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QUINN’S POVMy heart stopped for a second. Did he really just ask me that? Heat rushed through my body so fast I thought I might pass out. The way he stood so damn close wasn’t helping either, his body heat, his scent, all of it messing with my head.“I asked you a question, Quinn…” His voice dipped low, almost teasing, almost dangerous. His eyes stayed locked on mine, unblinking, like he was daring me to look away.I swallowed. Holding his gaze felt impossible. It wasn’t just his ridiculously perfect face—it was him. His presence. The way he made me feel small and trapped, like I had nowhere to run even if I wanted to.“I… I don’t…” My voice barely came out.His hands found my waist. His fingers brushed over my skin, sending a shiver straight down my spine. And then he pulled me in one firm tug, just enough to make my chest press against his.Fuck. What was he doing?“Alpha Perrin…” His name barely made it past my lips, my voice weak, almost breathless. I knew there was no stopping h
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QUINN POV"I knew it!" Gianna said. If I didn’t know any better, I would think she actually cared about Alpha Perrin and wasn’t just thrilled that my secrets were finally getting exposed. "I knew from day one that she was up to no good, that she was evil and wicked. I tried to warn you, Alpha Perrin. I tried to warn everyone."Alpha Perrin clenched the little letter Gianna had given him, his grip tightening until the paper crumpled. His icy cold eyes slowly turned toward me.Shit. If looks could kill, I would be dead already.His expression was difficult to read, but that only made him more terrifying. He was going to kill me. He was probably already thinking of a hundred ways to do it."It’s not…" I stammered, struggling to find the right words. "It’s not what you think… I just—" I couldn’t finish. My heart was pounding so fast that all I could do was stutter."You stupid, lying bitch! Are you about to deny it again?" Gianna snapped, suddenly lunging at me. "You murderous, evil woma
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Perrin's.It came as a shock and it all happened too fast. It had been two days since Quinn had been abducted, two days of consistent searching and spying yet to no avail.I had my Beta, Gamma, and also one of my trusted allies amongst the pack show up in my study room. Gianna was the only one who knew I was going in search of Quinn, she speculated but I was so sure I didn't confirm her presumption; My Gamma was out of town and he just resumed then to my trusted ally, he knew me more than enough to do what I have done, it was obvious to him and I was a little shocked when he didn't mention or tried to question my authority.My mind was set up in chaos, stewing in rage as curiosity devoured my demeanor, leaving me battling with questions flooding my mind.I set back my head to the office chair I was sitting on while I anticipated the arrival of my knights I called upon. Different knots to be entangled yet left with no idea where to start, everything seemed fishy. I clenched my fist in
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QUINNI slowly opened my eyes only for my gaze to meet with an unfamiliar environment.I rubbed my eyes, confused. "Where is this place? What am I doing here?" I kept asking, still confused, but my vision was still so blurry that I couldn't even name the things around me yet."Hmm..." I growled, realizing that I couldn't move my body as well as I wanted to.After some seconds, I was finally feeling a bit better and sane, at least sane enough to know that I was in a cage in an unknown environment.The last few things that I could recall were going to the safe place in the pack house with an omega who was asked to watch over me.I'm certain something happened after that. I couldn't point a finger at anything in particular until my eyes fell on the back of someone outside the age I was in."Wait... You're that omega, right?" I asked, trying to see her face well, but I couldn't. I knew she was the one, and she must have had something to do with this.Logically, if we were both invaded, th
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~Chapter~Perrin's.It all happened like lightning, I thought I got it under control, I thought my assumption was correct until he showed up looking worried.The silent support I had turned against me. They all kept muted when I told them my assumption and now that Theodore showed up shattered and disoriented, I realized the silence has been impregnated with unsaid words.Theodore left in rage, turning the table against me and pinning me as the villian. He got the upper hand since she was his mate and I couldn't counter his opinion even though deep down,I know he had a lot of role and ploy to play in this game.His rage, his action, his words…they all displayed the authenticity he wanted the pack to see but to me it was nothing but another lawn in his game.My back facing the door while I dipped my hands in my sides pocket staring through the ceiling to floor window of my study into the space, my gaze affixed as changes in the climate took into action from broad to dusk. It has been s
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Perrin I was not just in search of Theodore, but I needed to find Quinn too. I ran my hand through my hair, thinking of where Quinn must have gone to.At this point, I needed to find a way to stop the killing and help my pack members."Hey!" I called the second my eyes fell on Theodore in the crowd, trying to escape the circle of conflict."Theodore!" I called again, and then he turned to me; his gaze was so passive that if it were any other day, I would have demanded an apology for his rudeness."They're leaving, if that's what you came to talk to me about. I don't know how you were able to make Quinn feel so attracted to you that even with the mate bond pulling us together, she ignores it!""She keeps on acting like she's not seeing me, and when we were little, we were so close that I would say that we were never apart from each other!" Theodore said, but none of what he said made sense. I wanted him to leave, or, in other words, I didn't want him around."Where's Quinn?" I asked.
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~Chapter ~Perrin's.I wasn't expecting Quinn to turn to them and asked for their help but this is something we would have to talk about.Their bloodlust was all over the air, the fangs gnawing against each other ready to devour anyone who comes their way.There glared affixed on me like a predator studying its prey.“This is not about a rival pack, this is not just a fight breaking down because they want the pack…..This is clearly more like an assassin and the only difference I could point out was they came through in a day and didn't seem to care about other beings.” I thought.I checked around to see if others were still where they are, this seems to look more like my fight as it was so obvious that their mission was to terminate me, the pack was just an additional bonus to their goals.They set aback almost in their four, leaning backward, their claws all set out while their bloodlust eyes scaled through me sending a shiver through my spine, a shiver that came with nostalgia. I co
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QUINNIn the days that followed, everything was a blur of repairs, funerals, and silence. The pack had suffered trials by bond-smithing and sheer treachery, and trust was the first victim. Worse, no one had any idea how the Bloodfangs could strike so accurately, at least officially. Perrin had not told them. He would not until he proved it. I saw it in the way he looked at me.He did not blame me; he knew it was because of my foolishness that Theodore had gotten so close.And I couldn't fault him for that.Because, if I were to delve deep, I would have wanted to believe in Theodore.I would have wanted to believe someone from my past could still be this same boy I had once trusted.But Theodore was never going to save me.He was after my claim.---The letter showed up late on the night of the fourth day.A single folded note left at the gates, sealed with wax and stamped with a familiar crest-a wolf wrapped in thorns.Quinn,You deserve better than a cage dressed up as a home.I ga
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PERRIN The stench of blood permeated the walls, long after the battlefield had gone silent.Even days later, it seemed to be seeping into everything - soil, stone, air. It brought back terrible memories of an earlier time, another night when I was too young and far too innocent.When I had believed in the word "alliance."When I had believed in mercy.---Seventeen was the age at which, one dark night, my parents were murdered.It was a violent attack, completely without reason- the rogues had come easy in the storm, covered from rain and wind; when the alarms were sounded from our warriors, the packhouse was already alight.I had already fought. I was too young to be Alpha but was old enough to know what bleeding for your people meant.I held my mother while the last of her life slipped away. The waning light in her eyes: the message came from my father, torn throat whispering:"Protect them."I did what I could: the youngest, the eldest, the too wounded to stand - huddled them toge
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QUINNShall I say they felt extraordinarily long? Indeed, they did.Waking every morning with a wish for peace inside, it was but a wish-I would never find it. Though Perrin lay beside me, holding me as if nothing else mattered, whispering false, insincere promises that I was safe now, worry would not leave my heart leaden and mind restless. I should be happy. I had Perrin. I had returned to the pack. Freedom.Deep inside, I felt that something was amiss. It kept gnawing away at me — all that had happened. About Theodore. About the lies. About the danger I didn’t see coming.And always, the voice in my head said:What if it happens again?That day, Perrin had gone out on pack business, and I sat alone on the wall-less bed, gazing into the empty expanse around me. Only the old, relentless ticking of the clock could be heard that day throughout the unusual quietness in the house. My heart felt tight in my chest.I couldn't take it anymore.It was answers I longed for. I needed help. I
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QUINN POVThe days that followed seemed quiet but heavy. The events left me unable to stop thinking about everything that had happened. Theodore’s duplicity, how he deceived me, and how Perrin finally found me. My heart felt like it was still catching up to all the pain and the shock.But Perrin stayed close. He never left me alone, not once. When I woke up, he was there. His hand was in mine when I walked.“Are you okay?” he asked me over and over.I would nod. I was trying to be okay. I had to be.The pack circled around us, stepping away. Everybody seemed to know something big had happened, but no one asked questions. They stared at me with soft eyes and sometimes sad smiles, but Perrin kept them all away. He knew I needed time.I sat outside the pack house on the steps one morning. The sun warmed my face, and Perrin was quiet, simply holding my hand.“I’m sorry,” I finally said after a long silence.He turned his head fast. “Why?”“For that day when I hugged him,” I whispered. “Fo
