WARNING they're having their weekend sex weekend The night had been stressful, one of the most stressful weeks of my life. Nolan and I had decided to just spend our getaway weekend on ourselves and not worry about anything in particular. On Monday we were going to ask Mel if she wanted too, and it was up to her.I mean how do you ask a 13 year old if she wants to testify against her abuser, the reason why her life was hell.The girls had come back raving about their fun night, and I had sent protective Nolan upstairs and Lola and Mel told me all about their young budding romance."Have fun", Melody, Alison and Leah said from the room and we said our goodbyes. Nolan's hand was in mine and I didn't realize how much we needed this time, alone. We went down to the front of the complex and the driver was waiting for us, he loaded our suitcases inside the trunk and Nolan escorted me inside the car."This is a surprise, meaning you can't look outside", he whispered seductively into my
I woke up feeling the Saturday set in to our beautiful weekend, the rays from the sun ran against my skin and the body hugging me from underneath made me snuggle back into him.He made me feel everything, when I was with him fireworks, fireflies, passion, light, everything. Nolan was my soulmate, someone I knew I could never leave.All the time I just wanted to be with him, he's my kryptonite, my person, my partner in life and my best friend, I couldn't ask for anything more prefect.He was someone I needed to be around, someone I enjoyed and someone I loved, and I was ready, I was ready for the rest of our lives together."I love you", I kissed his lips, knowing every single day I would be grateful for an entirety to him, he changed my life and brought me happiness. My doctor was on the way to go to her clinic, which meant that I would get the go-ahead that everything was okay in just a mere 20 minutes."I'm ready to be a mother of our child, I'm ready to have a little us runnin
The room was white, not a single stain on the bedsheets or the room entirely. The room made me feel trapped and my heart pounded as I looked around the room feeling the loneliness. My stomach ached and I felt numb, an uncertain numbness."How are you feeling, Mrs. Clemente", the doctor asked as Nolan followed and held my hand squashed into his."Mrs. Clemente", the doctor asked as I felt the shuttering coldness feeling rush through my body."Nat, baby, just say something", Nolan said and I could hear the sadness behind his voice. I was done feeling like I had it all together, I was done feeling like if I broke down the whole world would crumble."I just wanted to tell you that the fetus was 3 weeks, I'll give you some time to talk, I'll be back later", she said and closed her chart. As soon as the door shut I felt the world push onto me, pain from everywhere shot up and aimed at my heart. My wales of pain made Nolan freeze.3 weeks, 3 weeks was all it took to form something so ma
"Natalie", a soft voice said in the middle of the night. I turned around and found Nolan sitting up, and staring at me. His eyes told me the one thing I feared, he wanted to talk."You can't sleep?", I asked him and he nodded his head. I leaned against his shoulder, and interlocked his hand and mine."I've tried sleeping, I've tried talking to myself, but I just need you", he said and kissed my hand that was wrapped in his."Well in that case here I am", I climbed over him and smiled at his worried face. I leaned in kissing him passionately and his lips became limp and he pulled away from me."What?", I asked him as he looked to the side."You keep pushing this off, you act like nothing happened, like yesterday didn't happen, like we didn't los-lose our baby", he said grappling onto the fact that I didn't want to talk about it. He was to tears by now and I rushed over to help him and he pushed me away."I'm tired of you not talking, when you came back from whatever Daniel did yo
What was I doing? Ruining my marriage just when it had started. Happiness was something I didn't allow myself to have, but this time my walls were coming down and I would finally let him know why sometimes it's hard to sleep at night. Or why I can't talk to him about the things that bother me? Or why I have to act like everything is okay? I clicked the elevator button heading up to our floor, and finally I would tell him.He stood at the elevator door, surprised to see me again."I want to talk, I want to let you in", I began saying as he sat on the couch and motioned for me to sit next to him."Then what's stopping you?", he asked and I looked up at those earnest eyes."It's just that, I've never had someone that wants to know about me, wants to know about how I'm doing, and I know we've been together for what feels like a while, but it's still so hard for me", I told him and he seemed to not understand."I want to know why, I want me to be that person who you can talk to about
"You, little one get me a coffee", she barked as I raced to grab her a coffee, it was my first day and I was being treated like an assistant, I didn't mind it. Paris Grant was an icon in the column and journalist world, yes she was in charge of the girly columns, but she wrote a beautiful piece overlooking the world that inspired me to even start on this career path and after school, I was done with waiting.I handed her the steaming cup and she drank a sip and spit it out over the meeting's manuscripts."Penelo-", she began saying and looked at my earnest face and a feeling of shock came over her."You're not Penelope, my assistant", she asked and I shook my head, not knowing how to form sentences let alone words."No, I'm not, but you looked like you needed a coffee and I didn't know which one to get you", I tried explaining and she picked up the file that wasn't drenched in coffee."You're that writer, who made that piece on the differences of waves, it was in-depth, yet it re
"She just said yes, just like that", I retold our conversation in the car to Nolan as I laid on his chest, later that night."Well you said yes right away?", he said, which he was right about. The moment I got that phone call, I was ready to put him in jail."Yes but I had that emotional, crying session with you, but with Melody she didn't have that, she just said okay like it was nothing", I told him as he traced my bare stomach with his fingers."And guess who that sounds like?", he asked me, and I knew the answer to his sarcastic question."Very funny", I laughed at his impractical joke and he kissed my forehead."Well I'll call the lawyers tomorrow and let them know, then I'll check when his trial is", he said and I turned myself over and looked at his starry blue eyes."I am a very lucky girl", I said to him and he nodded his head and leaned into kiss me, passionately."Wait, wait I have to tell you something", I told him separating his lips from mine and he pulled me back
"Here wear this", I handed Mel a pale pink dress as she raced to put it on. The week had flown by and it was time for Avery's rehearsal of the rehearsal of the rehearsal- it was too long of a title to repeat correctly."Okay okay that's good", I said as she twirled in front of me as I raced to find Mel a pair of shoes in my closet."These?", I asked her holding up a pair of shoes as she shook her head.Here grab those and grab my makeup bag, and my phone", I said finishing up brushing her hair. She ran to go grab my list of items as I quickly touched up my hair and sprayed on hairspray trying to make my out of place hair stay."We're never late, I hate that we're late", we ran out the door as I slipped on my shoes and made my way to the garage, hoping that I had all aspects of my outfit together.I looked down to my dress and I cursed myself as Mel noticed my outfit's flaw.My black bra straps stood out along the open neckline."Fuck it, I'm just not going to wear a bra", I sai
3 years later I jumped out of my seat, rushing to turn in my 1,000 word essay written in the span of three hours. I slipped it on the professor's desk and held onto my pair of books, rushing out of the school's doors. People rushed and sprinted past me, as I looked down the street for my red ride. Like a proper man Dallas was, he was leaning against the car, reading. It was the last string of our junior classes before we went on a much needed and deserved spring break trip. Dallas and I had been looking forward to spring break, ever since we had planned it. Davina and I had planned a trip, with some of our other friends. Each couple was all going to head down to Greece for the remainder of the week. We both needed a break massively, especially some alone time with just the two of us would be good. I needed just time basking in his gaze and the suns. It sounded heavenly. Especially because Dallas and I were going to drive down to home for two days, right before the trip. I needed to
"Melody Clemente". My principal dearly said as I walked across the stage and shook his hand, I beamed at the person next to him and instead of the handshake that normally would have been given. He hugged me, Nolan had been something of a father figure the past few years. He loved my sister like she was the whole solar system, and he loved me too. He saw me as his own flesh and blood, he cared so much. "I'm so proud of you". He said, his eyes glistening as I opened my own eyes. He held his breath, as he kissed my cheek and I walked across the stage. I smiled as I walked down the stage and took a seat. The hundred roll call of students I had become frequented with passed by, my heart smiling as my friends passed by. The people I had learned to love, to cherish. As soon as it was over, I ran to my family. Each with hugs and bouquets of flowers, each and every single one of them had shown up. Avery had come as well as Caroline and Alison too, and Leah as well, and Vi and her had been t
One year Later Tomorrow was a big day. The end of a chapter and the beginning of a new one, filled with adventures, sadness, and joy. But most importantly that independent feeling of searching for yourself amongst the other millions let out to the world. And it was amusing, satisfying and uplifting to know I was able to take this journey on with my best friend. "Mel". Natalie knocked on the door, then opened it. And as she stared at me in the exceptional white dress I had picked, tears watered down her face. I was going to be let out on my own, no longer hers. But the world's in a way. "You look beautiful". She gushed, my cheeks blushing a maddening red. She wiped the tears from her cheeks as I turned to face the mirror, my own reflection beaming back at me. "Tomorrow's a big day, huh?" She said, her voice rising and soft from the tears. She understood it, the feeling of saying goodbye, letting go. "What if I'm not ready?" I asked her, my voice stumbling on the next words to come
She was smiling, the brightest I had ever seen her smile. As she was surrounded with people who loved her. She was happy, to have freedom, to not feel trapped on a hospital floor.It had been three weeks since we had arrived back, and Dallas and I had thrown her a party. A party for the masses, with her friends from the hospital visiting, even that small sweet boy who she wanted to watch a movie with. She was happy, and healthy and safe and she was responding amazingly to the medicine that she was on.It was weird to say she was okay now, I think even Dallas had no idea what to do with himself. He was completely immersing himself in his new project ever since he's gotten back. Keeping it under the wraps for me I assume, but the mysteries behind him will unveil soon, I'm sure.But I felt at peace, the kinks of our relationship fixed to the most we could try. He and I were like lightning every single day. The most amazing chemistry that lived beneath us.Vi was the
It has been five days, of waiting, of breathing each other's air in the small hospital room we were given. We spent the past five days talking. His mind apologizing for every single misstep he could've made. But the issues lied there, he needed help. He needed help more than anyone else here, signally defined by the fact that he wanted to believe that he didn't have anyone. That he was all alone.That he didn't have a system supporting him, a system looking out for him.I wanted to carry his weight, take on his pain, but he carried so much that it was already a part of him. I don't think he knew how to part with it when it was all over. And it saddened me more than anything. It saddened me that this was his life, filled with pain of all sorts. He was afraid to have a life without it I think."She'll be awake soon". I said, softly, stroking his hair to the side as he laid on my lap."She's supposed to be awake already". He said, sighing as we both stared at
He left the office with a stab in his heart, as I chased after him. He was angry, upset at every negative choice word I could think of to describe him and he hated me."Dallas. Please". I yelled out at as he turned to look at me. His eyes stone cold in anger towards me, my heart beating madly as he ravaged me with a single look, brushing into the very depths of my eyes."You don't get to follow me, you don't get to say my name. You are taking away the one person I've loved the most. The one person. I need her, and you-you don't get that". His tears strung high, his heart maddened like a lion roaring from the depths of his heart. He looked at me with hatred, something in all of these moments we shared he had never truly hated me, not like this, not like this moment."Just leave". He begged, my feet frozen in their very place. My mind lost into his eyes, the stare of hatred not of love. "Just leave". He begged again, his eyes ready to tear me apart, piece after p
The rush of the wind carried us home, well it tried to survive beneath us but the worry crept in as we loaded the plane. Vi stared longingly at the view before we stepped into the plane. Like she was saying goodbye to her heart as she left. Like her heart was being left here.Dallas had the same expression. He didn't know it, but it was written all over his face, the dread of returning. The dread of resurfacing the reality of our lives.He knew what this meant, this idea that everything was about to be gone, the memories, the truth. I think the reality of this hurt Dallas the most."Leaving is the worst part". Dallas said, his arm wrapping around Vi as she looked up at him. She smiled softly, aware of the situation she was in, aware of the world she was in. Aware of the ending to her story."I'm not getting better". She heaved out, her voice breaking, her heart melting. And I finally saw that she was holding all this in, because she didn't believe it would get th
It's a gawdy feeling. A gawdy feeling as my chest tightened staring out of the home's balcony. We were leaving today. Leaving our escape to a reality filled with nothing close to normalcy and I didn't and wouldn't be able to accept the fact that everyone was waiting for Vi to just give up. She didn't have it in her, she had the fight in her and it was apparent, apparently loud."Thinking of something?" A hand snaked around my waist, as I felt his head rest on my shoulder. I didn't know how his head was straight properly, I didn't know how he wasn't a mess, but whatever was working I hoped it continued for him."Just how- beautiful it is". Lie. An apparent lie. I wasn't a fan of forests. The empty nothing, empty nobody. They were amusing, but not what's in them. That's nothing but amusing."It is beautiful". He agreed. His small form of agreement won me over a million reasons why I should pry through his mind."I gave Vi her breathing treatment, but she's r
My stomach stormed aloud, my heart too as I looked down at Dallas from my bedroom window, there he stood with a bag of food and my work for the week. I had enjoyed the company of my personal mail boy more than I should've. I slid down my ladder out of the window as he smiled."I missed you". He said, pushing his hands around me as I looked over at him and he smiled, he moved his head to the side as I pulled myself against him. My lips locked with his as I breathed in his husky scent, the way the words rolled off his tongue."I missed you too." I said, kicking off the other bag he had brought. He moved it to the side as I heard the thud of my favorite thing, of my absolute favorite thing. He saw my curious look as he opened the bag wider and he moved the bag to the side and I saw books more and more books as I toppled over him, hugging him with everything I had in me."Thank you for keeping me from losing my mind". I said, watching as he looked at me with a proud smile