The real problem is... Sometimes, I don't know how to solve — That I'm alone.
Mommy Peni is always at home. To scold me to beg on Mrs. Rosales. Maybe she's right. My pride is so high that I can't do it and plead with Mrs. Rosales. I did it, which she didn't know...
I cried in front of that lady. But still no effect. My husband is really determined to rot in jail. As she repeatedly said, when I beg her.
"Are you going to the precent again? You are there every day. Kier? You don't care him anymore. You only understands your husband. What? Are you afraid of your mother-in-law's pointy chin?"
"Mom..." I reprimanded her while lowering both of my shoulders. I also closed my eyes and now it's hard to breathe again. Stress.
"Stop me, Kara. I know that once, you were there with the wife of Architect Rosales begging. Come on! Let what your mother-in-law thinks of you. I
When the days are tiring— Especially since we don't have a home. We have been here in the hotel for three days.Daddy Jordan also knows what happened to us. He visited us here yesterday. He wants us to be at their house. Mommy didn't want to agree. Because she is not okay with Mommy Peni. The difficulty..."Can you, mom? You are the one to face Kayla. I know she is looking for you," then Kier made a noise. What he is saying now is quite okay. Especially since he is one-year-old. He calls mommy 'Mommy'. Sometimes mommy is happy. Her grandson should call her grandma."You face her. I might even slap her, tsk!” Her head is hot again.Kayla is going back and forth to the hotel where we are temporarily here. I know that dad already knows. So Kayla is the one he orders to come here.Then, Kayla gave the house key yesterday. Dad said, we'll come home in our old h
WARNING: RATED SPG!I looked for Kier, who was no longer next to me when I woke up. Until I found him here in the living room playing.I smiled as he tried to stand up. But he will fall. That's okay. Because he is fat, he can't stand up by himself.He looked at me as if he was asking for help while his mouth was open with saliva dripping. Because I'm in awe of his cuteness. I sat on the floor and then I put both of my hands under his armpit and lifted him up and then I made him sit on my lap now.Then I hit him with a kiss all over his face that made me shiver."Babi left... Mommy in bed. Who brought you here?” I baby talk to him while holding his little hands. He looked up at me as if he recognized me for who I was. While his mouth was agape. When I smiled at him, he screamed. His giggles are so cute."Breakfast is ready. Let's eat!" Momm
I'm so happy for today. Because Kier called me 'Mommy'. The fun!He used to call me 'Mommy'. But now... It's really straightforward. I am happy with my son's achievement every day. He took a step forward. Only a little left. He will soon be able to walk. Mommy and I are happy with him.Having a son is a happiness. He's my happy pill, my stress reliever. Kier is my happiness now. I am happy with my son."Sen?" it looks like she's not in the mood. She sat without even smiling. I just let her. Because she was not in the mood.It was also a long time before Sen visited here. What I know is that she went outside the country to... have an abortion. Now, she is dying. The black under her eyes and she looks like she's really sick. Maybe it hurts.“Kier?”"Ah, mommy took him out. So they can breathe fresh air. You arrived just n
I didn't leave the room. Mommy was worried about me. I just don't want to talk first. I want to be alone.“Kara, Kier... Maybe you want to see him?” I closed my eyes at mommy's question from outside the room. Right now, I don't want to be disturbed. I want to sleep all day now.Because I couldn't stand it anymore. I feel sorry for my son's cry that I hear now. I went out of the room and surprised mommy that I knew it shocked her I came out now."Did you eat already?" I want to cry when my mom reminds me. I didn't have breakfast earlier and also this lunch. Then last night, when I came home, I didn't even eat dinner. I have no appetite. That I don't want.Because I think of my husband."Are you going back to Rosales’ house soon?" mommy saw me dressed now. So she knows that's where I'm going."Kara, come on! Your son needs you. Please... My daughter.” I closed my eyes for a few seconds before I went inside my room and then I locked it. Then, I sat on the floor and cried.I'm doing every
Every morning I feel nauseous every time I wake up.Good thing mommy is there. To support me. Even with my craving for raw mangoes, mommy herself went to the store so I could eat it. These were my conceptions when I was pregnant with Kier—That Spencer was the one looking for and buying for me. Because my husband is not there. Mommy is here to fill it all in."Babi? Mom, where is Kier?”"Sleeping in my room." I nodded at mommy's answer, and then I went inside the room again.I want to sleep all day. Because I'm really sleepy. I suddenly remembered. We only have a little in our savings. Then... I guess I need to work."WHERE'S KARA?!" Mommy Peni's voice. She's bubbling again now. Then it was quiet outside. I have a strange feeling that is the reason for my standing. To leave the room.When I opened the door, Mommy Peni's burning eyes o
MAXINE'S POVWhat's good in my morning today? Marco and I had just a fight last night.There are some things that we really fight about. Especially when we don't get along. I feel he is moving away from me. Or I'm the one walking away from him. Sometimes we’re not burdened here in his condo. Yeah, I moved to his condo. We are both live in."As much as you can offer me. It's still red wine, really? I have no intention of getting drunk today.”"Okay. Fine, hahaha!” then he returned the glass to where he took it. I'm just laughing at Atom. I'm here in his penthouse. Because we both have something to talk about. About Direct Chan. Atom already knows about my plan. Atom promised me he would help me."What is your plan?" I shrugged my shoulders, not knowing what the next step would be. As long as that Chan gets what he deserves. That Honey
Chapter 58KARA'S POVI wake up not feeling okay. I have also neglected taking care of Kier, as mommy is taking care of him. I can't get up because I feel the weight of my whole body that I just need to lie down.Maybe like this when I'm 4 months pregnant. I have forgotten this experience I had when I was pregnant with Kier. I don't remember if it's the same feeling. My belly is so big that anyone who sees me will know that I'm pregnant. So I thought it would be better to lock myself here inside the unit."Kara? I'm leaving now. A friend of mine is going to meet me. I will sell jewelry. She said she would buy it." I just looked at mommy. I can speak. Because I'm too lazy to open my mouth."What time are you coming home, mom?""Hmm.. I'm just fast. Will you take care of Kier? You can do it?" I nodded and then gave her a small smile.Kier is in the living room. Watching TV that mom makes him watch every morning. My son is comfortable that cannot disturbed. Because of the focus on what
Chapter 59Repeatedly passing days in my life. Nothing exciting...I'm just inside the unit. I promised myself that when I give birth, I will really find a job. Now I'm struggling. Because my stomach is big.Mommy sold her jewelry. For expenses here at home. So I'm ashamed of her. Especially to daddy who sends our allowance, groceries and Kier's milk, diapers. We are his responsibility."Mom, someone is ringing the doorbell!" I shouted to her in the kitchen. I'm here now on the sofa, sitting with Kier playing on the floor. He is walking without us holding and guiding him. He can walk alone. I'm proud of his achievement. Because... He's getting bigger with the passing days.“Who?” mommy said, irritated, as she rubbed both her hands on the skirt she was wearing now. Until she went. I looked. I might see our guest t
“Babe..." I woke him up. He came home late last night and I don't know where he went. Every night he goes somewhere I don't know where."Hey! Wake up!" His eyes blinked as he realized when I threw a pillow at him.I'm on a bad trip now. My head is getting hot in the morning."Daddy has brought the children. Go ahead and sleep there! You sleep very well... Tsk!” Sarcastically I said, then I turned my back on him and left the room. I'm seething with rage now that I'm obsessed with this ownership. Maybe out of time I will give birth again in my temper.I'm pregnant. I have been pregnant for four months. And hoping... I hope it's a girl. It's like I have a daughter that I've wanted for a long time. The achievement for me is different when the Lord gives me a baby girl.Spencer and I have four boys. In the past four years. Kier and Sky added more. Tyler is the third and our youngest now, Ice, who just turned one-year-old.“Spencer!” My anger and annoyance with him has really reached the sk
SPENCER'S POVMy whole face's wrinkled because of my irritation now.Mommy wakes me to go to her friend's house and we'll have dinner here right now“Spencer, where is Sen?”"Mom!" Sen, who just got off the car now.Then she came closer to us and we walked together inside the house now. While daddy followed behind."Peni! Hello Spencer! Hello Sen…” I ignored the greeting of Aunt Claire, who is a friend of mom and dad and we entered their house now.Mom looked at me, when our eyes met, as if she was telling me to smile. But I will be the one to follow. I didn't follow her. My whole face’s still wrinkled now with my facial expressions.Because their daughters are not yet. They made us sit at their dining table. Just the two of us of Sen. Because Aunt Claire pulled mommy and I didn't know where they were going.
There are events in life, one must be lose.Why is there such a thing?Can't we just have nothing to lose and just live here forever?Why is it necessary to lose something more...Sadness engulfed me after that happened. Even if it's hard... Even if it hurts my heart. I tried to attend the burial now.I was with mommy, who supported me and never left me. I am really saddened by its loss.I'm looking forward to the memories, happiness that we can create. But no more... The person I mean is gone."Kara, let's go home." Mommy hugged me, causing me to close my eyes. I'm wearing shades now. Because my eyes are puffy and big.She supporting me to leave where I was standing just before.The people who were looking at us as we passed said that I just want to end up in... I don't know... I ju
My world stopped even my breathing now.Spencer, with his two eyes wide. I'm nervous about him now. His mouth was agape, stiff and unable to close.“S-Spencer— Spencer ...” I called him sobbing while he was getting heavier now that my two arms were now stuck in both of his armpits. That's why I can feel his weight that he is gradually decreasing.I can't take this. I'm sobbing that my eyes are closed from crying now. My husband...“Spencer... Don't make fun of me now. Please...” I sobbed, begging him. This can't be. He has been away from us for a long time. He won't leave us like this again.I was going to call Sen, when she’s not here. Even Rago and Jacob are no longer here. So I cried out what to do. Then I turned to Kendra, who was now sprawled on the floor. Every breath I take now is heavy.I can’t take it a
I'm just here on the sidelines watching them in their drama.I did not help with the weaning. Spencer is actually the referee between Rago and Jacob, who doesn't want to stop now, full energy and full charge.Sen is currently still crying now on her knees. I was about to approach her when Rago suddenly grabbed her hand to make her stand up.Jacob didn't enjoy that Rago go to Sen. He run toward Rago and punch it. Until they exchanged fists again that they would dare now."Stop it! You're like children!" Spencer loudly told them to stop. Until they moved away from each other, catching their breaths now. Sen's wail is the one that dominates here now that we all looked at her. Silence prevailed, with none of us speaking now that we were all silent."What am I to you, Sen?" Jacob asked his wife. We are all looking at Sen now, waiting for her answer."I'm you
Maxine was at home every day, and I knew she was worried about me.She couldn't accept why I hid from her. That happened to me before.She said she noticed that I had a problem. Why didn't I report to her. She couldn't get over feeling guilty. I love her... Her pure heart towards me. I'm the only one trying to hide what I don't want them to know, and I should be the only one who gets caught.I'm sorry too. I did that wrong.I don't know who to tell because my mind confused at that time.It was my mistake that I hid it and didn't tell the people who really cared about me.Spencer still hasn't come home now, busy looking for his sister. Sen never came home and none of us knew where she was. Her parents are worried about her and even her husband where she is."Where are you going again?" He looked at me with a threat. I know he will not take me with him whe
I want to see Mrs. Rosales now. Because I know she knows something.Maybe she got bored with me going back and forth to her house. So she ordered her bodyguard to treat me like that... So that I would stop.Why?That's why the man used to look at me like he was undressing me. Then we met at a TV station where I was fell. I don't even know why he was there.I also learned that Rustin is Rago's older brother. They are brothers on the father's side.Security was tight here at home. Mommy has released from the hospital. But she's at daddy's house now and Lindsey will take care of her. The situation here at home is difficult as we are already dangerous here.Me and Spencer also decided that we will go to Italy first. One of his uncles is there. We will leave the country first and we will come back later when the jerk Rustin is in jail. The nerve of that bastard.
KARA'S POVI'm alone in the bed I'm lying on now with tears streaming down my face.This pain in my chest. I don't know where this is going—I'm hurting.My heart is still okay. Honestly, I really can't do it anymore. I want to give up.My husband has left me and doesn't care about me...I can't take it anymore... I give up."Mom!" I exclaimed when I entered her room today. I have mommy's eyes with joy and a smile on her lips now.Daddy intended to come and pick me up at home. To tell me that mommy is awake, and he sent me over here to see my mom that I missed."Mom..." My words were hard, and then I approached her and hugged her. Then my tears abundant flowed continuously and could not be stop.I felt mom rub my back.Finally! She is awake. This
KARA'S POVWhy is it that all the things that I did not expect to happen in my life, still happened?Life is unfair. I have so many questions about why this is... Because honestly, I'm not happy anymore. That I really want to leave the life I have now. I hope so... it's just a dream. That I will wake up even if I am sleeping.“Spencer left. He said goodbye to me." Mom's welcome words when I arrived in the kitchen today.Both of my shoulders slumped to sit in a chair now here. My husband and I don't talk anymore. Since I confessed to him what happened to me.Then he didn't come home either. He didn't come home for three days. He came home just last night, but he left immediately this morning before I woke up.I don't even know where he slept. Because he didn't sleep next to me in our room.It hurts&h