take care of a few things in the house, God knows there are many things to take care of.”
“Are you even listening to yourself, Mary? For years you have been dreaming of college, even if you didn’t say it out, we figured it out with the longing you had on your face whenever those college students pass by the farm.” Mother was clearly angry. She continued, “We had to sell a lot of things, work a lot of shifts just for you to go to college, and now that the dream is within your reach, you are giving it to your siblings? What is wrong with you?”
“But mom…”
“Don’t you mom me, you’re our first child, Mary, and you must be educated, whether you like it or not. Your sisters are still young; they can continue their education some other time, but not you.”
I watched my sisters from the corner of my eyes, their heads were bent down, and they trembled, no doubt crying from mother’s harsh words. I closed my eyes as I prayed to a higher power for confidence and strength because I will need it to persuade my stubborn mother, “No mother, that’s not fair.”
“What?” She was shocked, did I just challenge her? Papa remained silent and just watched.
Yes. In my family, things like breaking the house rules, which are a lot, by the way; challenging and throwing words at your parents or elders, whether they are in the wrong or not, are never permitted. Devoted Christians, did I mention?
But It was about my sisters, if I don’t stand up for them now, when will I ever? “Sorry if I sounded kind of rude but I don’t think this is the right way to go about it.”
“And what do you know about the right way, Mary? You are just eighteen. Are you going to teach your parents how to do the right thing?” she asked glaringly.
“That’s not what I meant, mother.” Annoyed now.
“Oh really? What did you mean then? Please do tell.” She added blankly.
“Being the first child doesn’t mean I have to be the only educated one in the family,” I declared, glancing from Dad to Mom, who were watching me silently. I took a deep breath and continued, “I can always go to college or university. Sure, it won’t be a walk in the park, but I’m your child. I’m smart, confident, brave, and hardworking. I can do whatever I set my mind to—work or school. Not going now won’t stop me in the future. But what about Lisa and Lora?” I pointed at my younger sisters, who were now looking at me with hopeful eyes, and I drew strength from their gaze.
“Mom, society is moving forward every day. In five years, Lisa will be sixteen and Lora fifteen. Are they supposed to go back to grade 1? Of course not. It’d be a nightmare for them. The stares from little kids, and they can’t even get into college without first finishing grade school.”
Should I end it here? I thought. ‘Nope. since I’ve got the chance to speak up, I need to lay it all out.’ I murmured to myself, gathering my resolve.
~~~~Instead of replying, Mom just stared at me, utterly speechless. Her expression was like a storm waiting to break; she was clearly furious, but words seemed to fail her. I couldn’t blame her—after all, I’m the model daughter who rarely talks back. When I do, it’s as if some mischievous spirit has suddenly possessed me.Dad, as usual, kept right on eating, pretending he hadn’t heard a word. But I caught the faintest smile tugging at the corner of his lips.Finally, Mom turned to him and demanded, “Aren’t you going to say anything about this?”Choking back his laughter, Dad replied, “What do you mean 'say anything’? Isn’t that what you’re already doing?”“Daniel Johnson?” Mom used his full name, a clear sign she was furious. “You’re just going to let our daughter decide not to go to college? Worse, you’re backing her up? Are you serious?”Dad sighed, clearly worn out, and countered, mimicking Mom’s tone, “Becky Johnson, I don’t see you doing anything.”Lisa and Lora burst into laugh
~~~~The following week, things kicked off with a surprising twist. Lisa and Lora were back in school, their tuition fees finally sorted, while I stayed behind, embracing my new role as the family’s resident farmhand.My mornings were spent helping Mom and Papa on the farm, and by afternoon, I’d transform into a savvy market vendor, haggling over the price of vegetables, fruits, and spices that I’d painstakingly gathered from our land.At first, it wasn’t exactly a walk in the park. Let’s just say, I wasn’t born with a green thumb.But after almost two years of back-breaking work, I became a bit of a farming prodigy—well, at least in my eyes. I could tell when the soil was just right, spot a ripe tomato from a mile away, and even shoo away pesky critters without breaking a sweat.Sometimes, when Mom and Dad couldn’t make it to the fields, I’d step in, working tirelessly under the sun. I was convinced it was up to me to keep everything running smoothly. Mom and Papa weren’t getting any
~~~~So, just like that, I opened up to Rachael, laying it all out. I told her how I decided to give up my education and my dreams, so my siblings could continue theirs. I wasn’t exactly drowning in shame—I was genuinely happy to see my sisters moving forward.But, honestly, there were times when the sadness crept in, that nagging feeling of being a failure, stuck in the same place for twenty years.It was like a little voice constantly reminding me that I hadn’t done anything remarkable with my life. I wanted to change things, but the ‘how’ and ‘what’ felt like questions I couldn’t answer.frankly speaking, I was getting tired of putting on a fake smile, pretending everything was fine when it wasn’t.The weight of it all—the sadness, the self-doubt—was overwhelming. Here I was, twenty years old and feeling like a failure with nothing to my name. No matter how strong I tried to appear, a part of me died inside every single day.Rachael’s eyes widen in disbelief. “Wow! That’s... well,
~~~~I stared at Rachael, my brain running in circles trying to process what she just said. A thousand thoughts raced through my mind, like a high-speed chase where every thought had its own getaway car.Was she seriously suggesting what I thought she was suggesting? Although, at this point, even that was confusing.She must have noticed the skepticism plastered all over my face because her grin widened to an almost cartoonish level. “Trust me,” she said, practically bouncing on the bench with excitement, “it’s not as crazy as it sounds. And hey, if it is, you know I’ve never shied away from a little crazy.”“What kind of proposition could she possibly have?” I thought, trying to make sense of the dizzying amount of possibilities. From becoming a royal farmer for the British food company to possibly running away with the circus, my mind was already imagining all sorts of crazy possibilities.Just when I was starting to dread the impending pitch, Rachael dropped the bombshell. “How ab
~~~Just as I had predicted, my mother stood outside with a flashlight, no doubt waiting for me. “Seriously? What am I, twelve?” I muttered to myself as I approached the house.~~~As Mrs. Johnson stood outside, patiently waiting for her daughter, an unfamiliar fear tightened around her heart. She despised the idea of her children working or studying in places where she couldn’t keep an eye on them. Whenever they left the house, she was filled with anxiety.She had grown up in an environment where children—especially girls—went missing daily. When she was about eighteen, she had a narrow escape from being kidnapped. If it hadn’t been for the man who would become her beloved husband, she and several other children might have vanished forever. She had sworn never to let her children stray far from her side until they were someone else’s responsibility. Even then, she insisted they stay in places where she could keep watch over them.“What’s taking her so long? The restaurants should be
~~~~Just what is she on about now? I pondered, watching my mom’s calm face as she stood with her arms crossed over her chest, her back leaning against the sink.Her posture suggested a calm façade, but I could sense the stiffness boiling underneath.“Reckless? Mom, I don’t understand what you mean by ‘reckless,’” I said, struggling to keep my voice from cracking. “Someone just offered me a better job opportunity—the best I’ve seen in the last... what? Two years of my—no, our lives—and you’re calling it reckless? What did you want me to do, Say no?”“Yes, of course!” she snapped, throwing her hands up in the air. “You should have said a big, fat no,” she spat out, her eyes flashing with anger. “We’re doing just fine as we are.”I looked at her, confusion starting to replace my rising anger, though I could still feel it simmering beneath the surface. “No, Mom, we’re not fine,” I retorted, the words tumbling out. “Look around you! We’re barely scraping by as it is. We need all the help—
~~~~~Being the first child of a Chicago farmer isn’t exactly a walk in the park.Picture this: Heartaches, body pains, barely enough food to go round, the constant struggles to stay sane, and the daily grind of farm life. It’s like living in a soap opera, but with more mud and fewer dramatic pauses.I’m Mary Johnson, the proud firstborn of Mr. and Mrs. Becky Johnson.My parents are the epitome of hardworking citizens: devoted Christians who places a value on big and small things.We live in what you might call a "charming" little cottage that’s really more of a glorified shed, and a tiny patch of farmland not too far from the bright lights of Illinois.We weren’t rolling in dough, but hey, we had just enough to keep the pantry stocked. Well, that was the case until my siblings came into the picture.Lisa and Lora weren’t twins, but they sure look and act like it. They’ve won the admiration of everyone around them because of how brave and intelligent they were.Honestly, though, once